Tag: Involuntaries

Another mini-O after months and months.

I finally have had another mini-O with my Progasm! And it was glorious feeling! Only about 7.5 months since my last one. And it hasn't been for a lack of trying. What I find odd is that this was only a few hours later after I had a super-T today. Totally unexpected as my ass and prostate was feeling rather aroused and ready for another Aneros session. I had forgotten how the orgasmic feeling spreads outwards while the involuntary anal contractions happen and there is this feeling of giving in to it. So wonderful feeling, and certainly kind of dream like too. I wanted it to go on and on, but it only lasted probably as long as a regular ejaculatory orgasm. And I wasn't able to make any others happen within the same session.

What I find interesting was that I was focusing on and paying attention to this imaginary convergence of where the stimulation of the perineum from the P tab occurs and the Aneros body stimulating my prostate. That's what seemed to make it happen while relaxing, letting it happen, and stimulating my nipples. Damn it was good! I so want to be able to do this rather regularly! I'm confounded as to what the answer is for that to happen. It's been over eight years since I started this journey. I've certainly been a slow grinder making progress. Ah well… I'll take what I can get. It was amazing feeling to have this tonight and I'm thankful for it.

My first experience

So my first experience with my new Helix syn was quite something. How it would be classified I'm not sure but god did it feel good.

Time was a bit of a blur so I'm not sure when things happened but I know I was in bed for an hour. I started off relaxing in bed while lying on my side. The first sensations I remember noticing were of the syn sliding out. After checking a couple of times I realised that it had started to move slightly on its own. I then began to concentrate on these feelings while deep breathing and really got into the feeling of the movement inside me. I then noticed a fizzing sensation in a location I can only presume is my prostate. With deep breaths and small contractions I could set off waves of fizz which was highly sensual and got me very aroused. However at this point for what ever reason I lost concentration and as quick as the feelings had started they dissappered. I was able to get back to this stage again but I got no further. At this stage I would say that was a good first session and I was very happy with my experimenting. Read more »

The Sexual Ecstasy of an INFJ

A number of years ago I took a Myers Briggs personality test. The other day as I was cleaning out old files and papers in my desk, I came across a folder with my resumes, it contained the results of that test. It was a very interesting read; I had not read it in a long time. Beyond the fascinating insights it gave me in its explanation of decisions that I have made in my career after I took it, it was particularly intriguing when I considered it in the context of my sexual journey. I had taken the test in my late 30’s before I began on this path of erotic discovery.

The first thing I did before I read it and prejudiced myself about its results was get on line and take it again. I scored it after carefully answering all the questions; I was pleasantly reassured that nothing had changed in 30 years, I was still an INFJ.

The interpretation of each MB type was explained in a set of profiles that accompanied the test on line. For an INFJ like me the summary profile said that I sought meaning in relationships, ideas, and events. Relative to the last several years of my sexual journey I had indeed done that; I had joined some sex forums but left them because they were shallow and a lot of the talk on them was inane. However, every forum that I was on I met people who became close personal friends in my real life off the forum establishing meaningful relationships with them. Read more »

Ghost Butt

Writing this the day after because I had to savor the events… Been about 2 weeks since my last ride, and my taint softened up a bit again. I only say this because when I ride more consistently, my perineum gets tougher and the P-tab isn't so aggressive feeling.

Oh, and no sex of any kind for maybe 4 days… the glands were throbbing to drain! I plugged in my Pro Jr. and practiced contracting my actual anus, not just the PC muscles. In about 10 minutes, I was getting major involuntaries and new stimulation from the K-tab. I'm guessing my ass is building some amazing strength from these sessions.

Ballooning my abdomen by taking in a slow belly breath added even more pressure, and I got some great rapid anus contractions in return, almost like a machine gun. When these fired off, my penis erected and I spasmed shut. My glutes contracted rhythmically and added movement to the locked up Aneros. Then all hell broke loose and I was grunting loud into my pillow, my body tense as fuck. When it was over, I had kicked everything off the bed. Read more »

Weed

tried weed last night- two good puffs. Has been years and it was strong.

Jumped in a hot bath, watched some porn, then out for my session with Kelly Howell's ecstasy on. Definitely immediate and powerful session. Lots of involuntariness, i thunk a mini-o or two. And and overwhelming sense of how deep and good it could feel.

The weed allowed a free-floating clutter-less mind interestingly and a deeper sense of relaxation. But typical of weed, questioning the fleeting past moment's actions led to questioning if "that" just happened and/or did I do that or was it involuntary. However, that became the fun and the game to see how deep and wonderful it could feel. I topped up about 3 hours in and couldn't regain where I was so went on to a super T. I did sleep with it in and nothing to report.

Now I question if its worth the artificial stimulant- short circuiting the re-wiring process- or should I not try any more weed and go back to 'normal'.

Fun times on this journey!

Weird

Things get weirder and weirder, in a nice way.

My last 4 orgasms have been interesting. They haven't lasted long. Each time I start to orgasm I feel my pleasure ramping up rapidly but I don't have time to enjoy it much because I feel something building that I have to concentrate on. It's a very deep almost unbelievably powerful pleasure, maybe just another super-O I'm not sure. It sits there and I have no option but to feel it build, my whole body convulsing uncontrollably, but with anticipation rather than any realised pleasure. Each time it gets stronger and it's driving me mad that I can't have it. Each time it seems to get closer I think it's starting to spread and then it stops, and eventually I have to give in because the pressure is starting to get uncomfortable and I have to stop. I try relaxed observation, I try just enjoying it and feeling the pleasure building, but it's like my body just can't quite accept it yet and give in to it, it's too powerful for me.
Somehow if feels like a super-O building, but in other ways it feels different, even more powerful. I will only know once it hits me and I can't wait because it's going to be good. Read more »

Aneros session for Thursday June 18, 2005

Hi guys,

I have been blessed by some really pleasurable Aneros sessions lately which have left me with really amazing Aless!

This morning I tried in order the following models: Maximus, Helix Classic, Tempo, and Progasm Ivory.

After a brief jaunt to a neighborhood to get some food, I started with Maximus. Maximus and I this morning interacted well, but not well enough as in other sessions. So I went on to Helix Classic which hit all the right places today. Abundant pleasure resulted which spurred me on to Tempo and Progasm Ivory which continued the upward trajectory of Aneros pleasure!

The reason why I use multiple models in my sessions is that where one model may not perform up to expectations, another model can fill the bill!

This morning my Aless feels like my body is in a continuous, yet minor boil. I am savoring the sweetness of this Aless feeling like my body is riding the edge of ejaculatory inevitability. Take care!

The Road to Enlightenment Is Not Always Paved, Even, or Straight

After my excellent Peridise experience at work, I was hoping for some advancement with my Progasm. But I had a pretty uneventful bedtime session )2+ hours( following steps that had been fairly successful previously. The next night, I opted for the Peridise and experienced another unrewarding session. I was going to lay off for awhile, but I couldn't resist trying another work session with the Peridise and had only limited response from my body. Disappointed to say the least! But that night, following my workout, I inserted my Progasm at bedtime, fell off to sleep, and was awakened with an erection great p-waves. The intensity ebbed and flowed for at least an hour with the best sensations I can recall.
I took my Peridise on a my weekend trip and inserted it on Saturday night with no meaningful results. Upon arriving home from my trip, I followed the same steps that have been successful with my Progasm two nights prior. Some ok sensations, but nothing memorable in what would have to be classified as another step backward.
Oh well, Rome wasn't built in a day, and clearly neither is my rewiring and enlightenment.

Intense

Yesterday was a very intense day. My first dry orgasm for ages, a state of ecstacy during the day and almost a full Kundalini experience out of nowhere.
Then it went quiet. I felt very stressed as if all my progress over the last week was for nothing. My children were misbehaving, one developed a fever. I tried for another orgasm last night but couldn't relax into it. My wife was very stressed and I could feel it and that didn't help, disappointment set in again.
I couldn't sleep and now I'm tired at the start of a 60 hour work week.
Yesterday I was flying and progressing, now I'm grounded but not in a spiritual sense. Time to relax and see what happens it's probably all for a purpose.

A Night of Bliss

After dinner a few nights ago none of my friends were on line and J was upstairs in the studio working, it was very quiet. I sat at this keyboard motivated for erotic interaction. As is usually the case when that happens I decided to spend some time on erotic writing. So at 8 PM I began editing a strategic part of my novel. It is done but I find great joy in going back into it and tweaking the story. For me, the primary purpose of the novel is to stimulate my arousal and the rewrite effort does that big time. The chapter was describing an intimate interchange between a man and a 19 year old daughter of a good friend. The narrative really got me worked up.

Anyone who has read my blogs or knows me knows that I am attuned to giving pleasure. In my limited experience with guys I really love to do oral and frot, but with my lovely lady it is oral sex on her that is the epitome of my intimate interaction with her. Read more »