Author: vandelay

Slow and Steady

It's seems to be far and few between blog entries. Things have continued better than I could hope the last few months. Every few weeks something different and usually better develops from my continued Aneros use.

The whole process for me feels more and more like it's in my head )which it is primarily(. The most tangible pleasure comes from the prostate area, but I'm grown more in tune with how my mind drives the whole cascade. There have been a few times during sessions that I'd observe to myself that this is really in my mind and a surge of pleasure filling my consciousness would overtake me for a few seconds.

Along with the idea of this whole experience being in my mind, I'll actively worked to let go even more during my sessions. This was where another step forward happened this evening. My best results have happened when I've worked to inhibit my physical reactions and contractions to the changes in pleasure and sensation. At times in the past I would "get greedy" and bear down trying to get even more from the current pleasure. It just seemed natural. I've clued into a mindset where I respond as if the Aneros is acting on me and reveling in whatever sensations occur however small or great. Usually they end up greater if I continue this way. Read more »

Thought I Was Here Before

A had a revelation yesterday. What I thought I was experiencing wasn't quite as it seemed. I had had many super O's over the past few months, but now it seems that they weren't originating where I thought. The ones where I used my nipples to orgasm certainly were centered in the prostate, but the ones where I relied solely on the Aneros weren't. I now think that they were anal orgasms rather than solely produced from the prostate. I believe this because I finally reached a level that I thought was already experiencing.

The anal orgasms never felt quite the same as the nipple induced orgasms. They weren't as intense, but they could last longer and were more steady. A session on Friday gave me a hint as to this other level of sensation from the prostate. I started out with a Peridise then had a decent session switching to the Helix. For some reason I thought I'd try the Progasm afterwards despite it being uncomfortable 3/4 of the time. This time I discovered one way that I could avoid the discomfort. When I made sure my anus was relaxed the Progasm got more comfortable and there was more sensation from the prostate than I usually get from the Helix. Read more »

Fueling for the race

As I've probably mentioned I often use the Peridise for a little while )15-30 minutes( before switching to the Helix in most sessions. Friday evening wasn't any different. I did have one thing planned to try this time. Previously, I had had one of my longest super-O's in a Helix session where I'd stimulated my nipples quite a bit in the Peridise session before, but not at all with the Helix. That's what I planned on this time.

The nipple stimulation almost always brings me to an orgasmic state in short order if the Peridise, Helix, etc. is inserted. I was hoping that something about doing the nipple stimulation with the Peridise would carry over to the Helix. Things went as I had hoped.

I don't know if I did the nipple stimulation all that long. I still had the Peridise in for several minutes before starting in on the nipples. I switched over to the Helix, got myself situated and waiting in hopeful anticipation.

I don't think "waiting" or "doing nothing" is really what is going on even though outwardly it would look like that. I find myself actively keeping certain muscles in my pelvic area from getting tense. It's easier than it used to be, but there's focus needed to maintain this. There's a nearly automatic reaction at times for these muscles to tense up when a wave of pleasure hits, but it really prolongs the pleasure to keep those muscles from clenching. Read more »

In a Haze

It's been a while since I've blogged. I actually wrote a blog a week or two ago, but my Internet connection cut out and I lost the draft. I just didn't feel like rewriting it.

There haven't been any real big developments lately. Once in a while I still have a super-O or two, but sessions can be fine for me without them. I'm trying to dig deeper into different aspects of the experience. Specifically I'm trying to see if there's more to this haze I feel in my head when I have any type of Aneros inside or partially inside me. I can have a Peridise halfway in and already feel something starting in my head. The prostate isn't even being touched at this point.

It's a little like I have a head cold where my ears and equilibrium are affected. I'm not dizzy, but it sort of feels similar. I've tried getting lost in the sensation, but I don't seem to get too far. I can sort of separate myself from what is going on at the prostate, etc. The p-waves may come on their own or not, but I'm less actively part of the equation.

The biggest success I've had is using my mental focus when I'm beginning or in the middle of an orgasm. Focusing on the pleasure has really amplified it on a few occasions. Yesterday evening was probably the most intense sensation I've had during a super-O. Normally the duration of the pleasure is what makes a super-O so intense. Last night was probably the closest to having the sensation of a traditional orgasm during a super-O. Read more »

Broke the Ceiling

I hadn't entirely given up on seeing where I could go without nipple stimulation, but it wasn't really on my mind this afternoon as I started a second session. The first was heavy on nipple stimulation and was very good as a result. I can't remember much else from it as it seems to have been mostly eclipsed in my mind by the session this entry is about. I do know that I got my penis involved which isn't the norm for me.

I started off this session relaxed with my legs slightly spread and bent with a cover over me and my butt resting on a pillow to get a slight elevation for handle clearance; a pretty typical setup. There was already the vague sense of pleasure I get from having one of the Aneroses inside. I felt something slightly extra, though, as I lay there relaxed. It was a more tangible pleasure from the Helix against my prostate. Maybe it helped that I had already had a session. Maybe things were still sensitive from that. Not sure.

I soon found that just focusing on this pleasure caused it to grow. I couldn't perceive any physical action from PC muscles. I wasn't trying to initiate anything. The pleasure was just happening by my thoughts. It grew and grew and grew until I was in the throes of what I had hoped to experience: a hands free Super O without even using my nipples. I was on cloud 9 and stayed there for close to an hour. Read more »

Trying to Lose Control

I had already started trying to use less nipple stimulation in my session and wanted to discover a new aspect to Aneros pleasure. I don't know to what extent different men use their nipples in conjunction with the Aneros. I may be on one end of the spectrum in how I have tended to rely on my nipples to build up and sustain a Super O. I sometimes sneak a quick nipple rub in at work or while driving to feel a little pleasure on the side. It doesn't take very long and it has grown in intensity from where I started.

I've held off longer or not even used my nipples at all a few times in the last few sessions. I can't say my dry O's are as strong or that I've reached an all out Super O, but it's definitely a different experience. The first time I reached a hands and nipples free dry O a few days ago I was left alternating between moaning and laughing. I was having sustained muscle movements from the Aneros for the first time and it was driving the orgasm. I actually had the Peridise in for this session and it turns out that I was laying on my side which is not common for me. I'm usually on my back. Read more »

Letting Go

This morning I didn't have the luxury of time like I have had during previous weekends. I had to be on the road to visit my parents by late morning. Still, it was a fantastic session. I have been trying out the unrefined shea butter the last two days. So far the results are good. I'll have to see about leaving the Peridise in all night with it now. I unintentionally left it in overnight earlier in the week with no trouble, but I'd rather not take a chance with the water base lube.

I started off this morning with the Peridise as usual and held off touching my nipples for longer. I'd like to see what I can achieve with less nipple involvement. I'll have to see how things progress in the future. Things still felt pretty good in the limited time I had. I had a mini-O or two before getting the nipples involved.

I've found that I can't easily get into a more meditative state anymore. Things too easily progress to a more powerful state and there seems to be no need at this point. I'll keep it in the back of my head if I run into trouble in the future, but I sort of miss the more relaxing times I've had. I don't miss it nearly enough to trump the super-O's, though. Read more »

Saturated

Things keep getting better. I had held off a day on using the Helix because of a little soreness. I was rewarded for my patience today. I got warmed up with the larger Peridise as I've been accustomed to lately. It was a little longer warmup than usual. I didn't have any dry O's; I just closed my eyes and felt a humming in my head as I occasionally added a little PC or anal movement at times. The humming had started almost as soon as I did. This lasted for half an hour or so.

After a while I needed a break to have a BM. I wanted to wait until I got that out of the way and cleaned up to switch to the Helix. I took my time in getting back to the session even then.

Once inside, the Helix had an immediate effect. I didn't have contractions or anything, but I felt a general wave of pleasure rise through my body as I got situated in bed. It was a good sign.

I've been keeping a T-shirt on during sessions so that I don't chafe my nipples and it has a side effect of limiting the amount of sensation my fingers can give my nipples. I think this is a good thing as it slows the progression a little and lets things happen more on their own. Read more »

Dark Side of the Moon

No, I'm not trying to speak euphemistically with the title of this entry. I *really* am talking about the Pink Floyd album from 1973. It's one of my favorites and I currently have it in the alarm clock/cd player by my bed. I play the first few minutes as an initial alarm setting then have the beeper turn on 15 or 20 minutes into it to give me a chance at a gradual wakeup.

I tried one time to play music on this alarm clock during a session, but something unexpected was an obstacle for me. It wasn't that the music or words themselves were a distraction. It was the lack of words or music at times. Here's what I mean: I started to lapse consciously because of the effect from pleasure on my mind. I started hearing gaps in the words and music that I knew so well )I'm still talking about Dark Side of the Moon btw(. I'm used to the music fitting like an old glove and knowing what to expect at each turn. Now my focus was being pulled toward this deviations from the norm. I just decided to turn off the music to stay focused on the session.

The last couple mornings have been new experiences for me. I actually woke up before my alarm yesterday with a "morning wood" and had a nice mini O / dry O. It only seemed natural. Today I set my alarm a little later because it was a Saturday and still didn't get up until the alarm went off. "Get up" isn't really accurate though. I spent most of the morning in bed "exploring". Read more »

Mental trampolines and smoke rings in my mind

)Warning: the first part of this is sort of dry. The last three paragraphs are the ones things get deeper and more interesting.(

I've had two sessions since I got my first additions to my Aneros collection. I've used both in the same pattern as it turns out. I got the two set of Peridise and have used the larger one to begin and end each session. I've used the Helix in the middle. The results have been astounding.

I think the Peridise works well for me in warming things up without going over the top, then returning to it when it's real easier for me to get pleasure from more subtle stimulation.

The Helix feels a little different than my MGX. There's pressure in slightly different spots. I can't tell if anything is particularly different when I'm in the heat dry O's and super O's. It's certainly not keeping me from enjoying myself that's for sure.

Anyway, I was pleasantly surprised from the start at the subtle feeling of pleasure when putting the Peridise in. I move things around inside for a while, but don't quite make it to dry O's during the initial use. Read more »