Yesterday was a very intense day. My first dry orgasm for ages, a state of ecstacy during the day and almost a full Kundalini experience out of nowhere.
Then it went quiet. I felt very stressed as if all my progress over the last week was for nothing. My children were misbehaving, one developed a fever. I tried for another orgasm last night but couldn't relax into it. My wife was very stressed and I could feel it and that didn't help, disappointment set in again.
I couldn't sleep and now I'm tired at the start of a 60 hour work week.
Yesterday I was flying and progressing, now I'm grounded but not in a spiritual sense. Time to relax and see what happens it's probably all for a purpose.
Lurid Fantasy
There are certain things that just go together, things like milk and cookies, beer and pretzels, baseball and peanuts and movies and popcorn to name a few. But beyond food there are also experiences that seem to be elegantly matched to certain mood setting actions. The combination of the enhancement and the action makes the experience profoundly pleasurable and at times very moving. Examples might be sitting by the warm crackling glow of a campfire in the black of night, or enjoying the flickering golden hued intimacy of candles surrounding a hot tub. For me it would definitely be candles making dancing sinuous shadows as I lie between J’s thighs savoring the sensual eroticism of her hot pussy sucking on my cockhead. Or it could be soft music and scented candles in a dimly lit room creating a relaxed sense of sensual privacy while my oiled hands explore her body and stroke her intimate places as I give her a massage. This marriage of mood and experience is perhaps one of the most magical aspects of our human psychology and experience of pleasure.
For me MMO and fantasy are one of those pairs that are just made to go together.
I'm on the edge. The slightest movement can push me over.
Its officially been 15 days since my last wet orgasm. Whoo Hoo! But is been hard getting here. VERY HARD! How hard you may ask. Well let me tell you.
Since I have mastered the skill of edging I have not been able to steer away from putting my dick and balls through pleasurable pain of getting close to a beautiful wet orgasm and then knocked it back down to my already filled to capacity genitals. I mean I get some kind of sick pleasure out of seeing me at my peakiest point of erectness and then just slowing watching it deflate back down to its semi erect state. I love the feeling. I do. I have the record edging time of two and a half hours. I won't give my self the pleasure of cumming and I love. Now while I am edging i do have dry a-less orgasm. My prostate never wants to miss out on the fun neither so my ass hole will just pucker and kegel all on its own.
It happened at last!
Last night I had my first proper dry orgasm for over a week! Emotionally it was the most satisfying I have ever had and I felt euphoric I couldn't do anything but lie and think 'wow' when it finally settled down. I just lay there the whole time thinking 'thank you, thank you' and enjoyed the wonderful sensations take hold of me again. Whether it was a super-O I don't care it was just beautiful whatever it was.
I'm not going to analyse any more. It happened again, at last, and I think I deserved it, and I appreciated it more than anything. Whether they will start happening regularly for me again now I don't know.
Yesterday I found out about the Kundalini Syndrome and realised that this is what I had after a super-O where I had purposely pushed the energies up my body and into my head. I was playing around really keen to try other things but had stumbled into something I was not prepared for. Ultimately it has led to me going through a big spiritual awakening and I know now that I put myself totally out of balance.
I have posted about this on the forum ad nauseam.
I know that I was very frightened of re-awakening Kundalini energies, and I know that for me this is dangerous. I know that this is a big part of why I was blocked.
Sweet, powerful Aless now after sessions
Hi guys,
This past Wednesday I began my third year with Aneros. The session didn't noteworthy but rather right afterward, I came away with sweet, powerful Aless which lasted the whole day! It felt real good!!!
Also this weekend I am spending much time getting my apartment ready for workmen to repair parts of my ceiling from water damage. I stayed home today to do the necessary preparation.
We had a cloudy, cool, and damp week until today when the sun finally come out. So early this morning I had a session which lasted about two hours with the follow order of models:
Eupho Syn, Helix Classic, Progasm Classic, Tempo, and Maximus.
All models in the lineup worked superbly well this morning. Recently I have gone back to Eupho Syn. I like its direct, yet gentle massage action during which I use the "do nothing" technique. It amazing how it works upon me in its way without me doing anything, but just lay back and enjoy! In the future I hope to vary between Eupho Syn and Eupho Classic in sessions. Both models of the Eupho are superb as openers in my sessions.
What more can I say about Helix Classic? Just looking at it makes me super horny! I like its direct action on my prostate.
Donate a Sex toy to Africa
I've marvelled at stories (and videos) of how sex toys make sex much more enjoyable; but unfortunately live in a place where they are taboo. And hard to come come by, Nairobi Kenya
Thought I'd reach out to any do-gooder out there who'd want to get me (us – I'll share duplicated toys, or those that won't tickle my fancy) sex toys.
Preferably (but not restricted to) new.
PS: I put up a simlar post in r/SexToys. I don't know how to link it here, so Im just going to re-post
Still so close
I had several very intense sessions yesterday. Each one seems to be getting closer. Yesterday evening I had some very intense feelings start out of the blue whilst at the computer and they became unbearably good lasting for ages. I actually felt as if it was really going to happen again, I felt the waves just starting to spread but still it just didn't set in and eventually I had to stop.
I'm wondering if having a break would be good, but my sexual tension is building, I' not allowing myself to masturbate, and each session gets better, so for now I am pushing on. There is still a very significant subconscious block working, maybe it is just expectation, or it could be something else. I know the answers will come to me if I am patient. If I am honest I am still very disappointed that's it's not happening, I have to let that go and enjoy the journey. Everything happens for a reason, maybe the moment I truly stop feeling disappointed and am grateful for what I have achieved then I will progress.
I am practicing meditation and bandhas. Using the Uddiyana Bandha can amplify sensations quite significantly so I am using it a lot. I'm working towards being able to do Maha Bandha. I didn't realise how stressed I was. Meditation and being aware of stress and using concious relaxation is starting to work, changing the habits of 40 years takes time.
Beginner Prefers Progasm to the Progasm Jr.
I purchased a Progasm Jr. a couple of weeks ago. I based that purchase off of comments on the forum and reviews of the products. After three sessions of nothing, I was disappointed but undaunted. It seemed as though the Jr. was providing very limited stimulation to my prostate. I had tried the passive relaxed method along with multiple positions and contractions, but hardly felt any sensations. I decided that because I am 6' 2" that perhaps I needed more length and girth (I'm slim, but the Jr. was so easy to insert and didn't seem to result in any particularly full feeling).
So I ordered the larger Progasm and was rewarded with much improved results. After a shower, I had no trouble inserting the Progasm. It provided a much fuller feeling and the urge to urinate that I had not experienced with the Jr.
I used the relaxed right side approach and after a period of breathing I moved to some contractions. It took awhile but after 30-45 minutes I was rewarded with some very pleasant sensations that intensified with additional relaxation and contraction cycles.
I did not experience an orgasm, but I had an excellent session with the promise of an orgasm on the horizon. And in any case, the sensations were some of the best I've felt in who knows how long.
I think I disagree with the concept that the Progasm is for experienced users. With the right lubrication it was easy for this beginner to insert and provided better feedback than the Jr.
I'd advise beginners not to shy away from the larger Progasm from fear of its size. Size may be just what the beginner needs. I'll probably give the Jr. another try after I have really mastered the Progasm. But for right now I am going to be concentrating as much of my time as possible on the Progasm.
A Night of Bliss
After dinner a few nights ago none of my friends were on line and J was upstairs in the studio working, it was very quiet. I sat at this keyboard motivated for erotic interaction. As is usually the case when that happens I decided to spend some time on erotic writing. So at 8 PM I began editing a strategic part of my novel. It is done but I find great joy in going back into it and tweaking the story. For me, the primary purpose of the novel is to stimulate my arousal and the rewrite effort does that big time. The chapter was describing an intimate interchange between a man and a 19 year old daughter of a good friend. The narrative really got me worked up.
Anyone who has read my blogs or knows me knows that I am attuned to giving pleasure. In my limited experience with guys I really love to do oral and frot, but with my lovely lady it is oral sex on her that is the epitome of my intimate interaction with her.
An awakening?
I woke up this morning and noticed that I was abdominal breathing whereas normally I have a very dysfunctional upper chest breathing pattern. I felt quite emotional as if it’s a sign that something is changing.
Everything is starting to make some sort of sense now. I think that I had a form of Kundalini experience when I had my super-super-O. It was no different to what many people have described experiencing on the forum, but for me it was more profound on an emotional level, and I wasn’t ready for it, or maybe it was given to me for a reason so that I would realise what I needed to do with my life and how I needed to change. It’s all very spiritual and I’m a very logical scientific person but somehow it just seems to make sense and I’m happy with that.
I am now reading all about Kundalini and learning about meditation. I always thought that meditation was simply about relaxing, and yoga was just about sitting in odd positions and relaxing. There is so much more to it and I wish I had learnt about this years ago. Someone put a link to this blog in the forum and it has opened my eyes totally and explained to me what it is all about. So I am now practicing breathing patterns, and trying to completely change my attitude to life, and already I am experiencing changes. I am starting from basics. I can see where I need to go with my life now.