This is a little different for me. This is a session i had, but i'll weave in my mental imagery as well. Quick note though )more for myself than others(, the guy in this imagery…STOP THINKING ABOUT HIM YOU IDIOT )yes i talk to myself like this ALL the time I need the harshness in order for me to stop being a nitwit(. This is NOT healthy…
Over and Done with….
5:45 am: I got in my car and headed home. Before walking outside I looked over my shoulder, one last glimpse, he's standing there. I feel my heart pause for a second. I take a deep breath and force myself to keep moving. My throat is tight, my feet feel heavy, my palms are sweaty. What I'd like more than anything is to run back into his arms and never let him go. I cant do that, we already talked about this. I'm at my car, I put my bag in the trunk, then get inside. I start my car and back out. As I pass the front door I look for him, don't see him. Eyes forward…I'm headed "home".
Back to "normal" life for me and far away from the fairy tale the last day and a half has been. Back to being alone. Back to sleeping alone. Back to cumming alone. Back to dreaming about a life I wont have. Tears continue to fall down my face, I have to learn to control this unnatural attachment to forbidden fruit. He wont miss me so why do I miss him? I'll be the one still feeling how perfectly he fit me, remembering how he touched all the right spots inside me effortlessly. Being a woman sucks, giving someone your body, the deepest part of you knowing its just sex for them really blows. Knowing its only a matter of time before he feels relatively the same thing with somebody else…really fucking sucks. However, its not my ploy to change him. I love him just the way he is, I want him happy, he's so much fun happy.
"Mind the Gap"
Mind the Gap – 31 May 2014
Between what you know, what you believe, and what 'is' there can be a gap.
The gap is huge here in AnerosVille. It has to do with psychic energy.
Don't talk about it. Don't acknowledge it.
Some guy shows up on the forums who is emotionally freaking out and we have no answers for him. Taboo subject here. Move along…nothing to see.
I think it was BMayfield who coined the term "Tantric Training Wheels" for the Aneros.
…oh really…..
And we gloss over what "tantric" actually implies and think only of extended orgasms.
Big Mistake.
Most guys don't even register that things are going on under the surface…within their psyche…their energy centers….things that are changing them from the inside out. Some guys do register it and are comfortable, some simply go directly to Freak Out mode. WTF is happening to me?? Somebody please help me!!
The Gap.
Belief systems crashing into physical manifestations.
There's a saying I love: "The mystic swims in that which the psychotic is drowning"
I'm not an expert, I'm not a trained mental health care professional. What I am, is experienced in some few mystical practices. Which is to say that, I spend at least some of my time walking in the gap.
Best Feeling Ever
So i wrote a blog a few weeks back about clothes and how things are my new obsession and how they help when i ride my beautiful toys. So right now I am riding my progasm ice with a new black thong on and it is making me feel so damn good. The string is forcing the progasm to go deeper inside my cunt and is bringing me so much pleasure. As I type I am reaching a mini o orgasm an i'm shaking and moaning so softly as each kegel thrust keeps the orgasm going. Oh i love this feeling. To have total contact with my prostate is the best feeling ever. I can fee it building up to a super right now and my soft dick is soaking my front thong with that clear love juice that flows effortlessly. ok I'm going to go enjoy more of this safe rides everyone and get your self a thong an see the different things it can do for you.
Paraphimosis woes [Updated]
Break from the norm once again: this time it's a medical condition effecting the sea-monster. Maybe you heard of this, or phimosis?
If not: Phimosis is when the foreskin is tighter than it should be, making retraction quite difficult, and possibly painful. Resolving it is quite straightforward, with stretching exercises — and if subscribed, steroid cream to assist the process.
But what if one allows the foreskin to remain tightly retracted, and let hard-ons occur? Then there's risk of the condition's older brother: paraphimosis. This is when the skin is trapped under the head, and by extension blood. Trapped blood can eventually cause bloated swelling to form, ballooning part of the shaft under the head. The (flaccid) result is this:
http://www.tabletsmanual.com/img/wiki/paraphimosis_1.jpg
Gross. And it can potentially swell to much larger degrees. Luckily, mine is only by that much, pictured above. Saying this, when errection does occur, the is compressed into a ring, or 'mane' of sorts, around the head.
I've had paraphimosis for as long as I can remember. Back in high school, I wondered why my skin wouldn't fully retract, but that never got me into a rut. Trying to do so did hurt, though. Early college days, however, I finally decided to pull my skin all the way down and saw what was by then paraphimosis. I was ignorant to this, of course, and simply assumed this gross appearance was me doing something I shouldn't off – namely pulling the skin too far back.
Paraphimosis woes
Break from the norm once again: this time it's a medical condition effecting the sea-monster. Maybe you heard of this, or phimosis?
If not: Phimosis is when the foreskin is tighter than it should be, making retraction quite difficult, and possibly painful. Resolving it is quite straightforward, with stretching exercises — and if subscribed, steroid cream to assist the process.
But what if one allows the foreskin to remain tightly retracted, and let hard-ons occur? Then there's risk of the condition's older brother: paraphimosis. This is when the skin is trapped under the head, and by extension blood. Trapped blood can eventually cause bloated swelling to form, ballooning part of the shaft under the head. The )flaccid( result is this:
http://www.tabletsmanual.com/img/wiki/paraphimosis_1.jpg
Gross. And it can potentially swell to much larger degrees. Luckily, mine is only by that much, pictured above. Saying this, when errection does occur, the is compressed into a ring, or 'mane' of sorts, around the head.
I've had paraphimosis for as long as I can remember. Back in high school, I wondered why my skin wouldn't fully retract, but that never got me into a rut. Trying to do so did hurt, though. Early college days, however, I finally decided to pull my skin all the way down and saw what was by then paraphimosis. I was ignorant to this, of course, and simply assumed this gross appearance was me doing something I shouldn't off – namely pulling the skin too far back.
Wonder
I often wondered why I don't hear more from other users here about the Vice. If it is the price, you can get it for around $80 and free shipping.
Anyone interested email me @ [email protected] for a link. nothing in it for me..Public Service Announcement :)
It uses all the same designs and activities of the original Aneros models. It just adds 9 different degrees of vibration, from subtle to intense !
With a blowjob..it's the most intense thing I have ever felt !
A Session
8:34am Sunday 25 May
It occurred to me to do a -less session, cold. and describe it.
I'm sitting at my computer desk, feet propped up.
since I've been thinking of this, I'm somewhat "warmed up" in that I feel the tingles and pulses a little bit.
8:36 relaxing, focusing on prostate. warm buzz in my heart, anal muscles gently doing slow pulsing, energy tingles thru legs, feet, arms hands, fingertips as I type.
:37 closed eyes for a bit….relaxing pelvic muscles more…feelings intensify, i notice tense shoulders and relax them. eyes open to type and the feelings all recede.
39 stronger P-Waves….but typing again kills it
40 prostate giving pleasure and the feelings radiate
43…at :40 I opened an image of a nude woman. feelings inside exploded. hand went naturally to nipple, intense orgasmic pleasure from prostate filling my whole body, intense energy throughout, my eyes involuntarily close, by head tilts back, mouth opens in silent cry. I'm gasping because I'm forgetting to breathe smoothly. the orgasm begins to pump, my anal muscles pump in time with it and my heart begins to feel full and pumping in time as well.
The sensations are so intense I can barely stand them, so I try to stay in them…relax into them.OMG it is so hard to relax and breathe…I want to scream, my hands are a little shaky as they now rest on my keyboard. again when I pause to type a sentence or two the sensations subside to a low, tolerable level.
Breathing meditation – revised
Guided breathing meditation
(I duplicated this entry because I edited it and wanted it at the top of my blogs. this meditation is similar to kundalini circular breathing)
(I've edited this blog after getting feedback from my Tai Chi teacher.)
I've started my sessions recently with this breathing exercise that I put together from several sources. I do it with any model aneros prostate massager. I like it because it gets me aroused from within without any stimulation. It may be of interest to men who have trouble getting aroused. I don't know if it will work for anyone else but me. Let me know if it works for you.
stage 1 oral breathing – to relax and circulate oxygen
Breathe into your abdomen relaxedly with your diaphragm, don't use your chest muscles.
You can put your hand beneath your navel to remind you and guide your breath to your belly.
With your mouth closed pull in air smoothly and slowly and gently through your nose.
Feel it as it flows down your throat into your chest.
Pause briefly, and then push the air out while saying"ahhhh" deeply so you feel it in your belly.
Exhale slowly and feel the air flow up out of your chest, up your throat and out your lips.
Pause briefly again and start over.
To All of My Aneros Friends
This last Friday, a great relief and release was experienced by my family. My father, 90 years old, who has suffered with Parkinson's disease for several years, passed away on Friday morning. Yes, it is bittersweet, but overall a good thing. He's with my Mom and many other loved ones – and no longer suffering. He went while he was asleep, peacefully. Thank you, Lord.
Brian