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A brief report on several weeks of exploration.

I’ve learned that many factors affect my access to pleasure. Lack of sleep, diet, relationships, problems at work can all be obstacles. I find that they aren’t insurmountable, but they make the process more exacting.

My Helios finally arrived, and its arrival coincided with a period of difficulties in the various areas I’ve enumerated. For a couple of weeks I experimented with it, but the results were not much more than gently pleasurable. I even went back briefly to the Classic to see if maybe the problem wasn’t that the Helios didn’t suit me as well as it does most men. But apparently it was the confluence of factors, not the Helix itself, since the Classic didn’t do for me what it had done before, either.

Then one afternoon things changed. For whatever reason, when I first inserted the Helios, I immediately achieved that stillness that seemed to be for me the precondition of a good experience. In short order I began to have waves of pleasure and minor convulsions, and I enjoyed myself tremendously. The waves repeated for over an hour, with varying degrees of shuddering. I lay first on one side and then on the other.

Then I moved to a prone position, with a pillow under the small of my back. After several minutes I felt this seemed to reduce the waves of pleasure, so I started to explore other sensations.

Updating

Just to bring you up to date. I’m not ready yet to declare what I make of all this or what my theories are of how to provoke what I’ve experienced, so I’m just going to lay out what’s been happening.

I did order the Helix, and found a good price ($45) on Amazon.com. The problem is that it took a week for the seller to ship it, and after almost another week, it’s still not here. If you have patience and price is a big factor, a reseller may be a good choice, but if your need is urgent, maybe you should order directly from the manufacturer.

I lost a few days after my last post because of some personal difficulties that took away any incentive for pursuing pleasure for a while. But after a few days, things returned to normal and I resumed my interest in the Aneros.

My next couple of tries with the device were kind of disappointing. I could get the involuntaries and some P-waves, but they easily faded. It was fun trying, but I didn’t pick up where I left off.

Where I'm coming from

10/24/2009 3:20:35 PM

Ten years ago I bought an Aneros. At the time, I believe they had only one model, what’s now called the “Classic.” I read the directions and experimented with it over a period of weeks, but I had no success. It was trouble to fool with, since you had preparation and clean-up time involved, and that had always steered me away from any kind of anal play, so I eventually left it in the nightstand drawer. Every couple of years I’d pull it out and try it again, but I never made any progross toward the special sexual thrills it was supposed to convey.

In the past year, however, I’ve begun to enjoy anal play more and more. I’ve gotten over some of my aversion to it on hygienic grounds, and I’ve begun to add light touching or insertion of fingers to my masturbation routine fairly often. Then something I read somewhere made me think that prostate massage just might be beneficial for my erratic PSA scores. No looming health crisis, thankfully, but a urologist who worries about me (bless his heart). And I remembered the massage therapist who once told me I carried a lot of tension around my anus. So I thought again of the long-disused Aneros, and I fished it out and went to the web to read about it again, since I’d long ago lost the directions.