Author: RSilva

Session 30/09/2016

When I’ve started writing this blog days ago, it has been many months since I had a “good” session. By good I mean getting something more than the background pleasure.

I had a good session yesterday.

Like most of my sessions, when I have them during the week, it happened after dinner, because before I was at work. This brings a problem – I’m tired. Most of the sessions I try at night end up with me falling asleep, and today the same happened but not before I got good things.

On the problem of being always tired and why I think in the last years things have regressed/stalled I will explain a next post, let’s go now to yesterday’s session.

In the last weeks when I attempted sessions I’ve been using Maximus. After pre-lubing inside (which I only rarely do) with Johnson’s baby oil, I used vaseline and a coat of a slippery silicon lube named Millennium, I inserted Maximus.
I watched just a little bit of porn in the form of other guys using aneros, just some minutes. The guy was using Progasm and I was like, why not use Progasm Ice again? In my last tries with it it didn’t gave me anything, which is “normal” for me, so after a while I switched to Progasm Ice, lubing the same way.

I fought a bit against my sleepiness but I was able to keep awake. Read more »

First Results (2012-2013)

Like I said in the previous post my first model was Progasm Ice. I knew it was for advanced used, but that’s exactly because I wanted something that would last, so that after a rough beginning in the end I would have a tool to going on and on.
I bought it from Aneros directly because at the time I didn’t find any store in Portugal that sold it. Of couse it had to get stuck in the customs so I had to go there and try to be as discrete as possible. I had to finally tell them is was a dildo, being as silent as I could to prevent anyone else in the room to hear.

So finally I brought it home. I was living in an apartment with other students in Lisbon, where I was in a University.
My first session I explained in the last post but I’ll repeat it here.

The lube I used at that time was Johnson’s baby oil. It’s very thin but at that time I found it ok.
My first reaction when I inserted Progasm Ice was how confortable it was. The dildos I tried forced the sphincter to stay strechted as their thickness didn’t decrease towards the end.
So I was surprised how small it actually was (yes, I used bigger dildos) and had no problema inserting. I inserted it, noticed how confortable it was and that was it. Read more »

The Search for Something Meaningful

In February 2017 I will be seeking for Something for 5 years, beginning in 2012. I still didn’t achieve meaningful satisfaction from Aneros, but first let’s explain my journey and after all I need to introduce myself.

I’m currently 29 years old. In some ways I think I’m special – for good and unfortunately for bad the most.

Unlike the vast majority of men I never felt any sexual or emotional attraction to anyone, male or female. In a very small amount I feel some men porn and/or fantasies as exciting. I say a very small amount because in no way I experience any meaningful sexual attraction.
I am sexually insecure. I never got an erection for being excited. My erections don’t last long without stimulation. I have premature ejaculation as with stimulation it only takes seconds to reach the orgasm.
With all this I feel inferior, I feel I am not who I’m supposed to be. I feel I’m not a “man”. This pains be deeply and is a profound pain that I have that goes on and I don’t see its end.

Despite my sexual unperformance, I felt like trying and having sex with men, to see what could come from that.
The answer was the same emotionless sexual response I have. I’ve been with some men (you can say like 10 times in 10 years, so see how rare that is), not many, and I’ve been confortable with most of them. In all cases I felt no attraction whatsoever for the other man, sexuallly or emotionally. It’s very frustrating when you’re trying something and you get nothing in return. Read more »