The sessions I had on Saturday and Sunday were nothing to write home about. Not that I would be writing home to tell anyone about this! At any rate, Saturday night wasn’t disappointing, it’s just that nothing really happened, beyond a few light P-waves. Sunday night was a little better, with stronger waves attempting to push through but not quite making it. I’m still having trouble with the Progasm wanting to work itself out.
Now Monday night. What an interesting evening, even though it didn’t start out that way. I’d had the shower and cleaned up. I settled into bed with my Bose noise cancelling headphones. Some sexual Binaural beats from youtube while I looked at erotic photos of women. Then some meditative breathing followed by a couple of rounds of contractions. I had found out that my Helix Syn would be delivered Tuesday, and I suppose that was on my mind. As well as thinking about whether the Progasm was staying in place caused some preoccupation and really didn’t help me. I got up, used the washroom and had a drink and then re-lubed and re-inserted. I let my mind completely relax and didn’t think about much of anything. After a time, I started feeling some fluttering and slight movement of the Aneros. I let the wave move up my body and suddenly, SLAM! The Progasm was jammed in right to the handles, and tight! Holy cow, it felt like I could have hung from a clothesline! It stayed in me for a long time, although I wasn’t getting any really strong feelings of pleasure. It felt good, don’t get me wrong. Very good! It stayed tight like that and then eased off a bit, still buried deep. The rock hard erection that had popped up, faded away too. I was all set to do a few contractions and enjoy whatever came next, but a four-legged varmint decided to change all that. My cat decided to move, and wouldn’t you know it the damn thing decided to park right against my ass! Okay, so that’s coitus interruptus!
So I got up, had a dart and read for a while. I had removed the Progasm, cleaned it and put it away. It was getting quite late and I wasn’t really up to more. Nonetheless, I laid down on my side with a pillow between my knees. I thought a few nice P-waves would be a nice way to finish the night. So, I contracted everything tightly and held until I started to shake. Then, I started feeling a light flutter around my anus, tingling in my butt cheeks and a different kind of wave gently starting to spread. I knew regular breathing would probably block it out, so I tried something different. Half breaths, with exhalation loudly and forcefully through a circular mouth. As I exhaled, I forced my emptying belly inward and down toward my centre. The wave would come back a little stronger each time I did that. My prostate and perineum started coming alive and I noticed that I was involuntarily moving. My head was moving down and my knees were drawing up as I finished each exhalation. I started shaking and soon I was moaning and groaning loudly, without even thinking about it. I was clenched up in a tight ball and my penis felt like it was ready to ejaculate. Outside sound and space vanished. It lasted for maybe 5 seconds and then eased. After a moment I contracted and released again. It started to build, I changed my breathing, and BAM! Curled up in a little ball again! More vocals, a little louder and more special breathing, and it stayed about 10 or 15 seconds. I felt like I was onto something unbelievable and so I did it 4 more times, each one a little more intense. Then I thought I’d better stop as my back was getting a little sore. Go to the kitchen and read and back to bed about 20 minutes later. While I’m reading, I can still feel fluttering throughout my lower abdomen, scrotum and prostate. Okay now, seriously, it’s time to go to bed. Onto my stomach for sleep. But the devil in me says, c’mon! Try it on your stomach. Yep, it worked, except that now my head is sliding down the bed and my ass is heading for the ceiling. And my penis dragging along the flannel sheets as I head skyward really intensifies the feeling of ejaculation, even though nothing is actually happening. I did it one more time like that and decided that position bears future investigation! Once more, then 2 more times on my side and now it’s really time for bed. 2:45 am and I’ve been at it for about 5 hours. I had a few gentle p-waves as I drifted off to sleep with, I’m sure, a smile on my face!
Tag: Breathing
And On Into A New Day!
So, after last night’s revelations of ecstasy, I slept like the dead. When I awoke this morning, my body felt serene and at peace, and oddly, still in a very heightened state of arousal. While I was eating my cereal, I couldn’t keep my hands off my nipples. I was fluttering and lightly p-waving and then I had my shower. I have the shower head on the usual needle setting and when I used it to clean the undercarriage, the feeling was unbelievable! Tingling and fluttering and butterflies blowing alpenhorns! Gawd, I couldn’t keep my hands off myself and I wandered around the house naked, stroking my neck, nipples, sides, ass cheeks and legs. What the hell? Why not give it a try. As soon as I crawled back into bed, I could feel waves starting. Pillow between my legs and a very little contraction, and I was soon breathing my way into 4 more! Then two more on my back! A little while later, two more in my easy chair! After lunch, two more in my kitchen chair and another two in the easy chair! Even now, as I type this, I can feel how my body is disconnected somewhat and if my abs weren’t sore, I’d do some more. But first, I’m off to the post office to pick up my Helix Syn!
Extended Practice Time
Warmed up the room, used low light to encourage relaxation, and got everything I needed for a session laid out. After some relaxation breathing, anal muscle flexing, and setting up some calm background music, I was ready and eager to start.
My body eagerly took in the device, much like last time. Although I started on my back to let my anus pull the device all the way in, I soon rolled onto my right side to try out the traditional Aneros position – lower leg straight, upper leg towards chest – as last time it provided nice sensations. The last bulb was again right on the cusp of bring out and in, so this time I gently nudged it all the way in to the hilt.
Following some advice on an archived post on the forums, I tried a “newbie do nothing” approach at first to see where it would take me. According to the post, the first half hour was to let my body and mind relax, and forget the Peridise was even inside me. The music and breathing exercise helped me calm, and for the most part I could barely feel the device. After around fifteen minutes of not much of anything, I could feel something going on in my inner anus, behind my testicles, and very slightly on the underside of my scrotum. It’s hard to describe; it was like a very vague, gentle throb that was accompanied by sweet feelings centered around that whole area. It lasted around a minute or so, then subsided. I kept trying to stay relaxed, and after five or so more minutes, it happened again, for about the same duration. Around ten minutes after that, it happened again, but for a very slightly longer duration. It felt great, and at no point did I get an erection, but my scrotum definitely reacted, by pulling my testicles closer to my body and getting stiffer on the surface.
New experience
Just received my first Aneros message toy. I’ve read everything on the g spot so I kinda understand it. I followed information and had a relaxing evening and cleaned myself, shaved and showered. Room temp up and lights out. Here I go. Relaxed, breathing and lubed. Felt with my finger to get familiar. Couldn’t feel my g spot. Inserted my new friend and got no resistance. Just like stated it’s like it came home. Perfect shape. It almost pulled from my fingers. I tried the side position leg straight other bent. Pulsating muscles and feeling where it is taking my time. Tried on my back knees bent. Tried squatting to feel change. Even tried standing and that feeling was good.
Question to the experience, I’m assuming I’m feeling the right spot do you just keep pressure there or bump and grind it?
Anyway, I spent about 3 hours feeling around. Got some good feelings but I’ll keep trying.
Experiments & Hypotheses
Turned the heat up higher than usual, kept the bedroom nice and warm so that I wouldn’t have to worry about clothes, covers, or chills. Did some yoga breathing, then added gentle flexing and relaxing of anal muscles with them. No precum yet, but my body was relaxed and ready – been looking forward to this since the last session.
Used the same amount of lube and massaged some in, then put a layer on the device. My body was eager to take it in; it pulled it in to the first bulb with little resistance. With some gentle muscle movements, eventually it slid in just on the cusp of the last bulb, which stayed half inside and half outside of my outer sphincter. Started out on my back again, with legs bent, and small movements and contractions felt good. Squatted for a while again, which had a similar effect as last time, kind of encouraging my anus, inner sphincter, and rectum to wake up. Tried lying with my legs up at a right angle, resting on a cushion (a forum user really likes this position with the Peridise), but after a while of trying it out, it really wasn’t doing much for me.
Exciting progress!
The last few days were not achieving much. A few little buzzes but nothing at all like I’d been experiencing last weekend. So I went back to then and determined what had worked and also did some more reading. In the Archives, Rumel had a post called Instructions. After reading it thoroughly, I realized I was getting in too much of a hurry. And after posting a question about my Progasm popping out, BigGlansDC reminded me that I have to keep working on the kegels. So I did my usual routine and got into bed did 15 minutes of deep breathing exercises. Before I was finished, I had become used to the Progasm being in place and could no longer feel it being there. Then I started about 20-30 anal contractions as per the instructions. And then, onto the next stage of doing hard deep contractions and holding them through several breaths, until my pelvis and upper legs started to shake. I did at least 30 of these and then began to relax, but remembering what BigGlansDC had said about kegels, I remembered to keep a little contraction going, just enough to hold the Progasm in. As I do more kegels through the day, every day, I’m hoping to get to the point where I don’t even realize that I’m doing a small contraction to hold it in place. When I get to that point, I’ll be able to take that focus away and give it to my prostate sensations.
Well, wow! It wasn’t long before I could feel contractions happening all on their own! This peristalsis was rocking that Progasm all by itself, leaving me with nothing to do but face and embrace the oncoming wave.
I could feel a wave of energy emanating from my prostate/pelvis upwards through my abdomen. My package felt felt like it was wet, and indeed, I could feel true wet coming from the tip of my penis. As I relaxed even more, I forced myself to keep breathing, and ended up panting. As the wave moved through my chest, I could feel another wave starting in my head. When it was pretty much all consuming, I lost sense of everything around me. My eyelids were flickering. I could hear the inside of my mouth making a sound like pop rocks fizzing, but without the taste or feeling. My head felt like it was turning to see things around me, but my head wasn’t moving and my eyes weren’t seeing. This went for at least 2 minutes. When it began to ease, I refocused my mind, so to speak, on my prostate and I could feel the wave coming again. Again with the wetness, both real and imagined. Again with everything. This happened 4 times in total, and then 2 or 3 times to a lesser degree. After about 5 minutes, I started contractions again, and again I felt it start up. I did this cycle about 3 times, and although the second and third cycles were good, they weren’t quite as good as the first.
I found that inhaling in deep in the abdomen, and finishing my exhale quickly would start the wave and then I could focus on it and where it was coming from. Almost like pulling something that was already moving.
I had promised myself last week that I would let today be my day to have a T.O., but I’m not sure if want to do that. Although I do get horny again pretty quickly afterwards. Part of me wants to keep this up. I’ll have another session tonight and see what I feel like. Then I may hold off a few days until my Helix Syn finally arrives.
The Journey So Far
So I have a MGX Trident and I’ve used it maybe a dozen times over the last 6 months or so. I figured I’d share what I’ve learned in case anyone out there can benefit from it.
For lube, I use only olive oil. It’s a bit expensive, but I know it’s safe to eat and I feel like if you’re going to stick stuff up your butt, it should probably meet that minimal criterion. To help get things going I use a standard 10cc syringe (without a needle of course) and put about 4ccs of olive oil right up in there. Then slowly work the Aneros in and out 2 or 3 times until everything is nice and slippery.
Then I just relax and basically try to do beginners yoga meditation. Close your eyes. Breathe in for 5 seconds and out for 10 seconds. Then relax your bladder and bowels. Just relax them, do not “bear down”. Never clench any muscles or exert any force anywhere. Your only goal should be to find more and more muscles that can be relaxed. It’s slow to get it started, but after about 45 minutes I start to have two distinct types of orgasms.
The first kind is centred on the tip of the penis. There will be a lot of tingling and generally good feelings down there. Sometimes I get slightly hard (briefly) and sometimes there are contractions that stimulate a few drops of precum or urine (or both?) to come out, but never an actual ejaculation. So these orgasms have no ejaculatory refractory period and will occur repeatedly. People here sometimes call them “dry orgasms”.
Excited to Keep Going
Before starting tonight, I made sure the bedroom was warm and the lights were low. Sat a while with eyes closed and just breathed deeply. After a bit, started gently flexing anal muscles in sync with breathing, taking a break a few breaths, then repeating. By the time I felt ready for the session, I was already leaking precum – a good sign!
Massaged lube in and around anus; was so relaxed and ready that the devise slid right in. My body practically devoured it; it really wanted it inside me. Barely had to flex anal muscles to bring the device into position, but still took some time to do gentle contractions and relaxations. Started out on back with legs bent in a comfortable position – contractions made movements inside my anus that felt good. Tried lying flat out on back again with the same result; more pressure on prostate and sweet feelings in my gut. Decided to try squatting for a while, and surprisingly, it seemed to really wake up my anus / anal canal / muscles a lot. Could feel the device moving very slightly on it own, and whole area being stimulated. Went back to lying down with legs bent, and it was like my body had activated itself. Had some involuntary anal spasms that felt wonderful. At times it felt like the device was going all the way in and all the way out, but feeling with my fingers, it was barely moving.
An Unexpected Surprise!
Monday night, I received a little surprise. My kids are grown up and moved out, so when my wife and I separated, the only custody issue we had was the dog. It was my turn to host the mutt for a few days, so I wasn’t planning anything, as she sleeps on my bed and takes up more than her fair share. Ever notice how dogs do that? Anyway, I got into bed, (the portion I was allowed) and laid down on my stomach to sleep like I always do. I thought I would do some kegels, since I’ve been enjoying the fitness aspect and the knowledge that these exercises will help me with my journey. I had read a couple of entries by BigGlansDC and decided to start with step one and two. I completed the exercise and as usual, played a little movie in my head to drift off to. This time I was thinking about the wood walkway I was going to build in the near future. Suddenly, I felt a little wave starting! So I totally relaxed, and did some slightly deeper breathing. The wave built up, but didn’t turn into anything huge, but just pleasant. What was bigger for me was the fact that my Progasm was safely tucked away in her bed on the dresser, and I had done this with about 3 minutes of kegels. During the day, while I was driving and doing errands, I would do some and I could feel a little flutter in my lower abdomen. It’s day 3 of SR, and I was masturbating at least every other day, sometimes, two or three days in a row. I think that holding off on my TO’s is definitely helping.
So I did a few more contractions, and a few minutes later, I had another one! I’m so overcome that I’m discovering the unleashing of this power after only 7 days!
Session 6-Success!
I know that I decided to take a break for a few days from the Progasm, but here it was the next day and I was getting a little worked up. Reading other experiences made me to eager, what can I say? So I ran through the usual evening rituals, and decided to try Astro Glide Anal Gel for a change, instead of the Vaseline. Erotic stimulation, then insertion. Relax for a few minutes, then start exercising, working the anal and lower abs and rectum as well. Deep sobbing or ragged belly breathing for about 20 minutes. Then I lay back in the dark, no other stimulation aside from simple fantasies running through my head. I had one wave start, but I wasn’t able to keep it going. Aside from a few minor starts that quickly died, it was not a dud at all, as it’s all learning, but there were no fireworks. No worries. Learn from it and move on, right? The session had lasted about two and a half hours, and it was time to clean up and go to bed.
With my Progasm safely tucked away in her own little bed, (what a great storage box they send!) I laid down as usual on my stomach and prepared to drift off. After I lay there for about 15 minutes, fantasizing bemusedly about introducing a girlfriend to my Aneros tool box, I felt a little wave just barely starting. For a laugh, I decided to contract my rectum a little and see what would happen. Holy Cow! It started to build. I had my legs pretty much together and one arm tucked under my pillow as I always do. I figured that it would start to fade as it usually does when I’m on my stomach. It didn’t fade. The more I contracted, the more it built up. My arms and legs were starting to shake a little, and the more I squeezed, the more I shook. If I eased off, they would ease off too, so I would contract more and it would hit harder. You couldn’t have fit a sheet of paper between my ass cheeks. Then my legs were bouncing off the sheets and then my whole pelvis bucked a couple of times. I could feel moisture seeping out of the edge of my eyes. My penis and balls felt like they were swollen to an enormous size. I kept up with the contractions as long as possible, panting shallow breaths. I probably should have stopped contracting and shallow breathing to see if it would build, but since it’s early days yet, I just wanted to enjoy it! I think it went on for at least five minutes and I felt I had to ease off and give my glutes a break. I sat up on the side of the bed, wiped the small tears from my eyes, and started chuckling and saying Wow, over and over. After about five minutes, I returned to my usual sleep position, but, just out of curiosity, I started contractions again and it right away started building up again! Not to hips bucking off the bed, but leg shaking and that same all enveloping feeling of tingle and well being. I could sense a deeper primal power throughout my body again. When I couldn’t carry on, again I let it subside and rested for about two minutes. Then again and again, four more times, resting in between. By the fifth time, my muscles were pretty much done, and I finally gave up. Now I don’t know if the first one was a Super-O or the even the other ones, but my reading has indicated that the shaking will subside and I’ll learn much more. The coolest thing is whatever it was, it was A-less!
The next day as I driving around, doing errands, I was practicing my kegels, I could feel sensations building up, and I couldn’t help but wonder just how well my re-wiring is going!