24 yr old male First post, would like some outside feed back on my prostate/anal orgasm journey

LONG POST ALERT*****

Im gonna try and keep this shorted possible, but will make other detailed posts about my journey later on. So i’ve been experimenting with anal for about 2 years. I started with Aneros and since i’ve gotten 6 other models, a dildo to ride, a pure wand a hismith sex machine. Early on in my journey with the Aneros Helix, i think i’ve had some p-waves whereas i would feel strong sensations that would originate from my pc muscles and then spread throughout my body. For a while this was all that would happen, which was amplified when combined with nipple play. Then a big milestone (in my opinion) happened. During a few of my sessions, whenever I felt a big wave coming i also felt like i might ejaculate (which is not what i’m going for, i want dry orgasms) i would stop, scared i would cum or lose my self in please, but one day , during a session i let it happened because why not? If i ejaculate id get an amazing orgasm, so it’s a win. so I let myself go and too my pleasurable surprise, i squirted! it was clear and it was a lot ALOT. Like i thought i peed but it wasn’t and it was sooooo pleasurable (idk if i’d say orgasm tho) but i was laughing so much after out of pleasure. i believe this happened a total of 5-6 times in my journey.

Another key experience i’ve had was HFO, which imo is good and bad. like i said i want dry, but it’s also nice. this has happened a hand full of time as well. Now, on too what this post it about. About this time Last year, i was abstaining from masturbation and replacing it with Aneros. usually i masturbate with aneros in and don’t allow myself too cum 9/10 times. i’m multiorgasmic through my Dick, but i want it through my anus, so i don’t allow myself too cum much without sex with my Wife. Anyways, with a lot of the sexual tension built up, i felt prostate throbs randomly throughout my day (in a good way, very pleasurable). i even felt moments where it was like i was on top of a hill on a rollercoaster ready to drop. even when on tv, a show, or even a person where too “count down” for what ever reason is feel like i was gonna FUCKING explode! or even if i read words like “release” “cum” “explosion” i would let out a whimper moan. MY GOD, just FUCKING thinking about that!…..excuse me lol….

Well fast forward a year later and now i’ve gotten back in too practicing kegels with my aneros inserted (currently Tempo, back in stock recently) and hoo boy are those feelings back. I was injured at work and have been restricted too office work, so i’ve had a lot of practice time. i’ve been having these quick build ups of pleasure where i either feel so teased that i’m gonna cry, OR i feel like i’ll scream (No one is around too hear if i’m not too loud). I’ve let a out loud yell of “I’M ABOUT TOO FUCKING SCREAM” while in the office. Every time i get close with these build ups it fades but i do feel the shockwave throughout my body. i even have “visions” during my sessions of yelling, burying my face in a pillow or something’ outrageous while finally….FINALLY cumming. Getting that prostate orgasm i deserve.

Actually, right before typing this, i’ve had a vision, while sitting in my office chair with tempo in of walking down this hall next too where i am now, closing the door and fucking screaming one time. so what i want too know is, how i let this pleasure wash over me? am i stopping it by not doing those “visions” ? Basically i just want some feedback, i’m tired of reading other’s post and expecting it too relate too me in no offense. Also, i apologize for all the swear words, but while typing at those moments i was actually feeling those waves and i think it captures what i feel perfectly lol. I’m not trying too sound impatient, i know this is a journey but i wanted too know what others would think about these experiences. and obviously i can’t just scream my head over at work lol Thanks in advance And thanks for reading!