Tag: PC

Concentration & Abstaining

I should probably mention again that my blog only really receives entries on new developments. Given that I'm somewhat at the end-point of my journey, it's less and less apparent that new sensations and heights come up. But hey! Great sessions nonetheless.

Otherwise there has been a new direction I've taken on my approach to orgasms, these past few weeks; focusing on fantasising. Just admitting this brings a tinge of dirty and reclusive guilt. Still, I think all men use fantasy one way or another.

How the gears turn for me is that I focus on a mixture of sensations and fantasy. It's a dance between the mind and body. Now, the Aneros has been out of commission for roughly a month now due to continuing issues with the ass — and will continue for at least another. In response, sensations have taken a back seat. I have been concentrating a lot more on maintaing a fantasy in the brain, without breaking focus. The side-goal here is to get a hands-free wet orgasm. )HFWO(

It's lead to some of the most INTENSE rush of orgasms yet, though fantasising wasn't the ticket by itself. Abstaining for a few weeks from ejaculation had built up a lot of my arousal, so naturally that has to help. Read more »

Blocked again?

I had sex with my wife for the first time in months last night. My erection was instant and harder than I remember it ever being even when I was a teenager, and when I came it was stronger than previously, she even commented on how strong it felt.

I haven't managed to have a prostate orgasm for a few days now. I have sort of lost interest a little bit in a good way )have to get on with normal life(, although I'm not sure how I feel really. It was so intense last week I'm almost pleased to feel a bit less addicted. I have tried to bring on an orgasm several times but not really succeeded.

I'm really trying to analyse how to 'cross over' into an orgasm. I can get so close within moments of trying but actually turning it into an orgasm is proving elusive. Thinking back to when I had my first super-O I had not cum for 3 days, and had masturbated several times without climaxing, so there must have been some sexual tension there to start with. I was then so excited about what I had experienced that it just sort of carried on and I didn't even question my ability to go into a super-O for a few days and on the second day I even had an A-less orgasm within minutes of trying.
Two nights of super-Os made me tired, then I couldn't make it work and I got over emotional about that and couldn't sleep, I was working long hours, and it's been hit and miss since and I haven't really caught up with sleep. I have had to lower my expections.

Back on track

I had promised myself that I was taking a rest for a day yesterday, but I'm not very strong willed and thought that I would just have a quick try last night, A-less as usual. I'm very glad that I did. it wasn't the fastest onset ever but considering how tired I was and how upset I had got over this whole thing yesterday, I was amazed tat anything happened at all.
The super-O built up nicely and I had a few nice orgasmic waves, each one getting stronger and more intense. It was going well, but I was expecting my wife to come to bed at any second and was slightly distracted for that reason. Then I made a beginners mistake. I squeezed my PC muscle really hard, trying to wring a bit more out of one wave of contractions, but I held it far too long and when I released it had all gone and it was over – I like the child's swing analogy someone has made – you need to keep giving the orgasm a little push every now and then to keep the swing going, I just gave a long push and stopped it swinging.
Had a reasonable night's sleep last night for the first time in a while.
Next thing is to tell my wife. I have decided I need to.

Fantasy and Super O

Anyone who reads whatever I have written over the years or who knows me here knows the profound impact that rewiring has had on me. I am a changed man. I think of myself as hypersexual and serenely sensual. Erotic thoughts are part of my daily life; eroticism is always with me bubbling inches below the surface of my routine existance. Fantasy is one of those erotic things that amuses me, piques my imagings and keeps my cock hard and wet.

When an erotic fantasy finds me it is like it has found a comfortable chair; it settles in and stays, relaxing and pondering the facets of its own lush eroticism while secretly reveling in the arousal that it stirs in me. It has certainly been that way over the last few weeks with my fantasy of sexual intimacy with A. She is someone that I have occassion to see quite frequently in meetings and events. Last night I had a particularly pleasurable fantasy involving the two of us. It happened because I saw her at a meeting of the organization she works for and that I volunteer for yesterday. As a leading volunteer in the organization I have a lot of interaction with her before, during and after the meetings. She is Secretary to the board. Read more »

Beginnings

I had thought about getting one of these devices for years after reading about them and eventually took the plunge. My first session was disappointing, I expected too much too fast, the second was similar and I put it aside for a week having achieved nothing more than a slightly interesting feeling.
My breakthrough came when I went to stay in a hotel overnight and took it with me. I thought I had plenty of time, nothing else to do, and would give it one more go without expecting anything magic. I inserted the device, lay down on my back, and relaxed. The feeling came quite quick and I thought 'this is interesting' and went with it being careful to control my breathing and concentrating on the pleasure, fairly quickly I started shaking and could feel something building. I was determined to allow it to build and kept concentrating and then it happened! I can't even remember exactly how it felt the first time but I remember feeling out of control and trying to catch my breath and thrashing about wildly and feeling my hands go numb, and being totally amazed that I could actually do it.
The first orgasm must have lasted 20 minutes, I noticed that I had leaked a big pool of clear fluid from my penis. I thought time for bed removed it, cleaned up and lay down. Curiosity got the better of me and I just had to do it again, and re-inserted. The orgasm grew fast this time and before I knew it I was there again and had another 20 minutes of ectasy this time I remember feeling waves of pleasure riding up my chest and trying to control it a bit more, clenching my anal muscles to move the aneros around and press on my prostate and heighten the pleasure, using breathing to control the orgasm. I think I could have gone on forever, this lasted about 30 minutes and I thought I really ought to get some sleep now and let it fade.
It was about 2am by now I tried to get to sleep but couldn't and thought why not do it once more? Again I managed to get straight into another orgasm, this time it was even more intense my whole pelvis feeling like a tingling block of pure pleasure waves of orgasm going in and out of my chest.
I must have had an hour and a half of orgasm that night.

This time it did something inside my butt

After a couple lackluster sessions with my Helix Syn, which I got a few months ago, I was starting to lose motivation with my purchase. I'd always get a little but of pleasure out of it, but would always end up finishing myself off through masturbation.

After hearing about the Aneros again recently, i decided to give it another shot. I spent a good amount of time on my back, tickling away and try to relax before insertion. I couldn't get it in very far, even though I was expectant; it felt like pushing it further would be painful, so I resorted to getting on my side, and managed to push it up to the middle of the toy, after the larger of the bumps. I then focused of my breathing, trying to forget everything but that slightly cool surface inside of me. Eventually, I started feeling tiny movements, and began contracting to about 1/4th of my maximum (my PC and BC muscles are well developed so it wasn't a problem). Then I got into it and started to rock my pelvis forward, clenching around the Aneros harder until the sensation evoked the soreness of an orgasm, gradually increasing, and I kept going, definitely aware that my breathing had turned to sharp gasps timed with my rocking and contracting. I finally started shuddering all over, which I would classify as my first orgasm; it felt more like a wave overtaking me than a discharge experienced through a penile orgasm, but it still felt like it could be greater still. It was late, though, so after recuperating I finished off wth the same motion while masturbating. My penis felt completely secondary, but I still had a god damn mess to clean up afterwards. Read more »

The Glans Penis, Prostate, and Maximus

Hi guys,

In the 1990's or around year 2000, I had an insight into sensation in my male sexual apparatus. I had reflected on my sexual anatomy from my teens until my 40's or 50's when I got this flash of insight.

Most guys focus upon their cocks and balls from their teens. It comes from the initiation that they receive when they begin to masturbate and then have their first orgasms and ejaculations of semen. Adolescence is a period in a boy's life when they are obsessed with thoughts of sex. First boys masturbate because it feels so good. Most boys then turn their attention to girls and begin dating them. Many boys may even experiment sexually with girls. Likewise some boys may focus their attention upon other boys and may even experiment sexually with other boys. Sexual preference tends to be established for sure in their teens.

Wearing jockstraps and athletic cups for sports, even leisure, helped focused me upon my penis and testicles like nothing else. This focus enabled me several decades later to come up with the Theory of Axis of Sexual Pleasure. When I entered the decades indicated above, I had read a great deal about the role of the prostate in a man's life. A prostate in good health serves two functions: [1] Urinary, and [2] Sexual. I have always been intrigued in how beautiful my mushroom glans is. Over the years, I reveled in the various textures of sensation in the anatomy of my glans. So when I am masturbating, sensation arises in my glans travels down the length of my penile shaft and ends up my prostate, from which the sexual energy travels back to my glans. So an arc of sexual pleasure travels back and forth from my glans and prostate. This pleasure reaches the point of no return during which I achieve orgasm and ejaculation of semen! It is all beautiful! Read more »

Third session – a quickie

Wow! What a difference a day makes!

After the disappointment of my 2nd session, I wanted to give myself some time before I tried again. But my anus had different ideas. The prostate soreness that I had experienced during the 2nd session was completely gone, and in fact it was feeling pretty good. My anus wanted, nay, it demanded something to fill it, NOW! So we compromised; a short session of only 30 minutes on the very next day after the frustrating and long 2nd session.

Expectations – 30-minute time limit; hands-off )like every other session(; quick and dirty; start with voluntary contractions and then back off

TSLE – about 8 days

The only difference in preparation between this session and the previous session was that this time I didn’t inject any glycerin-based lube.

After bowel movement, enema, and insertion of the Helix, I went straight to a 4-on-the-floor position; on knees and elbows, head down, ass up. I considered that by waiting/relaxing I was letting my arm tremor start to dominate my attention. So, after a few deep breaths, I start slow-rolling sphincter/PC contractions. Bingo! – instant perineal contractions progressing to full-body involuntary contractions, lasting 10-12 minutes. Again, I just observed, watched the spasms grow, recede, and return spontaneously. Purely involuntary. It was awesome. The spasms would recede until they were just in my groin, and then the sphincter/PC involuntary contractions would escalate, amplifying each other, until they set off another round of full-body contractions. Is this auto-f*cking? A definite pre-cum feeling, but without an erection or any actual pre-cum. Read more »

Fourth session – some lessons learned

I tried for another quickie session )30 min( like yesterday, but it wasn’t quite fantastic. I did learn some things, though, so I call it a success.

First, after a long, hot bath to relax, I inserted the lubed Helix. Drips of pre-cum for the first time. Just a few drips, but all I did was insert the Helix. No erection, just an electric feeling emanating from my groin and drips of pre-cum. This is new; something’s changing in me.

Second, the whole-body contractions weren’t nearly as strong or long-lasting as yesterday, and I stopped after about 10 minutes. I felt weak. Which leads to my theory – I’m thinking that the prostate glow I feel after a session is analogous to the muscle feeling you get from weight training. We’re exercising muscles, and the underused muscles are just getting sore. They get weak and tired, so they need time to recover, just like with a barbell. This was the 3rd session in 3 days, so maybe my muscles got overworked yesterday. It’s my theory at least. I should allow more recovery time between sessions.

Anyway, I stopped the session, but left the Helix in and went about my normal business of cleaning the kitchen, etc., for about 30 min, just to get used to it inside me. While the Helix was not arousing, walking around my home nude with a toy up my lubed ass was. I masturbated, but again didn’t notice anything different about the quantity or quality of the ejaculate. Read more »

Second Session – ugh!

Well, that could have gone better. Underwhelming on almost all counts.

Expectations – Wanted to get warm and really relaxed, get aroused, and then sit back and see what happens with minimal contractions.

TSLE – about 7 days

I had more time to work with, so I could spend a lot more time prepping. Heated the room, pre-washed all the toys, pre-rolled a shea butter bullet )stored in a glass of cold water in the fridge(, pre-lubed the Helix with shea butter, filled a plastic syringe with about 3 ml of I.D. Glide, and spread some towels over the sheets in bed. I liked all this prep work; the self-nurturing felt nice. After a bowel movement and a long hot bath, I felt very warm and relaxed.

After the bath, I gave myself an enema )3 x 4 oz; definitely necessary(, inserted the bullet, inserted the syringe and injected the Glide )I wanted to try a bit more lube(, and retired to the prepped warm bedroom, where I lay down on my side and comfortably inserted the Helix. This was the high point of the session.

• ROOKIE MISTAKE – For some reason, I could not get aroused with my imagination, which usually works pretty well. It was just one of those days )tired, sick, out of sorts, whatever( where I couldn't feel any sexual arousal. I could feel this malaise earlier in the day. I should have just removed the Helix and gone to sleep. But I kept going . . . Read more »