Forbidden Fantasy

I am in Seattle visiting my daughter and son in law. They have a great place out here; it is a tri level modern house with four bedrooms, one of which has total privacy on the lower level. That is where I am sleeping. I am here without my wife as I came to California on business and this was a side trip as long as I was on the west coast. I have been here four days so far … I will leave at the end of the week.

I have been spoiling them, cooking their favorite things and going out to eat. Yesterday my son in law )a volunteer fireman( had an evening meeting to go to at the firehouse and my daughter wanted to go to a book signing and lecture in Kenmore up on Lake Washington. I volunteered to go with her. The author was no one I was interested in; her books appeal to young and middle aged women. They are one step above chick lit. It was a really hot day yesterday, the first one we had since I came here.

As we drove into the parking lot in front of the bookstore I noticed a green space across the street, it looked like a park. I decided that maybe I would go and cool off by sitting in the park under the shade trees while she was in the book event; the trees shaded the lake and obscured the view of it.
We parked in the lot and my daughter went into the bookstore and I walked across the street to what I thought was a park. As it turned out the “park” was a club for member s only. It looked as it had a beach on the lake, a clubhouse and tennis courts.

Surprising New Interests

So when chatting a little while ago some interesting topics came up. I challenged myself to stretch my imagination a bit and here's what I came up with.

So generally I'm not into men who cross dress. I dont have a problem with it, its just not something I am usually drawn to. Maybe because so many men are not able to pull off wearing what could be considered "womens" clothing well. Well my mind was changed when I happened across a picture. After staring at the pic for a few minutes my mind went crazy so buckle up…enjoy the ride…

The first thing I noticed about the picture was the obvious. His outfit. It was obviously something that one would of course bill as a woman's outfit. A black mini skirt, and black lacy top. Both were snugly hugging his masculine body. The next thing I noticed was his face, then his facial expression. He looks so cunning, so confident, so very sexy in a super manly way. Its almost like he is playfully smirking at me, daring me to do what I was thinking. His presence can almost be felt. Nice pad…apparently is a hard worker. His daughter's pics on the fridge behind him remind me how great of a father he is. The washing machine beside the fridge makes me think of fucking him on top of it. Damn he looks sexy.

Another twist in the road of my journey

I found that I had unintentionally hijacked the topic in the"weed" forum discussion with my Salvia Divinorum experiences and thought that my descriptions of my experiences were more appropriate in a blog. So here it is. I'll keep updating it as I go.

June 25
salvia divinorum looks interesting; quick acting, short duration, not addictive, meditative affects, no hangover. I'm going to try it.

Wikipedia says "Mazatec shamans have a long and continuous tradition of religious use of Salvia divinorum, using it to facilitate visionary states of consciousness during spiritual healing sessions.[1] Most of the plant's local common names allude to the Mazatec belief that the plant is an incarnation of the Virgin Mary, with its ritual use also invoking that relationship"

June 26
Here's a poetic description of the Salvia Divinorum experience from the Pharmako/poeia by Dale Pendel:

"It's like a mirror with no frame: some don't see it at all; some do, but don't like what they see.

It's like cat paws, soft cat paws pressing, or like a bunch of bird tongues lapping the mind. Or like tiny fingers, the way ivy fingers reach out to climb a wall . . .

Some say it is a sensual and a tactile thing. Some say it's about temporality and dimensionality–that it's about time travel. Some say it's about the Root Energy Network, or that it is about becoming a plant.

Fantastic Session

TL;DR:
* Week of abstaining from anything erotic
* Builds libido perfectly for a session
* Sweet sensations, everything happens without any prompting
* Clamping solidly, continuously
* Allow breaks to naturally happen for around five minutes.
* Sex is on fire.
* I really hope the neighbours don't hear my moaning or humming.

Now I'm into a good routine of sessions! Every five to eight days or so is when the libido builds up enough that my mind urges for some sexual activity. That's something of a sweet-spot for Aneros session — and it's relatively new, first uncovered early into the abstaining for a month. The big build-up of libido in question is likely from divorcing myself of anything erotic during one week, most of all nipple stimulation, which can quickly cause an orgasm to burst the bubble. )However, it's great before a session to get some momentum going(

So basically, Aneros sessions of recent act as a valve to let off some sexual energy.

Or frustration; last night had a scenario of stressing needlessly on whether to have a session, partly due to the awkward after-effects detailed at the end. Pleasure waves began making unprompted rounds that day – a sign of libido hitting its peak. At the same time, I was feeling oddly grumpy and fed up. That alone can often break sessions, resulting in delaying them by a day or two. But I went with it. Besides, the Progasm may cause problems like last time and the session is only an hour.

Saturday Morning Syn

I woke up Saturday morning in the mood for a session, so I got up, took a shower and cleaned myself inside and out. My Helix Syn was already in the bathroom so I thought I would go ahead and insert it so as not to disturb my girlfriend, who I thought was still sleeping. All the lube supplies were in the bedroom, so I searched to see what was available in the bathroom. Ended up finding some petroleum jelly and vitamin E oil, so went with that…

To this point, I have had limited success with the Helix Syn. It was my first Aneros device, and was lucky to experience some minor contractions and sensations on only it's second use, but it was nowhere in comparison to the experiences with the Tempo and Progasm Jr.

Helix Syn inserted, into bed, I start by relaxing and just clearing my mind of everything, including the Helix Syn inside me. I find if I try and concentrate on it too soon, I clench up and things just don't move along. Instead of then starting out with the Kegel exercises, I like to use slow gentle hip thrusts to try and move the Helix up and down over my prostrate. The slower the better, you can also incorporate slow breathing to help further manipulate the device in rhythm with your hip movements.

Thought I Was Here Before

A had a revelation yesterday. What I thought I was experiencing wasn't quite as it seemed. I had had many super O's over the past few months, but now it seems that they weren't originating where I thought. The ones where I used my nipples to orgasm certainly were centered in the prostate, but the ones where I relied solely on the Aneros weren't. I now think that they were anal orgasms rather than solely produced from the prostate. I believe this because I finally reached a level that I thought was already experiencing.

The anal orgasms never felt quite the same as the nipple induced orgasms. They weren't as intense, but they could last longer and were more steady. A session on Friday gave me a hint as to this other level of sensation from the prostate. I started out with a Peridise then had a decent session switching to the Helix. For some reason I thought I'd try the Progasm afterwards despite it being uncomfortable 3/4 of the time. This time I discovered one way that I could avoid the discomfort. When I made sure my anus was relaxed the Progasm got more comfortable and there was more sensation from the prostate than I usually get from the Helix.

Back to Aneros!

TL;DR:
* Finally a session!
* It wasn't much.
* Ass rejecting the Progasm.
* Lingering arousal )Damnit…(
* Actually feels like I need to pee when touching the prostate now.

One month has fully passed! The goose was cooked, and it was time to see how a session would fair — but only until my body and mind had a wanting for one. Today felt like such a time, possibly due to a near wet-dream last night.

And I’d also try having a session during the day! It’d seem the most appropriate — I’m wide awake and it’s just me in the house. Perfecto.

So in goes the Progasm! And…the session wasn’t that great. It certainly wasn’t dud material, as some sensations swelled outside of my control, but it wasn’t the surprise smack that my previous session gave either. What gives?

For one, the Progasm was not staying put. This model kept trying to slide its way out, like my ass was pushing it out of bed. I’ve heard some customers have this issue, but I’d never thought it’d occur just like that. Usually the ass pushes when clamping down on orgasms, but even then, devices often stay put. So that got in the way of letting the Aneros do what it should.

Encounters with remarkable people

What is internet chat? Real time verbal interactions between people that can influence the minds of both in sometimes surprising directions and can potentially change one or both. Usually it's just fun banter with a natural rhythm and sometimes amusing chatter. Or boring. Occasionally I get the extraordinary encounters when I least expect it. Someone will slip into my heart somehow and I'll fall in love or feel a connection or emotion coming from them, or they'll feel an emotion coming from me. Sometimes I'll feel them physically touch my body, usually sexually but not always. Rarely I feel someone's negative angry energy. The actual talk can be about anything but acknowledges the extraordinary connection going on and calls for more presence of mind and focus. I've always remember doing this in face to face encounters in the past but have been too shy and insecure to fully participate. I would usually use my knowledge of our connection to hide behind their expectations of me and disappoint both of us. Now I can be fully present. They still surprise me and can make me feel nervous but I can better deal with that. I was a moderator of a discussion group for years and got to know the chatters from their words and my impressions as well as actually meeting some of them. It was a reality check. This was a group of people involved in a emotional healing technique of discharging emotions physically. I got to know and like many of these people and felt connections to them that have persisted. So I'm used to reading between the lines of chatter to the essential person. Some of my most remarkable encounters here been with a pair of individuals who are lovers and sought me out for some reason. I get powerful but different beautiful physical, emotional sexual reactions from both of them. I'm always surprised the next day when I remember our encounters. I fell in love simultaneously with someone else here once that surprised both of us. That was about the time my heart chakra was opening but that's another blog. Then there are the many private chats with people that leave both of us feeling a connection that's real. I think of the many guys who coached me in aneros and who I coached. There's a special place in my heart for them. I like the light touch of the typical banter as well. Of course there's nothing like being physical present with someone, being close enough to touch and be touched. Sometimes that's even too much for me but I want and need it all the same. What am I talking about? If you have to ask…

Happy to meet you, Mr. Progasm! Video available.

Well I was a little daunted seeing the progasm; it was pretty big, but I was getting those little twitches and twinges that I used to get when I was a kid and I knew I was getting laid that night. And my bunghole was nickering like a mare in heat so I decided to try making a video of it like I did with the peridise.

I squirted a bunch of lube in me, put the camera in place and turned it on, lubed the progasm, put it in, and it didn't take very long to really start working.

The main difference of this one from the helix was that this one was not mobile at all side to side, when I changed positions it popped right out; so I have to sort of keep pushing it back and now through the session. Interesting that the ride was really nice feeling and progasm him was really nice feeling in my butt and I had myself a nice set of lovely really high excitement orgasms.

I couldn't get to a real wet one at the end because I already had had one earlier in the day.

The video is now available at YuVuTu.com search for Aneros.

A lesson about loving others and myself.

About half an hour ago, I concluded the most profound session I've ever experienced. I have never written an account of a session before, so bare with me as I try to describe what was a deeply emotional and enlightening experience.

I'll start with a little background about myself. I'm a 30 year old single bisexual man living on the West Coast USA. I have been riding for about 2 years. I began riding after I read about Super-Os on the Internet and thought, "who wouldn't want to soup up their orgasms?" My journey began in hedonism, but as with so many others my path has twisted into a spiritual forest.

This twist began with my first Super-O this past November, or rather, the glow of love I found inside that Super-O. The past few years of my life have also been a quest to build self-compassion and heal old wounds, which is why I felt the need to nurture and explore that glow. Soon, my quest to sink deeper into the emotional dimensions of the Super-O and my life's spiritual quest were intertwined. I spoke with members about their spiritual experiences with the Aneros and tried to foster connection, began to meditate both in and out of sessions, and generally worked on loving and accepting myself. As time has passed, I developed the ability to have powerful a-less sessions, which made it easier to incorporate the practice into my life's journey.