Still not working

I have been doing a lot of thinking having had no breakthrough yesterday. I tried plenty of times to orgasm but nothing happened, I even slept with the aneros in and felt good. There was one orgasm type event that was nice, but totally pleasure free )I have had one of those before(, and I just couldn’t relax into it. Two days ago I was going into orgasm within minutes of trying. I didn’t sleep again last night due to frustration and kept trying although I knew that I should just give up it was so tempting.
I am now exhausted after spending one night with powerful orgasms ripping through me one minute, in total calm ecstasy the next, and one night in total frustration with a few hours sleep in between.

I’m also very uncomfortable with a constant pelvic pressure bordering on pain and a tense fluttering in my lower abdomen. I have previously interpreted this as being tension building up needing an orgasm to release it, and in fact in previous days that is what has happened it felt much better after an orgasm.
I now realise that this pressure is pure nervous and sexual tension, if I try hard to relax it goes away, but then starts coming back. This is a serious barrier to having any more orgasms. I’m sleep deprived and uncomfortable so it’s just not going to work. It’s like being in continuous sexual tension without any chance of relief. I did try masturbating normally but it doesn’t go away.

Fantasy and Super O

Anyone who reads whatever I have written over the years or who knows me here knows the profound impact that rewiring has had on me. I am a changed man. I think of myself as hypersexual and serenely sensual. Erotic thoughts are part of my daily life; eroticism is always with me bubbling inches below the surface of my routine existance. Fantasy is one of those erotic things that amuses me, piques my imagings and keeps my cock hard and wet.

When an erotic fantasy finds me it is like it has found a comfortable chair; it settles in and stays, relaxing and pondering the facets of its own lush eroticism while secretly reveling in the arousal that it stirs in me. It has certainly been that way over the last few weeks with my fantasy of sexual intimacy with A. She is someone that I have occassion to see quite frequently in meetings and events. Last night I had a particularly pleasurable fantasy involving the two of us. It happened because I saw her at a meeting of the organization she works for and that I volunteer for yesterday. As a leading volunteer in the organization I have a lot of interaction with her before, during and after the meetings. She is Secretary to the board.

Status Check: How to Take it Further

Hello there, Helix Syn user here. A couple weeks ago, I posted this. I figured I'd post an update and see if someone out here had any advice on how to get past what I consider to be the "middle point" of the Aneros journey.

I've gotten to the point where I'll feel the urge to have a session at night, and insertion is easy (I've recently switched to coconut oil in place of a water-based lubricant, which my butt apparently likes to absorb at ludicrous speeds, making the toy's movement unpleasant after 30 minutes). I need less time to relax, and can typically feel the tiny sensations as I breathe out, which build up anticipation. Medium contractions, previously with a thrusting motion with my hips, now without thrusting, bring me the "dull" inside sensation I now associate with my prostate being stimulated. And these contractions start building up a gradually increasing wave, that sometimes diminish in intensity, but that I can bring back.

This wave centers itself near my prostate, and quickly progresses to my abdomen and legs, then chest, then my head and arms a bit, until all I can feel is that wave and the quaking of my muscles. My mouth uncontrollably opens to accommodate for my shallower breathing, and then the wave recedes. The pleasure peaks for about 5 seconds before coming down, but I can't help but feel like there should be "more". A penile orgasm, for instance, feels more like a "discharge" of the pleasure you've accumulated; in this case, it feels like it plateaus right before, even though the pleasure is incredible. I guess I'd classify it as dry orgasm? I'm not entirely sure, it's all new to me.

No sleep

I started a session just before going to bed. This never works out for me. I drift off to sleep before anything gets started.

It worked out this time, though. Fuck me running, did it work out.

I felt a slow pulsing at my anus that maintained a persistent stimulation, and a much slower internal stroking that triggered a wave every forty seconds, I estimate, that amplified the stimulation. The two different internal contractions kept their slow, relentless paces, escalating my arousal to levels I hadn't thought possible.

I now understand what “do nothing” means. In previous sessions, there were points where sensations would start evaporating, and I'd contract something or pluck something else to get things rolling again. This time was very different. Nothing needed doing. The only moments of exertion were when the stimulation got a little unstable, and I fought my body's reflexive need to fold in half at the abdomen.

One of those instabilities got too strong for me. I released a low, sad whimper. My body spontaneously crumpled up like a paper ball, and did not unwad itself for many seconds.

After acknowledging that one of the most intense sexual experiences of my life had really happened, I started dreaming without being entirely asleep. This was a familiar sign that the session was over, and I should clean up and get some sleep. I still had a residual tingle, and thought it would be like a delightful warm breeze to waft me into unconsciousness.

Day One with my Helix syn!!

While I did wind up just going for a super-T instead of the O, I still think it was a very productive session and I learned a lot. First off, getting it in was easy had no problem there. But while I was very much prepared physically…mentally I wasn't all there. I feel like I rushed into things. I wasn't as turned on as I thought I was and I was having trouble focusing. I would focus on my breathing and timing it with my contractions and then try to focus on the massaging and how it felt. I would go back and forth and lose concentration. The times when did get things timed perfect I would get too excited, speed up and lose it!! And also I had trouble finding a position I liked.
Like I said overall I learned a lot from this attempt and am ready to go back at it another day. One more thing, I was using Astroglide and it seemed to work well but I'm not sure if I just need more, maybe had too much (i had maybe half to a whole tsp inside and then enough to cover the toy) or that i should try another lube. Any suggestions?

Now it's not working

I though I had got this all worked out yesterday. My expectations were high that I could now orgasm at will and I expected to be able to have another mind blowing experience tonight.
I can get to the edge of orgasm easily now but just cannot cross over, it's driving me mad it was so easy last night. Maybe I am just too exhausted from last night or stressed from work but it' just not working. I've been so close for so long it's starting to hurt and I can feel an orgasm ready to explode but it won't and I am desperate – probably not the right frame of mind really.
I know the answer I need to have a normal ejaculation to get some relief and forget super Os tonight or I will drive myself mad. I know I can do it. Maybe my body is telling me just not now.

It's working!

One my wife went to bed last night I easily managed to go into another orgasm, again sitting at my computer. I have worked out exactly where I need to focus to bring on my orgasm – along the underside of my penis and I can amplify this quite quickly now to the point where I can orgasm easily.
This orgasm rapidly became INTENSE! It felt like I had gone up a gear. The orgasmic waves felt more powerful than I have ever had before, in fact I really did wonder if I could take it, and my prostate was contracting so hard it felt sore )not too unpleasant(. After a few minutes of this I had to stop and rest.

Another day

Woke at 4am feeling a bit turned on. Tried for an orgasm, couldn't do it and fell back to sleep. Woke at 7.30 again and started to let sensations build, again without the aneros. At last I broke through and enjoyed a wonderful pulsing orgasm gripping my pelvis with each wave. I tried my hardest to relax and enjoy it and let it take me. I have real trouble relaxing when in an orgasm I think it's the next thing I have to learn. This time was better than last night but it did fizzle out after only about 10 minutes.
I really feel that I need to practice meditation and learn how to fully relax, I know that there is more pleasure lying in wait for me and I am blocked somewhere.

Some pain today

Kept getting the feeling I wanted to orgasm whilst sitting at the computer today. Managed to have an orgasm sitting at my chair which without the aneros. It was an awkward position trying to control my legs but it felt good, even had my wife look in through the door and ask me a question and I managed to bring the orgasm back straight after.
A bit later after the first orgasm subsided I kept trying again after this but got nowhere.
I was feeling a bit frustrated and told the family I was going for a lie down in the afternoon, inserted the aneros, and had another orgasm lasting about 30 minutes. This one felt really good. I went through several different types of orgasm, at one point I had pure pleasure extending into my legs and up into my back and I never wanted it to end.
I think I might have overdone it, particularly straining to have an orgasm in the morning. By early evening I had severe pain in my testicles and lower abdomen which got worse and worse. I had suffered 'blue balls' a few times in the past and soon realised this felt just the same. I ejaculated and it didn't stop which got me a bit worried but within the next hour the pain had totally settled which was a relief. Perhaps others should be aware of this happening – it really is painful and if you don't know what it is it could be very worrying.

Exploring further

Woke up and had another aneros free orgasm, didn't last long, nothing special this time although having said that it was as mind blowing as every one I have had so far.
Sitting at the computer I managed to have yet another )again without the aneros( which lasted about 15 minutes.

I keep getting all sorts of tingling sensations around my body now, and quite often I suddnely feel as if I am going to orgasm without any warning. I had a small one whilst standing in the kitchen unpacking the shopping. Couldn't let it go very far though as my wife was talking to me at the time.

I took my eldest child to a gymastics competions and thought why don't I try getting an orgasm somewhere else in my body and managed a lower abdominal orgasm. I had to work hard to stop it spreading to my prostate as I could have easily had a full blown prostate orgasm. As I was sitting in a row of other parents I had to stay totally relaxed and just enjoy the sensation and really control it. It wasn't as intense as a prostate orgasm but it was a new experience and something I am going to experiment with.
Shortly after the abdominal orgasm settled I suddenly noticed a tingling in my mouth. By adjusting my breathing I managed to amplify it slightly, I wonder if it's possible to have a mouth orgasm? I think almost anything is possible now.