Anal Orgasm

Friday night after an early dinner J went to my daughter’s house about an hour away to go to a late movie near her house and stay overnight. It’s been nice that the two of them have become movie buddies; they go to chic flicks on a regular basis. I am happy that my daughter is able to spare me from going to movies that I would rather not see. It was a 9:20 PM showing so J decided ahead of time to spend the night in my daughter’s apartment which is 10 minutes from the theater rather than drive the hour to come home. So I slept alone that night.

After chatting with some friends on line and doing some minor work related writing I headed up to bed. Alone time in the house or in a hotel is always time that I use for prostate massage. Most of my MMO sessions are done with nothing inside me with J in the bed next to me; the sensations from a massager less session are lush and deep and subtle. Massager-less sessions are lower to build up but they never fail to get my precum flowing profusely when they are in full bloom. I love doing them.

Blocked again?

I had sex with my wife for the first time in months last night. My erection was instant and harder than I remember it ever being even when I was a teenager, and when I came it was stronger than previously, she even commented on how strong it felt.

I haven't managed to have a prostate orgasm for a few days now. I have sort of lost interest a little bit in a good way )have to get on with normal life(, although I'm not sure how I feel really. It was so intense last week I'm almost pleased to feel a bit less addicted. I have tried to bring on an orgasm several times but not really succeeded.

I'm really trying to analyse how to 'cross over' into an orgasm. I can get so close within moments of trying but actually turning it into an orgasm is proving elusive. Thinking back to when I had my first super-O I had not cum for 3 days, and had masturbated several times without climaxing, so there must have been some sexual tension there to start with. I was then so excited about what I had experienced that it just sort of carried on and I didn't even question my ability to go into a super-O for a few days and on the second day I even had an A-less orgasm within minutes of trying.
Two nights of super-Os made me tired, then I couldn't make it work and I got over emotional about that and couldn't sleep, I was working long hours, and it's been hit and miss since and I haven't really caught up with sleep. I have had to lower my expections.

Long week

I felle as if I am finally starting to integrate my new found ability with normal life. Today is the first day that I haven't been constantly thinking about my next super-O and worrying whether it is going to happen.
After a long week and long hours at work I am as usual very tired. I really think that I will just sleep tonight so it will be first day without a super-O. Maybe not a bad thing I feel a bit more in control now.

Exhausted

It's been a real emotional rollercoaster in the last week since my breakthrough. Exhilarated one minute after after a mind blowing super-O, totally despondent when it just wasn't working. I don't think I have experienced such a range of emotions since my first serious relationship in my early 20's.
I have developed laryngitis today and feel mentally and physically drained and need to get an early night. It must be related, my body is telling me something. For the first time I just don't have the energy to even contemplate trying for an orgasm. Early night for me I need sleep.

Back on track

I had promised myself that I was taking a rest for a day yesterday, but I'm not very strong willed and thought that I would just have a quick try last night, A-less as usual. I'm very glad that I did. it wasn't the fastest onset ever but considering how tired I was and how upset I had got over this whole thing yesterday, I was amazed tat anything happened at all.
The super-O built up nicely and I had a few nice orgasmic waves, each one getting stronger and more intense. It was going well, but I was expecting my wife to come to bed at any second and was slightly distracted for that reason. Then I made a beginners mistake. I squeezed my PC muscle really hard, trying to wring a bit more out of one wave of contractions, but I held it far too long and when I released it had all gone and it was over – I like the child's swing analogy someone has made – you need to keep giving the orgasm a little push every now and then to keep the swing going, I just gave a long push and stopped it swinging.
Had a reasonable night's sleep last night for the first time in a while.
Next thing is to tell my wife. I have decided I need to.

Fantasy and Super O

Anyone who reads whatever I have written over the years or who knows me here knows the profound impact that rewiring has had on me. I am a changed man. I think of myself as hypersexual and serenely sensual. Erotic thoughts are part of my daily life; eroticism is always with me bubbling inches below the surface of my routine existance. Fantasy is one of those erotic things that amuses me, piques my imagings and keeps my cock hard and wet.

When an erotic fantasy finds me it is like it has found a comfortable chair; it settles in and stays, relaxing and pondering the facets of its own lush eroticism while secretly reveling in the arousal that it stirs in me. It has certainly been that way over the last few weeks with my fantasy of sexual intimacy with A. She is someone that I have occassion to see quite frequently in meetings and events. Last night I had a particularly pleasurable fantasy involving the two of us. It happened because I saw her at a meeting of the organization she works for and that I volunteer for yesterday. As a leading volunteer in the organization I have a lot of interaction with her before, during and after the meetings. She is Secretary to the board.

Now it's not working

I though I had got this all worked out yesterday. My expectations were high that I could now orgasm at will and I expected to be able to have another mind blowing experience tonight.
I can get to the edge of orgasm easily now but just cannot cross over, it's driving me mad it was so easy last night. Maybe I am just too exhausted from last night or stressed from work but it' just not working. I've been so close for so long it's starting to hurt and I can feel an orgasm ready to explode but it won't and I am desperate – probably not the right frame of mind really.
I know the answer I need to have a normal ejaculation to get some relief and forget super Os tonight or I will drive myself mad. I know I can do it. Maybe my body is telling me just not now.

My 21 (actually 23) Day Challenge

My 21 Day Challenge

I was encouraged by one of my Aneros friends to take up the 21 Day Challenge. It is a challenge to refrain from ejaculation for 21 Days. There are benefits, so I thought I’d give it a whirl.

During the time I was on the challenge (which ended up to be 23 days), I learned and experienced a great deal of things.

– I do have the discipline to pleasure myself and keep from cumming.
– There are many ways to enjoy my penis; it was fun finding new ways.
– I have a big capacity to be orgasmic.
– Arousal and the ensuing pleasure needs to be savored.
– I found out that I can have penile orgasms without cumming. And it’s amazing.
– Ejaculation is a terrific thing.
– Edging is more about enjoying the pleasure than refraining from going too far.

I waited to “graduate” until the right time worked out.

I was comfortable, warm, alone, and ready. I edged for about 20 minutes, first. The whole time looking forward to what was to come. There was a sense of relief knowing that I no longer had to control things, but just let it flow. I was A-lessing the whole time too. My whole body was involved in the orgasms, prostate and penile.

Super O and Ejaculation

Today in Chat a few of us compared the sensation of wet ejaculation orgasm and dry Super O’s. I personally am a convert. Super O orgasms are infinitely more pleasurable than an ejaculation is to me. However there are some common feelings that erect my penis by just thinking and writing about them here.

There is a difference in the hunger I experience to have an MMO orgasm. When I crave a prostate orgasm the desire manifests itself deep in my anus. It is a twitching tingling sensation in me, left un sated it will slowly grow to become an insistent throb. I have gotten to the point now that I recognize the sensation of my prostate erecting; the throb I feel is my prostate hardening and filling with blood. With a cock arousal I feel a heaviness tugging on my rigid erected shaft . It seems to dwell deep in my cock root, throbbing and aching in frustration.

To launch A Less MMO’s I need to be fully nude. There is something about nudity and exposure that inspires my arousal and rapid launch. Oftentimes when I travel and I am staying in a hotel and there is an opportunity to leave curtains open so someone might see me on the bed writhing naked in ecstasy, my arousal will elevate and push the MMO to great heights. I have been watched a few times by men and women. To trigger the MMO to start I need to be erect; most of the time I will be erect and ready to launch but if I am not a nice juicy fantasy or a tug or two on my cockhead will get me there.

Austin's great aneros adventure

After reading about Aneros and the idea of reaching a Super-O, I purchased both a Maximus and Progasm Ice. Both of them arrived yesterday, and I could not wait to try them both out this morning. The Maximus seemed less intimidating, so after lubing it up with KY, I laid on my side and very nervously touched my hole with the head of the Maximus. Slowly it slid in and as it went in, almost immediately pre-cum started to ooze out of my penis. Once the head of the Maximus hit my prostate, more pre-cum oozed, but I did not get hard. After about ten minutes, I started getting used to the sensation of having the Maximus in me. The feelings were great, but nothing like what others have mentioned here. I have to say I like the "handle" on the Maximus, and after gyrating my hips around and up and down, the handle helped put pressure on my prostate. I then thought maybe I would be ready for the Ice, and after removing the Maximus and lubing up the Ice, it slid in very easy, and the fullness felt great. I did a several Kegels for the next half hour or so, and did feel a few minor sensations of like a dry orgasm starting, but nothing near the Super-O everyone speaks of. All in all I think it was a good first session. I fought off the temptation to jack off to gay porn, which usually makes me incredibly horny, in hopes that tomorrow's session will be better. There is some soreness from the size of the Ice, but it was a good soreness, I think… Any advice would be greatly appreciated!