Joy & Pain

Gotta replace the old with some new, so this is a mix of fact & fiction )mostly the latter(. I'll let you figure out which is which.

Met a guy…broke a ton of my rules giving him a shot. The things I felt for him I hadn't felt in over a decade. He'd already shown me he's a dark man. Said he isnt into "dark arts" mystically, but he's as evil as they come. He lead me to believe I was his friend, that he respected me. At his first convenience he used me. He knew he never wanted to see or speak to me again but that didnt stop him from fucking me repeatedly. I was nothing but a cum receptacle to him. Yet he continues to try and con me into believing he respects me, likes me, and is my friend )or still wants to be that…yea the fuck right(. Last time I checked you dont lie, fuck, and kick friends to the curb…apparently his view on friendship, respect, and just about everything is warped to fit his delusional mindset. He's delusional…and I'm done with him. I've made up my mind I wont sacrifice myself, that doesnt stop the pain though. Sleeping has been in large part replaced by lamenting over my stupidity where he is concerned. This will pass…just wish it was a little faster.

Fantastic Session

TL;DR:
* Week of abstaining from anything erotic
* Builds libido perfectly for a session
* Sweet sensations, everything happens without any prompting
* Clamping solidly, continuously
* Allow breaks to naturally happen for around five minutes.
* Sex is on fire.
* I really hope the neighbours don't hear my moaning or humming.

Now I'm into a good routine of sessions! Every five to eight days or so is when the libido builds up enough that my mind urges for some sexual activity. That's something of a sweet-spot for Aneros session — and it's relatively new, first uncovered early into the abstaining for a month. The big build-up of libido in question is likely from divorcing myself of anything erotic during one week, most of all nipple stimulation, which can quickly cause an orgasm to burst the bubble. )However, it's great before a session to get some momentum going(

So basically, Aneros sessions of recent act as a valve to let off some sexual energy.

Or frustration; last night had a scenario of stressing needlessly on whether to have a session, partly due to the awkward after-effects detailed at the end. Pleasure waves began making unprompted rounds that day – a sign of libido hitting its peak. At the same time, I was feeling oddly grumpy and fed up. That alone can often break sessions, resulting in delaying them by a day or two. But I went with it. Besides, the Progasm may cause problems like last time and the session is only an hour.

Vice Lovemaking Session

Had another love making session with wife yesterday very similar in progression to my previous post " Making Love the the Vice".

When we got to the intercourse stage I tried something different since discovering the Progasm. I was matching my kegels with my pumping into her. It was quite pleasurable but not as auto as the Progasm. I think the thinner neck on the Progasm is the key to the autof**k. So I am thinking my next lovemaking session will include the Progasm for some variety ! Cheers !

What Mantak Chia says about sex between men and being a gay or bisexual man

(I’ve been reading Master Mantak Chia’s book “Becoming a Multiorgasmic Man” and found this section on sex between men that was so important that I’m quoting him at length here.

Yang and Yang For Gay Men

China, like all civilizations, has long acknowledged the practice of homosexuality. Historically it was called lung-yang, after the name of a fourth-century B.c.prince’s male lover, or tuan-hsiu, “the cut sleeve,” recalling an emperor who was said to have cut off his sleeve to avoid waking his sleeping lover. Although sexual relationships between men were at times condoned and at other times discouraged by the imperial court – no doubt depending on who was sleeping in the royal
bed – Taoism has never condemned homosexuality. Taoism avoids condemning any part of human sexual experience, since it is all considered a part of the Tao. Rather, Taoism tries to teach people how to stay healthy, whatever their sexual preferences. Gay men simply need to know the practices that will help them have satisfying and healthy sexual relationships.

Can’t Stop Till I Get Enough

A gay writer and activist was doing a radio interview about his book on life in the pre-AIDS bathhouses, where gay men often would have numerous sexual encounters per night. When asked about whether the desire for multiple sexual experiences is characteristic of gay men in general, the author shot back that it is characteristic of all male sexuality, but that straight men are usual y constrained by female sexuality. If, he continued, we really want to see what male sexuality is like, uninfluenced by female sexuality, we just need to look at gay men.

Saturday Morning Syn

I woke up Saturday morning in the mood for a session, so I got up, took a shower and cleaned myself inside and out. My Helix Syn was already in the bathroom so I thought I would go ahead and insert it so as not to disturb my girlfriend, who I thought was still sleeping. All the lube supplies were in the bedroom, so I searched to see what was available in the bathroom. Ended up finding some petroleum jelly and vitamin E oil, so went with that…

To this point, I have had limited success with the Helix Syn. It was my first Aneros device, and was lucky to experience some minor contractions and sensations on only it's second use, but it was nowhere in comparison to the experiences with the Tempo and Progasm Jr.

Helix Syn inserted, into bed, I start by relaxing and just clearing my mind of everything, including the Helix Syn inside me. I find if I try and concentrate on it too soon, I clench up and things just don't move along. Instead of then starting out with the Kegel exercises, I like to use slow gentle hip thrusts to try and move the Helix up and down over my prostrate. The slower the better, you can also incorporate slow breathing to help further manipulate the device in rhythm with your hip movements.

Thought I Was Here Before

A had a revelation yesterday. What I thought I was experiencing wasn't quite as it seemed. I had had many super O's over the past few months, but now it seems that they weren't originating where I thought. The ones where I used my nipples to orgasm certainly were centered in the prostate, but the ones where I relied solely on the Aneros weren't. I now think that they were anal orgasms rather than solely produced from the prostate. I believe this because I finally reached a level that I thought was already experiencing.

The anal orgasms never felt quite the same as the nipple induced orgasms. They weren't as intense, but they could last longer and were more steady. A session on Friday gave me a hint as to this other level of sensation from the prostate. I started out with a Peridise then had a decent session switching to the Helix. For some reason I thought I'd try the Progasm afterwards despite it being uncomfortable 3/4 of the time. This time I discovered one way that I could avoid the discomfort. When I made sure my anus was relaxed the Progasm got more comfortable and there was more sensation from the prostate than I usually get from the Helix.

Copy and Paste if You Dare

This is just a notice that there are a few of my blogs that are coming down on Monday June 23, 2014. The titles that will be removed are:

California Dreamin' in Buckhead???
California Nightmare in Hellsville
Just a little fantasy…
Mentally Induced Role Reversal.
On the Job Benefits
Over and Done with….

Reason being the person who they are about I'm trying my best to wipe from my life. I didnt realize how much I wrote about him lol until I looked up all the titles. I know some of those stories are my best, he was my muse. The muse is gone so the art must go as well. If you want them for personal reading feel free to copy and paste them…I dont care…just a heads up though. I wont be keeping any personal copies so once they are deleted they are deleted.

My new Progasm

I received my new Progasm Ivory on Friday but have had a house full of company until this afternoon. I found myself with a short time alone and decided to try it out to see what it was like.

Being I was on a short time frame, I slipped a condom over it and rubbed a little bit of coconut oil on the already lubricated condom.

Surprisingly it felt large on insertion even though I have been using the Vice for months. The .05 inch larger makes a noticeable difference. Also the neck is longer on the Progasm than the Vice which allows you to pull it in deeper and hit different spots. It seems to move less that the Vice does but feels very filling.

I walked around with it in for a few minutes allowing it the maneuver inside me and within a few minutes I was starting to pant and twitch. Very different than the feelings I have experienced with the Vice.

As I said I was on a short time frame so I hadn't even removed my clothes all the way.

I wound up at the bathroom counter in front of the sink with the Progasm in me and pants down around my ankles.

Curious about the Tempo!

Having some limited success )first 2 sessions( with the Helix Syn and over the top Super-Os with the Progasm Jr, I was curious how the Tempo would do, so naturally that was the plan for last night. I lubed up and the Tempo slid right in without much of a fight from me. Really didn't feel it like the PJ )Progasm Jr.(, but I could tell it was there. It just barely touches the prostate and the muscles around it, so it sort of tickles, or at least that is as close to describing the sensation as I can. Within a few minutes, I can feel the waves starting to build. Unlike the PJ, it wasn't WHAM! It was more like a freight train in the distance down the track, you could sense it coming, but couldn't judge the speed. The waves slowly built up until suddenly WHAM, WHAM, WHAM, I was doubled over again in contractions, my month was opened, but I couldn't speak or yell. I keep mouthing the word wow wow wow. It must have gone on for 30 minutes, slow build up, then POW, a number of super-o's in a row. I was doing almost nothing, not thinking of anything in particular, not doing any exercises, just enjoying the ride from the Tempo!

My girlfriend comes in and I tell her that I have "borrowed" her Tempo, and she can see that I'm convulsing, she comes to bed and says, "you're hot". But of course, I've already had a 30 minute workout!

Checking back.

I'll be checking back with the Peridise beginner big one in a few minutes as I watch the Us Open just to see what it does for me now that I have more experience.