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Fourth Session Busy busy – no fun

It's been hellishly busy for me this week with work. And coming home dead tired and lacking energy for any form of arousal is almost depressing…

However! I did decide to prep and just pop in my MGX and try to relax. Nothing really fancy to report though.

I put in my relaxation CD 2 and slide my toy home nice and sloooow. I ran a session for nearly an hour. From hard contractions to feather light flutters.

I think I may have found my current auto contraction spot? About half strength and if I can find the right spot my anus starts to flutter on it's own. It's currently requiring some concentration to keep the muscles just relaxed enough for it to happen, but it is a first. I was able to duplicate the feeling a few times during this session. The longest was about 30 seconds of auto contractions. I did not have any real "feel good" sensations this session, but with my exploring I did start to figure something else new about my body.

So two fold – First time auto's, brief, but note worthy in my experimenting.

and second. I got some much needed relaxation. I was not aroused at any point, and you know what? That's ok. I was not disappointed at all!!

This weekend I have some time off of work, maybe I can get a nice sessions in? =D

My Ride Gets Even Better

I haven't been able to ride my Aneros for at least two days now and this evening I was tired, but I needed a ride. I prepped by showering and douching as normal. Injected lube, and coating my Progasm. I began my session relaxing on my side.

Since I was tired I slowly drifted off to sleep with that wonder'ful' feeling in my anus. Probably at least 30 minutes went by and I was awakened by the Progasm being moved by my sphincter the Progasm was gently massaging my prostate. I slowly began to allow the rhythmic movements of the Progasm to touch and stimulate more and more of my P-spot. Waves began to flow. My experience to date has proved to not fight this movement and to just relax even more while concentrating on the sensations. The P-waves continued and then just as slowly as they built up they resided and I fell back to sleep.

Minutes went by again and memories of my youth began to flood my subconscious of the first time my High School buddy and me realized we were gay and we had to experience each other for the first time. The Progasm again awakened me as my whole body is moving in my bed with more intense P-waves. By now I feel a quiet giggle in my belly that I must let out. It feels good to giggle with the P-waves and a body that is controlled by my Progasm. Again my body slows its involuntary movements allowing me to rest blissfully again. Read more »

My Most Enjoyable Session So Far

Most Enjoyable Session So Far

Like many others I m seeing less progress than I had hoped for with my Aneros. Especially recently in the last 2 months I have become disheartened, feeling less than when I first started Anerising at the beginning of this year. Even though I tried to have 2-4 sessions a week, most of which were full overnight sessions.
A break of three weeks for holidays has seen me eager to rekindle my relationship with my Helix Syn. Sexual energy has been building up in my body this last week but due to a "crook" back I was unable to make use of this energy. My wife who would certainly disprove of my prostate massaging and milking decided to sleep in the spare bedroom so that I wouldn't disturb her sleep. Yesterday my back seemed to be back to normal so I was looking forward to a night of self pleasuring. In the morning, to prepare for this I trimmed my pubic hair very short and shaving my scrotum and perinium as I often do. I just hate pubes and love to be smooth! I did the same with my chest hair and razored around the edges to reduce the area of chest hair, yucky stuff. I the gain a lot of pleasure from the act of trimming and shaving and just love to feel smooth and hair free . I then decided to shave around the edges of my pubic patch to make it smaller. Anyway the area of unshaved became smaller and smaller until I thought "F" it and shaved it all off. Read more »

First time with my wife

Before I bought my Helix Syn, I made sure that I discussed it with my wife. I have some BPH issues, and we had discussed prostate massage before. Plus, my wife likes to tease my anus during oral sex. I figured she'd be open to it, but it was still a little intimidating to ask. She was definitely up for the "challenge".

When the time came, I did the insertion of the Aneros. Although, I'm sure as time goes on, my wife will get involved in that as well. Even though I told her to try to focus on kissing, nipple play, etc, she kept going back to focusing on my penis. We were both incredibly turned on, and I just couldn't bring myself to ask her to stop.

So the Aneros session ended rather quickly. I left the Helix Syn inserted while we had sex. This was a new and unique experience, as the device pounded on my prostate in time with each thrust of my hips. When I came in a traditional orgasm, it was extremely intense, and lasted longer. My wife even commented that it seemed like a lot more cum than usual.

We agreed that next time we'll try to keep the hands off the cock a little longer. I think that's going to be easier said than done. I'll also try to get in some solo sessions where I can just concentrate on the internal feelings.

Butting In

As I continue on the Aneros path it seems I become more and more anally fixated. This week I finally ordered a Tantus Neo butt plug and it arrived today. Previously, many years ago I had a butt plug but it was a skinny, insipid little thing that tended to slip out whenever you bent down, coughed, yawned or even blinked.
What I have yearned for lately is a butt plug filled my cavity and stretched my sphincter so that I would know I was under its control and feel that I was being well drilled and stretched.
My Tantus Neo arrived today. Not bad delivery time from our state capital to my home. I could hardly wait to give it a test drive so this afternoon about 4pm I had the opportunity to lube up and give it a test drive. I must say at this point that I had also ordered some lube syringes. You cannot get the Aneros ones in Australia and these looked to be quite good. It took a bit of experimenting before I got the hang of filling them up but I soon worked out how to do this. There were no graduations on the syringe so I filled one and half filled the other. Taking the filled one I carefully inserted the nozzle in my rectum. Once it was filly inserted I press the plunger. I had only intended to inject about 1/3 of the lube but the plunger was really easy to press and before I knew anything, most of the lube was dispensed. Withdrawing it I then lubed up the Tantus Neo, giving it a generous coating of lube and then slowly pushed it in with a soft, rotating action. I expected to encounter more resistance as I hadn't even prepared myself with a finger or two. I put on a pair of panties under my underpants just in case there was unexpected leakage and then got dressed. Since then I have been walking around, had dinner and sat at my computer for about and hour. Now I am am just relaxing.
My thoughts at this stage?
I am not sure how I feel about it yet. Initially it felt good but not the cavity filling experience I was expecting. Although I am certainly not getting the feeling that it is hoping to slip out at any moment. It is staying put and it will only come out if I press down on it and tell it to do so. There is a little bit of a feeling of chafed skin between my bum cheeks, almost a burning and I put this down to sitting on it for too long.
Perhaps I am expecting too much so early on. One reason for its purchase was to enhance a fantasy where my lover made me wear a large dildo to stretch and open me up before giving me a vigorous pegging! Well I am getting the burning feeling and some of the stretching plugged feeling but I just expected more. I will keep you informed on my progress. I think my next purchase will be the progasm ice and a good, large dildo. Perhaps I am getting ahead of myself as I am yet to master the Helix Syn and should concentrate on that.

Another twist in the road of my journey – late July and early August

Since this is more of a journal I'll be updating my experiences semi-regularly. Skip to the end of the blog for the latest entry.

I found that I had unintentionally hijacked the topic in the"weed" forum discussion with my Salvia Divinorum experiences and thought that my descriptions of my experiences were more appropriate in a blog. So here it is. I'll keep updating it as I go.

June 25
salvia divinorum looks interesting; quick acting, short duration, not addictive, meditative affects, no hangover. I'm going to try it.

Wikipedia says "Mazatec shamans have a long and continuous tradition of religious use of Salvia divinorum, using it to facilitate visionary states of consciousness during spiritual healing sessions.[1] Most of the plant's local common names allude to the Mazatec belief that the plant is an incarnation of the Virgin Mary, with its ritual use also invoking that relationship"

June 26
Here's a poetic description of the Salvia Divinorum experience from the Pharmako/poeia by Dale Pendel:

"It's like a mirror with no frame: some don't see it at all; some do, but don't like what they see.

It's like cat paws, soft cat paws pressing, or like a bunch of bird tongues lapping the mind. Or like tiny fingers, the way ivy fingers reach out to climb a wall . . . Read more »

A Fantasy and a Reality

When an erotic fantasy finds me it is like it has found a comfortable chair; it settles in and stays, relaxing and pondering the facets of its own lush eroticism. It has certainly been that way over the last week or so with my fantasy of sexual and emotional intimacy with A, a woman I volunteer with.

Last night I had a particularly pleasurable fantasy involving the two of us. It happened because I saw her at a meeting of the organization she works for, and that I volunteer for yesterday. As President I have a lot of interaction with her before, during and after the meeting. She is Secretary to the board.

The fantasies that I have that involve real people that I see all the time seem to be the dominant ones in the erotic landscape of my mind. Certainly the homoerotic fantasies I have at the pinnacle of MMO ecstasy are not realism based; when my anus is quivering and my prostate is pumping and my cock is lurching in convulsive orgasmic spasms my fantasies become surreal. Most of the time they involve a exquisitely muscled faceless guy who is exuding male sexuality; he is drilling my asshole with a massive erect cock whose shaft is tracked with rigid veins. The convulsive spasms of pleasure pumping deep in my own anal canal become spasms of his cock as it rhythmically pumps a thick hot stream of his sweet ejaculate deep into my anal cavity. Read more »

Surprising New Interests

So when chatting a little while ago some interesting topics came up. I challenged myself to stretch my imagination a bit and here's what I came up with.

So generally I'm not into men who cross dress. I dont have a problem with it, its just not something I am usually drawn to. Maybe because so many men are not able to pull off wearing what could be considered "womens" clothing well. Well my mind was changed when I happened across a picture. After staring at the pic for a few minutes my mind went crazy so buckle up…enjoy the ride…

The first thing I noticed about the picture was the obvious. His outfit. It was obviously something that one would of course bill as a woman's outfit. A black mini skirt, and black lacy top. Both were snugly hugging his masculine body. The next thing I noticed was his face, then his facial expression. He looks so cunning, so confident, so very sexy in a super manly way. Its almost like he is playfully smirking at me, daring me to do what I was thinking. His presence can almost be felt. Nice pad…apparently is a hard worker. His daughter's pics on the fridge behind him remind me how great of a father he is. The washing machine beside the fridge makes me think of fucking him on top of it. Damn he looks sexy. Read more »

Another twist in the road of my journey

I found that I had unintentionally hijacked the topic in the"weed" forum discussion with my Salvia Divinorum experiences and thought that my descriptions of my experiences were more appropriate in a blog. So here it is. I'll keep updating it as I go.

June 25
salvia divinorum looks interesting; quick acting, short duration, not addictive, meditative affects, no hangover. I'm going to try it.

Wikipedia says "Mazatec shamans have a long and continuous tradition of religious use of Salvia divinorum, using it to facilitate visionary states of consciousness during spiritual healing sessions.[1] Most of the plant's local common names allude to the Mazatec belief that the plant is an incarnation of the Virgin Mary, with its ritual use also invoking that relationship"

June 26
Here's a poetic description of the Salvia Divinorum experience from the Pharmako/poeia by Dale Pendel:

"It's like a mirror with no frame: some don't see it at all; some do, but don't like what they see.

It's like cat paws, soft cat paws pressing, or like a bunch of bird tongues lapping the mind. Or like tiny fingers, the way ivy fingers reach out to climb a wall . . .

Some say it is a sensual and a tactile thing. Some say it's about temporality and dimensionality–that it's about time travel. Some say it's about the Root Energy Network, or that it is about becoming a plant. Read more »

Saturday Morning Syn

I woke up Saturday morning in the mood for a session, so I got up, took a shower and cleaned myself inside and out. My Helix Syn was already in the bathroom so I thought I would go ahead and insert it so as not to disturb my girlfriend, who I thought was still sleeping. All the lube supplies were in the bedroom, so I searched to see what was available in the bathroom. Ended up finding some petroleum jelly and vitamin E oil, so went with that…

To this point, I have had limited success with the Helix Syn. It was my first Aneros device, and was lucky to experience some minor contractions and sensations on only it's second use, but it was nowhere in comparison to the experiences with the Tempo and Progasm Jr.

Helix Syn inserted, into bed, I start by relaxing and just clearing my mind of everything, including the Helix Syn inside me. I find if I try and concentrate on it too soon, I clench up and things just don't move along. Instead of then starting out with the Kegel exercises, I like to use slow gentle hip thrusts to try and move the Helix up and down over my prostrate. The slower the better, you can also incorporate slow breathing to help further manipulate the device in rhythm with your hip movements. Read more »