Tag: Breathing

Unique Sensations

I was born and raised in New York City. At 9 years old I learned how to use the city bus system; at 10 I learned how to ride the subway and figure out where it took me. From that point on the greatest city in the world was my oyster. Almost every week from 10 until I was 18, I used the magic carpet of the subway to take me to some new neighborhood, street or destination in the big apple.

For all the hundreds of places I was in the City in those 8 years and the hundreds more that I have been there since then, there are still many, many more that I have yet to discover and visit; it’s a large city and there are thousands and thousands of neat places. Even today when I go to NYC I am always finding someplace new and exotic to experience that I have never been before. The complexity and never ending opportunity to experience something new in the city is a great metaphor for my experience of aneros driven anal pleasure.

I have been writing about my experience of Super O, MMO and anal pleasure for years. The result is hundreds and hundreds of entries. Yet despite the similarity of approach to start them each session is as different as two people are; each session deserves its own description and appreciation. Read more »

Still blocked

Things got worse.

Its been several days now since I have been able to 'cross over' into an orgasm. I can still bring on good feelings but I'm getting less and less inclined to even try now because it's so disappointing and I expect failure. Today I have only tried a couple of times. I have posted on the forum and had some reassuring comments but it's my problem and no-one can really help.

I have been very low about this. The last time I can remember feeling anything like this was when I split from my first girlfriend and I had huge pangs of loss seeing anything that reminded me of her. I feel like that reading about peoples successes on here or when I think about my experiences last week. That alternates with feelings of positivity that I can do it or simply just trying to forget about it.

This is truly psychological. I can do everything else and get so close I'm actually slipping into an orgasm but my mind sabotages it every time. I get to the point of starting to shake, I feel as if the feelings are spreading, I keep breathing into it, and last week and would have been off on a super-O, now I have a feeling that it's not going to happen and it doesn't.

I have lots of theories for why I am blocked, or it could be a combination: Read more »

Anal Orgasm

Friday night after an early dinner J went to my daughter’s house about an hour away to go to a late movie near her house and stay overnight. It’s been nice that the two of them have become movie buddies; they go to chic flicks on a regular basis. I am happy that my daughter is able to spare me from going to movies that I would rather not see. It was a 9:20 PM showing so J decided ahead of time to spend the night in my daughter’s apartment which is 10 minutes from the theater rather than drive the hour to come home. So I slept alone that night.

After chatting with some friends on line and doing some minor work related writing I headed up to bed. Alone time in the house or in a hotel is always time that I use for prostate massage. Most of my MMO sessions are done with nothing inside me with J in the bed next to me; the sensations from a massager less session are lush and deep and subtle. Massager-less sessions are lower to build up but they never fail to get my precum flowing profusely when they are in full bloom. I love doing them. Read more »

Long week

I felle as if I am finally starting to integrate my new found ability with normal life. Today is the first day that I haven't been constantly thinking about my next super-O and worrying whether it is going to happen.
After a long week and long hours at work I am as usual very tired. I really think that I will just sleep tonight so it will be first day without a super-O. Maybe not a bad thing I feel a bit more in control now.

Fantasy and Super O

Anyone who reads whatever I have written over the years or who knows me here knows the profound impact that rewiring has had on me. I am a changed man. I think of myself as hypersexual and serenely sensual. Erotic thoughts are part of my daily life; eroticism is always with me bubbling inches below the surface of my routine existance. Fantasy is one of those erotic things that amuses me, piques my imagings and keeps my cock hard and wet.

When an erotic fantasy finds me it is like it has found a comfortable chair; it settles in and stays, relaxing and pondering the facets of its own lush eroticism while secretly reveling in the arousal that it stirs in me. It has certainly been that way over the last few weeks with my fantasy of sexual intimacy with A. She is someone that I have occassion to see quite frequently in meetings and events. Last night I had a particularly pleasurable fantasy involving the two of us. It happened because I saw her at a meeting of the organization she works for and that I volunteer for yesterday. As a leading volunteer in the organization I have a lot of interaction with her before, during and after the meetings. She is Secretary to the board. Read more »

Status Check: How to Take it Further

Hello there, Helix Syn user here. A couple weeks ago, I posted this. I figured I'd post an update and see if someone out here had any advice on how to get past what I consider to be the "middle point" of the Aneros journey.

I've gotten to the point where I'll feel the urge to have a session at night, and insertion is easy (I've recently switched to coconut oil in place of a water-based lubricant, which my butt apparently likes to absorb at ludicrous speeds, making the toy's movement unpleasant after 30 minutes). I need less time to relax, and can typically feel the tiny sensations as I breathe out, which build up anticipation. Medium contractions, previously with a thrusting motion with my hips, now without thrusting, bring me the "dull" inside sensation I now associate with my prostate being stimulated. And these contractions start building up a gradually increasing wave, that sometimes diminish in intensity, but that I can bring back.

This wave centers itself near my prostate, and quickly progresses to my abdomen and legs, then chest, then my head and arms a bit, until all I can feel is that wave and the quaking of my muscles. My mouth uncontrollably opens to accommodate for my shallower breathing, and then the wave recedes. The pleasure peaks for about 5 seconds before coming down, but I can't help but feel like there should be "more". A penile orgasm, for instance, feels more like a "discharge" of the pleasure you've accumulated; in this case, it feels like it plateaus right before, even though the pleasure is incredible. I guess I'd classify it as dry orgasm? I'm not entirely sure, it's all new to me. Read more »

Day One with my Helix syn!!

While I did wind up just going for a super-T instead of the O, I still think it was a very productive session and I learned a lot. First off, getting it in was easy had no problem there. But while I was very much prepared physically…mentally I wasn't all there. I feel like I rushed into things. I wasn't as turned on as I thought I was and I was having trouble focusing. I would focus on my breathing and timing it with my contractions and then try to focus on the massaging and how it felt. I would go back and forth and lose concentration. The times when did get things timed perfect I would get too excited, speed up and lose it!! And also I had trouble finding a position I liked.
Like I said overall I learned a lot from this attempt and am ready to go back at it another day. One more thing, I was using Astroglide and it seemed to work well but I'm not sure if I just need more, maybe had too much (i had maybe half to a whole tsp inside and then enough to cover the toy) or that i should try another lube. Any suggestions?

Exploring further

Woke up and had another aneros free orgasm, didn't last long, nothing special this time although having said that it was as mind blowing as every one I have had so far.
Sitting at the computer I managed to have yet another )again without the aneros( which lasted about 15 minutes.

I keep getting all sorts of tingling sensations around my body now, and quite often I suddnely feel as if I am going to orgasm without any warning. I had a small one whilst standing in the kitchen unpacking the shopping. Couldn't let it go very far though as my wife was talking to me at the time.

I took my eldest child to a gymastics competions and thought why don't I try getting an orgasm somewhere else in my body and managed a lower abdominal orgasm. I had to work hard to stop it spreading to my prostate as I could have easily had a full blown prostate orgasm. As I was sitting in a row of other parents I had to stay totally relaxed and just enjoy the sensation and really control it. It wasn't as intense as a prostate orgasm but it was a new experience and something I am going to experiment with.
Shortly after the abdominal orgasm settled I suddenly noticed a tingling in my mouth. By adjusting my breathing I managed to amplify it slightly, I wonder if it's possible to have a mouth orgasm? I think almost anything is possible now.

Beginnings

I had thought about getting one of these devices for years after reading about them and eventually took the plunge. My first session was disappointing, I expected too much too fast, the second was similar and I put it aside for a week having achieved nothing more than a slightly interesting feeling.
My breakthrough came when I went to stay in a hotel overnight and took it with me. I thought I had plenty of time, nothing else to do, and would give it one more go without expecting anything magic. I inserted the device, lay down on my back, and relaxed. The feeling came quite quick and I thought 'this is interesting' and went with it being careful to control my breathing and concentrating on the pleasure, fairly quickly I started shaking and could feel something building. I was determined to allow it to build and kept concentrating and then it happened! I can't even remember exactly how it felt the first time but I remember feeling out of control and trying to catch my breath and thrashing about wildly and feeling my hands go numb, and being totally amazed that I could actually do it.
The first orgasm must have lasted 20 minutes, I noticed that I had leaked a big pool of clear fluid from my penis. I thought time for bed removed it, cleaned up and lay down. Curiosity got the better of me and I just had to do it again, and re-inserted. The orgasm grew fast this time and before I knew it I was there again and had another 20 minutes of ectasy this time I remember feeling waves of pleasure riding up my chest and trying to control it a bit more, clenching my anal muscles to move the aneros around and press on my prostate and heighten the pleasure, using breathing to control the orgasm. I think I could have gone on forever, this lasted about 30 minutes and I thought I really ought to get some sleep now and let it fade.
It was about 2am by now I tried to get to sleep but couldn't and thought why not do it once more? Again I managed to get straight into another orgasm, this time it was even more intense my whole pelvis feeling like a tingling block of pure pleasure waves of orgasm going in and out of my chest.
I must have had an hour and a half of orgasm that night.

Second session and more

I am married and have kids so finding time to use the aneros is difficult. I had the house to myself for a few hours so immediately got naked and inserted the aneros.
I was expecting immediate results after my amazing session 2 days before.
It didn't happen. I lay there for an hour, got close but couldn't go over into an orgasm. I was disappointed and tried to push it and gave up after an hour feeling very disappointed and frustrated. Every time I had any feelings I think that I just expected it to transform into an orgasm, it had seemed so easy the other night. The more I tried the harder it got and the harder I pushed the less likely it was to work.
I had a rest but had to try again. After another hour I was ready to give up again, the family were due back in half an hour anyway, but decided to have one last try. It was worth it and at last I was rewarded with an orgasm lasting about 20 minutes. I was looking at the clock all the way through thinking I'm going to have to end this soon, which made it a bit subdued compared to my last orgasms but it was definitely a full orgasm.
In my first few orgasms I just rode it, and didn't really notice individual orgasms, this time the waves came and went, and I managed to have 2 orgasms that felt like a normal ejaculatory orgasm by using strong anal contractions to push the aneros up hard against my prostate but these were way more intense and longer lasting.
I think I am addicted.
I went to bed 'early'. Family at home. I thought why don't I just try to do it without the aneros? so just lay on my back and concentrated on allowing the feelings to build again. Within 5 minutes I was orgasming without the aneros!! It was almost as good if not the same. I had to stay quiet and was aware of my breathing and my legs jumping and didn't want anyone to her me. It lasted a good 10 minutes.
My wife then came to bed, went to sleep, and I tried again and had another one very quickly. Don't think she noticed I really tried to keep my legs still.
I am definitely addicted.