My Male – Male Fantasy

The last ten years of sexual self discovery for me has been the most amazing and freeing period of my life. I attribute my wondrous erotic enjoyment of the last ten years to two things.

First is my rewiring, accomplished by ten years of Aneros use. My rewiring awakened the orgasmic power of my anus and prostate; it made me a sensual man who appreciates the erotically arousing attraction of men and women and it opened my eyes and mind to expressing my erotic thoughts.

The second thing that has opened the doors to sexual pleasure for me over the last ten years is the internet. It has provided the safety and security for me to anonymously express my erotic thoughts and it has opened the door for me to meet other guys who feel the same about their sexuality without risking exposing my lurid interests to anyone I know. Indeed just the fact that I can make this post and admit some of the things I have is itself a testimony of the power of the internet in my life.

smart cock

I have been making breakthroughs and having some very pleasurable orgasms. Not sure what type of O to label them but they are like nothing I have felt before so I think i am heading in the right direction. I have been using a technique i have described before of lightly touching the tip of my cock and nipple stim at the same time. Up until recently I have had my first dry O's with this method. I think my cock has figured this out and is not fooled any more. The last two times once a-less and once with the Helix i have come out of my orgasm and noticed a puddle of cum. I am pretty sure i am having prostate orgasms because they are like nothing i have experienced before, last longer, anal contractions during and continue after. I just think my dick caught on to the stimulation and is triggering the ejaculation. It is not a typical shooting ejaculation, in fact i dont even realize it happened until after it is over and there is a puddle at the end of my cock. I was not even hard like a normal ejaculation. Now that I have made progress and can reach the promised land i am going to try the no touch the cock regime. If it does not work i can always go back just need to make sure I have a towel handy.

She'll be coming 'round the corner when she coms…

Another near successful evening.

Felt new sensations with a tightness developing and extending through my front pelvic area and into my cock. Could practically feel the mimicking prostate thrusting pressure at the tip. More precum than normal and several little Os.

I think i found my sweet spot and its incredibly important to do so! I need it extended slightly so i am considering mod'ing it for. 1/8-1/4 inch ptab. Maybe i try tomorrow – have several free quiet hours so less thinking on time.

No release either- so two sessions of excitement and I am still full of nervous energy.

Cant wait to enjoy the ride tomorrow.

New success!

Bought a Progasm (that thing is big!) and a Hugo Lelo yesterday- was excited to try them. The Hugo like all vibrating toys starts nice and then turns to numbness and a distraction. Just not convinced on vibrations. So went to the progasm and finished a super-t. The progasm doesnt move so also not convinced.

Had a short window today and as usual resigned myself to enjoying some pwaves and non-expectant fun. Well, that was nearly a mistake! Closest to a super-o ever and now i really know what a mini-O or two feels like.

I've switched up the p-tab placement to pull it much higher towards the balls- seems to find that ridge nicely and certain level of PC muscle contractions allows the feeling to move "through" to the penis and head. I've been able to find this spot consistently for the several sessions so believe there is excellent progress now! Also can bring back the sessions very quickly now- 15-20 minutes.

Feeling enthusiastic now!

The Glow

Helps to have the day off, so I planned to chase my ride from 2 days ago. It was a "reclaim consistency" day, and I was ready to blow my load. After hitting the gym at noon, I unsuited and plugged in the Pro Jr.

Having the better lube definitely helps )Swiss Navy water base(, and I was well on my way to anal heaven within minutes. Normally, I don't watch videos during a ride, but I had come across this bearded guy milking his prostate with an njoy Pure Wand. He really got into it, leaking major precum and milky prostate fluid. I love that idea, the cock like a tap in a maple tree making a slow leak.

desire and new technique

Holidays are over, kids back to collage today, finally a opportunity to be totally alone. Until now my desire has been to insert the aneros and wait or try to make something happen. Since i have had no alone time for a while I have been practicing a less techniques in bed at night and early in the morning. i have become much more in tune with this practice and could not wait for the opportunity to have a session. For the first time my desire was not to have a session and make something happen, i had a strong desire to just have the Aneros inside of me. It had been so long I was mentally and physically craving for it. This went on for about a week until today when I finally got the opportunity. Thanks to a blog from Lingaman I have been practicing a technique he describes in his last blog. (Thank You again) I practiced the technique a less while I was waiting for my opportunity to be alone. Today it Happened! The desire was there, the arousal was there and I just wanted to get the Aneros inside of me and enjoy, and boy did i! Did not try to make anything happen just let the Aneros fill me up and do its job. I started in the usual position on my side one leg up per protocal and the pleasant pulsing started. This has been the norm for me at the beginning of my sessions so i just laid there and let it go. The feelings subsided after about twenty minutes like always for me. This is when I usually try and make something happen and spend the next hour or so overthinking the whole process. Today I rolled on to my back and decided to go with ligamans technique I have been practicing a less for the last week. I took a small piece of coconut oil and placed it on the underside of my cock just below the tip and rubbed ever so lightly in small circles, I also did the same thing to one of my nipples and rubbed both at the same time in rhytham very lightly with a thin film of slippery coconut oil. It took a few minutes and then i could feel something building in my prostate and cock. I had several involuntary prostate pulses and then my cock started to warm up and it felt like i was going to cum. I continued the circles even though I thought i might ejaculate. To my supprise i did not ejaculate and had a nice but not powerful dry o. First time for me! I started again same results a slow build up felt like i was going to cum and a nice dry o again. Not as intense as a regular orgasam but similar in that my prostate and cock pulsed several times and no ejaculation. There was a good amount of precum the second time and my cock was about half hard now. I rested a few minutes and started again I was able to use the pre cum and the coconut oil to create a slippery surface and started the small circles and the nipple circles, after a couple of minutes the wave built again and felt like it was going to be stronger this time. I thought for sure i was going to ejaculate but did not care i wanted to see what was over this edge and it had been about a hour and a half since i started. My prostate and cock pumped away and this time i had two strong anal contractions that startled me. This ended the orgasam and no ejaculation, just more pre cum. I was about three quarters hard at this point and very supprised. I decided to end my session because i have been having a minor hemroid problem recently and i was afraid i would aggrevate the situation. Looking back I wish i would have tried one more time. Getting back to the begining of my post i can finally channel my desire into the Aneros and let it do its job with just a little stimulation to set things off. Can not wait to try again. Thanks again to Lingamans creative writing and helpful tips.

back in action

As expected the holidays meant a full house and little time or privacy for a session. I also learned that alcohol is a deal buster. The one or two times I was able to try a session was after a night of partying, not excessive but enough. Sessions usually started out good but quickly faded and often I fell asleep. In fact i made myself sore after falling asleep with the helix in and removing it about 4 hours later. I had to give it a rest for a week. Had the chance to be alone and sober the other afternoon and lubed up and relaxed for a session. Still no big O for me but learning along the way.The first 30 min. are the most pleasurable for me at this point. I am now experiencing multiple pulsating sensations in my prostate as my body adjust to the Aneros being in. After about thirty min. it subsides and not much else happens. I then try different positions and some contractions to try and get something going. Last time around I tried just relaxing not thinking about the Aneros at all and gently rubbed my nipples they got erect and it felt pretty good. I then noticed my prostate woke up again and started the faint pulsing I usually get in the beginning of a session. My heartrate was increasing and it felt like some pleasure was about to happen and then it faded away. I had been at it for about one and a half hours and decided to stop because I had to be somewhere soon, but I am encouraged for the next session. Hopefully I will have a more exciting and interesting post the next time around.

Progress -Trying new things with my sessions

Ive had several sessions since my last post- a few were noteworthy for one reason or another.
On one occasion the anticipation of having the house to myself was such a delicious feeling. I began having aless in the car on the way home just thinking about the session I was going to have. When I had finally prepped I remember really savouring the insertion of the progasm- my ass was SO HUNGRY for it and at about halfway it just sort of gulped and pulled it in tight and involuntarily clenched down on it. It was all I could do to try to relax and breathe.
Another session I used the HypnoAneros tracks for the first time instead of watching porn and found it to be a real turn on.
All of my sessions now culminate in heavy leaking without erection, many p waves and deep aching deliciousness and euphoric surges often with a wonderful warmth in my heart region. Many times I will let the progasm do its thing while I concentrate on breathing deeply-and then at some point manually stimulate my perenium to climax.
I always enjoy aless for a day or so after my sessions now too.
Am seriously considering adding some variation with a new model -perhaps a Eupho or Helix Syn . Will be trying shea butter as a new lube instead of the KY and other things I have tried. Coconut oil has been good to me too -but I have cleaned out my wifes supply in a short time..

Yet another Corner Turned

After a while it begins to get redundant when I write these entries expounding that this session was the best or I discovered a new technique that pushed me even higher. But the truth is, that is what this journey is about reaching new heights each time. Each session I do does teach me some new technique as I get to feel the wondrous new pleasure that results. And yes every session does allow me to open a door to a new level of ecstasy that I never experienced before.

So that being said here I go again. It is necessary to keep in mind that there are certain triggers that are necessary for me to have a pleasurable A Less or A session. Typically they need to occur between 2-6 AM. They are usually best if I have had an emptying ejaculation within the last 12 hours. For me that image of thick semen spewing in rolling spurts from my cock slit is often stuck in my mind as an erotic image that will help to launch me. Also for me pressure on the underside of my cock head is also a trigger. Until now that pressure has been from pressing my cock head into my wife’s derriere or even better against the heat of her anus if I am erect to my full length and sufficiently hard, which is typically the case in the early morning hours.

Still on the Journey

Hey everyone,
I'm still on the Journey and only a few minor things to report.

Firstly, I have sessions nearly everyday but the weekends are a family bust- which makes the Monday or Tuesday a little special.

Secondly, I continue to not obtain the erection and the mental excitement is less fantasy and more direct visual (eg searching for the right porn) which is a distraction but fun too since I can tie p-waves directly with the right visual.

Thirdly, have had several HFWOs – running probably 10% but seem to be more frequent- about 1/2 of those generate an actual moan of pleasure and the distinct feeling of ejaculation from my penis tip is amazing- and a mix of amazing pleasure and disappointment that its wet (but hey! Still HF). I try to limit my hip thrusting which brings on the HFWO along with nip stim, and move internally.

Most importantly, there is progress as the buildup of sensations is within a few minutes vs the previous normal of about 40.

I really look forward to my sessions and try not to super-T but once or twice a week.

Happy hunting!