had a lot of sessions with little or no result–just some twinges every now and then–then 2 sessions ago i had some "buzzing" in my anus around the massager and i thought , this is what it is and not the massager stroking in and out or pounding around down there
Author: ede_1943
ed's journey
well, so much for saying i'd wait–had the promise of oral sex and thought that i'd try the helix then, but when the promise fell through i went ahead anyway with the session cause i was so het up–same story as before–a little something but not a lot–this time tried a lot of very small contractions and some slight holding with my pc group but didn't start anything worth noting–will try again to hold off for a few days before trying again–let's see if i can do that–ede_1943
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i was at my local sex shop and they had the helix so i bought one–this was not a snap decision like when i bought the progasm while i was waiting for my mgx to arrive–i have read and thought a lot about getting the helix because of all the comments about its greater mobility and more robust massage than the mgx–i figured since i was having such small reactions with the mgx, maybe the helix would be better–anyway i tried it that same day but it was very like the mgx sessions–i figure i need a few days rest before i have another session as i have had many days in a row and quite a few with more than one session–i think i need to recharge and to"rewire"–i can tell right away now by how long it takes for some involuntary shivers to start after insertion whether i will have a profitable session or not–i'm still upbeat–only good things can happen cause nothing much has happened yet–after rereading the forum i see that complete relaxation will stop any motion, even if i imagine it starts motion–i think i have to do a voluntary contraction so slight that it is just about no contraction at all in order to start involuntary ones, that's probably why i thought that i was completely relaxed and why i couldn't relax any more when they started–sure wish though, that they would link together and start me flopping on my bed!!–ede_1943
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since my last post i have had many sessions–sometimes with several days in between, sometimes daily and sometimes more than one each day–they are at least 1 hour in duration, usually 1 1/2 hours or more–also i've tried various times of the day–i've tried all kinds of different methods and at last i'm getting some results that indicate i may be on the right path at last–i've tried to force involuntary contractions by holding a contraction till i'm fatigued, which never happens–i've tried voluntary contractions till i spasm, but never reach that result–i've tried breathing and total relaxation, i've tried trying to sleep –and i've tried various combinations of all of these methods–my reward has been a totality of nothing to a bunch of shivers and tics–but these shivers and tics are what i'm after and i've noticed that they come only with total relaxation, with no forced contractions or motion on my part–some of the shivers and tics have been longer in duration, giving me another lesson, namely that they can't be controlled in any way to try to make them last longer–my problem is that when they take over i find it impossible to remain relaxed enough to permit them to continue as my legs in particular start to tense up–i think this is the way for me, namely total relaxation through to shivers and spasms–well, no one told me it was going to be easy–also i can't seem to remain aroused while i go for total relaxation and if i try to raise my arousal i become tense and feel nothing–the "feeling" of something happening only returns after i'm relaxed again, with the lessening of arousal–i think that the way i read the aneros instructions and the help on the forum caused me to believe that i could consciously control my contractions and that this would lead into the involuntary phase, which does not happen for me anyway–ede_1943
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well, i didn't wait another day after waking up today with some "funny" feelings–i used the condom method with lube inside and out on the condom–i think it gave the mgx more movement–i think that there was some small progress but nothing earth shaking–it didn't help that i got three phone calls during this session–anyway i definitely felt some very small flutters in my legs, above my penis in my lower abdomen, and other various places–nothing that gave me anything exciting, other than to know that something may be happening, although i don't know what–i'm glad to proceed as so many posts have said that something seemingly inconsequential happens before something major–i'm hoping that this is "rewiring"–there is 64 years of rewiring to do–so onward
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well my mgx arrived and i've been using it instead of the progasm–it's been very tough going with not much to show–i've tried the breathing with the anal contractions–the held pc contraction–the do nothing and relax for an hour–the try to sleep with it in–i don't touch my penis–i do get a lot of precum but no orgasm feeling or feeling of well being–nothing seems to be working–i thought that i may not be aroused enough at the beginning–i try not to think too much–i try different positions– i took several days off in between sessions–maybe finally something is happening–twice in the morning when i woke up without the mgx in i have felt something new which i can not explain–it sort of feels like a twitch somewhere down in the groin area, although i cannot locate it precisely–i know that it's not my anal group–i feel a slight twitch which i sort of think is in the head of my penis, or sometimes i think it is in my right leg next to my scrotum–sort of like the bump i get when i have the mgx in and i twitch my pc group–but not exactly the same–i cannot make it happen myself–it has to happen by itself–anyway it is nice to finally be getting something unexplained–the first time i woke up to this i did a session but nothing really much happened–today i woke up with the same feeling but i have not had a session yet–i'm trying to put at least two days between sessions and it's too soon yet–maybe tomorrow i'll try it again–hope i awake with the same or a new feeling–my first sessions were every day and hours long–maybe that affected the results, or lack of results–maybe there is some "rewiring" taking place and it needs time to happen–i'm still optimistic–ed
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today i thought that i would relax entirely and try to go to sleep to see if anything would happen like some other posts have said has happened to them–in other words, don't try to force anything but just let it happen–well i think that part of my problem may be that i am not aroused enough or at all when i insert the progasm and then nothing happens–so many posts talk about relaxation that i think i overdo it and not only am i relaxed but i am not aroused either–anyway when i get my mgx i will try to get a lot more excited before i do the insertion cause the laid back relaxation technique isn't leading anywhere–ed
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this is the fourth day–it's easier to insert the progasm now and feels less invasive but moving it is still a problem–now i really know why i should not have bought it on impulse and should have waited for my mgx to arrive–just noodling around trying to give the various muscle groups a workout and trying to separate them so i can control them individually –will probably wait for mgx which should arrive soon
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tried again next day–now know how to do an anal contraction, a rectal contraction and a pc contraction–when i do the pc contraction it feels like i am tapping my prostate with the progasm–so now i know how to move the progasm up and down and how to "tap" with the pc group–nothing happens when i try to hold contractions to start spasms in my anal muscle group
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well the next day i gave it another try–spent most of my time relaxing with nothing happening and then contracting and holding it and waiting for something to happen–nothing happened–decided i was contracting too much so tried holding a lesser contraction –spent most of my time trying to sort out the various muscle groups so i would know what i was doing–thought i felt some funny flutters down in my feet and ankles but who knows?