I received my eagerly awaited first Aneros, a Helix Syn yesterday. Picked it up from the Post Office so that "she who disapproves, the fun police" would not find out about my purchase. When I arrived home, I unpacked in the garage, away from prying eyes. Then I took it into the house to give it a wash before going back to the garage. I thought I would get to know my new Aneros and have a little fun before getting down to the serious business of learning how to reach nirvana and dry organs etc. Shutting the door, I dropped my shorts and underpants. Reaching for my hidden stash of Lube, I snapped back the cap and squirted some onto my fingertip. Separating one cheek from I gently touched my puckered anus with the lubed up finger before pushing it home up to the palm of my hand. Withdrawing my finger, I picked up the Helix Syn and carefully lubed it up. While it glistened and shone blackly in the light of the window I lifted my right leg and placed my foot on the workbench. By this time my previously flaccid penis was becoming interested in the event unfolding and was better than half erect. I said to myself, this is not about you cock, this is about something much bigger and better than that. ConcentrateOrientating the Helix correctly I placed my hand behind myself and gently placed it agains my anus. On recognition it was correctly placed in pushed it firmly inside of me. It slipped in easily, just as I expected. What a nice comfortable feeling. A feeling that I had been missing for so long after I had thrown out my previously owned dildos and butt plugs. Lowering my leg down I clenched my muscles and felt to Aneros move inside of me, drawing itself upwards inside and rubbing over my prostate. A few more muscle movements and my penis subsided. After about 5 minutes I decided to check for pre-cum. I found a pleasant surprise, a dewdrop had formed on my urethral opening of my once again flaccid penis. It was then I heard a call from inside the house so I had to quickly withdraw my Aneros, tidy up and go to see what I was needed for inside by my wife.
Tag: Involuntaries
Letting Go
This morning I didn't have the luxury of time like I have had during previous weekends. I had to be on the road to visit my parents by late morning. Still, it was a fantastic session. I have been trying out the unrefined shea butter the last two days. So far the results are good. I'll have to see about leaving the Peridise in all night with it now. I unintentionally left it in overnight earlier in the week with no trouble, but I'd rather not take a chance with the water base lube.
I started off this morning with the Peridise as usual and held off touching my nipples for longer. I'd like to see what I can achieve with less nipple involvement. I'll have to see how things progress in the future. Things still felt pretty good in the limited time I had. I had a mini-O or two before getting the nipples involved.
I've found that I can't easily get into a more meditative state anymore. Things too easily progress to a more powerful state and there seems to be no need at this point. I'll keep it in the back of my head if I run into trouble in the future, but I sort of miss the more relaxing times I've had. I don't miss it nearly enough to trump the super-O's, though.
Saturated
Things keep getting better. I had held off a day on using the Helix because of a little soreness. I was rewarded for my patience today. I got warmed up with the larger Peridise as I've been accustomed to lately. It was a little longer warmup than usual. I didn't have any dry O's; I just closed my eyes and felt a humming in my head as I occasionally added a little PC or anal movement at times. The humming had started almost as soon as I did. This lasted for half an hour or so.
After a while I needed a break to have a BM. I wanted to wait until I got that out of the way and cleaned up to switch to the Helix. I took my time in getting back to the session even then.
Once inside, the Helix had an immediate effect. I didn't have contractions or anything, but I felt a general wave of pleasure rise through my body as I got situated in bed. It was a good sign.
I've been keeping a T-shirt on during sessions so that I don't chafe my nipples and it has a side effect of limiting the amount of sensation my fingers can give my nipples. I think this is a good thing as it slows the progression a little and lets things happen more on their own.
ORGASMIC MILESTONE
I recently was thinking about the most popular topics I have written about in the various blogs I have posted. When I looked at the Word Press Analytics when I had the WP blog the top ten topics for me were cock, cum, prostate orgasm, balls, dry orgasm, anal sex, cockhead, penis and anal orgasm.
Clearly all of you here on Aneros and me as well have an interest in male orgasm and male sexuality. For me this last quarter of my life has been a discovery of my sexuality and sexual response. As it turns out it this period has been dominated by MMO and my rewiring. These popular topics are a reflection of my sexual life experience but more accurately they are a reflection of my self discovery.
Obviously J has been and still is a huge part of my sex life. What I have done in these last 18 years is compartmentalize my sex life; I have my intimate connection with her through fucking and I have my solo self directed MMO driven sex life. They exist in two different worlds. I have several entries that discuss this division in my sexual response and my sexual life. However to my great joy, very slowly, those two worlds seem to be moving closer together as discussed in a post prior to this one.
Mental trampolines and smoke rings in my mind
)Warning: the first part of this is sort of dry. The last three paragraphs are the ones things get deeper and more interesting.(
I've had two sessions since I got my first additions to my Aneros collection. I've used both in the same pattern as it turns out. I got the two set of Peridise and have used the larger one to begin and end each session. I've used the Helix in the middle. The results have been astounding.
I think the Peridise works well for me in warming things up without going over the top, then returning to it when it's real easier for me to get pleasure from more subtle stimulation.
The Helix feels a little different than my MGX. There's pressure in slightly different spots. I can't tell if anything is particularly different when I'm in the heat dry O's and super O's. It's certainly not keeping me from enjoying myself that's for sure.
Anyway, I was pleasantly surprised from the start at the subtle feeling of pleasure when putting the Peridise in. I move things around inside for a while, but don't quite make it to dry O's during the initial use.
surprise! – further steps
Yesterday I did my sixt session. Mostly I practice every fourth day so that there are 3 full days between a session. Often this fails because I have no time or aren't in the mood. So I had two weeks of abstinence between my last two sessions.
And I experienced the benefits of that! What this was I will describe a few lines later.
The first (right done) Aneros session I did, I experienced a Super-T (wrote a blog entry to that). All other sessions were similar, because I always ended up with a Super-T. The quality of the first Super-T was the best and reaching Super-T’s all the time began to bore me.
But yesterday I broke the wall of Super T's and gained a new level ;)
Instead of lying on the stomach or back, I spontaneous decided to do something new and chose the position lying on the side with the upper knee bent.
The second big difference to the other sessions was the technique. I didn't produced hard contractions, but tried to hold gentle sqeezes with light differences in strenght. After a while I contracted the muscles in a way, that caused little shavings. This was a the first sign of very small involuntaries and time by time I got better in holding the right sort of contraction for causing more of these involuntaries.
You have to play with the different muscles you have in the pelvic floor and need to level the magnitude of tension. The involuntaries were very slightly and disappeared when I relaxed all muscels, so it was not this strong kind of involuntaries, described by other members. But it was a beginning.
Beyond Expectations
I hadn't been blogging about recent events. Things had progressed real well in the past week. I had my first experience with Super O's only 8 days into my journey. One probably lasted 3 minutes. I was overcome with pleasure and whimpering "Oh my god" over and over. It wasn't quite like what I had in mind. It's easy to say you'll put expectations aside, but it's hard to actually prevent any kind of images in that will form an idea of what will happen. There wasn't a sudden transition like with a traditional orgasm. The ebb and flow of sensation in my pelvis grew over time. It was almost imperceptible the way it grew and took over in the end. In retrospect it really had a lot to do with relaxing, exploring and letting go when my body got to a state that things could start to cascade.
Anyway, as for this evening I had my first session since my breakthrough Super O session on Sunday. My anus has been more sensitive lately. That has been a surprise. At times I've felt P-waves and then tingling from my anus.
I had hopes of having more Super O's, but I was able to continue focus on being relaxed and not trying to do too much. A couple times when the P-waves would start to ramp up I'd take a step back in my mind and take in what I was feeling without actively urging it on with nipple stimulation or any added anal/PC contractions. Things still progressed faster than in any session before. The P-waves were more "gritty", more tangible than in previous sessions.
Partnered MMO Part One
This journey that I have been on for the last 18 years has been so rich and varied. It has also been internally focused and driven by me. I have shared my experiences with my wife and she has benefited from my enhanced ability to perform sexually and my newly attuned ability to coax shuddering orgasms from her lust dripping pussy.
To achieve each new step I took, I read and studied. I read all kinds of books about ESO and ejaculation retention; I dabbled in Zen and meditation, and in tantra. I am by no means accomplished in any of the eastern psycho – spiritual skills, but I have been informed and guided by them. I have always been a thoughtful – introspective person about my work and my experience of the world. When I embarked on this sexual journey I applied the thoughtfulness that I put into gazing at a beautiful sunset into my experience of sexual pleasure. When my sexual self discovery was beginning to resonate and illuminate a path for me I looked inside myself and I followed the path. I applied the intuitive prowess I applied every day at work to my sexuality and my sexual response. It was transcendent, transformational, tumultuous and a lot of other T words like terrific.
Not so do nothing
I don't ever moan involuntarily during a session, but yesterday I had long, quiet, breathy whimpers that couldn't be helped. The non-verbal equivalent to a whispering, high-pitched "Oh my God".
My prostate was vibrating out of control with an electric hum. It was doing this all on its own, and I was at its mercy. I could do nothing but watch it flood me with an overwhelming tingling orgasmic rush that didn't want to stop. That wanted to turn me inside out.
You know you had a good session when you're getting a buzz just thinking about it the next day. And I had a damn good session.
I've always been a fan of the "do nothing" technique, but what I never really asked myself was – Does "doing nothing" really mean I'm not doing anything?
What I discovered yesterday is that by attempting to do nothing, I wasn't doing something that I should have been doing. Which was to make sure I continued doing nothing!
This is confusingly worded, so let me break it down.
I do nothing, which builds initial good feelings and contractions. But as I sink into these feelings, I lose focus and allow my body to interfere. These interfering actions feel right, they feel deceptively natural, as if this is what my body wants right now. It wants me to add a little tension here or there. I feel like doing this will help me along, so it must be where my body wants to take me. Therefore I'm successfully doing nothing. Right?
Silly Me
So I thought I could just type out a blog entry about my sexual experiences and share it with untold strangers on the Internet without my newly awakened prostate taking notice. I thought I was about to go to bed, but other forces were at work with their own agenda.
I had started swaying side to side as I sat and typed that first blog entry at my computer desk. The swaying got more pleasurable and relaxing by the time I was finishing. I was smiling, laughing a little as I realized the pleasure. It continued to build. Light tingling started to encompass more of my body as I sat there. I leaned back further and extended my legs as I was starting to go on auto-pilot, letting the sensations build. I started to realize I couldn't just sit here so I made it to bed, but there was no rest for me there. Nervous energy continued to dominate my body.
I was still dressed in the clothes I intended to go to bed in on a cold winter's night. That didn't stop my body having it's needs met. It didn't care if something was in contact with it's penis or not. It was calling the shots.