Author: rikaaim

My First Super-O

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This is an old forum post from 2009. It's long. It's detailed. It ventures into areas of energetic sensation. Quite frankly, some of the imagery seems rather bizarre.

I'm posting it now in my blog for a few reasons. First, the level of detail in how I achieve my Super-O I think can benefit some of the new members seeking answers. Second, I think that some of the ideas and images that are unusual are the bits that I think can be most inspirational. I speak often about shattering barriers and mindsets. In this particular session of mine, such was the case. Third, from time to time I forget even my own lessons. I read this now and think, "Oh, yeah! I forgot I did it that way!" "Right! That's what made that night such a great night. I'll have to try that again." Fourth, I really feel like there is more to this post that gets hinted at all the time, and words simply fail to describe the ideas and feelings, but I like the way I state them in this message. Finally, this is what happened to me. It's a true account of a great session and a great night. I simply want it in my blog. Read more »

Vice and the paddle

It's been a while since I created a blog post. There is a reason for this. I tend to share so much on the forum and chat about what I feel during an Aneros session that I want to use my blog for new explorations and new sensations.

That's what my blog is about. It's about me combing several elements of my sexuality into a self-reflecting exercise. There are two very key parts of my sexuality that I wish to combine into a fluid and coherent mixture. I'm combing my passion for BDSM and my tantric energies. Aneros is the tool which I'm using to generate and expand the tantric energies. I can full succumb to the pleasures and sensations of Aneros. I can build that energy, move the energy around, create pleasurable feelings in other parts of my body. I can connect to a cosmic force reaching out. There's an entire realm that Aneros allows me to be part of. Rather, that other realm is constantly in existence. Aneros allows me to venture into that realm for just a little while.

This post is not about that connection though. I've written about that before.

This post is about the connections I'm making between pleasure and pain. This is about BDSM, tantra, and combing aspects of sexuality. Read more »

The Point of Aneros — In My Opinion

This is a very slight edit to the original post.

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To a new Aneros user or anyone feeling frustrated:

Seeing the length of this post with the thought of, "I simply don't have the time or desire to read all this!" Let me give you a Rika's Note version of what this is about. I understand initial frustration and expectations of the new user. I detail what those frustrations are and why they occur. Then I proceed to describe a way to change the mindset and approach of Aneros in order to reduce frustrations and expectations so that this product and adventure becomes fun and rewarding. If you're a new member stressed and wondering what to do, you've already spent time trying to figure it out, spend a little bit more time to read and hopefully find a few answers to your questions. Thank you.

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I see new threads and topics all the time, as well as men in chat, just at a total loss about Aneros.

I'm going to use some creative speculation here for a minute, so please follow along.

What I see in chats and the forums essentially boils down to a feeling. That feeling is frustration. Read more »

Joygasm & total energy orgasm

There are two parts to this entry. The first occurred without any model used at all at night as I was heading to bed. The second part occurred as I woke the next morning and several hours before needing to go to work.

The first part is more of an observation, and also an invitation for more information.

The other night I was on chat and several members were hopping in and out, several topics of conversation came and went, and about three or four hours passed in total. I was so drained from my 12th day in a row of working that chat was a much needed stress release for me. I was beyond giddy and silly to say the least. I think it was borderline delusional from working so much. At any rate, I was having a genuine good time. Read more »

Open Heart

Times like right now, this moment, give me reason and hope about what this universe just might be all about.

I sit now, thinking, as best as I can, about an hour after a wonderful 2 hour session with my new Syn.

Here's what makes this moment even more special.

Work was a total nightmare today. This is my 8th straight day working, and I'm in the middle of working 14 in a row. So, I have about another week straight to go. Needless to say, stress is just about paramount right now. At least it was.

I came home from work, at nearly 11:30 at night, and saw the box for my Syn sitting at my door step. Being mad that UPS, as usual, just leaves a package lying around that anyone can take if they were so inclined, I was thankful that that wasn't the case. I grabbed my package and went into my apartment.

I placed the box on my bed and started to decompress from work, which included basically changing my clothes and booting up my computer. I left the box on the bed and didn't even bother to open it. I knew what it was, but was too tired to even look inside. Instead, I came to Aneros chat and talked with Taran for a bit. Taran asked me if I was going to try out my new Syn, but I was honestly too tired. I didn't want a "dud" session right away. Aside from that, I didn't have time to prep my sacred space and create my mental space. I was just wanting to sleep so I could get up and go to work for day number 9 in a row. Ugh… Read more »

Submission

I have been doing research into tantric BDSM. This pursuit has given me much insight into several sexual aspects that I embrace, but never had an exact name for. I have been learning breathing techniques, mental exercises, chakra balancing, and overall conscious awareness. One of the great things I've been learning is how to make a space sacred. This can include ritual and alters etc…but can be as simple as mentally removing all distractions of daily life and simply being fully present and conscious in the moment. Some may use salt or sage to create a physical circle around a space to signify the area sacred, others may just perform certain routine. For example, in a BDSM scene, preparing the toys, cleaning them, setting them out, getting the ambiance just right with music and lighting can create a sacred space. It's building up the scene and removing daily life and distraction. Read more »

Through my shadow

Carl Jung wrote of the shadow. The shadow is an archetype. Much like the word mother creates an innate feeling of sensation and thoughtful images of ideas and ideals, the word shadow has its own connotations and meaning. We all have a shadow. It follows us, generally out of sight, out of mind. Left unchecked, what does the shadow do? How does it behave? Does it mirror or follow my actions as I believe it to do? Without my conscious acknowledgement and observation of it, I cannot know.

To those who wish to follow my journey, I have had much internal debate as to whether I should even post this or not. How much do I share? How much do I tell relative strangers? Indeed, perhaps here, where I feel a strong connection to community, I feel safest of all stating what I feel, but there is risk to everything. What if what I say ends up as evidence towards my own conviction? What do I hope to gain? Do the risks outweigh the benefits?

The shadow, ever murky, ever dark, ever dancing and darting. Through my shadow, what lies beyond? Like a black hole, the suction of such a journey can be powerful and equally as scary. Will a new understanding and insight be found beyond? Will the shadow wrap around me so tightly that I loose my way? These are the fears of engaging in such a journey. Read more »