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Through my shadow

Carl Jung wrote of the shadow. The shadow is an archetype. Much like the word mother creates an innate feeling of sensation and thoughtful images of ideas and ideals, the word shadow has its own connotations and meaning. We all have a shadow. It follows us, generally out of sight, out of mind. Left unchecked, what does the shadow do? How does it behave? Does it mirror or follow my actions as I believe it to do? Without my conscious acknowledgement and observation of it, I cannot know.

To those who wish to follow my journey, I have had much internal debate as to whether I should even post this or not. How much do I share? How much do I tell relative strangers? Indeed, perhaps here, where I feel a strong connection to community, I feel safest of all stating what I feel, but there is risk to everything. What if what I say ends up as evidence towards my own conviction? What do I hope to gain? Do the risks outweigh the benefits?

The shadow, ever murky, ever dark, ever dancing and darting. Through my shadow, what lies beyond? Like a black hole, the suction of such a journey can be powerful and equally as scary. Will a new understanding and insight be found beyond? Will the shadow wrap around me so tightly that I loose my way? These are the fears of engaging in such a journey. Read more »

Aneros Automatic Autof**king and the Kegel Exercises, October 3, 2012

Hi guys,

Every Aneros session is special and unique to me, and yet, from most of my sessions, I have detected very recently a steady progression towards ease of use of the various Aneros models I have in my collection and also towards absolute Aneros bliss and realization that might be found in the Super-O and other Aneros blessings!

Yesterday first thing in the morning I had a session with my good buddies, the Progasm Classic, Maximus, and Helix Syn once again. Again I began with the Progasm. He inserted more easily yesterday and I spent perhaps 15 minutes in alternating fashion performing the Kegels upon him and just enjoying his presence in my anus and directly upon my prostate. This time he felt real good inserted, although I didn't attempt a full-fledged session with him.

Then I switched over to my very good buddy and teacher, the Maximus model. I spent a good hour with him. Again he slipped in easily to the hilt, and once I positioned my butt on a folded pillow, almost immediately the autof**king began. What amazed me was how automatically and effortlessly the prostate and anal canal massage he delivered me. Of course, my slow, rhythmic breathing set in motion the Maximus! I was truly lost in the actions and motions of this amazing guy in all their subtle nuances and various crescendos of innumerable pleasurable P-waves, perhaps mini-O's. It was just wonderful and it all felt so GOOD! Read more »

My three good buddies: Aneros session for October 1, 2012

Hi guys,

I am really enjoying having Aneros sessions first thing in the morning right after breakfast, bathing, shaving, and other preparations. Most days I wake up fully rested and relaxed. Such a schedule has enhanced my Aneros session many fold. So for now on, when I do not have any pressing business to transact, I will have my Aneros sessions first thing in the morning.

This morning, I began with the Progasm. I spent perhaps five to ten minutes with my new buddy getting used to his wide girth in my anal canal. But still I had difficulty in inserting him to the hilt. Also peristalsis was again strong causing the Progasm to nearly slip out. Then I switched to the Maximus. Things went much better with the Maximus as it massaged my prostate and anal canal fairly well for perhaps thirty minutes.

After a brief intermission, I returned again with the Progasm. This time he slipped in to the hilt. I spent a good fifteen minutes just relaxing and again warming up to my big buddy. Also I performed some Kegels upon him with good, strong clutches of my anal muscles. The discomfort went away as the Progasm really began to feel real good inserted. During this stretch of time, I had to hold the end of this massager, although the peristalsis remained strong. For now on with every session, I'll continue to work with the Progasm in this way. Perhaps very soon he'll stay inserted and my body will get used to him. Read more »

Maximus and Progasm: Aneros Session for Saturday 29, 2012

Over the years, especially since getting my apartment here in Georgetown, I have found Saturdays to be the best time for sexual explorations. So this morning, Saturday, I rose around 5:30 a.m. I hopped on the Internet and had my breakfast with coffee. While having my breakfast, I spent maybe a good 30 minutes Kegeling and bating to some gay pornographic stories on nifty.org to prime myself for the session.

This morning, I began with the Progasm. I spent a good fifteen minutes with my new, big buddy. Again, he didn't slip in easily as I hoped, so I laid on my side just trying to get used to him and doing some Kegels with him.

After a brief intermission, I returned with the Maximus. This guy didn't slip in as well as I liked, but he gave me a fairly good prostate massage for possibly fifteen minutes when peristalsis set in. So after another brief break, I returned again with the Progasm. This time, I just laid on my side to get used to my new buddy, again doing some Kegels with him. It went a little better with him this time.

Finally I returned again with the Maximus. This time I patiently inserted him to the hilt. My Kegels situated him well against my prostate. That is when my session today really took off as the Maximus really autof***ed the hell of my prostate and my anal canal. I was absolutely absorbed in the sensations of sheer pleasure that the Maximus delivered for me. This went on for a good hour. The session ended at 9 a.m. after a good two hours. Read more »

Trying different Aneros during one session

So during last night's Aneros session, I was feeling experimental. I started with the Progasm, and found that even though I could get slow and gentle involuntary contractions with it. But I had to relax much more than the smaller models to get this going. It was nice feeling, but nothing special. Then switched to the Eupho after a while. I was also able to get slow and gentle involuntaries from this one to. And I could really feel the difference in how much it moves, felt better than the Progasm, but still nothing incredibly special. Then I switched for the MGX which has been my current favorite for a while now. And this model gives me the strongest involuntary contractions and most pleasurable for that matter.

It doesn't mean that one model is particularly better than another, as I've had extremely pleasurable sensations from the Progasm and Eupho. It's just that the MGX is what is working best for me right now. I never would have guessed this to be the case. The MGX is the second Aneros I ever bought. And prior to these last few months of it working amazingly well for me, it was the seconded least used model next to the Peridise, which were the least used because they just didn't seem to generate any pleasure compared to my Progasm and Helix. I imagine someday the Peridise will work nicely, but until then they mostly sit in their package.

Rolling Balls and Tingling Foreskin

It's a quiet afternoon for a change; and, I'm sitting in my office chair — leaning a bit forward typing this entry. I've just taken a deep full-belly breath, let it out, and meditate upon the joyful radiations and tinglings moving outward from behind my sac, into my scrotum, balls and up through my shaft to the very tip of my foreskin. You would think that after 3 years now, such an experience would become boring or at least diminish BUT it doesn't! The afterglow continued from this morning's short solo time of massage.

When I awoke, my Beloved had already arisen and left the bedroom. It was chilly, so I pulled the blankets up over my shoulders. The clock said I had only 30 minutes left before taking on the new day beyond. I started to massage my breasts firmly in circular motions. After several minutes I moved my hands down to the top of my short-haired bush and started some firm circular motions with two fingers on each hand — exploring the area for just the right spot AND then I found it. I massaged this spot and soon I could feel my prostate awakening underneath. Deep miniwaves rolled into larger ones until my left breast clenched hard followed (almost immediately) by a dry O. My fingers moved downward and pressed firmly into the depressin on top of the base of my cock. Again the waves built and CLENCHED. Read more »

Spring 2012 – Fully Immersed

As Spring came on this year my wife was required to be away from home for a few weeks. We hate to be apart, and I dreaded it. But I also know that I make my best progress with Aneros play when I have privacy. For me, knowing that there is no one around gives me the freedom to really shout and moan and reach further into my fantasies, to say what I want from my imaginary lover.

Several things really accelerated my experiences at this time. First, I ordered the "Hypoaerosession" CD downloads. My first session using this turned out to be my best, and gave me new concepts to think about. These concepts are, first, security: I articulate that I am safe to do this and that it is good. Second, I think about "what it is that I want." "What do you want? What do you want?" Answering this question always pushes me into greater arousal.

Around the same time, I purchased the Helix Syn. I really like getting my perineum pounded, but now find that I like the more subtle tickling of the P-tab on the Helix Syn. And it seems to me to be a warmer, softer f**k inside me.

Everything seemed to come together for me. I was becoming aware of some great variables to play around with: cannabis, hypnotic music, position, which toy, relaxation, KSMO techniques, and fantasy/visualization. Read more »

My main men, the Maximus and Helix Syn, Aneros Session Wednesday morning September 19, 2012

Hi guys,

After my session late Monday afternoon two days ago, during which I finally got the hang of using the Maximus, I was so excited and rearing to go when I got up this morning. The Aneros Wiki suggests that we time our sessions two full days apart as a minimum. But this morning just after 7 a.m. after a good night's rest and then after shaving and bathing, I hungered for a session. I then discovered that early mornings after such activities and a good night's rest may provide me excellent times for Aneros sessions. Not only is my body rested and relaxed, but my mind is also very sharp.

I started my session this morning with the Maximus. Before my morning bath today, I had a bowel movement. So the Maximus slipped effortlessly and easily which absolutely amazed me. After insertion, I spent several minutes Kegeling. Then I was ready for my session which proceeded naturally and effortlessly. This time I focused not only upon the Maximus massaging my prostate but also the motion of the P-tab upon my perineum. At the same time, I directed my attention to my PC sphincter and what it was doing for me. When I did all this along with the rhythmic breathing, it seemed that the Maximus was delivering me for series of P-waves which increased in intensity. I also noticed that all this happened in cycles. My session with the Maximus lasted about an hour or an hour and fifteen minutes. It seemed that during this time I was suffused with pleasure. At one point, there was a such a crescendo of P-waves and absolute pleasure that my bloated penis and plump glans were reaching the climax of seminal ejaculation! This may even happen very soon some day! I could have gone on much longer with the Maximus. When this phase of my session today ended, there was a slight puddle of precum on my belly. My glans was certainly wet and sticky! Read more »

Silk

I have been writing several installments to this blog which provides some of my history. But now, I want to jump into the present.

Today, my wife had a job interview. I wished her love and luck and she was on her way, and I decided to have a short Aneros-less session, using iDoser. I set up a 15-minute dose of "Green". It was our first cold morning of the year today, and I was already wearing a super lightweight silk longsleeve shirt for warmth. I slipped on a silk thong. Then I lay on my back, knees up, just like I do in my Aneros sessions. Within seconds I had a contraction in my perineum. Through the silk I gently made light circles around the outside of my nipples. Then I ran my hand across my stomach. I began incorporating vocalizations and humming, and some of the things I've learned from practicing KSMO techniques.

Normally I do my sessions naked, and this was my first time stroking my nipples through cloth, particularly silk. I've often used baby powder or KY Warming Gel on nipples, and this was one of the things that really accelerated my rewiring.

My first touches telegraphed straight from my nipples to my prostate. When I do this, it feels almost like an electrical jolt about an inch deeper than my perineum, with additional low-toned vibrations which spread through my pelvis, especially into my penis bulb, balls and ass. Those vibrations remind me of the touch of a bow on a cello string. The string is big, thick, and the low, scratchy but mellow vibration instills whatever is in its path. Read more »

Winter 2011 – More Learning

As the dry orgasms got more familiar, I developed the ability to relax more during them, and thus to focus on the sensations. Then I began to be able to distinguish more nuances within the feeling. What initially I felt as a rather blunt pleasure became more and more exquisite as I was able to feel as different kinds of contractions in different specific areas.

Now I believe that there are pleasures happening almost everywhere in my body — in my prostate, in my anal area, in my stomach, in my nipples – all at the same time. The fun is in focusing on how that body-wide pleasure manifests itself at different points.

I continued combing the forums for more information, and realized that it was because of trying to confirm my expectations about what I should be feeling. My expectations did blind me for a while from realizing what was happening to me!

There was a time when I wondered, "is it possible that there is no such thing as a Super-O?" And when writers to the forum questioned its very existence, there were quick responses from the more experienced members that one needed to reconsider his expectations. I think I misunderstood this statement! It did not mean that I should *lower* my expectations. To me, it meant I had to understand that I was having these Super-O type experiences, but not focusing and relaxing enough to feel all that it was offering me. Read more »