ed's journey

yesterday i used the 20 mm peridise first and then the 16 mm in the order of bigger to smaller that so many posts have praised–it was nice and i think that bigger to smaller makes more sense than smaller to bigger( which i have also tried many times)–had a good time but no advancement from earlier sessions–took the next day off as i have been going daily and even several times daily for last week or so and maybe my prostate needs a day without stimulation for some recuperation–i will just do my rubbing exercises and leave it at that–they really get the blood flowing and awaken the prostate without getting it taxed too much like the peridise does–couldn't get the "ball popping" type of orgasm going–had only the rubbing and some "ball popping" , but none continuous like i've been able to do before with contractions

Energies and Transformations

The following is a post on my blog at the KSMO site but it all applies here too. It is a further example of our couples practice that has merged Aneros and KSMO so closely.

I had my first session, after an earlier brief experimental one, with my new Helix a few days ago and have had after effects and general Butt Buzz since then, which was part of energizing this morning's love nest described below! Helix is my new best friend; but that is before Eupho has a real session! So it remains to be seen…

"After sensing a misunderstanding in the Aneros Chat focused on KSMO, and having the very good discussion in our Evening KSMO Chat later on the 10th, I have been reflecting a lot on the nature of what I have experienced over the last year and a bit, referring back to the Three Models post earlier.

The question is, how expansive, transformable and transformative are the energies that can be tapped and directed using the Key Sound?

I would really appreciate thoughts and points of view from other perspectives.

This morning, mrs. a and I stayed in bed after waking early and had a wonderful time. After early delights and some traditional p>v intercourse we settled down to our intent which was focused more on her prostate (G-spot), still penile/vaginal rather that our mutual manual Wedding Band position.

ed's journey

i have been doing a lot of sessions lately with all my massagers and my peridises too–a lot of repeatable success too–my orgasms haven't taken off by themselves and left me lying in the bushes but i can make them happen and make them repeat–part of the new lesson is learning what they are like and what to call them–i now realize that i have been having orgasms for awhile but didn't recognize them as they were so different from penile ejaculations–the ones that i like the most are when it feels like one of my balls is popping into or out of someone's mouth or a cock ring–but i realize it is not my balls feeling this but my prostate–it feels like it is being gently but firmly poked with a rounded stick or a finger–it used to happen once in awhile but now it happens several times in a row–if i could make it happen continuously i would be in heaven!–the other sensation i like is the one of something gently rubbing down the length of my prostate–funny this happens on the bottom left and the ball popping on the top right–the rubbing is very gentle and subtle and warm feeling–i could just relax all day and feel that without getting tired of it–the poking is more urgent and makes me want to squirm and fidget–

ed's journey

been doing a lot of sessions in the last few days–can seem to get near the threshold but never over it–got the peridise advanced set yesterday and used the larger 20 mm one yesterday and this morning–also tried the smaller 16 mm one just now–they are similar but different– i like both, in fact the 16 mm makes me want to buy the eupho, the movement is so exquisite, which is what i imagine the eupho will give from all i have read about it–i have been able to relax to generate a good feeling and then catch it with the slightest contraction i can make, both anally and pc-wise–then it builds and builds but never goes over that edge where it self generates–fun though–sure wish i could learn that method which will make it self sustaining, leading to nice orgasms, one after another–now i can bring one on after another tapers off but they are not earth shattering nor repetitive–can anyone out there help me?–maybe i should ask on the general forum??–will try the 16 mm again after some rest–i find that i have to piss a bucket after an hour or so–i have the feeling of needing to piss with the buzz from ass to prostate, but when i take a break i find that i really do need to piss so badly–making a ton of precum too!–wish i could get over that edge just once to see how to do it–oh well i guess i'll just wander dumbly along until i stumble on it and then have to stumble along again until i recognize what i have done–that's how it is with this journey–you can do the right thing but not recognize it at the time and then have to search for it again, hoping you realize it when you do it again out of trial and error–that's the way it has been with me about the relaxation and the contractions–i think i know now what is what but i still don't know everything i need to know–when i get this thing cracked i will probably be spending hours on my back reaping the rewards for all this work

ed's journey

i took yesterday off as i thought that my prostate had been extensively stimulated by both the external massages and the aneros sessions–this morning i prelubed and used the helix and it was as i thought it would be, namely, a little less than last session–it has been my experience that a great session is never followed by another great session–i could get the control i discovered last session but not the looped maintenance of arousal i wanted–so, all in all, it was a good session but not great and not instructive–i definitely need to move the p-tab around during a session to get the feedback i need and to vary the contact with my prostate–also i think the fact that i had not voided my rectum made it a bit more difficult–my good session always allowed a bit of time after a bm to provide more mobility for the aneros–i will have another session this afternoon

ed's journey

well, i've had a lot of no advancement sessions and maybe even some one or two steps backwards sessions since the last post–tried cutting back the hot glue and also reshaping it–got feelings going but could never complete the loop to self generating feelings–very frustrating after thinking i had cracked it!–finally decided that the p-tab just wasn't hitting my spot and that the pressure on my perineum was too great–i discovered the post on the forum about external prostate massage exercises and after doing them i saw that my prostate responded better to soft, subtle poking rather than hard, aggressive poking, so i thought that this would be true for the p-tab too–therefore i removed all of the hot glue from the mgx and the helix and tried them again–success!– what i had been missing in closing the loop was the feedback from the external pressure on my perineum, just as i had thought–maybe it should have been obvious to me earlier cause i could generate the feelings i was after but could not get them to self generate–anyway now i could get the loop closed and now i had to learn how to start the feelings and how to control and vary them–i have always been greatly confused about contractions and complete relaxation and when to do one and when to do the other–now what is working for me is almost complete relaxation to get a little flutter going and then very, very light contractions to keep them going once started–also i can now use anal and pc contractions for different effects–after a flutter starts i can capture it with a slight anal contraction and place the prostate massager in different spots on my prostate to generate different sensations by varying the anal contraction to move the massager up and down my prostate–then when i like the sensation from the degree of contraction and the placement on my prostate i can use my pc contraction to "play a tune" that pleases me on that spot–different spots on the prostate feel different and different intensities of pc contractions feel different too–so using this and varying the frequency of the pc contractions i can find what i like and then maintain this pleasurable activity until i discover something else to amuse myself–if the feelings go away i simply relax as much as i can and then "capture" the next pleasant feeling that comes along with another slight anal contraction–in this way i can try to maintain pleasure and start pleasure almost as long as i want– i haven't gotten the out of control, i guess it's a super o, response yet but now again i feel that i am closer–last week i wondered if i would ever get here and so close–i can't say enough for those external prostate massages as posted in the forum–i do them in the morning, before getting out of bed and they make my prostate all warm and alive–they feel like the echos one has the day after an aneros session without the aneros–i recommend them to everyone–they will wake up one's prostate and get it conditioned for aneros activity–also they will teach one what to look for when searching for pleasant prostate feelings and where they are located–part of the learning process is knowing what you are looking for–this is hard as one needs to feel it himself and to identify it and then to see what controls it, and someone else cannot do this for you–today i had all the models in and out and i stopped several times and did other things, etc, and i was able to start again whenever i got back to bed–i inserted whatever model i wanted to use and took right off into my pleasure–i knew when something wasn't going to work and so changed the p-tab location and then i also knew when something would work and simply waited for it to happen–i think now i will know when simply lying there will be productive and when it won't–i used to waste a lot of time waiting for things that never happened and i think now i won't–also i think that now i can try a different approach if something isn't working–hope this helps someone

ed's journey

did some more work on the size and shape of the hot glue and inserted it just to see if it hit the spot even though i had 2 good sessions today already–it was a bit better, even though i didn't prelube beforehand cause of all the sessions i had already had today–i will have to try the helix again as i've been copying the mgx glue without trying it–have been getting some action from echos, all very nice–a bit of both but mostly prostate ones

ed's journey

good session, much better than the last several sessions–trimmed back the hot glue and reshaped it–also prelubed before insertion, which i will have to do all the time–had some nice anal feelings with a lot of in and out of the mgx–quite pleasant–not too violent so i could enjoy them and not let them get out of control like when it darts without warning deep into my ass–had mostly anal but a few prostate feelings, the ones i like that feel like rubbing down my prostate, warm and cozy–the anal feelings were of the mgx going slowly in and out with not too much movement–almost pure bliss!–i was able to sustain them for more than 1/2 hr, but they never got really big, at least not too big for me to handle–also after they subsided i was able to start them again with a slight anal contraction after complete relaxation–i even took a pee break and after calmly lying there until relaxed i started them again with the slight contraction, then i could keep everything going with shallow, low abdominal breathing–i liked it and thought that i had lost it this last week–i must have a session without too many days in between (2 at the most, i think) so that i don't loose the gift–really interested to see what happens tomorrow as i usually go downhill after a good session like today–it will be interesting to see if i have "echo" sessions the next times i lie down without the aneros inserted

ed's journey

well, i was finally able to hold off having a session for a few days–funny though, i didn't have any echo sessions without the aneros even though i lay down several times each day and tried to feel the waves–i had some slight waves, but not long lasting nor large–it was completely the opposite of what i expected and had been experiencing–added some more hot glue to the mgx and helix but based on today's test with the mgx i think i may have gone beyond the limit for adding stimulation–i will have to continue the experiment with less and maybe a different shape on the tab–when it is right it immediately starts my heart racing upon insertion and sends waves through my prostate–i think that i may have configured the tip so that it hits in a slightly different place, farther from my anus, the distance or dig in may still be right–anyway today's session was pretty tame and i don't think i will lay off so long between sessions again–maybe every day for a few days and then every other day for a few sessions will be the right mix–only time will tell–i laid off cause i thought that i may have worn out my prostate with so much stimulation, although it was never sore, just less responsive–i tried the progasm for the last 10 minutes just to see what would happen and the answer was not much

9th Session – first time with Peridise

Today I received my Peridise Anal PC Toy lubed up and started with the smaller of the two. The directions say not to force it in – to just put it in let your own body position where it wanted to be. Then it says to contract your sphincter muscles several times to advance the Peridise in to the anal canal. I lay there for a bit getting accustomed to how it felt and played around with different contracting and relaxing exercises for a bit. While doing this I started to feel my sphincter and anus build up some energy during those contractions. I started relaxing, and pretty soon my anus started winking and fluttering on it's own, with each contraction building on top of the other one (before the previous contraction had a chance to release or contract) and they started stacking up on top of each other. I had a very strong mini-o similar to ones I have felt with the Aneros Helix massager and the Peridise went in and out of my anus with each involuntary contraction, rubbing aginst my prostate. It did not seem to be massaging my prostate in the exact same way as the Helix, but I could definitely feel it rubbing there pleasurably, and it definitely caused my sphincter to go on a wild ride for a bit. Unfortunately I was not able to continue my session for as long as I would like to have, and did not get a chance to check out the larger of the 2 yet, but I will definitely use the Peridise as a prelude to my future sessions with a prostate mass