Opening Up

Examining my sexuality has been a slow journey of discovery and exploration. I’ve cum to the conclusion I’m Hetero Open. Just like my Avatar description – Shy guy who gets loud, bold and kinky when aroused! Discussing my journey helps explain.

Finally opening up and admitting to myself I really liked ass play, forced me to re-examine my sexuality and prejudices. Very quickly the typical American hetero male sexual prejudices came crashing down. The realization: “It's my body and I can enjoy and take pleasure however and I like and what feels good.” was so liberating. During sex my wife and I really starting exploring what we liked. Much more touching of my body and especially nipple play for me! It added another dimension to our married sex life and a continuing urge to explore each other more and more.

Realizing how great Anal Pleasure is immediately changed my attitude towards gays. I was never anti, but never understood—or tried for that matter—the attraction or pleasure. Watching and jerking to lesbians, always thought, can picture man in there or they’re doing what a man could do. Guy-Guy, I didn’t ‘get.’ Few mind-blowing orgasms later I got it! Pissed off at my myopic self for not being more open and understanding or having the courage to explore my known true desires for a long time. We’re full sexual beings and pleasure can come from anywhere or one. With this newfound openness, I set out to see what I really am.

I'm pissed

I'm mad. I have no self will when it comes to a beautiful orgasm. I suppose to be off from having wet orgasms and jerking off and riding but crazy me with no self will couldn't handle the throbbing from my young hard dick.

After work I was so tired. I took me a nice shower and got on line. It was still early so I decided to see if anyone was in the chat. Some of my old and new buddies were there so were al shooting the breeze and I had to leave to prepare dinner. Later that night I got a instant boner. Since I was on another break of jerking and have a wet orgasm I decided to just read some good erotic stories.

Well the erotic stories transfered into me getting fully naked with a oiled up hard dick in my hand watching my favorite porn. Since Aneros I have become a great edger. I can edge for hours. But the down fall of that is i erupt by accident because of to much pressure and pleasure. So I'm flicking through porn vids and contracting my hole with nothing in and it jacking very hard and long. As soon as I was about to stop my dick just erupted with sticky creamy juices all over my stomach and bed. It felt amazing but I was on a now wet orgasm break and I already had three days under my belt.

The prequel

I thought I should give this a try and the thought of doing a blog with updates really appealed to me. Let's start. Recently 35 and I've always had a very high sex drive. Masturbate at least twice a day most days. And very limited anal experience. Always been fond of anal but never really explored it. Bought a simple anal vibrator a couple of years ago, didn't really mess with it too much for no particular reason. But I've always been interested in exploring, in particular, prostate play.

So I finally decided to take the plunge and ordered the Helix Syn as my first foray into this. Should be delivered by Wednesday. So I've been researching, reading, and learning all about the process of what to expect, & general idea of what to do. This is simply the most complex sexual idea I've ever attempted. Almost intimidating and a little scary but I think I'm willing to walk the plank in exploring what all this will be like. Yeah I know, a little melodramatic but I feel like little young me when I first discovered masturbation all those years ago.

Session 3 – more vibrant prostate and dildo

So I feel like my prostate has been more sensitive, and I have been having great sensations very fast; except this time I got too horny and just took out my 7'' dildo and start riding it. Oh My God, it feel so good as it slowly slid in and out of me as I clench; sadly I wasn't able to achieve a prostate orgasm, but I feel like I have been very close! At any rate, the orgasm is better than yesterday!

I'm So Thankful

Hey guys. Hope everyone had a great holiday. I hope you got really full of food and of your aneros toys lol. So I was blessed with getting some alone time after all my family left and my parents went to go visit college buddies in another county. So I stayed back and cleaned up the house and the decided to have some fun.

I took my a nice shower, cleaned out and lubed up like always. I actually recorded this session that I am recalling now and will be up shortly. I put a pillow under me to lift me up cause it makes me feel like I'm being pounded when my progasm goes deeper. I had the best session to date. I cried, I screamed and I came all over the place.

YES I HAD A HFWO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok sorry for screaming but i did and it felt amazing. I was rock hard and throbbing and pre cum was shooting everywhere. Then I held a contraction and BOOM my beautiful love juice came erupting out of my hard penis and onto my balls, pillow and belly. I cut the audio off after 20 minutes cause I thought I was going to pass out but my prostate wanted more and more is what I gave.

Session 1 – Auto Contractions

I am a 20 year-old from Georgia.
I have tried to use my aneros before, but tried to hurry into a prostate O than dry O; therefore, this is consider my first time really trying to create dry O.s
About 15 min into the session, I contracted by PC muscle and started to get involuntary contraction, it feels a little bit good, not like awesome or anything… I was sitting in a chair as that involuntary contraction started, so I climbed into bed and really start to work for it.
Very interesting thing happened: as I was having auto contractions, I started to play with my nipples, and it creates this insane sensation that makes me want to release somewhere, it also make my body feel very hot, occasionally I would feel as if a warm halo is surrounding me; but since the sensation is too great, I had to stop nippling myself.
The auto contraction, again, didn't bring me super awesome feeling. Just, good feeling. Since this auto contraction is on the pc muscle, i tried to translate it to my anal muscle to see if I will create an anal contraction; tried several time, and I think I had seconds of good feeling paroxysmally. In the end, I feel tired and tried to beat off. At the same time, I tried to incorporate tantric breathing – trying to lead the building orgasmic sensation up the spine than out the penis. However, the orgasm was only ok, didn't feel too good. I haven't been having good feeling orgasm for a while, and I just wonder how can I improve my orgasmic pleasure level?
to be continued…

First real eupho ride.

2013-11-27 04:49:56] aneros_2010: Helix Syn here
[2013-11-27 04:50:28] WarrenGWonka: HELLO! Shake hands in there little buddy!
[2013-11-27 04:50:57] WarrenGWonka: Semi-erect, even with my ED
[2013-11-27 04:51:30] WarrenGWonka: more… hard. cool!
[2013-11-27 04:52:27] WarrenGWonka: Last time around, I just got to the poinr where I could tell it to switch sides, and it would
[2013-11-27 04:53:19] WarrenGWonka: gotta be careful it doesn't squirt out when I cough or change positions
[2013-11-27 04:53:22] aneros_2010: Good !
[2013-11-27 04:53:55] aneros_2010: On my side here too
[2013-11-27 04:54:00] WarrenGWonka: Still standing here by the bed. breath caught twice
[2013-11-27 04:54:49] WarrenGWonka: Last time was a long slope up. maybe fater. Gonna li down
[2013-11-27 04:55:02] WarrenGWonka: faster tonite
[2013-11-27 04:55:30] aneros_2010: Feeling nice already ?
[2013-11-27 04:55:33] WarrenGWonka: What's up, aneros?
[2013-11-27 04:55:44] Guest1: User <Guest1> left the chat room.
[2013-11-27 04:56:04] WarrenGWonka: yeah.
[2013-11-27 04:56:23] WarrenGWonka: really hard…unusual
[2013-11-27 04:57:21] aneros_2010: Great! Semi here
[2013-11-27 04:57:26] WarrenGWonka: doing notng and it isn't feeling like doing anything, …. unex-pected mkjni
[2013-11-27 04:57:49] aneros_2010: was riding Eupho and switched to Helix Syn 5 min ago
[2013-11-27 04:57:56] WarrenGWonka: lie down, lad shaky knees
[2013-11-27 04:58:25] aneros_2010: i do nothing mostly and get best results that way
[2013-11-27 05:01:02] aneros_2010: Great involuntary contractions…. Feels awesome
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06:16:21] WarrenGWonka: Lordylordylordylordy! THANK YOU, little buddy!
[06:18:04] djblackknight: ‹@WarrenGWonka› That good huh?
[06:19:18] djblackknight: ‹@Michelangelo› welcome
[06:19:51] Michelangelo: ‹@djblackknight› Hello
[06:20:18] djblackknight: ‹@Michelangelo› what's new
[06:20:39] Michelangelo: ‹@djblackknight› not much, how are you?
[06:20:43] WarrenGWonka: JEEZ, DJ.
[06:21:32] WarrenGWonka: Nothing like that. Literally howling at the moon, smothering it.
[06:23:15] WarrenGWonka: Wow, Mike. woooow. SuperT
[06:24:04] WarrenGWonka: licking and sucking my fingertip … transferred the feelings to my glans… ooooooooooooo
[06:24:59] WarrenGWonka: Havent had my pipes cleared like that for a looong time.
[06:25:57] WarrenGWonka: Massive shot of endorphins …. had to get it out or have a really roe butt in the morning. May fall over into my keyboard.
[06:26:08] WarrenGWonka: sore butt
[06:27:44] WarrenGWonka: Rode from 5 to 6:15. Totally blissed and timeless for more than an hour.
[06:29:12] WarrenGWonka: Got up on my knees thrusting …. for the first time inyears, my leegs didn't cramp. My wife will love this.
[06:31:26] WarrenGWonka: The time it was ***ing me, on my back, I could feel a body on me. Someone I loved …
[06:32:41] fun1: User <fun1> entered the chat room.
[06:33:21] WarrenGWonka: Hi.
[06:33:43] WarrenGWonka: First real euphos syn ride
[06:33:52] fun1: hi
[06:34:33] fun1: eupho syn- that's a bit smaller than helix syn I think
[06:34:52] fun1: do you have others
[06:36:06] WarrenGWonka: Yeah. I've ridden that three timee. This is far subtler. While I could still think, I could think at it to move from one seide of the prostate to the other, and it would.
[06:36:57] WarrenGWonka: The helix is relativeiy solid in there. This is mobile.
[06:37:39] djblackknight: sounds like @ fun1
[06:37:47] WarrenGWonka: A longer and subler buildup. Had a surprise mini while I was still standing at the computer typing.
[06:38:15] WarrenGWonka: You wouldn't believe it, dj.
[06:38:47] djblackknight: I only have a week left
[06:40:15] djblackknight: ‹@fun1› sup
[06:40:53] WarrenGWonka [»] djblackknight: Cher: I was invited in when he was being ridden by it. sooooo gooddd in me. It felt like a lover was in me.
[06:41:23] WarrenGWonka: I could really get used to that.
[06:43:41] WarrenGWonka: ‹@fun1› It hasn't felt like that in 50 years.

My Breathing Meditation

Guided breathing meditation

)I've edited this blog after getting feedback from my Tai Chi teacher.(

I've started my sessions recently with this breathing exercise that I put together from several sources. I do it with any model aneros prostate massager. I like it because it gets me aroused from within without any stimulation. It may be of interest to men who have trouble getting aroused. I don't know if it will work for anyone else but me. Let me know if it works for you.

stage 1 oral breathing – to relax and circulate oxygen

Breathe into your abdomen relaxedly with your diaphragm, don't use your chest muscles.

With your mouth closed pull in air smoothly and slowly and gently through your nose.

Feel it as it flows down your throat into your chest.

Pause briefly, and then push the air out while saying"ahhhh" deeply so you feel it in your belly.

Exhale slowly and feel the air flow up out of your chest, up your throat and out your lips.

Pause briefly again and start over.

If you feel uncomfortably light-headed, slow down and take smaller breaths.

If you feel shortness of breath, take a deep breath and adjust your breathing so you're getting enough air.

Do this as much as you need to feel comfortable and natural doing this.

Just joining

So my Progasm arrived yesterday. It looks pretty large, but not frighteningly so.

I'm a straight man, married, and very sex-positive. I've been jealous of my wife's multiorgasmic capabilities, and want to see if I can achieve the same either on my own or with her.

I'm inexperienced with anal play. I've had a couple prostate massages that ended in awfully strong orgasms, but I've found that it takes some skill to do that well )others have used fingers inside me and I've not found it pleasurable, usually too rough or jarring(. Since "if you want something done right, do it yourself" makes sense to me, I've decided to give Aneros a try.

So why did I get the Progasm, with so little experience? First, I think I have the temperament and patience to go slow, relax and take my time. Second, the description of that "fuller feeling" matches what I'd like. Third, it sounds as though for an inexperienced person, positioning is easier than with say the Helix. The larger size gives me pause, but as I said I expect to be able to be patient.

So why have I decided to blog this?

First, if I run into difficulties, I'm guessing I'll get some useful input via this mechanism. Second, I'm hoping that in a few months or more, a guy who's a total n00b like I am today, might get some encouragement.

Phase 2: Successful P-wave

Session was better than last time, I was more relaxed.
Progasm started to autofuck me real good about an hour in to the session.

I felt I was about to orgasm, but my mind was like: "ERROR IllegalArgumentExpection: Prostate not registered as OrgasmProvider" (forgive me, I'm an IT guy).
I did however get a good P-wave out of it.

My muscles were getting tired after that, and I couldn’t get them to spasm so nicely anymore.
I grew impatient and just jerked off to a Super-T.

Session Summary:
Positive
– P-wave
Negative:
– Unable to get prostate orgasm
– Should be calmer and take more time.