A Night of Bliss

After dinner a few nights ago none of my friends were on line and J was upstairs in the studio working, it was very quiet. I sat at this keyboard motivated for erotic interaction. As is usually the case when that happens I decided to spend some time on erotic writing. So at 8 PM I began editing a strategic part of my novel. It is done but I find great joy in going back into it and tweaking the story. For me, the primary purpose of the novel is to stimulate my arousal and the rewrite effort does that big time. The chapter was describing an intimate interchange between a man and a 19 year old daughter of a good friend. The narrative really got me worked up.

Anyone who has read my blogs or knows me knows that I am attuned to giving pleasure. In my limited experience with guys I really love to do oral and frot, but with my lovely lady it is oral sex on her that is the epitome of my intimate interaction with her.

so close…..

Last night I felt like trying again. It felt as if something had changed. I had identified guilt as a possible cause of my blockage and was determined that I needed to enjoy myself and not care what anyone else thought, so even though I didn’t know if my wife was asleep I started to build the feelings and sink into an orgasm.

I didn’t have an orgasm despite an hour trying with and without the aneros. It did feel good, and I was close for a long time, I even felt the sensation of falling into an orgasm starting twice the first one within minutes of starting, a real pleasurable orgasm, different to the weak watery orgasms I have had in the last week which were more just like a release of muscular tension without any pleasure waves. But they didn’t actually happen. I didn’t quite fall over the edge, in fact I think I was a bit nervous of it. It felt a bit like trying to start a petrol engine, it fired a few times but never actually got going on its own.

I don’t feel totally devastated about this as I might have done a few days ago. It was actually good and I can feel something lifting. I regard it as another step on the journey and I feel that I can be patient because I really think it will happen again.

Golly! That crazy gizmo really works!

Yeah, that night last week was pretty weird. It's a week later now, and I can't really see the reason why that was. Several of my experiences with prostate massage have been colored by temporary apprehension and uncertainty. That's not a bad thing. You don't make progress if you never leave your comfort zone.

The a-less orgasm is the worst tease I've known. I can get it started with some consistency, but my skills are not strong enough to maintain it or really crank it up. The times when an a-less glides into a few contractions or jumps to an abdominal clench are nice surprises. My a-less experiences are taking a path remarkably parallel to the path my a-full ones were taking just a few weeks ago.

My sessions are steadily becoming more satisfying by introducing a little auto-foreplay. I like to start with some porn, encouraging an a-less orgasm to simmer, and, if it wants, surge to a gut-busting spasm. I resist inserting until a few drops of pre-cum dribble out of my cock.

Last night was the best session I've had yet. I've been hesitant to use the “super-O” label for myself. I figured that was for people who'd worked much harder than I have–people with skills much more developed than mine. I have no doubt last night's session qualifies. Several prior sessions would have qualified, in fact, but last night's was all that and a bag of chips.

Anal Orgasm

Friday night after an early dinner J went to my daughter’s house about an hour away to go to a late movie near her house and stay overnight. It’s been nice that the two of them have become movie buddies; they go to chic flicks on a regular basis. I am happy that my daughter is able to spare me from going to movies that I would rather not see. It was a 9:20 PM showing so J decided ahead of time to spend the night in my daughter’s apartment which is 10 minutes from the theater rather than drive the hour to come home. So I slept alone that night.

After chatting with some friends on line and doing some minor work related writing I headed up to bed. Alone time in the house or in a hotel is always time that I use for prostate massage. Most of my MMO sessions are done with nothing inside me with J in the bed next to me; the sensations from a massager less session are lush and deep and subtle. Massager-less sessions are lower to build up but they never fail to get my precum flowing profusely when they are in full bloom. I love doing them.

Blocked again?

I had sex with my wife for the first time in months last night. My erection was instant and harder than I remember it ever being even when I was a teenager, and when I came it was stronger than previously, she even commented on how strong it felt.

I haven't managed to have a prostate orgasm for a few days now. I have sort of lost interest a little bit in a good way )have to get on with normal life(, although I'm not sure how I feel really. It was so intense last week I'm almost pleased to feel a bit less addicted. I have tried to bring on an orgasm several times but not really succeeded.

I'm really trying to analyse how to 'cross over' into an orgasm. I can get so close within moments of trying but actually turning it into an orgasm is proving elusive. Thinking back to when I had my first super-O I had not cum for 3 days, and had masturbated several times without climaxing, so there must have been some sexual tension there to start with. I was then so excited about what I had experienced that it just sort of carried on and I didn't even question my ability to go into a super-O for a few days and on the second day I even had an A-less orgasm within minutes of trying.
Two nights of super-Os made me tired, then I couldn't make it work and I got over emotional about that and couldn't sleep, I was working long hours, and it's been hit and miss since and I haven't really caught up with sleep. I have had to lower my expections.

Long week

I felle as if I am finally starting to integrate my new found ability with normal life. Today is the first day that I haven't been constantly thinking about my next super-O and worrying whether it is going to happen.
After a long week and long hours at work I am as usual very tired. I really think that I will just sleep tonight so it will be first day without a super-O. Maybe not a bad thing I feel a bit more in control now.

Helix feels too small

The only sensation I get from my helix is on my stomach and clenching with all my might for a slight tickle. It's incredibly easy to insert and jus feels so small. Should I look at getting a Maximus or Prograsm or am I doing it all wrong.

Im new, and I feel like I might be doing it wrong?

Im temporarily using soap (Or nothing) as lube, and I feel a slight discomfort with inserting and that is all. Once in I feel nothing bad, but Im also not feeling anything that would be on my prostate? I can manually stimulate my prostate by using my hand to move the Helix, but I cant with my anus muscles. Which brings me to the main question.

How should I be using the Helix? Should I clench my anus or use the muscles that would stop me from peeing mid stream (they also affect my anus muscles but in a different way). Is the lack of lube why Im not feeling anything?

Also, I know lube is important, I havent gotten any yet unfortunately.

21 day challenge

So i like to make my journey with aneros and prostate play interesting anyway i can. I have 4 models a fleshlight and so many cock rings and ball stretchers for penty of gooning and edging. But I wanted to do a more in depth to my sexual pique an see how far down the rabbit hole I can go. Now I have done the 21 day challenge before and it was amazing. It is a blog here of my results. But with having so much experience under my belt I wanted to see how far I can go with out having a wet orgasm or even a penile orgasm. I want all the energy to come from my ass and move through out the rest of my body. Maybe to my balls or maybe to my dick head. But I want to see what my prostate can trigger in me that has not been triggered before.

I am already on day 4. I have edged and gooned to the point of a raw dick (i love jacking off lol) but even still the feeling i get are just mind blowing. I have a steel ball stretcher and to have my saggy balls yanked down with my Progasm Ice going crazy in my hole just was mnd blowing. I instantly felt stirring my my ass and then felt energy run through my chest. My nipples got rock hard as if I had been pumping them for hours. I began to pour pre cum all over my self even leaked a few pew drops when I reached my peak or orgasmic bliss.

Thinking about getting one…

I'm relatively new to prostate massage and think I've found my prostate. I am 5'3 so I'm on the shorter side and my prostate can be reached with my thumb. Since I don't have much experience with this stuff I was torn between the SGX and the Helix. Will the helix be too big?

If anyone had both and could post a comparison pic that would be great. Thanks!