Back in the saddle again! :D

It appears my Aneros lull has ended. I had an amazing session last night! I had the most amount of pre-cum on me that I've ever seen. And I could feel my prostate swell with arousal several different times within the session. I also felt some tingly pleasure in my prostate a few times also. Rather than just around my anus and perineum. That was really nice. I think I experienced some new highs in pleasure during this session.

As to why this lull happened? Depression and personal growth are the two main things. But also I noticed that when I was last having pleasurable sensations from Aneros sensations, I think close to a month ago. I was concentrating on the completely relax approach. And what I've found out recently is that I completely stopped doing any conscious anal and PC contractions both within and outside of an Aneros session. So I recently started doing them again. And just within a few days… Boom! Pleasure again! So for me, it seems that doing the conscious contractions are important.

There was much for me to learn during my Aneros lull though. Masturbation was rare. And when I did, I had to tell myself that it is ok to have pleasure, and that I deserve it. And I had to really practice on focusing on the sensations and any erotic fantasies to allow me to be excited to ejaculate. Sound familiar? LOL Eventually as I did this more and started doing the anal and PC contractions… Sensitivity, pleasure, and desire for it returned.

As of this last session a new thing has started happening. My upper torso and shoulders have started trembling at certain points. But also for no reason I can understand. My involuntary anal contractions have become much stronger and frequent. A few days back I had a no-Aneros session sitting in front of my computer reading erotica mostly, but also looking at some porn. When I have these type of sessions, I do my half PC, half anal contraction. But I'm able to do it much harder in a different way than when my Progasm is inserted. I assume it feels different just because there is nothing inserted in my anus. Anyways, this was the first time I experienced those stronger more frequent involuntary anal contractions. And it blew my mind! LOL It reminded me of the user here who posted about his involuntary anal contractions going "num, num, num, num". LOL It was just like that! It was wild and I loved it!

I ended up having a super-T during last night's Aneros session. And actually, in the last two or three I did the same thing now that I think about it. Part of allowing me to have pleasure if I so desire it with no guilt involved. 😉 I know we are not supposed to touch our penis during an Aneros session. But the thing is, that approach when followed strictly, it puts this level of guilt on me when I do have a hands on super-T. No more! If I want to touch my penis and ejaculate during an Aneros session, I will! All of this is part of my journey. I accept that I deserve pleasure in whatever way it manifests in my life. As long as it hurts no one in the process.