Who I Am, As I Am, And What I`ve Discovered

This is a holding place for the forum posts that I wrote. Figured it'll be easier to put these in a blog post, so here we go.

So this was originally supposed to be an introduction for someone else, but as I wrote more and more, I just felt I had to share with the amazing folks here who have helped me on this journey.

I started the journey about a year ago, and it started for a few reasons. One, love making with my wife was a laborious process to forgo ejaculation, and I was reading up on various practices to prolong the climax. Other than masturbation (repeated edging, couldn't find the time), kegels and prostate massage were the most agreeable of options to me. So I started a regimen of car-Kegels (as I was driving) and noticed some minor benefits after a few months. Not quite pleased with the progress I was making, I started looking for prostate massagers. As I started to read up on various other devices, I stumbled upon the Aneros line (I refuse to refer to them as "toys") and the forum. The descriptions (and occasional videos, if I could find them) really intrigued me, and were very exciting (both sexually arousing and mentally curious) and I couldn't wait to try.

Kegeling and my Aneros BIG Buddies: Session for Wednesday October 17, 2012

Hi guys,

Early yesterday morning, I put into major effect my Kegels when I worked with my Aneros BIG buddies, the Progasm Classic, Maximus, and Progasm Ice. I began my session at 6:45 a.m. with the Progasm Classic. This big bruiser didn't slip in easily as I wanted. I worked with him for perhaps 15 minutes, but peristalsis set in which aborted my session with him.

I returned with the Maximus which slipped in easily to the hilt with the P-tab firmly press upon my perineum. The Maximus gave my prostate and anal canal a great massage which lasted a good thirty minutes. During this time, I slipped in a Kegel perhaps every four breaths. The Kegeling reinforced the massage action which produced intense series of P-waves. I think for now on I will begin my sessions with the Maximus before switching over to the Progasm.

The remainder of my two hour Anerosing consisted with the progression of Progasm Ice, then again with the Maximus, then the Progasm Ice, and concluding with the Progasm Classic in half hour or so segments. I focused upon my rhythmic breathing with a periodic Kegel thrown in, again to enhance the massage action of my various Aneros models. Also yesterday morning, I instituted sets of strong Kegel clutches or anal contactions of five or ten sets with both the Progasm Classic and Progasm Ice. What amazed me most yesterday was that both Progasm Classic and Ice were made for Kegeling. A strong Kegel clutch or anal contraction lasting perhaps ten or fifteen seconds in these sets is analogous to sets found in weight training. The Progasm is propelled real deep, massaging the whole length of prostate and even in the ancillary male genital organs of the vasa differens and ampullae where spermatozoa are stored. The P-tab and K-tab are pressed upon the perineum and coccyx respectively which fuels the Anerosing profoundly. All this is described in the Aneros Learning Center Instructions Contractions section. This document is worthy of close study.

Submission

I have been doing research into tantric BDSM. This pursuit has given me much insight into several sexual aspects that I embrace, but never had an exact name for. I have been learning breathing techniques, mental exercises, chakra balancing, and overall conscious awareness. One of the great things I've been learning is how to make a space sacred. This can include ritual and alters etc…but can be as simple as mentally removing all distractions of daily life and simply being fully present and conscious in the moment. Some may use salt or sage to create a physical circle around a space to signify the area sacred, others may just perform certain routine. For example, in a BDSM scene, preparing the toys, cleaning them, setting them out, getting the ambiance just right with music and lighting can create a sacred space. It's building up the scene and removing daily life and distraction.

My Three Big Really Good Buddies: Aneros Session for October 10 & 12, 2012

Hi guys,

I think for now on I will not be as detailed in my blog postings except when something noteworthy with the Aneros takes place.

Early Wednesday morning, I had a scheduled Aneros session. First I began with the Progasm Classic. He slipped in fairly easily. We had a fairly good session that lasted perhaps a good twenty minutes. Then I slipped over to the Maximus which delivered me a really good prostate and anal canal massage which lasted a good 45 minutes. That prepared me for a wonderful time with the Progasm Ice. This really good buddy slipped in the hilt with the P-tab positioned against my perineum and the K-tab right against my tail bone (coccyx). The Progasm Ice delivered me a good, vigorous massage both to my prostate and anal canal which lasted a good half-hour. Finally I concluded the session with more action from the Maximus, a good fifteen minutes worth. Total time: around 1 hour, 45 minutes.

I couldn't linger long for savoring my afterglow, but had to depart soon afterward to my Wednesday volunteer work and a lecture in the evening. Nevertheless, my Anerosing left me rejuvenated and reinvigorated, not to mention what my reawakened prostate and well-massaged butt was doing to me pretty much the whole day! 🙂

The Progasm Classic, Maximus, & Progasm Ice : My Big Buddies : October 5 & 8 Sessions

Hi guys,

These days I am really getting into the Aneros big time with the heavy artillery of the Progasm Classic, Maximus, and Progasm Ice! I am finally blogging about my two sessions which I had with these models first early last Friday morning on October 5 and then this morning. I feel so sexy right now because my well massaged prostate feels like a revved up high octane V8 engine right now!

Friday morning I began with the Progasm Classic. He inserted far more easily than in earlier sessions although not the hilt. I spent a good ten to fifteen minutes performing Kegels upon him. He felt better inserted although peristalsis set in, but clearly I was making progress with him. Then I continued with the Maximus which gave my prostate and anal muscles perhaps a good 75 minute workout.

Next I decided to do something entirely different. I brought out the Progasm Ice for the first time which I purchased at reduced price from Amazon.com in early August. What amazed me was that my new big buddy slipped so easily and smoothly to the hilt. Intense pleasure began to suffuse not only my anal tract but also my whole body. Again I performed the Kegels upon this guy along with short periods of stillness the Progasm Ice and my body to get acquainted for perhaps fifteen minutes. This sort of introduction began to feel real GOOD to me, although again I had to deal with it slipping out through peristalsis.

My three good buddies: Aneros session for October 1, 2012

Hi guys,

I am really enjoying having Aneros sessions first thing in the morning right after breakfast, bathing, shaving, and other preparations. Most days I wake up fully rested and relaxed. Such a schedule has enhanced my Aneros session many fold. So for now on, when I do not have any pressing business to transact, I will have my Aneros sessions first thing in the morning.

This morning, I began with the Progasm. I spent perhaps five to ten minutes with my new buddy getting used to his wide girth in my anal canal. But still I had difficulty in inserting him to the hilt. Also peristalsis was again strong causing the Progasm to nearly slip out. Then I switched to the Maximus. Things went much better with the Maximus as it massaged my prostate and anal canal fairly well for perhaps thirty minutes.

After a brief intermission, I returned again with the Progasm. This time he slipped in to the hilt. I spent a good fifteen minutes just relaxing and again warming up to my big buddy. Also I performed some Kegels upon him with good, strong clutches of my anal muscles. The discomfort went away as the Progasm really began to feel real good inserted. During this stretch of time, I had to hold the end of this massager, although the peristalsis remained strong. For now on with every session, I'll continue to work with the Progasm in this way. Perhaps very soon he'll stay inserted and my body will get used to him.

Rolling Balls and Tingling Foreskin

It's a quiet afternoon for a change; and, I'm sitting in my office chair — leaning a bit forward typing this entry. I've just taken a deep full-belly breath, let it out, and meditate upon the joyful radiations and tinglings moving outward from behind my sac, into my scrotum, balls and up through my shaft to the very tip of my foreskin. You would think that after 3 years now, such an experience would become boring or at least diminish BUT it doesn't! The afterglow continued from this morning's short solo time of massage.

When I awoke, my Beloved had already arisen and left the bedroom. It was chilly, so I pulled the blankets up over my shoulders. The clock said I had only 30 minutes left before taking on the new day beyond. I started to massage my breasts firmly in circular motions. After several minutes I moved my hands down to the top of my short-haired bush and started some firm circular motions with two fingers on each hand — exploring the area for just the right spot AND then I found it. I massaged this spot and soon I could feel my prostate awakening underneath. Deep miniwaves rolled into larger ones until my left breast clenched hard followed (almost immediately) by a dry O. My fingers moved downward and pressed firmly into the depressin on top of the base of my cock. Again the waves built and CLENCHED.

Spring 2012 – Fully Immersed

As Spring came on this year my wife was required to be away from home for a few weeks. We hate to be apart, and I dreaded it. But I also know that I make my best progress with Aneros play when I have privacy. For me, knowing that there is no one around gives me the freedom to really shout and moan and reach further into my fantasies, to say what I want from my imaginary lover.

Several things really accelerated my experiences at this time. First, I ordered the "Hypoaerosession" CD downloads. My first session using this turned out to be my best, and gave me new concepts to think about. These concepts are, first, security: I articulate that I am safe to do this and that it is good. Second, I think about "what it is that I want." "What do you want? What do you want?" Answering this question always pushes me into greater arousal.

Around the same time, I purchased the Helix Syn. I really like getting my perineum pounded, but now find that I like the more subtle tickling of the P-tab on the Helix Syn. And it seems to me to be a warmer, softer f**k inside me.

Everything seemed to come together for me. I was becoming aware of some great variables to play around with: cannabis, hypnotic music, position, which toy, relaxation, KSMO techniques, and fantasy/visualization.

My main men, the Maximus and Helix Syn, Aneros Session Wednesday morning September 19, 2012

Hi guys,

After my session late Monday afternoon two days ago, during which I finally got the hang of using the Maximus, I was so excited and rearing to go when I got up this morning. The Aneros Wiki suggests that we time our sessions two full days apart as a minimum. But this morning just after 7 a.m. after a good night's rest and then after shaving and bathing, I hungered for a session. I then discovered that early mornings after such activities and a good night's rest may provide me excellent times for Aneros sessions. Not only is my body rested and relaxed, but my mind is also very sharp.

I started my session this morning with the Maximus. Before my morning bath today, I had a bowel movement. So the Maximus slipped effortlessly and easily which absolutely amazed me. After insertion, I spent several minutes Kegeling. Then I was ready for my session which proceeded naturally and effortlessly. This time I focused not only upon the Maximus massaging my prostate but also the motion of the P-tab upon my perineum. At the same time, I directed my attention to my PC sphincter and what it was doing for me. When I did all this along with the rhythmic breathing, it seemed that the Maximus was delivering me for series of P-waves which increased in intensity. I also noticed that all this happened in cycles. My session with the Maximus lasted about an hour or an hour and fifteen minutes. It seemed that during this time I was suffused with pleasure. At one point, there was a such a crescendo of P-waves and absolute pleasure that my bloated penis and plump glans were reaching the climax of seminal ejaculation! This may even happen very soon some day! I could have gone on much longer with the Maximus. When this phase of my session today ended, there was a slight puddle of precum on my belly. My glans was certainly wet and sticky!

Silk

I have been writing several installments to this blog which provides some of my history. But now, I want to jump into the present.

Today, my wife had a job interview. I wished her love and luck and she was on her way, and I decided to have a short Aneros-less session, using iDoser. I set up a 15-minute dose of "Green". It was our first cold morning of the year today, and I was already wearing a super lightweight silk longsleeve shirt for warmth. I slipped on a silk thong. Then I lay on my back, knees up, just like I do in my Aneros sessions. Within seconds I had a contraction in my perineum. Through the silk I gently made light circles around the outside of my nipples. Then I ran my hand across my stomach. I began incorporating vocalizations and humming, and some of the things I've learned from practicing KSMO techniques.

Normally I do my sessions naked, and this was my first time stroking my nipples through cloth, particularly silk. I've often used baby powder or KY Warming Gel on nipples, and this was one of the things that really accelerated my rewiring.

My first touches telegraphed straight from my nipples to my prostate. When I do this, it feels almost like an electrical jolt about an inch deeper than my perineum, with additional low-toned vibrations which spread through my pelvis, especially into my penis bulb, balls and ass. Those vibrations remind me of the touch of a bow on a cello string. The string is big, thick, and the low, scratchy but mellow vibration instills whatever is in its path.