well i don't seem to be progressing after adding hot glue to the tab of my mgx–i think i overdid it and added way more than i had with the candle–the contact spot is now higher and closer to my balls–will cut it back and try it that way tomorrow
Author: ede_1943
ed's journey
it seems that almost every time i lie down on my back now my prostate and/or anus demands my attention–it's as if they want an aneros session and are letting me know about it–especially when i lie on my back before sleep and breath deeply to get my nose/sinuses clear so i don't have to breath through my mouth, does it get the contractions going–great to know i'm rewiring my body but it sure makes it tough to get to sleep
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tried my modified mgx again today and it still gets the heart rate and buzz going right away–haven't been able to keep the good feelings generated long enough to string anything out, no matter how much i try to relax–but i have noticed that whenever anything happens it always gets better or remains longer if i can relax my legs more than when it starts–i guess that i should start out with the contraction a bit higher so i will have some room to come down in intensity before i run out of room and hit the completely relaxed bottom, but it seems that i have to be totally relaxed for it even to begin–it seems too that my good feelings don't start out with those shaking involuntaries that i have read about, but are rather very slight, almost unnoticeable quivers, which i guess are involuntary–i still think i should play with my sweet spot location–wish i could find my hot glue gun so i wouldn't have to use the candle, whose soot makes everything black and i suspect, of less structural integrity
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played with moving the p-tab to hit the sweet spot–thought it was up higher towards my balls where the tab couldn't reach, but before i went in that direction i tried the direction that everyone else has gone in and it was the right direction after all–added candle wax to the tab on the stem side and inserted it for a trial–wow–did it ever improve things!–heart began racing immediately and everything progressed at a faster clip then ever before–removed the wax and added hot glue and made several additions–improvement every time–will continue until i see a drop off in results–have brought the tab contact point toward the stem and higher towards my balls–have to find my glue gun for the final fix as i'm now melting the glue with a candle, little by little and the glue is black from the wick soot and uneven from the way i'm adding the glue–with the gun i can get a clean glue addition just where i want it and in the amount i need at one go–it should be better looking and stronger as in the present state of things it's dirty, has water in it and very uneven–happier now and more certain that i will get there eventually–glad i looked for the sweet spot
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well, i guess it's not so easy!–today's sessions, while not totally useless, were not an advance over yesterday's success–i had a few things to encourage me but not the advancement from yesterday's starting point–seems like i've taken a slight step backward–but i do think that my p-tab does not go far enough toward my balls to really hit my sweet spot–will seriously think about stretching it if it's not working where it is–there are plenty of threads about moving it towards the ass by bending it closer to the stem but i've not seen any that say people have bent it the other way if it's too short to hit the spot
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WOW!!–getting there finally!–started off session on my back with a small wadded towel under my belt line, albolene and swiss navy silicone on my mgx–no arousal–this time i pulled the p-tab up away from my ass to get it as high as i could, stuffed as much of my scrotum as i could under the tab and also buried it deep into my sweet spot–i did the rocking like going upstairs and then put my legs down on the bed, relaxed them as much as i could and held a very slight contraction–after relaxing and breathing very deeply way down in my abdomen, i started to feel twitches in my legs and a buzzing in my ass–this was finally it!–was able to keep it going long enough to get a different feeling around my ass and into my balls–very pleasant–kept it going for a few cycles–was mainly in my ass and balls, but every once in a while it sort of bounced up into my cock–it felt like my cock was filling and perking up, although i think it didn't really change much, it just felt like that a lot–lots of precum too–my ass would buzz and my balls would feel full, with a stroking feeling on my prostate, and then, bam, every once in a while the grip on the mgx would let go and it would bury itself deeply into my ass, but not continue stroking, just the repeat of the buzzing and stroking–now i know that the stroking is controlled by the contractions, but the contractions are controlled by the abdominal breathing, not by the muscles, as they are too gross a control, while the breathing is very fine–feel very confident now that i can continue progressing–finally stopped as i had to piss so bad, even though i had before i started this session
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well, it's not as easy as i thought that it would be–thought i had it cracked the other day but i'm still a long way from being there–still worth the effort though–tried the methods of fleshjoe and thicktop4u, pushing the p tab as far towards the anus as possible and rocking the hips like climbing the stairs as described–helped some but nothing that takes off by itself and keeps going–there are some promising feelings of about 5 or 10 seconds duration, but they don't loop back on themselves–it's still mostly contractions and holding a very slight contraction while relaxing, hoping i get tired and go into involuntary contractions–but like i said when that happens it lasts only 5 or 10 seconds, but i know what it feels like so i know what i'm looking for
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this is great–i now seem to be able to feel my prostate and stroke myself, hands off, while just sitting and watching tv–the sensations i get while contracting slightly are remarkably similar to those i get during my aneros sessions, centering around my prostate and making me aware of its presence, with a slight throbbing feeling there, it's quite nice –they are slightly arousing and surely worth the effort for the good feelings they generate–don't think they are making the precum flow, but they feel like the precursors of that–just a mildly gratifying pleasure while sitting around!–and the practice of contracting like this is strengthening my muscles and aiding in my control too
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boy!–everyone always said subtle was the word but i never guessed it would take such a subtle touch–i thought that the aneros movement would be felt as an in and out stroking movement, even if it were subtle, but to me, it is just a buzz in my ass hole around the massager–it doesn't feel like a movement but rather like a tickle–and i have to control it with my breathing because everything else is too gross a stimulation–it feels good though and i can hardly wait to progress to the point where i can call it heavenly–so now i know that only a very slight contraction is needed and has to be held while i control the movement with my breathing, all the while being as relaxed and focused as i can– i have the most success on my back with my hips pressed into the bed but i think the handle is contacting the bed, inhibiting the free movement of the aneros–more learning and practice is definitely needed but it looks as though it will pay off in the future–i think that when i get there i will probably look back and think it was obvious all the time and why didn't i know sooner
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after the buzzing of the last session i knew what i was looking for at last–this time i discovered that when i pressed my hips down while flat on my back and using my breathing i could get the feeling-whatever it was- to shadow the breathing–to be in sync with the breathing—now i thought that i knew what i was looking for and had discovered the means to control it