Tag: Relaxation

Concentration & Abstaining

I should probably mention again that my blog only really receives entries on new developments. Given that I'm somewhat at the end-point of my journey, it's less and less apparent that new sensations and heights come up. But hey! Great sessions nonetheless.

Otherwise there has been a new direction I've taken on my approach to orgasms, these past few weeks; focusing on fantasising. Just admitting this brings a tinge of dirty and reclusive guilt. Still, I think all men use fantasy one way or another.

How the gears turn for me is that I focus on a mixture of sensations and fantasy. It's a dance between the mind and body. Now, the Aneros has been out of commission for roughly a month now due to continuing issues with the ass — and will continue for at least another. In response, sensations have taken a back seat. I have been concentrating a lot more on maintaing a fantasy in the brain, without breaking focus. The side-goal here is to get a hands-free wet orgasm. )HFWO(

It's lead to some of the most INTENSE rush of orgasms yet, though fantasising wasn't the ticket by itself. Abstaining for a few weeks from ejaculation had built up a lot of my arousal, so naturally that has to help. Read more »

Unique Sensations

I was born and raised in New York City. At 9 years old I learned how to use the city bus system; at 10 I learned how to ride the subway and figure out where it took me. From that point on the greatest city in the world was my oyster. Almost every week from 10 until I was 18, I used the magic carpet of the subway to take me to some new neighborhood, street or destination in the big apple.

For all the hundreds of places I was in the City in those 8 years and the hundreds more that I have been there since then, there are still many, many more that I have yet to discover and visit; it’s a large city and there are thousands and thousands of neat places. Even today when I go to NYC I am always finding someplace new and exotic to experience that I have never been before. The complexity and never ending opportunity to experience something new in the city is a great metaphor for my experience of aneros driven anal pleasure.

I have been writing about my experience of Super O, MMO and anal pleasure for years. The result is hundreds and hundreds of entries. Yet despite the similarity of approach to start them each session is as different as two people are; each session deserves its own description and appreciation. Read more »

Still blocked

Things got worse.

Its been several days now since I have been able to 'cross over' into an orgasm. I can still bring on good feelings but I'm getting less and less inclined to even try now because it's so disappointing and I expect failure. Today I have only tried a couple of times. I have posted on the forum and had some reassuring comments but it's my problem and no-one can really help.

I have been very low about this. The last time I can remember feeling anything like this was when I split from my first girlfriend and I had huge pangs of loss seeing anything that reminded me of her. I feel like that reading about peoples successes on here or when I think about my experiences last week. That alternates with feelings of positivity that I can do it or simply just trying to forget about it.

This is truly psychological. I can do everything else and get so close I'm actually slipping into an orgasm but my mind sabotages it every time. I get to the point of starting to shake, I feel as if the feelings are spreading, I keep breathing into it, and last week and would have been off on a super-O, now I have a feeling that it's not going to happen and it doesn't.

I have lots of theories for why I am blocked, or it could be a combination: Read more »

Blocked again?

I had sex with my wife for the first time in months last night. My erection was instant and harder than I remember it ever being even when I was a teenager, and when I came it was stronger than previously, she even commented on how strong it felt.

I haven't managed to have a prostate orgasm for a few days now. I have sort of lost interest a little bit in a good way )have to get on with normal life(, although I'm not sure how I feel really. It was so intense last week I'm almost pleased to feel a bit less addicted. I have tried to bring on an orgasm several times but not really succeeded.

I'm really trying to analyse how to 'cross over' into an orgasm. I can get so close within moments of trying but actually turning it into an orgasm is proving elusive. Thinking back to when I had my first super-O I had not cum for 3 days, and had masturbated several times without climaxing, so there must have been some sexual tension there to start with. I was then so excited about what I had experienced that it just sort of carried on and I didn't even question my ability to go into a super-O for a few days and on the second day I even had an A-less orgasm within minutes of trying.
Two nights of super-Os made me tired, then I couldn't make it work and I got over emotional about that and couldn't sleep, I was working long hours, and it's been hit and miss since and I haven't really caught up with sleep. I have had to lower my expections.

Still not working

I have been doing a lot of thinking having had no breakthrough yesterday. I tried plenty of times to orgasm but nothing happened, I even slept with the aneros in and felt good. There was one orgasm type event that was nice, but totally pleasure free )I have had one of those before(, and I just couldn’t relax into it. Two days ago I was going into orgasm within minutes of trying. I didn’t sleep again last night due to frustration and kept trying although I knew that I should just give up it was so tempting.
I am now exhausted after spending one night with powerful orgasms ripping through me one minute, in total calm ecstasy the next, and one night in total frustration with a few hours sleep in between.

I’m also very uncomfortable with a constant pelvic pressure bordering on pain and a tense fluttering in my lower abdomen. I have previously interpreted this as being tension building up needing an orgasm to release it, and in fact in previous days that is what has happened it felt much better after an orgasm.
I now realise that this pressure is pure nervous and sexual tension, if I try hard to relax it goes away, but then starts coming back. This is a serious barrier to having any more orgasms. I’m sleep deprived and uncomfortable so it’s just not going to work. It’s like being in continuous sexual tension without any chance of relief. I did try masturbating normally but it doesn’t go away. Read more »

Fantasy and Super O

Anyone who reads whatever I have written over the years or who knows me here knows the profound impact that rewiring has had on me. I am a changed man. I think of myself as hypersexual and serenely sensual. Erotic thoughts are part of my daily life; eroticism is always with me bubbling inches below the surface of my routine existance. Fantasy is one of those erotic things that amuses me, piques my imagings and keeps my cock hard and wet.

When an erotic fantasy finds me it is like it has found a comfortable chair; it settles in and stays, relaxing and pondering the facets of its own lush eroticism while secretly reveling in the arousal that it stirs in me. It has certainly been that way over the last few weeks with my fantasy of sexual intimacy with A. She is someone that I have occassion to see quite frequently in meetings and events. Last night I had a particularly pleasurable fantasy involving the two of us. It happened because I saw her at a meeting of the organization she works for and that I volunteer for yesterday. As a leading volunteer in the organization I have a lot of interaction with her before, during and after the meetings. She is Secretary to the board. Read more »

Status Check: How to Take it Further

Hello there, Helix Syn user here. A couple weeks ago, I posted this. I figured I'd post an update and see if someone out here had any advice on how to get past what I consider to be the "middle point" of the Aneros journey.

I've gotten to the point where I'll feel the urge to have a session at night, and insertion is easy (I've recently switched to coconut oil in place of a water-based lubricant, which my butt apparently likes to absorb at ludicrous speeds, making the toy's movement unpleasant after 30 minutes). I need less time to relax, and can typically feel the tiny sensations as I breathe out, which build up anticipation. Medium contractions, previously with a thrusting motion with my hips, now without thrusting, bring me the "dull" inside sensation I now associate with my prostate being stimulated. And these contractions start building up a gradually increasing wave, that sometimes diminish in intensity, but that I can bring back.

This wave centers itself near my prostate, and quickly progresses to my abdomen and legs, then chest, then my head and arms a bit, until all I can feel is that wave and the quaking of my muscles. My mouth uncontrollably opens to accommodate for my shallower breathing, and then the wave recedes. The pleasure peaks for about 5 seconds before coming down, but I can't help but feel like there should be "more". A penile orgasm, for instance, feels more like a "discharge" of the pleasure you've accumulated; in this case, it feels like it plateaus right before, even though the pleasure is incredible. I guess I'd classify it as dry orgasm? I'm not entirely sure, it's all new to me. Read more »

No sleep

I started a session just before going to bed. This never works out for me. I drift off to sleep before anything gets started.

It worked out this time, though. Fuck me running, did it work out.

I felt a slow pulsing at my anus that maintained a persistent stimulation, and a much slower internal stroking that triggered a wave every forty seconds, I estimate, that amplified the stimulation. The two different internal contractions kept their slow, relentless paces, escalating my arousal to levels I hadn't thought possible.

I now understand what “do nothing” means. In previous sessions, there were points where sensations would start evaporating, and I'd contract something or pluck something else to get things rolling again. This time was very different. Nothing needed doing. The only moments of exertion were when the stimulation got a little unstable, and I fought my body's reflexive need to fold in half at the abdomen.

One of those instabilities got too strong for me. I released a low, sad whimper. My body spontaneously crumpled up like a paper ball, and did not unwad itself for many seconds.

After acknowledging that one of the most intense sexual experiences of my life had really happened, I started dreaming without being entirely asleep. This was a familiar sign that the session was over, and I should clean up and get some sleep. I still had a residual tingle, and thought it would be like a delightful warm breeze to waft me into unconsciousness. Read more »

It's working!

One my wife went to bed last night I easily managed to go into another orgasm, again sitting at my computer. I have worked out exactly where I need to focus to bring on my orgasm – along the underside of my penis and I can amplify this quite quickly now to the point where I can orgasm easily.
This orgasm rapidly became INTENSE! It felt like I had gone up a gear. The orgasmic waves felt more powerful than I have ever had before, in fact I really did wonder if I could take it, and my prostate was contracting so hard it felt sore )not too unpleasant(. After a few minutes of this I had to stop and rest. Read more »

Another day

Woke at 4am feeling a bit turned on. Tried for an orgasm, couldn't do it and fell back to sleep. Woke at 7.30 again and started to let sensations build, again without the aneros. At last I broke through and enjoyed a wonderful pulsing orgasm gripping my pelvis with each wave. I tried my hardest to relax and enjoy it and let it take me. I have real trouble relaxing when in an orgasm I think it's the next thing I have to learn. This time was better than last night but it did fizzle out after only about 10 minutes.
I really feel that I need to practice meditation and learn how to fully relax, I know that there is more pleasure lying in wait for me and I am blocked somewhere.