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Even though I don't try or want to, sometimes I just have to JO to stop the edging and just get off, the orgasms that I have when I do are just so powerful and intense. It sometimes scares me! That's when you really feel it on the prostate. It's the hardest thing NOT to do is focus on your dick while using. I'm always wanting to see if I am leaking any precum or just how hard my erection is when I get it. I just try to relax, breathe, clear my mind and let the helix do it's thing. Sometimes sessions are real duds and sometimes really good. I had a couple of short ones the other day, one before i went to work and one after I got home. The morning one was much better than the later one. I had done some "manscaping" with my cordless beard trimmer the night before around my pelvic area and ass as best as I could. Kinda hard to do when you can't really see everything and I didn't want to hurt myself with the trimmer. I think my wife will be surprised to see and feel it when she does! Anyway, I had just took a shower, prepped myself and the Helix and laid down on my left side. I inserted the Helix and started to do some small contractions and just breathe. Just lay still and do nothing, breathe, and let my mind go free. Images of my ex-lovers swirled through my mind, their big juicy tits, smooth hands, wet pussies and sexy sounds of their cries and moans. Then I could feel my ass starting to self contract lightly. My mind went into overdrive. I felt like i had detached from my body and could only feel incredible pleasure in my anus and on my prostate. Soon, I start to breathe heavier and deeper and little sighs turn into groans. I can feel my PC muscles, my abs and my ass going into overdrive. Stay focused… relax…. breathe…. Boom! a small mini O… Bam! Another one shortly after that… Legs and arms are really started to twitch and move… breathing becomes moaning…. wow… Uh oh…. here comes another wave of small Os… I don't know if I can take this anymore… I feel like the eyes are rolling into the back of my head… One final wave of Os crash into me… I let out one loud yell of pleasure and curl into a ball… I'm spent…

Maiden Voyage

The Titanic may have sunk on her maiden voyage. I, however, sailed through with flying colors on my maiden voyage with my newly launched Syn. She is a fine looking vessel, from bow to stern, port to starboard. And she cruises as smoothly as any model yet.

After christening her by cleansing her with warm soapy water I was ready. I had done my usual preparation, manscaped, showered, douched, warm room, low light, at my side – a towel and more lube.

I slipped the Syn inside easily. It fit me like a glove. I knew it was there, but it felt like a part of me and not just something up my ass. It took very little time, only a few seconds, to begin feeling the sensations. In less than two minutes I had my first Dry Orgasm. During the almost 90 minute session, I lost count of the number of Dry and Super Orgasms I had.

The ride reminded me of the newness of my first Helix experiences. It was all fresh and exploratory – new things discovered throughout. All of the orgasms, from P to Mini to Dry to Super to Calm Seas, were substantially more intense than I have experienced recently. I am a full-body, LOTS of movement type of guy during my big orgasms, and these were definitely full-body with tons, TONS of movement. My cock went between flaccid and rock-hard over and over. The pre-cum was flowing freely. During the violent Super O's, the pre-cum would fling out of me and spray all over with bliss. I had to remove my glasses; pre-cum drops are hard to see through!

Directing Energies

Alright, so there's been some significant progress these past two weeks, and just want to document what's happened so far.

Getting positive feedback loops on a regular basis now. None have been quite runaway like the first week, but they are still pleasant. My 'less sessions have been taking off and are becoming more eventful than regular sessions. The reason is because I'm able to put more focus onto all of the sensations being generated as opposed to just the prostate and anal area. This should change with time as I learn to relax more and am able to have regular sessions that focus on the full body experience. Thankfully, my 'less sessions are a good practice to getting to that state.

Anyway, this week I've been focusing on deep breathing and the effects on my mental state. My feelings towards deep breathing were somewhat downplayed, as it's always just been about air and nothing else (you don't breathe, you die). Obviously, there's more to it, but I never quite made that connection outside of the physical need. By focusing on deep belly breathing, I instead imagined what the air was doing for my body. Inhaling provides more than just oxygen, it provides the body with energy. Exhaling, also provides the means for expelling the negative energies collected in the body (for whatever mental/physical reasons).

Who I Am, As I Am, And What I`ve Discovered

This is a holding place for the forum posts that I wrote. Figured it'll be easier to put these in a blog post, so here we go.

So this was originally supposed to be an introduction for someone else, but as I wrote more and more, I just felt I had to share with the amazing folks here who have helped me on this journey.

I started the journey about a year ago, and it started for a few reasons. One, love making with my wife was a laborious process to forgo ejaculation, and I was reading up on various practices to prolong the climax. Other than masturbation (repeated edging, couldn't find the time), kegels and prostate massage were the most agreeable of options to me. So I started a regimen of car-Kegels (as I was driving) and noticed some minor benefits after a few months. Not quite pleased with the progress I was making, I started looking for prostate massagers. As I started to read up on various other devices, I stumbled upon the Aneros line (I refuse to refer to them as "toys") and the forum. The descriptions (and occasional videos, if I could find them) really intrigued me, and were very exciting (both sexually arousing and mentally curious) and I couldn't wait to try.

Spring 2012 – Fully Immersed

As Spring came on this year my wife was required to be away from home for a few weeks. We hate to be apart, and I dreaded it. But I also know that I make my best progress with Aneros play when I have privacy. For me, knowing that there is no one around gives me the freedom to really shout and moan and reach further into my fantasies, to say what I want from my imaginary lover.

Several things really accelerated my experiences at this time. First, I ordered the "Hypoaerosession" CD downloads. My first session using this turned out to be my best, and gave me new concepts to think about. These concepts are, first, security: I articulate that I am safe to do this and that it is good. Second, I think about "what it is that I want." "What do you want? What do you want?" Answering this question always pushes me into greater arousal.

Around the same time, I purchased the Helix Syn. I really like getting my perineum pounded, but now find that I like the more subtle tickling of the P-tab on the Helix Syn. And it seems to me to be a warmer, softer f**k inside me.

Everything seemed to come together for me. I was becoming aware of some great variables to play around with: cannabis, hypnotic music, position, which toy, relaxation, KSMO techniques, and fantasy/visualization.

Silk

I have been writing several installments to this blog which provides some of my history. But now, I want to jump into the present.

Today, my wife had a job interview. I wished her love and luck and she was on her way, and I decided to have a short Aneros-less session, using iDoser. I set up a 15-minute dose of "Green". It was our first cold morning of the year today, and I was already wearing a super lightweight silk longsleeve shirt for warmth. I slipped on a silk thong. Then I lay on my back, knees up, just like I do in my Aneros sessions. Within seconds I had a contraction in my perineum. Through the silk I gently made light circles around the outside of my nipples. Then I ran my hand across my stomach. I began incorporating vocalizations and humming, and some of the things I've learned from practicing KSMO techniques.

Normally I do my sessions naked, and this was my first time stroking my nipples through cloth, particularly silk. I've often used baby powder or KY Warming Gel on nipples, and this was one of the things that really accelerated my rewiring.

My first touches telegraphed straight from my nipples to my prostate. When I do this, it feels almost like an electrical jolt about an inch deeper than my perineum, with additional low-toned vibrations which spread through my pelvis, especially into my penis bulb, balls and ass. Those vibrations remind me of the touch of a bow on a cello string. The string is big, thick, and the low, scratchy but mellow vibration instills whatever is in its path.

Retrospective on One Year Anniversary

I'm just finishing my first year with Aneros toys and other dry- and multiple-orgasm explorations, and what a fabulous year it's been. I started as a complete skeptic at age 54. Now I'm more than just a believer. I now have access to so much pleasure, so much enjoyment, and a whole new frame of mind. I've learned much about how my mind works in the process. I think it is fair to say that I have had great success with these methods, incorporating Aneros, KSMO sessions, amygdala tickling/clicking, music, binaural beats, cannabis, nipple play, stomach rubbing.

My goal today is just to establish this blog, get something down in black & white, so that I have a place to explain my journey thus far. As I organize my thoughts offline, I'm hoping to go through some of the steps I've gone through, and especially focus on some of the many things which have helped me along the way. Perhaps the most important piece of the puzzle has been allowing myself to open up even more to many new types of sexual fantasy, which has greatly increased my arousal level. Raw desire and arousal are the drivers of this process, I believe. The other techniques are here to enhance that arousal, to drive the desire to greater heights.

My greatest joy is that my wife is now becoming a greater partner for me in this journey, and her arousal is getting stronger after a difficult time for her over the past year.

Becoming a seasoned vet

Well I have to say that my body has made this transformation and I have become very familiar with the process of reaching a prostate orgasm. I find the process pretty much effortless and very satisfying to say the least. My journey has passed through so many levels and I do continue to reach different levels on a weekly basis. I have tried everything from manually moving my Aneros tool to adding e-stim at one point. Each attempt added new sensations and brought me down different paths. In the end I have found using just my Aneros toystools to be the most satisfying experience to date. I have found lately that is I rotate my Aneros models during use I reach the most exquisite levels of satisfaction. I usually start with my Eupho and after driving me to unimaginable levels of ecstasy I then insert my Helix and again off I go on a completely different ride and to new heights. I am truly amazed at what these tools do to the male human body. Not only do I feel a great inner peace but also a total physical well being. I never look at porn or anything else to reach these levels. My body now is excited enough just looking forward to my sessions. Usually within 10 minutes prostate contractions begin with just relaxing and letting it happen. Recently I had a partial ejaculation during a session and I didn't even know it happened until I looked. The feeling was intense. I always follow up my session either being with my wife or taking care of myself. To me it gives me total releasesatisfaction. I have not been here much lately basically because I have needed less and less support here. I just want all here to know whatever your reason for being here……….enjoy this journey that we call life!!

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Went to the gym. I had the progasm in my bag. I was thinking about putting in at the gym. After a good work out, the boys and I decided to go out. After I got dressed, I snuck into one of the stalls and put it in. I started feeling it immediatly. It was a long walk to the car. It felt great every step of the way. When I got into the car and sat down, wow. The push of the seat sent the progasm deeper and it felt great! I started gyrating on the car seat and the movement really enhanced the feel. I started squeezing as I was moving around. ugh! I started to climb. I pull out the car and drove to the bar. All along the way I was starting to build. We spent over an hour eating and drinking. The whole time I was rocking in the chair. Nobody noticed. It was getting hard to carry on a conversation and concentrate. The progasm was diving me nuts. The orgasms started to slowly build. My participation in talking started to slow down. It was time to leave and now I had to drive home. As I was driving the push of the car seat and the bumps in the road along with gyrating started to send me off. The building started to climb. I was half way home and then it started. I squeezed and the O was starting. The building got stronger and I had to maintain control of the car. The O kept climbing as I stopped at a red light. All of a sudden I was convulsing in the car. I hit the super O and wasn't home yet. I kept squeezing and gyrating and holy shit! I kept going and going and queezing and building. I didn't want to stop. I was floating when finally I reached home. I went to attack the wife. She knew I had it in me. She played with it for a while giving me more intensity. Finally I exploded and collasped on the bed. She asked me if I felt better.

In the family

My father has been suffering with Cyatica for the past
5 or 6 months.
He also had a urine infection recently which postponed the treatment for the Cyatica.

He eventually got an appointment to see a Urologist.

The diagnosis is Prostate cancer.

His PSA count or level is 609, a normal count is 5 so I am told.
The doctors said they have seen counts of 2000+.

He is to take 4 tablets a day and an injection once a month.

They said it is the cancer which is causing the Cyatica.
I just hope that they have caught it in time.

At the moment I feel as if my body is operating on one plane and my brain is somewhere else.

The wife told me to make sure that I use my Aneros models regulary.
That is something I have not done recently due to various factors.
I visit he forum from time to time but not as much as I did.