“Lucid Dreaming—A Journey”

I have been experiencing lucid dreams lately and I don’t really know why. Some are not sexual at all. But I know they are lucid because I seemingly can “control” what I am doing and exploring within the dream. I recently read about “WILD” that is short for Wake-Induced Lucid Dream and believe I may be experiencing those too. Typically, I am sleeping about 5 hours each night and then wake up and start listening to some erotic music. I have been doing this consistently for a couple of weeks lately.

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The past two morning listening “sessions” have been particularly erotic and sexually-charged. Were these lucid dreams? Were they WILD? I’m not sure at this point but I definitely remember them. Here are two most recent ones…..

First one: I am alone in a ski cabin. There is a blizzard outside and my “date” and I are seemingly stranded alone for a long while inside. She makes it clear to me that she wants to “cuddle” and I have no objections! So we begin our make-out session. But before long, this session (in my dream) is becoming quite erotic and graphic. She indicates to me during the course of our involvement that she wants my hard, wet cock inside her. And she will make sure that it happens! She keeps up my arousal until I am hard and wet enough to penetrate her. When I do, she indicates to me that she does not want me to cum, only to remain hard inside her. The feeling is incredibly arousing…..

A New Beginning

Last night was my third straight night having a Aneros session and my tool of choice was my Progasm Ice. I had used my Helix Syn for both previous nights.

What differed last night is that I dedicated my entire session to the ‘Do Nothing’ method. This is the second time I tried this and the results were pretty well the same; nothing. My theory was to completely let my prostate do all the work or at least some work rather than me doing Kegels, contractions, fantasies, nipple stim. and etc. I should not say I got nothing; the exercise did not give me waves or twitches or anything else but it did make me feel the direct contact of my tool was on my prostate and it made me realise how relaxed I can get if I really try.

This was enough of a discovery or I should call it a new beginning or better yet, an new option for course of action for some future sessions. There is something there to pursue but I just ran out of time. The P-Ice is probably the best tool for this type of session. I plan to continue to explore the ‘Do Nothing’ method which proves to be successful with some of my co-members on the Forum.

“Give Me The Night — An Erotic Fantasy”

I had a “make-up” session with my wife last night after a long absence. Due to my DE, I did not ejaculate when I wanted to. But that only intensified my arousal later on this morning. Let me explain……

I was up fairly early and looking for action. I had a raging erection and needed some “me” time. I discovered a track on YouTube that led me to a fantasy that I have seldom experienced before. Perhaps it was a continuation of last night’s cuddling session. But it was so much more.

The track that set me on my way was : “DJ Fotis L – Music for Sex (Round 4)”. It started out in the usual way, with tender scrotal and penile massage. But as I began to sink in the music, I was carried-away to an erotic paradise with my lover (my wife). She is taking me deeper and deeper into a mystical “tunnel” which I know now was the innermost part of her. And as she began a most unusual “squeeze” on my erect shaft, I felt myself inside her. I am in a state of bliss and I feel the sex all around me. It is almost impossible to describe in words this feeling, only that I didn’t want it to end. I felt nowhere near climaxing; we just took-in this sexual “envelopment” which had us locked in a romantic embrace.

Toward the end, one of the last tracks was “Give Me The Night” and the lyrics couldn’t have been more appropriate:

Session 30/09/2016

When I’ve started writing this blog days ago, it has been many months since I had a “good” session. By good I mean getting something more than the background pleasure.

I had a good session yesterday.

Like most of my sessions, when I have them during the week, it happened after dinner, because before I was at work. This brings a problem – I’m tired. Most of the sessions I try at night end up with me falling asleep, and today the same happened but not before I got good things.

On the problem of being always tired and why I think in the last years things have regressed/stalled I will explain a next post, let’s go now to yesterday’s session.

In the last weeks when I attempted sessions I’ve been using Maximus. After pre-lubing inside (which I only rarely do) with Johnson’s baby oil, I used vaseline and a coat of a slippery silicon lube named Millennium, I inserted Maximus.
I watched just a little bit of porn in the form of other guys using aneros, just some minutes. The guy was using Progasm and I was like, why not use Progasm Ice again? In my last tries with it it didn’t gave me anything, which is “normal” for me, so after a while I switched to Progasm Ice, lubing the same way.

I fought a bit against my sleepiness but I was able to keep awake.

Change

Just over a week ago, I decided to change to the Vice that I purchased about month ago. At first, I didn’t like the Vice much, the vibrations were a distraction, but because I enjoy sitting at my computer with an Aneros inserted, the Vice (without the vibrator inserted) is the perfect partner As it doesn’t have those stick-up bits that can hurt. So I inserted it whilst doing my Tax on the computer, and WoW, I started having mino O right there. I would have to stop work and just enjoy the waves of pleasure flowing through me. It is easier, whilst seated, to move the Vice inside me, to stimulate the prostate.

On the Monday, I was travelling for business and decided to take my new found friend (Vice) with me. I enjoyed a week of imence pleasure every night with MMO after MMO, 4, 5, or 6 MMO’s. These were all less intense than the SuperO i had recently, but none the less, very enjoyable.

The place where I stayed had a swimming pool and I wondered what it would be like to swin with the Vice inserted. I thought about the hygene aspect, for other people who would also be using the pool. But the Aneros would seal the anus, preventing anything from coming out, so I inserted it, using a gel lubricant and went down to pool.

“Disengagement and Fantasy: A Masturbation Technique”

This may appear to be complicated but it is actually quite simple. Here is how it developed…..

I was starting to listen to a nice track on YouTube: “Making Love Music | Sexy Songs for Tantric Love” about an hour long. I started a typical “surfing” session. I really didn’t care if I ejaculated during this session or not. As I got further into it, I began to meditate. I thought about how often I will fantasize during these sessions and began to dwell on the exact technique in more detail.

What I discovered is that, in my mind, I go through a “disengagement”, that is I remove myself from my sexual pleasure. Yes, I am masturbating but it is not ME performing all these stimulations—it is someone else! And therein lies the basis of a fantasy! Who is playing my package, so to speak? Is it a lover (male or female)? A stranger I just met earlier in the evening? An alien? A masseuse? A hospital nurse? A nearby stranger on a plane? And as I continue to disengage my brain from my self-pleasure, something happens. I begin to get more and more aroused. Since “I” am not causing my sexual pleasure, there is an anticipation of unexpected erotic bliss. The arousal can ebb and flow without my direct control.

This technique can be used to extend a masturbation session almost indefinitely. There is no telling exactly where it will lead. And that is the beauty and power of this technique—it can be very unpredictable.

First Results (2012-2013)

Like I said in the previous post my first model was Progasm Ice. I knew it was for advanced used, but that’s exactly because I wanted something that would last, so that after a rough beginning in the end I would have a tool to going on and on.
I bought it from Aneros directly because at the time I didn’t find any store in Portugal that sold it. Of couse it had to get stuck in the customs so I had to go there and try to be as discrete as possible. I had to finally tell them is was a dildo, being as silent as I could to prevent anyone else in the room to hear.

So finally I brought it home. I was living in an apartment with other students in Lisbon, where I was in a University.
My first session I explained in the last post but I’ll repeat it here.

The lube I used at that time was Johnson’s baby oil. It’s very thin but at that time I found it ok.
My first reaction when I inserted Progasm Ice was how confortable it was. The dildos I tried forced the sphincter to stay strechted as their thickness didn’t decrease towards the end.
So I was surprised how small it actually was (yes, I used bigger dildos) and had no problema inserting. I inserted it, noticed how confortable it was and that was it.

“A Binaural Surprise!”

Now I listen to binaural beats all the time, nothing new. But after 6 days of SR, I felt it was time for a release. So I decided to choose one of the old “standard” binaural beats for ejaculation. I really didn’t expect to ejaculate to the beat (I never do); I just wanted to get close to the PONR like a typical “surfing” session. Well, things didn’t quite turn-out the way I planned. Let me explain……

I selected a binaural track which I am familiar with, on YouTube: “Hands Free Orgasm 2 – Binaural No Hands Ejaculation” by Binaural One. I laid-down, started to relax and chill. I didn’t even have an erection. Things were going just so-so for the first 15 or 20 minutes or so. But then, something happened. I did get an erection, but there was much more to come. I was getting AROUSED. The beats weren’t getting any louder or stronger, but my response seemed to be growing exponentially! OMG! I feel my entire system being stimulated to the point of ejaculation! I kept listening; the tones changed ever-so-slightly; but my arousal continued to build. I knew that I would have an involuntary ejaculation from this binaural if I continued to listen. I couldn’t endure any more and besides, I was beginning to ache deeply within my groin. I needed to ejaculate! So (with my towel in place and a ready-hand) I had a most-powerful ejaculation that continued after-pumps for a while. I am feeling greatly relieved. This was an unexpected “session”. I must restart SR back to Day 1……

“A New Kind Of Session – A Reflection”

I recently began external stimulation of my prostate. I have tried the “tennis ball” technique while sitting. And just today I did external prostate stim through my abdomen. What I am feeling now is my prostate deep within my body. I know how a prostate orgasm feels and the feeling of the prostate through external stimulation is unmistakable!

What I am taking out from this “session” is that a prostate stimulation does not have to incorporate an internal massage device like Aneros. Once the prostate is re-wired, virtually ANY kind of stimulation, external or internal is enough to be felt.

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The Search for Something Meaningful

In February 2017 I will be seeking for Something for 5 years, beginning in 2012. I still didn’t achieve meaningful satisfaction from Aneros, but first let’s explain my journey and after all I need to introduce myself.

I’m currently 29 years old. In some ways I think I’m special – for good and unfortunately for bad the most.

Unlike the vast majority of men I never felt any sexual or emotional attraction to anyone, male or female. In a very small amount I feel some men porn and/or fantasies as exciting. I say a very small amount because in no way I experience any meaningful sexual attraction.
I am sexually insecure. I never got an erection for being excited. My erections don’t last long without stimulation. I have premature ejaculation as with stimulation it only takes seconds to reach the orgasm.
With all this I feel inferior, I feel I am not who I’m supposed to be. I feel I’m not a “man”. This pains be deeply and is a profound pain that I have that goes on and I don’t see its end.

Despite my sexual unperformance, I felt like trying and having sex with men, to see what could come from that.
The answer was the same emotionless sexual response I have. I’ve been with some men (you can say like 10 times in 10 years, so see how rare that is), not many, and I’ve been confortable with most of them. In all cases I felt no attraction whatsoever for the other man, sexuallly or emotionally. It’s very frustrating when you’re trying something and you get nothing in return.