Morning orgasms… into the late afternoon

This morning has been uniquely pleasurable… No Aneros, yet my body has learned to bring about some amazing orgasms just sitting and working (or getting lost in erotic thought) or running some errands…

It's some pleasure-on-demand capability I'm wired into. Woo-hoo! Who wouldn't want to know they could do that?

I wonder too how far I can take it. There are different levels of pleasure, from some slight stirring to a more fulfilling buzz to an occasional body-shaking intensity and craving and climax and release. There's no ejaculation (or erection), leaving me with a constant baseline tingling ready to climb again. I could probably go all day.

Seriously, how happy this is. Remarkably, I can sense an openness today in my relationships with other people… when oneself is glowing, it's so easy to share that emotive quality with others.

O happy day!

Super-O zone

During yesterday's chat I was reminded of the experience of Jill Bolte Taylor, a brain scientist who analyzed the effects of her own stroke:

Watching her intriguing and wonderfully articulate talk again, I was struck by her description of her dips into "right-hemisphere consciousness"—because it is very similar to how I was feeling after one of my marathon Aneros sessions (blog title "Fifth session—wonderful and bizarre"). Yet more evidence of how all things are connected…

Also during yesterday's chat I was starting to get onto a mini-orgasmic high, and after it ended decided to pop in the Helix. Well, during the ensuing session I think I definitely reached a new plateau…

It started out innocently enough: some music, some erotic pictures, some dim lighting… usually the first 30 minutes or so are not very intense, just some (mostly involuntary) contractions while I explore the sensuality of the human body with my mind.

Soon though I started to feel the little tickling sensation around my prostate that wanted to become something more. I focused my awareness on it, and by doing so it began to blossom… mini-Os, then dry-Os… At some point there was no further use in looking at erotic material, as it was all absorbed into my mind and there was much more it seemed I was able to do with it there. My eyes shut (or turned back into my head, I'm not sure which) and I was adrift in pre-orgasmic waves of pleasure and erotic thought.

Lube makes a difference

On advice from the forum, I picked up some Probe Thick Rich at Walgreens. Without a doubt, the choice of lube makes a big difference.

Up until now I had been using ID Glide; it had a tendency not to stay where I wanted it to stay, and was difficult to apply in the right amount to be comfortable during my sessions, and did not seem to last very long.

A little of the Probe lube went a long way, and lasted for hours. It's a little messy, but with some care that's not much of a problem. I'm already a big fan.

I had a very enjoyable session with a number of intense, prolonged body-shaking orgasms.

Not much else to report; how many times can I say what a pleasure the Aneros is?

Sixth session: Sensual bliss

I spent part of the day reading about chakras and their traditional mystical interpretations. I am definitely at a point where I can feel something—an energy—moving around and through my body. And, I can intensify the feeling just by focusing my awareness on it with the intent to do so.

I wonder if that's all that's really been happening around the prostate, which is near the root chakra considered to be at the base of the spine. By moving the energy around there with my awareness, I can eventually induce an orgasm. It's relatively easy to do this because the energy has a sexual, pleasurable quality to it, making it trivial to identify and immensely enjoyable to dwell upon. (It is actually the second chakra, below the navel, that is supposed to be connected with sexual response; perhaps this helps explain the effectiveness of e.g. the male deer exercise…)

The other energies I've been experiencing do not have the same sexual quality to them. Yet they are clearly present around the other chakras, and must have a similar relationship with the nervous system of the body as does the root chakra, as they're able to induce the same muscle spasms I'd experienced when first starting with the Aneros.

I don't experience spasms as much any more, at least as far as they are associated with prostate massage, and I think this is an effect of the "rewiring" process—another way to look at it might be an opening up of energy channels. My other chakras are (or were) not as open yet, and so the energy has been jolting and shocking my nervous system causing convulsions.

Non-orgasmic orgasm?

Yesterday was a good day. I got some things accomplished, and was feeling good.

Upon retiring to bed, still bemused by my newfound ability to voluntarily induce pleasure, I did so and experienced a few dry-Os. Not to get too involved in a session though, and since I had gotten rock hard, I decided to whip up an ejaculation… it was a very nice release.

I still had some tingling pleasure sensations afterward, and I started to notice something else too. My entire body was covered with scintillating energy… not orgasmic energy, but something else. I don't think it was the same as the soothing energy I experienced a few days ago either; I don't really know what it was. Orgasmic energy for me seems to center around the prostate area, but I couldn't place a source for this new energy I was feeling. Maybe the throat? It just seemed to be everywhere—my shoulders, face, chest… less so it seemed in my legs, but I could feel it there too.

But what really got my attention is that I could control it. By raising this new energy with my focused awareness in the same way I've learned to raise orgasmic energy, it would intensify. It felt nice, as if I were vibrating. But the surprising thing is that if I raised it to a high enough level, my physical body would start to experience involuntary muscle spasms, just like my first experience with the Aneros!

A good start to the day

When I woke up this morning it was just barely light outside. I could hear it was starting to rain. Still feeling groggy, I wasn't ready to get up. I had a few false starts, based mostly around my confusion and paranoia that someone was going to walk into my bedroom and see everything I'd been doing there.

Several hours later I was awake enough to wonder if yesterday had really happened. As if to prove it to myself, I started to bring on the familiar sweet tingling sensation in my groin and easily achieved a few dry orgasms. I struggled with finding the right balance between having these pleasures and finding the right time to end them, and eventually decided ejaculation would be best. I haven't figured out yet how to do that just with my mind alone, so manual stimulation became required. It was pleasurable as ever, and gave me just the right amount of satiation to allow me to finally get out of bed.

So far today I'm feeling good. The music is speaking to me again. With any luck the Progasm I ordered last week might arrive later today. I'm not sure I'll want to use it right away… I've got enough of a high going just from this morning's kickstart.

Fifth session—wonderful and bizarre

Today has been bizarre.

After waking I had a quick Aneros-less session to start the day.

My energy levels today were nothing like they were yesterday, though I was still getting into listening to my music while I worked. There was something else, though—not quite depression but a melancholy and anxious feeling about something I couldn't quite identify.

In the late afternoon I was getting horny and decided to get into using the Aneros again. The first hour was unremarkable, mostly because I couldn't get satisfied with the lube. I had generously pre-lubed, but I couldn't get any of it to stay on the backside of the Helix (away from the prostate) and it would keep getting dry and irritating as it seemed to attach to the wall of my rectum.

I probably should try another type of lube; I've only been using ID Glide so far.

After re-lubing a number of times, I was finally getting into it. The next 30 minutes to an hour were filled with a number of wonderful dry-Os. But then things were starting to get kicked up a notch or two or three.

Couldn't ask for a better day

Today I've been feeling high as a kite. The Aneros-less kickstart I described in my previous entry was just the incredible beginning. Who knew I could teach my body to enjoy intense orgasmic pleasure at will without any direct physical stimulation? Frankly I'm amazed it has happened at all, let alone so quickly—I've only had four sessions with the Aneros and I almost feel like I don't really need it any more. I gather my rapid progress is not a common occurrence for most guys, so I am also especially grateful for whatever it was that enabled me to get rewired almost immediately.

I've been listening to music for most of the day, and have gotten tremendous pleasure from it. Familiar songs feel new again, the intricate chord progressions and melodies… but especially the rhythm. Oh, yeah! Syncopated rhythms! I love them like never before… I can't help but move… must dance!

Something surprised me about the particular songs coming up in my random playlist. They all had something apropos to say to me about how I was feeling at that moment, either in the lyrics, the mood of the music, or in some cases even the title and album name. I don't usually listen to lyrics as I'm generally moved more by the music itself, but today these coincidences caused me to start paying attention.

Training wheels indeed

Something interesting happened last night that was completely non-sexual, and yet at least as energetic and satisfying as I've been experiencing lately. I decided to try some meditation (in bed) with the help of headphones and soothing audio. It was not long before I started to feel some tingling, mostly in my legs—not erotic at all but soothing and very relaxing. I was able to direct this tingling with my focused awareness into other parts of my body, and was soon feeling it all over.

Some other things also happened that I'm not sure I'm ready to talk about, as they are very personal. I'll just say that I think I made some significant spiritual progress and felt enveloped in loving guidance. As it relates to the tremendous feelings the Aneros is able to bring about however, I will also say I was exposed to a number of different energies of which the orgasmic energy seems to be just one in a vast spectrum.

I slept very well last night. 🙂

This morning I felt refreshed, but was also starting to feel the same urges as before. I was pretty charged up, so I experimented with having an Aneros-less session and, to my great amazement and satisfaction, achieved numerous body-shaking orgasms. I didn't feel the need to ejaculate, and finished the session instead on a great high. What a great way to start the day!

New experiences—some positive, others perplexing

In my first entry I mentioned I might try combining my pleasurable day-after effects with traditional masturbation. I did, and the result was one of the strongest orgasms and ejaculation I've had in recent memory; it was quite enjoyable.

That was last night. Early this morning I woke up to involuntary spasms and arousal sensations, as though I were having an Aneros session—but I wasn't! The convulsions literally woke me up. Unfortunately, I was still tired and wasn't in the mood to go for a spin. But there was no stopping the movements and sensations. Frustrated, I got out of bed and started my day—tired, but at least consciously able to suspend what would otherwise have been a pleasurable experience.

It wasn't long before my tiredness caught up with me, and I decided to take a nap. I slept for maybe an hour, and awoke again to the same orgasmic teasing and uncontrollable body movements. This time I was a little less tired, and kind of enjoying the experience, and since I couldn't seem to stop it anyway I gave in to getting the Helix and going for a full session. I practiced some deep breathing, trying to calm my body as much as possible. I focused on bringing the pleasurable sensations into every part of my body, filling me up. By concentrating on keeping my body completely relaxed, I think this helped spur the involuntaries as the only remaining avenue of release for the mounting erotic tension; I don't think I induced any voluntary contractions at all.