Need advise

Hello interested readers.
All my life I have been a pessimist. For me if anything is going to go wrong, it will. As I age, seems to be getting worse. I don’t expect anything to produce positive results, but starting out I just hope for the best.

My purchase of the Helix was a disaster so I was very leery about spending another $74.00, shipping included on the Progasm. Recap from last update, my first two sessions with my new Progasm were negative, although this unit did feel good being up there. After achieving some very positive results yesterday with my new buddy, and the walnut sized gland inside me, I am back to my original post. Waiting with great anticipation! It’s like I am now addicted to a drug, that feeling of great pleasure, wondering what lies ahead. I want it now! I no sooner remove the Progasm, and an hour later I want it back in. That’s a problem because the new size along with the feelings I experienced yesterday have made my walnut a little sore. There’s no way I’ll reproduce, or improve on those feelings with this condition. I’ve even been using the Helix just to have something up there. As I type, Helix is installed.

If anyone has, or has had this experience, how do I give it a rest? All I can say is wow, and it’s like I live for Progasm.

An update

Hi all, I have not gone away. Thanx to rumel I found my blog I had thought had been removed. Anyway, today I posted the below to the forum when it really was meant to be here. I just wanted all to have the info, and the experiences I felt today.

I don't believe I have ever posted to the forum. I did have a blog that I started late spring, or early summer 07, but think it's been removed because of lack of use. I didn't want to post negative experiences to the whole group feeling there are way more negative users then positive ones.

My journey started with the Helix. I had no luck at all with it. Maybe because I do have anal experience with the real thing if you know what I mean. I'm not gay, or bi, but I am very bi curious. I believe it is a very natural feeling in both sexes. Some of us accept, and some don't, no problem!

Waiting with great anticipation!

My first post guys not even a newbie yet. As I said, I'm waiting with great anticipation! I hope that I haven't already put myself in the wrong frame of mind.
I found this site yesterday while trying to find a way to help myself attain an orgasm. I take medication which makes it nearly impossible to obtain an erection, and if I do get one, it doesn't last long enough to reach orgasm. I'm 57 years old, and have been divorced four years now. I've had two dates in that time with sex happening once about a year, and a half ago.
Last night, and today I've read through this site twice, and the Helix seems like the perfect male friend! At this point in my life I don't want to become attached to another female.
I thank you all for the detailed posts on this site. I'm sure they will help me achieve the super-O. I will follow all the details that you guys have already been through, and provided. I so look forward to my first session, and will also post my experiences.
A question I have at this point, I understand what the front tab does, but can't figure out where the back loop thing plays any role?