Breakthrough

I was excited to write this entry! After my early success, I've been disappointed lately because I haven't been able to reach MMO's and Super O's. My sessions are always nice and enjoyable, but I just couldn't get that over the top experience for about the last month.

Last night though, I made a huge step in my journey to rewiring! I had my first Aneros-less experience. I had played with my Helix Syn the night before and wore it while having sex with my wife for a huge explosion. I also knew I'd be playing with it on Friday night, so I didn't do anything last night. I was lying in bed on my left side with my right leg bent talking to my wife while she read a book. All of a sudden I could feel something inside. I half consciously started thinking about the feeling and making contractions. It felt so good and I could "feel" my prostate like my aneros was touching it. I got rock hard and I was on the verge of a dry orgasm, but I made the mistake of moving my body pillow! I can't wait to insert my Helix tonight!

Private Penetration

I have mentioned many time in this blog that the advances I have made in my sexual journey have brought me closer to understanding the emotional, sensual and physiological sexual needs of a woman.

I have gained this understanding because the experience of a deep prostate centered anal orgasm is very similar to the g spot orgasmic experience of a woman. J has most definitely become aware of the change that occurred in me as I am a different lover. I am more mindful, less impetuous in the pursuit of pleasure and I am more patient with her experience of vaginal pleasure. I can almost read her mind and understand what she wants and needs to fulfill the craving that takes control of her body when we are being intimate.

One of the things that has come with this new sexual pathway I am on is the need I feel to be penetrated. While 90% of my MMO sessions are induced without penetration there are times that I crave the exquisite torture of deep stimulation to trigger the release of chains of pleasure waves in my core. To some people it is the need to feel the fullness of a large object; that is not the case for me. For me it is the sensation of the subtle touch of an delicate object to unlock the excruciatingly pleasurable peristaltic waves of anal orgasm.

It Was About Her

I wasn’t sure how long I would stay with my erotic writing; I thought that I would just make several entries and go on. But I have enjoyed doing this so much I decided to continue. After the first few posts I was hooked. Why have I stuck with this for so long and why am I willing to commit to all these entries?

Part of it is I am smitten with chronicling my erotic thoughts. My rewiring has opened a creative window in me, my powers of observance have been sharpened and my love for expressing those observations has grown exponentially. When I read through all the entries I am struck by the consistency and the emotional power of the sexual things that I have thought about and the things that have happened to me.

Part of it is the pure eroticism of it Like most people I don’t dwell on things in my life but my writing has created the opportunity for me to savor some very special steamy times. It has given me the chance to ruminate on sexual events in my life and revisit them in my mind. In the process of recalling events, thinking about them, describing them and thinking about how they felt at the time I am reliving them. In this ponderous process the richness, sensuality and eroticism and the depth of the events intensifies in my mind and hardens my cock.

Pleasure & Pain

Hi guys. SO I decided to sleep with my Progasm Ice last night. Even though I had some great orgasms im paying for it now. So I was in chat last night with my bro's and we were decussing building up pleasure and pressure in the body. I stated that I just let it happen and and orgasm when the body wants too. But my buddy here who has years of experience notified us that he lets the pleasure build and build and build to get a strong and satisfying orgasm.

Even though Im coming up on a year of Aneros experience I still not as advanced as other gus here. So I wante to try that. So i cleaned out and got in bed and slide hm in. I havent rode in a day so i knew i was extra tight back there. But he still went in nicely with no trouble. So I began to deeply breathe in and exhale very slowly. After a few times of this i began to feel the pressure build up inside me.

My legs became numb almost and my dick began to move on its own. It was feeling so good and I already had a semi erection. But I wanted to see how much i could take. So I continued to build and build. I had to grab ahold of my bed so I wouldn't shae to much and mess up my concentration. I felt like my body was about to shoot through the ceiling cause of all the bottled up pleasure that was going on inside of me.

ORGASMIC MILESTONE

I recently was thinking about the most popular topics I have written about in the various blogs I have posted. When I looked at the Word Press Analytics when I had the WP blog the top ten topics for me were cock, cum, prostate orgasm, balls, dry orgasm, anal sex, cockhead, penis and anal orgasm.

Clearly all of you here on Aneros and me as well have an interest in male orgasm and male sexuality. For me this last quarter of my life has been a discovery of my sexuality and sexual response. As it turns out it this period has been dominated by MMO and my rewiring. These popular topics are a reflection of my sexual life experience but more accurately they are a reflection of my self discovery.

Obviously J has been and still is a huge part of my sex life. What I have done in these last 18 years is compartmentalize my sex life; I have my intimate connection with her through fucking and I have my solo self directed MMO driven sex life. They exist in two different worlds. I have several entries that discuss this division in my sexual response and my sexual life. However to my great joy, very slowly, those two worlds seem to be moving closer together as discussed in a post prior to this one.

My Aneros Autof**k is now liquid f**k motion!

Hi guys,

I want to say that my Aneros sessions recently do not use as many models as I used in sessions for a real long time. So now, I may use just four models: Helix Syn, Maximus, Tempo, and Progasm. These four models have become in many ways my mainstays in most of my sessions in the last month or so. Yes, Tempo is a very recent model to my Aneros lineup, but he deserves to be put in the forefront with the other three models. All these four models have won their keep in this forefront.

The Tempo, along with the Peridise, have taught so much about Aneros rhythm. They have taught me about the Aneros autof**k like nothing before. In the last couple months, my sessions have taken a quantum leap.

The other catalyst and ingredient for this transformation is my discovery of the lying on my right side in the fetal position. This Aneros position, like no other is really good for the do-nothing technique in Anerosing because this position is so passive. Hence what I discovered this morning for sure in an utmost way is the Aneros autof**k just for what it is. My Aneros autof**k now is so automatic and is absolute free motion. I call my Aneros autof**k, liquid f**k motion. It is amazing to lie on my right now and just feel this stroking going on inside me over and over again without hindrance, or prompting, just in and out liquid motion so effortlessly. Absolutely awesome!

Erotic Cock Massage

It is usually the case with me that when I set out to learn something I wind up learning so much more about something else in the process. When I began this sexual journey the goal was to learn about female sexuality and sexual response. In the process I have not only learned so much more about my own sexuality but I have expanded it as well.

Ultimately I have pushed my orgasmic response and my experience of sexual pleasure almost to the limits of my ability to cope with it.

I have become so much more aware of my sexual proclivities and the nature of my sexual desire . Most importantly I have really enhanced my sense of the erotic and sensual.

One of the things that I have learned to do is to relax, perceive and give in to the sensations that my body can create. If my mind is still and my body is relaxed I can experience erotic pleasure that I never knew of previously and savor it like a rich burgundy or the silky sweetness of fine chocolate. One of the most intimate and intensely pleasurable experiences is the giving and receiving of erotic massage.

So for all you ladies here is what I have learned and taught J about how to give me the most exquisite and ball draining perineal and cock massage.

What Prostate Orgasms Are

As I recounted in the first post in this series, it took me several years after I first discovered prostate orgasms until I learned to be able to have them on a regular basis. But what exactly is a prostate orgasm?
For that matter, what exactly is an orgasm? It is important to understand, first of all, that, even in men,* orgasm is different from ejaculation. It is possible for a man to ejaculate without experiencing the sort of pleasure we associate with orgasm, and it is also possible for a man to experience the pleasure of an orgasm without ejaculating. Importantly, these “dry” orgasms typically are not followed, as ejaculatory orgasms usually are, by a “refractory” phase, during which sexual arousal is essentially impossible, no matter how much additional sexual stimulation one receives. That is, while “dry” orgasms do release some sexual tension, they do not release of all of it. Additional stimulation will increase arousal, and one can have another “dry” orgasm very shortly afterwards. Men who have these sorts of orgasms are thus able to have multiple orgasms, much the same way that many women are.
There is a good deal of debate within the medical and psychological community about how orgasm should be defined. Everyone agrees that orgasm involves both physiological and psychological components: certain sorts of rhythmic contractions of muscles in the pelvic region, and an intense experience of sensual pleasure. The debate centers on which of these really is the orgasm: the physiological part or the psychological part? We know the two can come part. So the question is: Can you have an orgasm without feeling it? If the orgasm is the physiological response, then you can. If it’s the psychological response, then you can’t.
For our purposes, it doesn’t matter very much how this question is answered. What does matter is that the two components of orgasm are closely related. Part of what feels so good are those rhythmic muscular contractions. Who knows why, but we humans experience them as extremely pleasurable. Anything that triggers such contractions, then, will thereby trigger at least part of the experience of orgasm.
And it turns out that one way to cause such contractions is to stimulate the prostate. A prostate orgasm, then, is simply an orgasm that is brought about through stimulation of the prostate.
My own experience is that prostate orgasms feel very different from ejaculatory orgasms. Part of the reason, I’d guess, is that many groups of muscles are involved in orgasmic contraction. Probably one of the reasons different orgasms can feel so different is that different groups of muscles are involved on different occasions. It wouldn’t be surprising if only some of the muscles that contract during ejaculatory orgasms do so during prostate orgasms. That does not mean that they feel less good, but only that they feel different.
More interestingly, many men say that prostate orgasms have a “whole body” quality that ejaculatory orgasms usually lack. Indeed, men often describe prostate orgasms in ways that sound very much like how women describe their orgasms. In my case, prostate orgasms are not centered on my penis and testicles, the way that ejaculatory orgasms usually are. Rather, they feel as if they start deep within my pelvis and then spread throughout my body, enveloping and enfolding me with waves and waves of pleasure.
Many men also report that prostate orgasms last longer than ejaculatory orgasms. Scholarly consensus is that ejaculatory orgasms, for most men, last about 10-15 seconds. A typical prostate orgasm, for me, seems to last about 20 seconds, and it is not at all unusual for them to last 30 seconds or more. I have had prostate orgasms, in fact, that lasted for over two minutes, and some of these ended only because I felt so overwhelmed that I had to stop.
And, as said earlier, most men find that they can have multiple prostate orgasms, because there is no, or only a very little, “downtime”. In my case, I often feel as if I need a rest, simply because the orgasm I’ve just experienced has left me somewhat drained. But sometimes, it leaves me energized, and I am able just to keep stimulating my prostate, so that a second orgasm may follow the first within thirty seconds or so. I don’t think I’ve ever had more than three orgasms in a row like that. )By then, I really was ready for a rest!( And I often find that, even if I do pause in between, if I’ve had a few orgasms from one kind of stimulation, I need to switch to something else if I’m going to continue. Fortunately, there are a lot of different ways to stimulate the prostate, so you have a lot to choose from.
There’s another kind of anal orgasm I’ve experienced as well, and which is worth mentioning here, especially because it is a kind of orgasm that women too can enjoy, since it doesn’t involve the prostate. I call it a “peristaltic” orgasm. Peristalsis is the process through which contractions conspire to move something through a tube. It’s peristalsis, for example, that moves food and then waste through the intestines. And it would seem that at least some of the muscles that are involved in peristaltic processes in the rectum are also involved in orgasm. So, again, if you can find a way to trigger those sorts of contractions, you thereby trigger at least part of the experience of orgasm.

How I Discovered Prostate Orgasms

I don’t remember when I discovered anal play or what led me to it. I’ve always enjoyed fucking my girlfriends in the butt, though I’ve only rarely had the pleasure. What I don’t recall is when or how I discovered how the pleasure to be had from my own butt being fucked.
I would prefer to have a )female( partner do me, but only on a few occasions have I been privileged to have someone else penetrate me with a dildo or vibrator. Most of my experiences of this kind have therefore been with myself.
Before we continue, let’s get one thing clear: A guy’s enjoying anal penetration does not ‘make him gay’. As has often been pointed out, the claim is absurd on its face. I mean, what is the argument? Gay men enjoy anal penetration; Fred enjoys anal penetration; so Fred must be gay! Well, gay men enjoy getting blowjobs, too; every man I’ve ever known enjoys getting blowjobs; so every many I’ve ever known must be gay. Right?
That argument is so terrible that it obviously can’t be what really drives men )and it’s almost always men( to worry that a guy’s enjoying anal penetration ‘makes him gay’. The real argument is quite different. It’s that a guy’s enjoying anal penetration makes him feminine, and being feminine makes him effeminate, and that makes him gay. The steps of this argument are pretty lame, too, but it at least makes some kind of sense. But to think that certain sorts of sex acts are exclusively ‘feminine’ or ‘masculine’ is sexist on its face. And even if it is ‘feminine’ for a man to enjoy anal penetration, why is that supposed to be bad? Could it be because what’s feminine is inferior and men should not stoop to such things? That kind of reasoning only makes sense to people who are sexist and homophobic.
What’s really ironic about this sort of concern is that one of the joys of anal penetration for men is how it stimulates the prostate. Which, of course, is an organ only men have.* Indeed, the main reason I like anal play so much is the kind of orgasm it gives me. I have always envied women because there are so many ways they can masturbate, and because of the seemingly endless orgasms some of them manage to have. One woman I knew used to cum five or six times nearly every time we had sex, one right after the next. I’d have sold my soul to be able to do that, but my anatomy always got in the way. Until, that is, I discovered my prostate.
My earliest anal masturbation, in my college years, involved dildos. Dildos are for fucking, and that’s what I started out doing. I found out pretty fast that, if I fucked myself at the right angle, the head of the dildo would bump into my prostate, which felt fantastic. At first, I found it difficult to get the angle just right. If it was too steep, it would hit too hard, which could be painful. If it was too shallow, it would miss my prostate altogether. But when it was just right, it would cause intense sensations deep inside my body and make precum flow out of my cock like a river. Very quickly, the sensations would build towards that pre-orgasmic state, and I would find myself lingering there for a long time. It felt like, if only I could just keep at it long enough, or hit just the right spot, I’d cum. But I would always tire before I got to that point, or just getting too horny to keep at it, so I’d stroke myself to an orgasm with the dildo buried inside me. The feeling of my ass grabbing at the dildo while I came was wonderful. But I always wondered what would happen if only I could keep at it longer. I had to cum, eventually, right?
So that became my quest: To cum, just from anal stimulation.

Partnered MMO Part One

This journey that I have been on for the last 18 years has been so rich and varied. It has also been internally focused and driven by me. I have shared my experiences with my wife and she has benefited from my enhanced ability to perform sexually and my newly attuned ability to coax shuddering orgasms from her lust dripping pussy.

To achieve each new step I took, I read and studied. I read all kinds of books about ESO and ejaculation retention; I dabbled in Zen and meditation, and in tantra. I am by no means accomplished in any of the eastern psycho – spiritual skills, but I have been informed and guided by them. I have always been a thoughtful – introspective person about my work and my experience of the world. When I embarked on this sexual journey I applied the thoughtfulness that I put into gazing at a beautiful sunset into my experience of sexual pleasure. When my sexual self discovery was beginning to resonate and illuminate a path for me I looked inside myself and I followed the path. I applied the intuitive prowess I applied every day at work to my sexuality and my sexual response. It was transcendent, transformational, tumultuous and a lot of other T words like terrific.