Experiences of a Self Deluded Fool

So. I decided it's time to tell my story.

I am 18 years old, I feel young in this community, most of what I've read has been from older gentlemen. Anyhow. I have a very high sex drive, as I imagine most 18 year old men do, and I quickly found masturbation became stagnant and boring. The first time I experimented with anal stimulation was a couple years ago. I used my fingers at first, then an old dildo I'd found in a box of old stuff in our garage. I imagine it was my mother's. (don't worry, I washed the thing like 20 times by hand, then ran it through the dishwasher twice.) It was okay, but nothing great. I messed around and explored my anal cavity for about three months, but then gave it up from lack of explosive feelings. I never told anyone about this.

About a month ago, I told my girlfriend. She's the most amazing person.. She's what I live for. I knew she wouldn't judge. I knew she'd not even bat an eye. The only reason I hadn't brought it up sooner was simply because it didn't occur to me. So we had a talk. Then she offered to give me a prostate massage. I eagerly accepted. And I mean eagerly! So we got naked, and she proceeded to give me a blowjob. She then inserted a lubed finger, and got to work. It was, up til then, the most intense orgasm I've ever experienced. We did that a few more times, had sex afterwords once or twice, and during this process I was researching online. I came across this site almost immediately, and was impressed. I read about 100 testimonials before I came to the decision I'd buy a Helix. So me and my girlfriend went down to the local sex store! "Castle: Knights and Damsels welcome!"

I took it home, and couldn't wait to try it out. Unfortunately, my girlfriend couldn't be there for my first session. We talked about it, and I wasn't even going to until she could be there, but she gave me the green light and I was too excited to resist.

I followed the instructions carefully. It felt good. Very good actually, but I didn't obtain any involuntary responses or mini-Os or even P-waves. I wasn't really expecting to. I was disappointed, but I realize this doesn't come easy. It is, after all, a journey.

The next morning I'd offered to take my girlfriend to school. So I got up at 4:00 AM, took a shower, cleaned myself well, had a BM, and inserted my Helix. I left my house around 5:30 AM. I had a pleasurable experience in the car, nothing so concrete, just good feelings. She was still asleep when I got there. I woke her up, and told her I had it in. She, unfortunately, was in a very sour mood. A lack of sleep, she told me. She'd woken up in the middle of the night and couldn't fall back asleep. I thought I'd try anyways. We were laying down and I began to caress her neck, her love handles, her thighs, her back. The places she likes. I gave her soft, steamy kisses on her neck and shoulders. I gave her ear a little nibble, a harsh breath. Throughout all this my Helix was giving me most pleasurable sensations. I decided I'd move a little lower. I began to kiss her chest, her breasts. I moved down her sternum. I kissed each individual rib, her stomach, her-

That's as far as I got. Imagine my disappointment! She told me she was just too tired, and snapped at the disappointed expression that had come to my face. Upset, I laid down on my stomach. Unfortunately, the Helix has no concern for my moods. The moment I laid like that I got a very powerful feeling of intense pleasure. It was the first time I truly felt the Helix against my prostate. It took me a minute to replicate the sensation, and I found that by thrusting I could bring it farther. So I went for it. I'd completely forgotten my girlfriend (I'm getting tired of calling her that so I'm telling all you readers her name, Amber), which in retrospect wasn't fair in the least, and was a very selfish thing to do. She noticed my movements, got very angry, and stormed out of the room. I waited a minute to see if she'd come back. She did not. I got up to find her.

I found her on the couch. She was clearly upset. I explained how I didn't mean to hurt her feelings, that the Helix is rather insistent, and I apologized for my actions. We had a small talk and resolved the issue. We went back to her room, and laid for a while longer. I resisted the urge to squirm about, and simply performed some small anal contractions.

Then it was time for her to shower. So she got up, and got in. I asked her if she'd mind if I continued my earlier actions. She said that she would not. So I went at it. It was good, not great, but I enjoyed myself. Time flew by. When she got back it felt as if she'd just left!

She came into the room naked, I was sprawled on the bed, rotating my hips in a circular motion to the pleasurable feelings of the Helix, and she had that look in her eyes. That look that says she liked what she was seeing. She came over, laid next to me, and gave me a kiss. That sent shutters throughout my entire body, and caused some contractions. Things got pretty hot from there. She straddled one of my legs, the right one (just for the record), and we were both gyrating and grinding upon each other. Pre-cum was oozing at this point. Still no P-waves. Still no Mini-Os. But I'm not complaining in the least.

Unfortunately this only went on for about three minutes. Her alarm went off, reminding her we had to leave in about fifteen minutes. So we stopped, and she continued to get ready. I didn't remove my Helix though, I wasn't done yet. I drove her to school, riding my Helix the entire way. A few contractions there, a thrust her, it was good. I then went to CBC, the local community college I attend, and parked in a discreet corner. I took off my shirt, and pulled down my pants. I wanted to ejaculate before I had to go to class, or I knew I wouldn't be able to concentrate at all. So I started with some small contractions, holding, releasing. A few thrusts. Soon it built up, and I was too horny to continue with the subtle pleasures any longer. By that time it was 8:30 AM. I'd had my Helix in for four hours. I had a towel in my car, we'd had sex in there the night before last, and we usually make quite the mess. 😉

So I added penile stimulation to the mix, and had an amazing orgasm. That was the first time I experienced a flow of semen, rather than spurts. There were a couple of spurts, but for the most part it felt as if I was peeing involuntarily. It was mostly clear, a few clumps of the normal, recognizable ejaculate. I cleaned myself up, and went to class.

Throughout the day I was experiencing what I now know are Echo Effects. Spontaneous contractions that felt like the fluttering of wings! Glorious little buggers, aren't they just! 😉
I found that I could trigger them by contracting and holding, and I found myself doing this throughout most of the day.

By that night, I wanted it bad. I could feel a deep pleasurable ache in my anus. It felt the same as a raging hard-on does when ignored. I knew instantly it would be relieved if I took out my Helix. My ass knew what it wanted. So I prepared myself, and started my session. The flutters came back immediately. I'd decided to abandon the thrusting, as I knew it to be counter productive to the journey. The whole point is to only use your anal muscles, so I decided to break the habit early. It was damn good. Felt the best it has so far. Unfortunately, I fell asleep. I was doing very very light contractions, starting very weak then strengthening slowly, holding as long as I could, then releasing and repeating. It was very relaxing, and I was very tired. I woke up at 3:00 AM, and removed the Helix, washed up and went back to sleep.

Now! We've come to today! That was a bit of a journey in and of itself, wasn't it? For those who've made it this far, I thank you for your patience! Okay, back to the story.

This morning I had only one class. Afterwords, I thought it prudent for some Helix time. I had to be to work by 4:00 PM, so I put it in before I went to pick up Amber from school. I once again rode it in the car, and enjoyed the sensation. When I picked her up she knew I had it in. She said there's just a look in my eyes. Anyway, that got her a little excited I believe, since she started kissing me forcefully and began to rub my chest and inner-thighs. These actions caused some contractions, and a few flutters. This drove me crazy. This continued for about five minutes, but then was cut short, since I have to pick up my younger sister about twenty minutes after I get Amber.

So. Finally. Back to my house. Alone. Horny, the both of us. What comes next? Sex. Right?

Wrong. She's been cramping all day, her period is about to start. She doesn't have a problem with period sex, and neither do it, the cramps are just simply too much. I was disappointed, but I understood. I still got naked though. We laid for a while, about forty minutes, talked about some things. Through all this I was still manipulating my Helix. She could tell, since I couldn't help but give a few moans of pleasure, but she didn't get upset. It was now 3:00 PM, and I was in no shape to go to work. Much too horny. So I decided I'd masturbate to take the edge off. So she put her leg over my left, her knee right under my scrotum, and put her head in the nook of my neck and shoulder. This is how we lay when I masturbate and as she provides stimulus. She began to caress me, nibble on my ear and caress my scrotum and inner thighs. The Helix went crazy. I began to stroke myself, and couldn't help but let out several low moans. This got her really into it, since she began to add her own complementary moans. It got very intense, and I couldn't help but begin to thrust into my hand and gyrate my hips. That set me over the edge! I had a very violent and intense orgasm. Amber told me later that she thought something had gone wrong, she was worried, I was almost yelling my moans were so loud and she said my face looked as if I was in pain. Far far from that. No P-waves, no Mini-Os, but still, each session has improved, and has been more pleasurable than the last. I'm very early in my journey yet!

That was my last session. I went to work, and now I'm home. I wanted to start another, I can feel my ass wants it, but I am just a tad sore, and I've been using my Helix since I got it, nearly non-stop. I figured it was time for a break, as did Amber, and I believe it'll make the next session more intense.

We've talked about her experimenting with anal sex before. She is willing, but as of yet not ready. I hope that changes soon! I'm planning on buying the Peridise, just for that occasion! 😉

Thank you all for reading! That's it for now. I've always wanted to blog, but had yet to find a subject that I just wanted to constantly talk about. I hope you all enjoyed this entry.

-SelfDeludedFool