Well guys and girls I've never done a blog before so please excuse my writings. Been using a helix for about 6 months with little or no success, so decided to try mgx classic. Oh boy what a difference this made. I'll keep this blog update as I continue on journey.
Burning arousal in one go
More and more, it begins to dawn on me that Aneros isn’t really all that necessary for some good hands-free orgasms. Frankly, it’s been that case since half a year into my journey. Today, I had roughly an hours worth of crazy Dry-Os — letting it finally ignite from a spark of arousal. The spark in question often develops initially from innocent glimpses of anything eye-catching — like a pin-up girl, or a throw-away sex scene in a film. Crap like that are plastered all over the net and TV. It flies past my mind, but about five days after the refractory period, libido hits its peak. It becomes increasingly tough to ignore that imagery.
And Thursday was such a case — it felt amazing. My perineum, prostate, ass… all were warm, tingling and buzzing; just like what users on the forum report! Tumblr also proves its a fantastic source of porno, as much as funny posts and awesome projects. I precum’ed a little too, and although one shouldn’t, I see it as a barometer on how active the prostate was. Quite a bit, from the looks of it.
One nice aspect about Anerosless sessions is the ease of experimenting on stimulation. The device isn’t in there having a party and making some noise, so it’s easier to see what works on creating unique sensations. I practiced different hums to see which effects the abdomen, for instance. I also touched around the body and neck, varying between rubbing and tapping — the neck certainly gets the prostate active.
Fantasies, Kaleidoscopes and Ecstasy
Peppered throughout my writings are descriptions of prostate derived orgasms, or MMO’s as I call them as kaleidoscopic. In Aneros circles MMO’s are commonly refer to as super Os. Sometimes guys refer to the sensation of MMOs as pleasure waves )which I sometimes do as well(; however in many of my recent sessions I have been perceiving MMO’s as chains of kaleidoscopic orgasms that sensually morph from one ecstatic feeling to the next as they unfold. Each wave of pleasure reveals excruciating ecstatic sensations. Just as a kaleidoscope morphs and transforms one elegant richly detailed vision to another so does an MMO; the rhythmically pulsing spasms of orgasm transfigure themselves unfurling lush orgasmic sensations as they do. And just as I struggle to see and absorb the deeply vibrant images in a kaleidoscope, so do I also struggle to experience and savor the intense and overwhelming sensations of an MMO.
With my eyes closed I can sense the sensually erotic colors of pleasurable sensation. I do not really see the colorful vibrancy and chilling detail of an MMO but instead I envision it viscerally. I feel it as the enticing chill of ecstasy and as agonizing euphoria of cascading pleasure. It moves throughout my anal tract eventually permeating my entire body, its alluring fingers stroking my anal canal, tugging on my cock, squeezing my prostate, and coaxing my anus, teasing it to flex and spasm in paroxysms of erotic bliss. It makes my entire body quiver and my cock drip precum as I succumb to the exquisite echoes of orgasmic rapture.
A Fantasy and a Reality
When an erotic fantasy finds me it is like it has found a comfortable chair; it settles in and stays, relaxing and pondering the facets of its own lush eroticism. It has certainly been that way over the last week or so with my fantasy of sexual and emotional intimacy with A, a woman I volunteer with.
Last night I had a particularly pleasurable fantasy involving the two of us. It happened because I saw her at a meeting of the organization she works for, and that I volunteer for yesterday. As President I have a lot of interaction with her before, during and after the meeting. She is Secretary to the board.
The fantasies that I have that involve real people that I see all the time seem to be the dominant ones in the erotic landscape of my mind. Certainly the homoerotic fantasies I have at the pinnacle of MMO ecstasy are not realism based; when my anus is quivering and my prostate is pumping and my cock is lurching in convulsive orgasmic spasms my fantasies become surreal. Most of the time they involve a exquisitely muscled faceless guy who is exuding male sexuality; he is drilling my asshole with a massive erect cock whose shaft is tracked with rigid veins. The convulsive spasms of pleasure pumping deep in my own anal canal become spasms of his cock as it rhythmically pumps a thick hot stream of his sweet ejaculate deep into my anal cavity.
Not what I expected
I purchased the aneros product line for health reasons to help with urine, ED, and hemorrhoid issues. I currently have CPPS so wasn't sure if this was a great idea. I starting using the MGX, Helix and Progasm in March with limited results they were also causing my CPPS to flareup. I can only use these when laying down otherwise they slip out. So in April I purchased the peridise set to try. The peridise seemed to not make my CPPS flare as bad and I found that I didn't have to lay down to use it.
One day I decided to experiment and get creative so I inserted one of the peridises and went outside to mow the grass. While mowing after about 15 minutes I noticed a wave of pleasure in my groin area along with a need to pee. I wanted to finish so I kept mowing suddenly I felt like I was peeing but then it stopped. After finishing the grass I went to check on what had happened and found that it wasn't pee but that I had leaked pre cum all over and it was running down my leg. I have tried to duplicate this action several times with no success.
I have been using the other aneros devices with success for my urine and ED problems but they were still making my CPPS flare along with some hemorrhoid issues. Sometimes I will fall asleep with the Helix in and wake a few hours later with a raging erection, and some pre cum at that point I will remove it, but in the morning my cock is rock hard.
Joy & Pain )Round 2(
So I wake up in the middle of the night as usual. I feel the warmth of a man next to me. The memories of last night come flooding back. I glance over at him sleeping soundly. I dont have a clue of what time it is, there are no windows in here, but it feels like its really early in the morning before sunrise. I do notice he's only wearing his underwear, and only partially covered by the sheet, must have taken his clothes off at some point. He has a pretty nice body, my eyes wander to his crotch imagining whats behind that thin layer of fabric. I reach out and touch his chest, his skin is warm and smooth. I wonder if he feels that way all over, my fingers trail down to his stomach, then right above the waistband of his undies. I run my finger through the beginning of his happy trail…soft man hair nothing like it.
Emotions and orgasms
Some things I've learned about my emotions and helping others heal emotionally
• Need a sense of safety to feel emotions
• When safe enough, emotions come up to awareness and can be accessed
• The presence of someone who is trusted and comfortable with witnessing emotions facilitates the expression of emotion
• The safety of the setting facilities the expression of emotion
• The contrast between the safety of the setting and the lack of safety during the emotional hurt facilities the expression of emotion
• The contrast between the reality of our wholeness in the present and the insult to our wholeness in the past facilities the expression of emotion
• The contrast between the pleasure and sense of well being of multiorgasmic experiences and painful experiences facilitates the expression of emotion
• Have to let go of restraints so the emotions can physically express themselves
• Let go of ego
• Let go of fear
• Let go of social conventions
• Let go of expectations
• Let go of the rails at the top of the sliding board and slide down effortlessly , uncontrollably, wheeee!
• Letting go for expressing emotions like letting go to experience orgasms
• Emotions and orgasms are bodily expressions
• Emotions and orgasms are mediated throught our subconscious
• Sobbing, shaking, teeth chattering, violent vocalizations, crying, laughing are the physical manifestations of emotion
• They seem to come from our bodies where they are stored
• They seem to run for a while if allowed and then subside with some relief of tension
• Many thoughts may occur while they are running or no thoughts
• The thoughts may help to understand what the emotions are telling us
• Effort and intention is needed to understand
• Sometimes they tell us things we don't want to hear
• Sometimes their meaning is obvious
• Several emotions can run at the same time
• Their message can be hard to understand
• I don't worry about understanding them while they are running, I just observe and remember
•I often can't understand them afterwards
•I may understand them later
• Emotions may associate with painful memories, beautiful experiences, joyous experiences, connection with our true core essence
• The pain of feeling the emotion in the safety of the present isn't as bad as the original experience
• The pain of feeling the emotion is less than the pain and stress of holding it in
Six hours of ecstasy – 2 videos available. Comments encouraged.
With my wife out of town, I had time available for a long session. I lubed up with internal lube, vasoline and astroglide ultra gentle gel. I popped it in and very soon was cruising with calm seas about level 5 and peaks at about 8 or 9. After about an hour and a half, I indulged myself with a wet one. The endorphin rush pretty well knocked me out into a fitful sleep for maybe three hours.
I woke to pee and the Eupho was working its magic again. After about an hour and a half, I thought, "Gee, I should get a record of this." I set up the camera next to my bed and started the commentary, being interrupted by a couple of orgasms. I rolled over so I could display what was going on at butt level with the Eupho action. Interesting to watch it sucking in and popping out an inch or so as I came.
After about 15 minutes I decided that was enough, had a pretty big one and called it a day for the video.
However when I wanted to take a look at it, I could only see the first few seconds and it went away so I decided to make a second take and pretty much repeated the action.
What with checking out how the videos went and posting them, it was an hour or so until I finally was done, getting rolling orgasms all the way, and finally pulled the plug.
Awired50 Couple Adventures
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Starting to let go of myself and my fears.
This past week I had contact with my family in a way that stirred up anger and fear, which led to renewed feelings of self-loathing and doubt. Much of this anger and fear is about my parents and how they treated me in the past. The self-loathing came from seeing my parents as "evil" beings and seeing myself (unconsciously) as an extension of them.
That contact with my family ended on Friday. I have been reading about Buddhism and practicing Buddhist meditations lately, so I began that practice again on Friday in an attempt to "recover." I also attempted to have a session Friday night. While it was intense and pleasurable (especially since it had been a week since my last ejaculation) I found I wasn't able to "break through" into that special place where I am perfectly loved and accepted. In particular, at the gateway to that place I found an incredible loneliness and need for validation.
On Saturday I began reading some Buddhist discourse on fear and the nature of fear. Much of what I read talked about how many of our fears are an extension of the original fear of abandonment and death we develop when we leave the womb, since at that time being abandoned means death. I began to see how these ideas were at play in my relationship with my parents and my pattern of self-doubt. My parents are the type to love people conditionally, and I started to see why the fear of losing them caused me so much pain. I saw that that fear of abandonment was tied to my fears around death and survival. The book I was reading recommended meditative exercises where the inner (fearful) child was allowed to express these fears, and the adult self then comforted the inner child–reminding it that it can now survive on its own and give itself love.