The Burning Question

Probably the main reason I came back to check in with the group is that from my earliest days I was hounded by the burning question "Can anyone who is giving Aneros a fair shake achieve the Super O?"

The answer is creeping up on "No". Some of us, for whatever reasons, no matter how long we use the product, will never get there.

I've always been slow to make progress – it is all dutifully recorded in this blog. And again – I am a happy and satisfied customer! I will continue using and who knows, someday I may have incredible news to celebrate with all the good folks on this board.

Good sessions to all!

J4

Just Checking In

Is there anybody out there that even remembers me? Say Hi if you've been around as long as I have!

New Year, No Fear

Hello, yeah, it’s been awhile. I have been using regularly for over 17 months. The truth of the matter is, from where I stand on my journey today, I consider that my sessions are still getting better, month over month – incrementally. I don’t seem to have breakthroughs, I only have a more enjoyable session this week than last.

Recently, I revisited the idea of modifying my original Aneros, the Helix. Why not? It had fallen out favor due to the Eupho. So I cut the handle off and Vwallah, It’s like I’ve gotten a new toy! The Tailless Helix now behaves like a big Peridise. Mobility and comfort all achieved in one ‘snip and sand’ of the handle with no sacrifice in P-Tab placement or feel. As my prostate slowly wakes up it has found more uses for the Helix in my toy rotation – even the Progasm has made a small comeback. The odd man out now that the Eupho takes up over three quarters of my sessions is the Peridise twins.

My little pleasure spot glows brightly in session – I can generate numerous levels of involuntaries. My prostate buzzes. I can produce pleasure and small amounts of fluid outside of sessions. I can achieve a sort of P-wave – were I get a very exciting boiling spaghetti feeling in my pelvis. I can achieve, perhaps to the greatest detraction from my journey, hands free wet orgasms. I never have found a sweet spot on my perineum.

J4’s Eupho Review

For a fall treat I splurged and got myself a Eupho. It has been since January that I last got a new Aneros product – then it was the Progasm. I was curious how much it would be different from the Helix (my first product) – since they are approximately the same dimensions.

Boy was I in for a pleasant surprise! Upon insertion, it felt different – it seemed to go right up to nestle and rub the prostate. I immediately felt like I had to pee. In the “lying on back, knees up” position I experienced strong abdominal muscle contractions and all the right kinds of tinglies. It was very difficult to maintain my initial 15 minutes of relaxed breathing with all the great sensations and shudders.

The best position was on my left side. Suddenly I felt the Eupho go were no Aneros had gone before. I got a great sensation of the prostate being rubbed in a previously unreachable spot. Nice. Finding prostate sweet spots and “rubbing the shell” was far easier with the Eupho than the Helix. I seem to respond well to the added length. The P-Tab is in a better location for me also. Those little changes in configuration really add up.

Through 3 Eupho sessions I would have to give this device a solid “thumbs up”. Its configuration hits my p-spot the best of all my little white friends. I was wondering if it would feel different – in a good way – and this product delivered results immediately and keeps on giving.

The shell rub

Definitely some of my best session stretches have come after the Full Moon romps I’ve been able to orchestrate with Mrs. J4. She really charges me up for the next week and this month was no exception.

To wit I’ve achieved a new sensation (since the “num num’s”) that I’ll call the “popcorn shell”. There comes a point in a session were I start feeling an itch similar to what I would imagine if I had a small piece of pop corn shell stuck on my interior wall just over my prostate. It feels very nice to “rub the shell” with the tip of a toy. On several occasions I have felt a vibration, timed to belly breathing, for which I have coined the mantra:

“Orgasm is the sensation emanating from the string when I draw the bow across”. I repeat this while I massage the spot.

The string is some sort of nerve cord feeling thing running from my penis base, through the prostate and up towards the belly button. I’ve got this mental picture that I am running the Helix up and down the Vagus Nerve. I swear some of my best forum stuff just gets buried so here’s the vagus nerve blurb for posterity’s sake:

“The role of the vagus nerve in orgasms is a new discovery and there's still much that's unknown about it; until recently, researchers didn't know that it passed through the pelvic region at all.”

One Year Anniversary Musings

Well fellow anal adventurers, I am now entrenched in year two of the journey. I wonder how many of us there are out there who have committed a year plus to this undertaking with out ever achieving any of the o’s; super, dry or mini?

When you have been on this trip as long as I have, you stop classifying your “progress” by wiki definitions. I have reclassified myself as a “grinder”: a long term user who experiences incremental progress and tends to have a good time just wandering the path. The grinder is not desperate. We already have some measure of success in our lives and because of that we must integrate Aneros use into our existing relationships.

Brian Mayfield made a comment once about how Aneros users (sooner or later) hit the “snow ball effect” where all sorts of sensations just start cavalcading together. I don’t know when the avalanche will hit; I just know I have to keep logging the time until it does.

Before I began using this product and joined this forum I thought I knew what pleasure was. I thought I was pretty in touch with my body. This process has awakened not just my prostate but my perception of what sensations my body is possible of producing and translating. My traditional orgasms are many times more pleasurable than before. This little device has helped open up numerous erogenous zones. It has rejuvenated my sexual relationship with my wife – the importance of a few rousing kick starts over the years cannot be underestimated. In addition, the forum discussions here have provided many thought provoking threads in which to help me think through my ever changing world view. This whole experience has been a big net plus.

11 month anniversary (updated 6/22)

Nothing new or super – but I have retained a heightened prostate feeling since the last full moon. I'm able to feel the 'tension' whenever I choose to focus on it – lurking and pulsing around.

Here’s an excerpt of what I wrote the day after the Full Moon: I had a fantastic session. The best of the month. The fun part is that I have established an evening session during Full Moons with my SO and it turns out she really delights in making me jump around for a half hour or so. It’s during couple time that I can see the effects of rewiring first hand: The 20 fold increase in overall body sensitivity, the way her touches set me off uncontrollably, the evident body reactions and consequent struggle to relax, the altered breathing patterns, the amplified ‘wow factor’ of traditional orgasms – she can totally feel what’s going on and gets off on it too.

A new (Anerosless) contraction exercise is fun but yielding no new feelings. I do it because I think it maintains a certain level of prostate excitement. It goes like this: There is a muscle, seemingly right next to the prostate that I can contract rhythmically and quickly. Sort of as fast you can say “num, num, num, num”. What particular muscle this is, I haven’t a clue. But I can keep going for a while and it is fun to do in airplanes or driving around in cars and when lying down or smoking cigars (I feel a little haiku coming on!). And then you relax completely. And then you do it again. Sometimes, after the ‘relax completely’ phase, I get a couple of involuntary contractions.

Grinding Away

I haven’t really had a bad session since starting the KSMO. One thing the KSMO really helps with is with the discipline to only use the Aneros three times a week. The Peridise is my weapon of choice since it produces results with a minimum of effort and a maximum of mobility.

I have 4 different kinds of sessions 1) Aneros 2) KSMO 3) The session I like to have when I lay down in bed at night and my prostate starts throbbing and I just relax and focus without either Aneros or KSMO and 4) My favorite, but least frequent, sessions with my SO. Not included are general spousal sex sessions which end in ejaculation and kick off another cycle of arousal building.

All these sessions result in intense sensations that I don’t know how they can keep going without release. And oh how sensitive my nipples have become! The general cycle of orgasm starts out with arousal building with session types 1, 2 and 3 and end when the wife wants it to or I need a good nights sleep – ‘cause otherwise, as the days pass by, the little walnut keeps me awake longer and longer.

Still, despite the constant cycle of arousal building, intense sensations and p-waves there have been no breakthrough moments of mini-o’s, dry-o’s or super-o’s.

Just another day at the office

Sometimes, long after all the sessions are complete, when I go to bed I just lay there and start the coaxing of the p-waves. First, I make sure I’m uncovered – no extraneous sensations. Then I find the right gentle contraction – all I know is its not the pc or bc muscle – I think it’s the cremaster muscle or something (Darwin would know) – it’s an outward inward pull push. Then it starts – the nice pressure, the creeping tingling. I don’t get them all over my body, I only get them were it counts, around the crotch. Then my peter starts to cycle up and down. Not throbbing. Pulsating. Just shy of twitching. It can cycle up and down like that for an hour and half – you just kind of have to throw common sense about sleep schedule out the window.

Makes me wish I knew more tricks. Like how to move the tingling around my body – maybe I should try to draw it up. I would not call these “immense pleasure waves”. They are immensely sensational – I don’t know, ‘cause I’ve never felt anything like it before. They are just my poor mans super-o. It is, after all, results. It’s just not orgasmic. It seems like I used to get involuntaries, but not so much anymore – just the good pressure and the p-waves. It’s like when its filling up with blood and the pulse beat follows from your pelvis up your peter (combined with p-wavyeous tingling) – but then it takes on a life of its own, asynchronous to your pulse beat.

Coming clean

From 5/6/09

Ok, this blog entry is based on some personal feedback I exchanged with one of my PM buddies who noticed that my writing style had changed and that I was conspicuously absent from forum, PM and blog discussions. As it is, I am suffering through my moments of Aneros doubt. I did not want to write about it because I pride myself on being an optimistic lighthearted Aneros grinder – willing to joyfully plod through the long Aneros plateaus of non pleasure and no progress just to enjoy the sensations, not loose focus and in the prevail. This is the blog entry I should have written instead of that lame last blog post.

So, in response to a PM about “what’s wrong with you, you don’t seem the same lately, what’s going on are you frustrated” I wrote the following:

Alright you got me pegged. I got nothing else to write. I’ve been writing my “riding off into the Super O sunset” swan song for the forum (in my head) for awhile now. I wrote two or three blog posts before scratching them all in favor of my latest lame blog entry.

I’m just logging the hours before I can tell people to “keep trying for years, look at me, I did, and it’s just so darn worth it”. Blah, blah, blah. I completely understand your previous frustration, and maybe my blog is really just a chronicle of all my futility and blunders. I, however, am more than willing to write the longest blog ever to have never reached a super o!