Open Heart

Times like right now, this moment, give me reason and hope about what this universe just might be all about.

I sit now, thinking, as best as I can, about an hour after a wonderful 2 hour session with my new Syn.

Here's what makes this moment even more special.

Work was a total nightmare today. This is my 8th straight day working, and I'm in the middle of working 14 in a row. So, I have about another week straight to go. Needless to say, stress is just about paramount right now. At least it was.

I came home from work, at nearly 11:30 at night, and saw the box for my Syn sitting at my door step. Being mad that UPS, as usual, just leaves a package lying around that anyone can take if they were so inclined, I was thankful that that wasn't the case. I grabbed my package and went into my apartment.

I placed the box on my bed and started to decompress from work, which included basically changing my clothes and booting up my computer. I left the box on the bed and didn't even bother to open it. I knew what it was, but was too tired to even look inside. Instead, I came to Aneros chat and talked with Taran for a bit. Taran asked me if I was going to try out my new Syn, but I was honestly too tired. I didn't want a "dud" session right away. Aside from that, I didn't have time to prep my sacred space and create my mental space. I was just wanting to sleep so I could get up and go to work for day number 9 in a row. Ugh…

Orgasmic Links at Another Astounding Orgasmic Level

Elsewhere here, and at other locations, I written about some of these experiences before, butt I write this blog post in a state of deeply grateful ecstatic wonderment, joy, and the most profound peace connection that my now into 6 years of MMO and ecstatic energies explorations have given.

After great builds, Drys, and Supers, both Active Body and Still Body, first with Eupho and then switching in my Syn; a new variation of the Hovering Grand Bliss type Calm Seas (Still Body) set in, with all the subtle breathing and focus changes and new imagery that was challenging and powerfully integrative.

I will add further details on that stage later, but the real story coming out of this session is about the continuing explorations of shared energies here. These build on the sense of historic and deeply personal reconnection that open friends have been able to share in ever growing numbers here, and at complementary practices' sites and blogs.

In the General Discussion section the the Forum here, we have described and attempted to find the right words for the ineffable luminous nature of these energies sharing experiences. We have focused on their arising and development here through gradual to fully awakened prostates using our Aneros prostate massagers and resultant orgasmic energies generation. The Tao of Aneros and other related threads are part of this discussion here.

Maiden Voyage

The Titanic may have sunk on her maiden voyage. I, however, sailed through with flying colors on my maiden voyage with my newly launched Syn. She is a fine looking vessel, from bow to stern, port to starboard. And she cruises as smoothly as any model yet.

After christening her by cleansing her with warm soapy water I was ready. I had done my usual preparation, manscaped, showered, douched, warm room, low light, at my side – a towel and more lube.

I slipped the Syn inside easily. It fit me like a glove. I knew it was there, but it felt like a part of me and not just something up my ass. It took very little time, only a few seconds, to begin feeling the sensations. In less than two minutes I had my first Dry Orgasm. During the almost 90 minute session, I lost count of the number of Dry and Super Orgasms I had.

The ride reminded me of the newness of my first Helix experiences. It was all fresh and exploratory – new things discovered throughout. All of the orgasms, from P to Mini to Dry to Super to Calm Seas, were substantially more intense than I have experienced recently. I am a full-body, LOTS of movement type of guy during my big orgasms, and these were definitely full-body with tons, TONS of movement. My cock went between flaccid and rock-hard over and over. The pre-cum was flowing freely. During the violent Super O's, the pre-cum would fling out of me and spray all over with bliss. I had to remove my glasses; pre-cum drops are hard to see through!

1st Session

Received my Helix in the mail today and had my first session.

I will say that I was a bit nervous about this whole thing at the beginning.

After a long relaxing shower I retreated to the bedroom to begin. I was pleasantly surprised at how the Aneros fit into my body. After prepping it with ID I laid on my side, hips cocked, and began to insert the Aneros. I reached a point where it was automatically drawn in. This was a bit of a shock, yet surprisingly comfortable. I laid there and relaxed for a few minutes and just took in the new feelings. After a while I began to make a series of small anal contraction. I would work them in series of 5 to 10 contractions, never really keeping count, then relax for a few seconds. After a few sets I had this strange feeling. I would have this urge to contract while I would be resting, like a sort of tension. And then I had what I would call echo contractions. After I would release a contraction I would have 3 to 5 small twitches in quick succession follow. After working with this for a few minutes I completely lost control of the contractions, I just let them do their thing. This lasted for maybe 2 minutes. Then as quickly as thing got ramped up it all just kind of tapered out. I attempted to regain the previous involuntary contractions but to no avail. Then after a while I just decided to end the session. From what I have read on the forums there is no point in trying to force something to happen, it will only hold you back.

Anerosless Ecstasy and Auto-Thrusting

Had a horny morning yesterday, and thought I should add it to the blog.

Woke up very horny, and began nipple stimulation whilst still half asleep. My nipples had been stimulated already by the duvet cover, and as soon as I touched them, mini-orgasms started. I continued – my penis swelled really hard and jumped as my PC muscles contracted, and in so doing, also massaged my prostate. I could feel my prostate swelling, and remembering to relax and breathe, an intense dry orgasm started and lasted for about 6 seconds. In this time, my abdomen and arse muscles vibrated, and the lower half of my body jumped around – sometimes it is like auto-thrusting (for want of a better description), only much faster than would normally occur in sex for example.

More relaxing, and more deep breathing, and then another dry orgasm, and then another emanating from the decline of the former. On it goes, getting more and more intense – the dry orgasms lasting longer and the gaps between getting shorter. At this point my penis becomes less hard with each dry orgasm, and my foreskin is filled with precum. I begin masturbating to near the point of no return, and sink back each time, into a chain of dry orgasms. I am gasping aloud at each one, my breathe becomes shorter and MUCH faster, and my body begins to feel hot and sweaty. After 40 minutes of almost reaching the point of no return many times, and sinking back into orgasm afterwards, the dry orgasms are very frequent, and each one probably lasts for 10 to 15 seconds. Even in the lulls between, my abdominal and leg muscles vibrate deliciously.

Dan Tien and the Perverted Gremlin

So this week I've been focusing on deep belly breathing (as I'm sure you all know from my last post), and that hasn't changed since yesterday. The one thing that's different is that I discovered that uncontrollable smiling and euphoric feeling are also caused by amygdala clicking (concept brought to my attention by chat here last night), and I'm convinced that this is the explanation. Just thought I'd preface my progress with some additional discoveries.

So the title of this pretty much explains the last 24 hours of my journey. My drive home was another deep breathing exercise, but this time I focused more on the energies exchanging. Visualizing the energy flow into my stomach and travel to all corners of my body, pushing the negative energies into my lungs to be exhaled. As I expel these negative energies, relaxation washes over me, and I'm left with a feeling of serenity and a stillness throughout my body and mind. As I got closer to home, I became aware of these energies collecting in my stomach and as I got home, began to focus on them. This kicked off a quick 'less session for about 5 minutes, and as I pulled up to the house started bouncing between my prostate and stomach. As my focus on these energies grew, my mind slipped into nothingness and I became these energies. I could feel (and see) the pulsing and shifting of these energies flow throughout my body, even though my conscious mind was only aware of the energy in my stomach. Since I was home, I couldn't stay out there long, so I opened my eyes and found myself completely rejuvinated, like my day was just beginning.

Directing Energies

Alright, so there's been some significant progress these past two weeks, and just want to document what's happened so far.

Getting positive feedback loops on a regular basis now. None have been quite runaway like the first week, but they are still pleasant. My 'less sessions have been taking off and are becoming more eventful than regular sessions. The reason is because I'm able to put more focus onto all of the sensations being generated as opposed to just the prostate and anal area. This should change with time as I learn to relax more and am able to have regular sessions that focus on the full body experience. Thankfully, my 'less sessions are a good practice to getting to that state.

Anyway, this week I've been focusing on deep breathing and the effects on my mental state. My feelings towards deep breathing were somewhat downplayed, as it's always just been about air and nothing else (you don't breathe, you die). Obviously, there's more to it, but I never quite made that connection outside of the physical need. By focusing on deep belly breathing, I instead imagined what the air was doing for my body. Inhaling provides more than just oxygen, it provides the body with energy. Exhaling, also provides the means for expelling the negative energies collected in the body (for whatever mental/physical reasons).

That Aneros sweet spot: Sessions for October 20 & 22, 2012

Hi guys,

I think I have found my "sweet spot" which I believe my Aneros big buddies have begun to locate in recent weeks. But before I go into detail about my "sweet spot," I shall proceed at once to a description of my Aneros sessions which I had last Saturday afternoon and my session yesterday morning on Monday.

I find that some foreplay is a wonderful prelude for an Aneros session. Normally I like to do the Kegel Exercises some and stimulate my nipples. Those activities most often arouse me sexually for the Aneros. But Saturday morning, I wore my Nutty Buddy Cup combo underneath my camo cargo shorts as I went to the barbershop for a buzz cut and a beard trim. Then I went had breakfast at my favorite coffeehouse and did some grocery shopping before returning home around 11 a.m. I just loved how my Nutty Buddy Cup caressed my testicles and penis, and even stimulated my awakened prostate during my long walk and I had breakfast at the coffeehouse and leisurely Kegeled away. 😀

I was so turned on that I had my session at 3 p.m. I began with the Progasm Classic, but peristalsis set in very quickly. Then I switched to the Maximus which gave me a much better massage for a half an hour. Then I proceeded to the Progasm Ice which worked well for another thirty minutes.

Waves

This morning around 3:30 AM after coming home from a 12 hour day at work, I had one of the most intense aneros sessions ever. After cleaning myself and my Helix, I ventured downstairs to the basement for a little "relaxation" time in our office. I disrobed and prepped myself and Helix with copious amount of KY jelly and grabbed a towel. There is a high back, leather office chair and a corner desk in there. I turned the chair around so I could kneel and support my chest and arms on the seat. After inserting the Helix, I got myself into a comfortable position and just "did nothing" but try to relax, clear my mind, breathe and let the Helix do its thing to me. After about ten minutes I started light contractions and I developed a massive erection that I had to fight the urge to touch and stroke. Soon my contractions really intensified and my body, particularly my right side, started to shake uncontrollably. I didn't know if it was kneeling on a cold basement floor that caused it but it was intense. Then after awhile it felt like I could feel it moving across my body to the left side and settle right in my ass. I could feel dribbles of fluid leaking my my cock as the Helix 'took' over. At one point I could hear it slapping against me and that familiar sucking sound. My shakes seemed to go on in various intensity for about an hour. i just tried to breathe, keep my mind clear (which was pretty hard at times with the intensity!) and let the Helix do its thing. It sure did. It owned me. After awhile, the wave feeling subsided and I called it a night. I had to fight the urge to JO, but I was spent and it was almost 5:30 in the morning. Sleep well, I did. try again same method when I get home early tomorrow morning??? Yeah, maybe…
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Personal Journeys

Rikaaim's post just made me realize that while we all share in the same journey, the path that we take through this journey is a very personal one. We all have different obstacles (both physical and mental) that make each journey unique, but that doesn't mean that they don't resonate with other's experiences. I used to take EVERYTHING that was said on the forums to be the absolute truth, and tried incorporating the ideas into my own sessions. My problem with doing that was that I was ignoring the personal aspects of my own journey to try and discover a shortcut to the promised land. This was definitely the "aha" moment that I needed.

Whether I realized it or not, my sessions were always about "searching" for greater pleasure. While I did enjoy each session for what it was, and kept expectations to a minimum, there was still some goal that I was trying to reach. This is what I meant with "driving the car" instead of "riding in a hot air balloon". I felt like it was up to me personally, like I had total control, over where I wanted (needed) to be, and subconsciously I was getting frustrated and impatient that I hadn't gotten there yet. The first step in understanding a problem is recognizing that the problem exists in the first place, and this realization was a wake up call. It opened my eyes to what the Aneros itself was capable of doing, where it was capable of taking me, instead of where I wanted to go with it. That was my key. That was my moment.