Tag: Relaxation

Long way to go

An update on where I am.

I seem to be having a very different journey to others. It hasn't been easy. Emotions all over the place and it has ended up being largely a spiritual journey. When I first started I expected that by now I would be reaching the heights of pleasure I read about on the forum but that is far from where I am at.
I haven't been able to reach an orgasm for quite some time now and have still not come close to my first ever whole body orgasm 2 months ago. It's a big disappointment but I have learnt so much in other ways and I hang on to the thought that I know I am capable of something amazing once I learn how to get there again.

There are so many things going on in parallel.

Spiritually I have learnt a massive amount but still have much to learn. A clairvoyant friend has offered to act as a tutor and she seems to understand me well. She tells me to be patient and is guiding my meditation and explaining things to me as they happen. I am finding Buddhist teachings helpful and recognise all the negative thoughts that are blocking my progress, and I'm working on those and trying to become a better more caring person.
My friend has told me about my spirit guides and one in particular who is helping with spiritual development. I have felt him near me as I meditate, seen his face once, and he has spoken to me a few times. When I asked him for help my next google search brought up Buddhist teachings I think he guided me to that. Read more »

Quiet after the storm

Yesterday was a bit mind blowing. I think it was, after my wedding day, and the day each of my children was born, the best day of my life. I feel like a different person today, much more patient and calm.

Today feels very calm, I even feel a bit low, but it see it as another stage in the process that I am going through and I feel it rather than try to understand it.
I found memories of being some very painful events in my life coming to mind today, being made fun of, being put down at work and feeling helpless and victimised. I think it’s all solar plexus stuff, nothing too heavy just a few thoughts coming into my head. I can also feel a pressure in the solar plexus area as if something is happening. I feel like just an observer at the moment. I need to let it just happen, this in unpredictable it has a mind of its own.

I’m off work for this week so able to relax. I lay down in the field and brought myself to an Aless orgasm, it touched on a super-O. It’s incredible that I can orgasm like this fully clothed at any time, without anything to clean up after.

Reprograming apparently will be a long process

When my wife went to visit family, I finally had an opportunity to dedicate some time without limitations. Because of my recent non-events, I acquired a Helix Classic and a VICE in the hopes I could finally achieve a p-orgasm.
I have concluded that the neuropathy that I have in my feet from my chemo twenty years ago also affects my anal area. Because no matter what device I used, no matter how I relaxed, no matter how frequent or infrequent I tried contractions, no matter what setting I used with the VICE, all I got was great edging.
I have been careful to not get my penis involved. I tried early in the evening, at bed time, in the middle of the night, and in the morning. I plan to persevere, but it is rather disheartening.
After a little down time, my next effort will likely include the enhancement of marijuana. I am hopeful that it will push me over the edge.
Advice appreciated.

Super O Plateau

One of the most mysterious and exciting things about this Aneros journey is its subtlety and the connection of mind and body in experiencing sexual pleasure. When I started this journey of sexual discovery almost 20 years ago I knew that it was as much a mental experience as it was a physical one. Even though Aneros practice is rooted in the use of a physical device, the power of the mind to facilitate extreme pleasure through that device is manifest. Even more mysterious and fascinating however is the power of Aneros to instigate anal pleasure and facilitate an altered mental state at the pinnacle of a chain of multiple orgasms.

My normal sessions usually are between an hour and 3 hours. Typically a session will consist of back to pleasure spasms that flow in waves of building and ebbing pleasure. The waves never disappear they just modulate slightly from peak to peak. If I am going to go for a 2 hour session I will deliberately let the wave dissipate slightly to relish the sublime sensation of climbing higher again. It will typically build up on its own to start the second hour as I wait for it to lift me in renewed waves of ecstasy.

However the interesting thing for me is the way that prostate and penile bulb focused pleasure waves build in me eventually becoming contractions of mind numbing euphoria. Read more »

Cant relax.. need help!!

Hi im new to aneros and i just cant relax to get the orgasm. The main issue is that i feel like i am going to shit all over the bed so i cant really get that out of my mind.. should i try a laxative and empty my stomach first??

Seasons of My Sexuality

As you can read from the previous posts my sexuality is a complex thing. Like the seasons it transforms itself within the measure of a year, each season bringing its unique conditions, qualities and sensibilities. The torrid heat of desire for a woman and the vulgar intimacy of being with a man each bring their own memorable pleasure that resonates in the moment but lingers as an echoing memory; both harden my cock and make it ache with need. The calming chill of ecstasy and the urgency of arousal also speak to the sense of sexual seasons that I experience.

Homoerotic desire is one of those seasons that swings in and out of my life like the much anticipated chill of fall in the end of a sultry summer. Yet at the beginning of a summer with the anticipation of bathing in searing feminine sexual lust fantasies of sex with a man seem like a distant activity like raking leaves would seem in June.

The thought of male intimacy ebbs and flows. When it surfaces it finds me like a butterfly seeks a bloom. It is silent. I never know when it will land on me. The desire for male intimacy is so mysterious and secretive that one night as I lay naked in bed it lands on me, seeking my sticky male stamen. It finds me with grace and elegance that belies its masculine character; it alights on my wetted swollen cockhead which is exuding the sweet nectar of my arousal. Read more »

Continuing Journey… starting to make sense

Hit a milestone today and unfortunately had to cut the session short…

I now understand several things…

1( definitely mental… worrying about your porn is a huge distraction. Instead of porn, find a long tease video or webcam instead.

2( anal quivers… the very slight pokes of electricity that come and go are NOT what is meant… although these are awesome and a sign of warming up, the quivers are slightly more subtle are are consistent.

3( breathe into it… as you tense up, relax, breathe and let the contraction loosen. Try to hang onto the sensation – replacing your tension with a deep diaphragm breath or two

4( be confident in the boomerang effect – review @Crimsonwolf's )THANK YOU!( forum posts – and relax with confidence that the boomerang will come back!

Weird

Things get weirder and weirder, in a nice way.

My last 4 orgasms have been interesting. They haven't lasted long. Each time I start to orgasm I feel my pleasure ramping up rapidly but I don't have time to enjoy it much because I feel something building that I have to concentrate on. It's a very deep almost unbelievably powerful pleasure, maybe just another super-O I'm not sure. It sits there and I have no option but to feel it build, my whole body convulsing uncontrollably, but with anticipation rather than any realised pleasure. Each time it gets stronger and it's driving me mad that I can't have it. Each time it seems to get closer I think it's starting to spread and then it stops, and eventually I have to give in because the pressure is starting to get uncomfortable and I have to stop. I try relaxed observation, I try just enjoying it and feeling the pleasure building, but it's like my body just can't quite accept it yet and give in to it, it's too powerful for me.
Somehow if feels like a super-O building, but in other ways it feels different, even more powerful. I will only know once it hits me and I can't wait because it's going to be good. Read more »

Cock Craving

Over the last few days I have come to the conclusion that I am a guy who binges on cocks. It’s kind of like it is with wet orgasm itself. Immediately after ejaculation your libido drops like a rock. Depending on your age and sex drive it can build back up in ten minutes or ten hours. With me and cocks my craving reaches a pinnacle of arousal ending in sating it with a tryst with a guy; there upon my desire for male – male sexual intimacy drops like a stone; weirdly though my recharge of desire for erect cock and cum takes months or years to build back up. In between I would classify myself as interested – intrigued. Typically the thing that is the “thresh hold” between intrigued and aroused is some male porn, especially things that I like to do with guys.

Admittedly I am no expert in male – male sex as I have only had 3 partners in 5 years. I am an anal virgin, which is fascinating as I was transformed by my rewiring through prostate or anal orgasm. My sex life with men started out as fantasy with no reality. Gradually with the first guy it became a little less fantasy and a little reality. The second guy added more reality and a little less to fantasy. Having been with my 3rd guy about 3 months ago reality is slowly gaining on fantasy. Also my nervousness is diminishing with each experience. As my nervousness dissipates it leaves more room for my arousal to fill the gap. Read more »

Anticipation

Planning my first session for tomorrow evening….keeping my expectations low but still excited. Have downloaded a number of erotic soundtracks to play while I experience my first session. Schedule a workout and an massage right after work to relax me before experiencing.

Aneros shipped device today instead of yesterday just delaying and building the anticipation…so glad I paid for overnight shipping