Frustrated – tell me I just need to be patient

Hey, all!

I’ve been experimenting on and off with Aneros for a number of years, but have really been trying to consistently practice a couple of times per week for the past several months. I’m trying to assimilate everything that I read here and on the prostate play sub. I have an MGX classic, a Progasm Ice and recently got an NJoy wand which I was hoping was going to be a game-changer, but not so much. I use coconut oil as lube, and try to set aside 1-2 hours for sessions. After inserting, sometimes I will scroll through Reddit (often this sub), look at porn (less often past few months), listen to some binaural beats or just relax.

I try to start out with the do-nothing method, but after 30-60 minutes will start with some contractions, usually light, alternating PC with sphincter. I’ve done the free Mindgasm lessons, but don’t find them to be particularly enlightening.

I’m pretty sure that I get involuntaries, but most often occur Aless, in the shower and while driving – they feel like kind of a squirmy sensation just past the inner sphincter? They’re interesting, but not necessarily pleasurable. They feel kind of slow and rhythmic – maybe intervals of 15-20 seconds- nothing that would seem to stroke very quickly. Maybe I will occasionally get what I think is a subtle P-wave, particularly with a device inserted, but not often associated with an involuntary. More like, did I imagine myself into feeling that? In general, I seem to have a hard time getting involuntaries – if that’s what those squirmy things are – with a device inserted.

It’s hard to tell if any of my devices are making contact with my prostate, although I know that I have one, and it feels interesting / pleasurable if I massage it with a finger. However, I can’t keep that up long enough to really build anything. I don’t seem to get the same sensations with the NJoy, but maybe that’s because I’m not able to adjust the pressure / location the way that I can using a finger.

If I really grind with either end of the NJoy, while really gently stroking just below the frenulum, I can get a ton of pressure that will eventually turn into an ejaculatory O. I can see how, with patience and practice, that could probably turn into a HWFO. But, I really want to experience the HFDO and the multi / supers that may follow.

I’m sure that I am spending too much effort trying to “chase,” and need to figure out how to relax. THC is not an option for me, or other recreationals. I try to go into a session reminding myself that this is just “practice” and that if something happens, great, if not, OK too. I will often tell myself, “Hey, that was a great session,” trying to convince myself that I’m making progress. I will try not to end a session with an enhanced T, but I don’t seem to have a lot of willpower.

Sorry, TL:DR. Do I just need to chill out and be patient? Anybody with a similar journey that can provide support?

Thanks!