Who I Am, As I Am, And What I`ve Discovered

This is a holding place for the forum posts that I wrote. Figured it'll be easier to put these in a blog post, so here we go.

So this was originally supposed to be an introduction for someone else, but as I wrote more and more, I just felt I had to share with the amazing folks here who have helped me on this journey.

I started the journey about a year ago, and it started for a few reasons. One, love making with my wife was a laborious process to forgo ejaculation, and I was reading up on various practices to prolong the climax. Other than masturbation (repeated edging, couldn't find the time), kegels and prostate massage were the most agreeable of options to me. So I started a regimen of car-Kegels (as I was driving) and noticed some minor benefits after a few months. Not quite pleased with the progress I was making, I started looking for prostate massagers. As I started to read up on various other devices, I stumbled upon the Aneros line (I refuse to refer to them as "toys") and the forum. The descriptions (and occasional videos, if I could find them) really intrigued me, and were very exciting (both sexually arousing and mentally curious) and I couldn't wait to try.

Submission

I have been doing research into tantric BDSM. This pursuit has given me much insight into several sexual aspects that I embrace, but never had an exact name for. I have been learning breathing techniques, mental exercises, chakra balancing, and overall conscious awareness. One of the great things I've been learning is how to make a space sacred. This can include ritual and alters etc…but can be as simple as mentally removing all distractions of daily life and simply being fully present and conscious in the moment. Some may use salt or sage to create a physical circle around a space to signify the area sacred, others may just perform certain routine. For example, in a BDSM scene, preparing the toys, cleaning them, setting them out, getting the ambiance just right with music and lighting can create a sacred space. It's building up the scene and removing daily life and distraction.

Aneros Automatic Autof**king and the Kegel Exercises, October 3, 2012

Hi guys,

Every Aneros session is special and unique to me, and yet, from most of my sessions, I have detected very recently a steady progression towards ease of use of the various Aneros models I have in my collection and also towards absolute Aneros bliss and realization that might be found in the Super-O and other Aneros blessings!

Yesterday first thing in the morning I had a session with my good buddies, the Progasm Classic, Maximus, and Helix Syn once again. Again I began with the Progasm. He inserted more easily yesterday and I spent perhaps 15 minutes in alternating fashion performing the Kegels upon him and just enjoying his presence in my anus and directly upon my prostate. This time he felt real good inserted, although I didn't attempt a full-fledged session with him.

Then I switched over to my very good buddy and teacher, the Maximus model. I spent a good hour with him. Again he slipped in easily to the hilt, and once I positioned my butt on a folded pillow, almost immediately the autof**king began. What amazed me was how automatically and effortlessly the prostate and anal canal massage he delivered me. Of course, my slow, rhythmic breathing set in motion the Maximus! I was truly lost in the actions and motions of this amazing guy in all their subtle nuances and various crescendos of innumerable pleasurable P-waves, perhaps mini-O's. It was just wonderful and it all felt so GOOD!

Trying different Aneros during one session

So during last night's Aneros session, I was feeling experimental. I started with the Progasm, and found that even though I could get slow and gentle involuntary contractions with it. But I had to relax much more than the smaller models to get this going. It was nice feeling, but nothing special. Then switched to the Eupho after a while. I was also able to get slow and gentle involuntaries from this one to. And I could really feel the difference in how much it moves, felt better than the Progasm, but still nothing incredibly special. Then I switched for the MGX which has been my current favorite for a while now. And this model gives me the strongest involuntary contractions and most pleasurable for that matter.

It doesn't mean that one model is particularly better than another, as I've had extremely pleasurable sensations from the Progasm and Eupho. It's just that the MGX is what is working best for me right now. I never would have guessed this to be the case. The MGX is the second Aneros I ever bought. And prior to these last few months of it working amazingly well for me, it was the seconded least used model next to the Peridise, which were the least used because they just didn't seem to generate any pleasure compared to my Progasm and Helix. I imagine someday the Peridise will work nicely, but until then they mostly sit in their package.

The Wildness of Five Super-Os & a \\

Condom Lube + Maximus + Nipple Suckers + Pillow Hugging = Wildness

Sometimes just dumping several randomly selected kinks into the mixing bowl and stirring gently can yield amazing results. In this case, the 'yield' from the recipe was five Super-Os.

My introduction to nipple suckers had only been with Lady Vice and I'd wanted to try them without a vibe. Stepping into the shower, I found the threads stripped on the shower-shot nozzle. What to do? Messing with a bag or bulb over the toilet wasn't an attractive option so I though, "how about Condom Lube."

Having become more involved with Vice and now Helix-syn I'm a bit spooked by the thought of residual silicone oil in my ass. So, I've avoided Darwin's new Condom Lube routine. However, I had bought some Bare, un-lubed, oil-proof condoms recently. With no threat of silicone-lube my interest was spiked.

Instant plan. Condom lube with Vaseline & some I.D. Glide that I wanted to get rid of, a nice bulky tail-free Maximus and my new nipple suckers. Imagination at work! On to the shower for a nice scrub.

Thinking ahead to nip play, I put on a pair of Nitrile gloves to keep the greasy fingers issue at a minimum. Also had a mirror handy to avoid the Braille approach to finding the 'mouth' of the condom.

Prostate pressure and orgasm

A recent forum question asked which toys exerted the least pressure on one's prostate. I'd not considered that quality before so ranked my toybox in order of my own sense of increasing pressure:

peridise (zero — it has other divine applications !!)
tempo (only feel the rounded tip with I sit on it)
eupho (unstable, teasing contact with negligible pressure — my favorite)
sgx (no tail — cool intermittent pressure during 'suck-ins' or sex)
-syn (subtle, swishing swipes)
helix (moderate pressure that maneuvers to all three lobes)
mgx (encircles my prostate with balanced & cozy pressure)
classic (a 'take charge' feeling with nibs touching near the bladder neck)
maximus (no tail — nice bulk — good 'warm up' toy for Eupho)
vice (shaped perfectly for my canal — very uniform pressure)
progasm (close to my limit for total volume)

That done, I remembered back to my most intense orgasms and rank Eupho as #1, Helix #2, and SGX a distant #3.

(by 'intense orgasm' I mean either a mentally, visually and spiritually intense Super-O, an extended whole-body physical experience, or a long chain of pounding dry-Os.)

All three of my 'orgasmic toys' are grouped together in the 'less pressure' portion of my list. I'd surmise though that toy mobility and the quality I call, "agility" are qualities in toys that have less mass and bulk.

Synsational!! The wild skills of this Aneros Synpinnacle to date!!

The new Syn is almost unbelievable in its refinement and capabilities!! Thanks so much CT for the revival of the blogs and this chance to put these first two adventures together here.

Part One: Talk about a difference of black and white!!

I enjoyed my first Syn session early this week after it arrived last Friday. Very fond on my Vice, I was very happy with the texture and feel of Syn, and particularly the flexibility of the P-tab arm.

From the first insertion I was afraid that it was locking up in my rectum as my Helix did repeatedly years ago until I set it aside. I had to get up and walk around a bit to get something, AND SUDDENLY!!! Syn was VERY MOBILE and the massaging and wide ranging stimulation points and varying pressures on my prostate had it dancing a vivid tango!!! Dries and Supers ramped and pitched and popped in chains, mixed with periods of prolonged Still Body Os that were extraordinary.

My intent for the session had been for an initial trial, and yet Syn continued to bring more and more variety and I shifted to an online session with some friends as I moved into a BPH therapy session. I could sit upright in my office chair with Syn VERY COMFORTABLY!! and rock a bit with the most extraordinary prostate massage!! I could lean back and quickly a great auto*F began and expanded!!!

Becoming wedded to a particular toy or toys

Even though my Vice, Classic, SGX and -syn provide unique pleasures they don't match the orgasmic delight I get from my two 'main movers.' At this point in my Journey I find myself orgasmically wedded to my unmodified Helix and Eupho.

Helix was my first Aneros toy and with minimal preparation is a 'fast start' for me. Within just a few moments it fires up my nips, builds warmth in my DanTien, forges a bond throughout my body core and starts the flood of endorphins that will enhance orgasm. Helix seems to sound the fanfare for each abdominal contraction which, in turn escort each dry-O during a chain of pleasure.

Although my first full body-brain Super-O was with Helix, more often this tool leads me through cycles of strong downward energy moves along my central core, each 'pressurizing' my lower abdomen with orgasmic energy. Even though Helix is the trigger for orgasm, it seems to be a continuous player, and keeps my whole perineal-anorectal complex in the game throughout the session. Throughout this, I visualize Helix as 'nibbling' away at the edges of my prostate.

In sharp contrast, my Eupho sessions are highly ritualized, start physically (with Maximus) then employ extended Zazen meditation to 'zero-out' my physical and mental processes. Once quieted, I allow the faint pleasures to slowly grow as Eupho 'explores' the folds, nooks and crannies of my interior. The resulting build seems mostly mental and grows into intense mental imagery that sometimes elevates me to an extreme of perceived spiritual vision. By that time, Eupho 'fades out' and I'm sustained by my mind and my mind's-eye.

New Year, No Fear

Hello, yeah, it’s been awhile. I have been using regularly for over 17 months. The truth of the matter is, from where I stand on my journey today, I consider that my sessions are still getting better, month over month – incrementally. I don’t seem to have breakthroughs, I only have a more enjoyable session this week than last.

Recently, I revisited the idea of modifying my original Aneros, the Helix. Why not? It had fallen out favor due to the Eupho. So I cut the handle off and Vwallah, It’s like I’ve gotten a new toy! The Tailless Helix now behaves like a big Peridise. Mobility and comfort all achieved in one ‘snip and sand’ of the handle with no sacrifice in P-Tab placement or feel. As my prostate slowly wakes up it has found more uses for the Helix in my toy rotation – even the Progasm has made a small comeback. The odd man out now that the Eupho takes up over three quarters of my sessions is the Peridise twins.

My little pleasure spot glows brightly in session – I can generate numerous levels of involuntaries. My prostate buzzes. I can produce pleasure and small amounts of fluid outside of sessions. I can achieve a sort of P-wave – were I get a very exciting boiling spaghetti feeling in my pelvis. I can achieve, perhaps to the greatest detraction from my journey, hands free wet orgasms. I never have found a sweet spot on my perineum.

A New Decade

At the start of a new decade I find myself wavering between two extremes to understand the Aneros Effect (1). Is but a catalyst, eventually this phenomenon of increasing / developing levels of body / mind bliss becomes self-sustaining without the catalyst – which begs the question what exactly is happening – is the prostate and the complexity of nerve endings once massaged by Aneros appropriately or eventually a learned set of subtle muscle contractions (analogous to riding a bike, kind of muscle memory auto-take over) doing the equivalent of sticking probes in the brain at the appropriate location and feeling you've encountered Universal mind – the prostate being in Artform's sense some kind of centre to a second brain and the probe being literally the Aneros. This is the perspective of a kind of pragmatic biology explanation.
(2). Is the Aneros a technological amplifier, a tuner in for the human being to a Universally accessible continuous orgasmic / bliss energy frequency and represents some kind of physic breakthrough for everyone on the planet?

Perhaps best just to go on the journey 🙂

So Artform suggested blogging about my experience of combining attempts to "click amygdalae forward" and usage of Aneros (focussed at present on use of Peridise advanced set, just ordered Eupho). This started on early morning of 30th December 2009 – along with the combination two other factors may have been playing a part here – approaching full moon and having a soup at lunchtime with corriander (Tiphereth tip on increasing libido here – http://www.aneros.com/forum/tips-to-increase-libido-t4207.html – ingestion of a few corriander seeds I have felt in the past amplifies orgasmic activity).