It’s Complicated

My first Aneros arrived fourteen years ago this week. I remember it well. I was like a kid on Christmas Eve, waiting anxiously. I had been lurking in the forums (which was all we had here at the time, there was no chat yet). I asked questions occasionally but mainly I read in wonderment until I got brave enough to mail for my MGX.

The seven year mark was a very easy milestone to remember as well as it was the year that I exercised my post rewiring curiosity about M- M sex. As this post says , it was complicated. I have posted this narrative once before on my last blog and I was not sure if I was going to post it again, but it was such a milestone in my Aneros Journey, the story is incomplete without including it. I post it also for all the “curious” guys in the forum who wonder themselves.

In my post rewiring world the sexual man that I was was bent in an arc that surprised me beyond my wildest dreams. In my adolescence I would purchase nudist magazines in Times Square in the “dirty magazine” shops to see both men and women nude. I always had a fascination with nudity of both sexes. Post rewiring this inclination amplified tenfold. Beyond my voyeuristic tendencies rewiring expanded my own exhibitionistic tendencies. My sexual bravado had evolved exponentially. When I joined here that January, Artform told me about Dicknet; he was a member. Dicknet was a forum for guys to share intimate pictures and chat about their sexual proclivities in a chat room and in personal messages. Art and I spent many hours chatting there about many personal things beyond our cocks and sex.

The Beat Goes On

So looking back to my 7th year of Aneros practice, I can say Aneros made me into a new man. In January 2012, I was 59 years old with the sex drive I had at 30, but I was wiser, more self aware and more patient. When I say I was a new man, my outlook on sex and sexual pleasure had become very open and enlightened. I can objectively say I was made to be a more sensual man. My outlook on life and sexual pleasure became more Zen like. Although my home life was very conventional my career was always just a little outside the box; Aneros made my sex life a little outside the box just as my career was. I really had a more laid back attitude towards success and traditional achievement than my peers and I had a deeper more convoluted attitude towards sex than my friends and acquaintances. I came to enjoy life and my sex life as a result of my shifted mental state.

As for sex, in my seventh year I took the leap to explore male – male sexual exploration with a very safe guy I met on line in a very safe forum. We met once. Like me he was a married – curious guy, but he was 20 years younger than I. It was both our first times. We spent a weekend together in a hotel. That will be another entry.

Sixth Year Milestone

In the summer of my sixth year, mid way to my seventh year of Aneros the nature of my need for sexual pleasure and my response to arousal had shifted totally as a result of rewiring. Arousing images and fantasies still coaxed my penis to erection but at the same time a sexy woman or male penis porn or an erotic dream or writing my erotica would make my anus tingle and twinge and make my nipples erect.

However as much as rewiring bent my sexuality in an arc that I never would have predicted it also enhanced my sex practices and expanded my existing desires and proclivities.

My sex life began in reality when I was 19; from that date on it was focused solely on penis in vagina sex and masturbation. When I met my wife and we became intimate my prurient focus added oral sex on her. For both of us the most intense and pleasurable orgasms we both have occur during oral sex, whether it is me on her or her on me or in 69. Aside from rewiring and my orgasms I absolutely love my wife’s pussy. Licking her slot, suckling her clit or massaging her G spot with a finger it’s all good for me. Likewise I love to be sucked; the visual turn on is a huge influence on my orgasm and ejaculation. Fucking has been and still is a way for me to feel close to my wife. Like many women she loves it because she loves the fullness that penetration with my large penis provides. She loves the lurching tug of my shaft inside her and the swelling contracting action of my cock head that accompanies pumping of my ejaculate inside her. Having her juice my penis as I embrace her provides a visceral bond that is not available through any other means.

Joy!

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Thank you, guys, for opening a whole new world. Hope I can add to the knowledge in days ahead.

Rewiring A New Mindset and a Great Sex Position

I mentioned in an earlier post that the impact of rewiring on me has been too much to contain in one post. So I will insert posts every now and then that illuminate the magic that has occurred in my mind and body that is rewiring. Here is one of those posts.

As I mentioned in an earlier post sex for me was a penis focused activity until Aneros. With this penis focused orientation comes the physical – gender based imperative to be proactive when I fucked. It goes to reason that men have cocks, an organ designed to penetrate and women have cunts an organ designed to receive a cock. That imperative calls on a man to be the assertive protagonist in sex; women get fucked, men do the fucking. It is thrusting and probing and grinding and digital massage of clits and a lot more.

As a man I was programmed by this imperative to penetrate my wife with my cock and thrust in her cunt creating pleasurable feelings in my cock until those feelings reached a crescendo that caused me to ejaculate. That was sex for me. For her it involved a lot of oral enhancement to her clit before penetration to warm her up for orgasm. Like many women she has a longer fuse than I do.

5 Years In

As I entered my fifth year of Aneros use, I was a totally rewired man. My cock focused sexuality was now whole body focused. Anal – non ejaculatory orgasms became my primary source of sexual pleasure. Given a choice I preferred anal induced MMO to ejaculation. I have always loved cunnilingus, but now making oral love to my wife became a fixation. I was addicted to pleasuring her with my mouth. I developed a craving for the taste of her grool. A prolonged session of foreplay and having her participate in my Aneros insertion juiced her vagina and made the sap of her passion run from her pussy mouth.

Rewiring also amplified my exhibitionistic tendencies and my sense of sexual adventure. In daily life I loved showing my package off; wearing clingy pants and a “banana hammock” displayed the bulge in my pants unashamedly. I loved seeing girls looking at it. It needs to be noted that I am a hard person not to notice. I am 6 foot 6 inches tall and a lean muscular 220 lbs. I have a shaved head and a thick mustache. My 8.5 inch penis in a pouch that thrusts it out is hard to miss on me.

Initiation ceremony for my new black friend

This report is surely NSFW as it describes my today’s initiation ceremony of my new non Aneros tool I lately bought for rediscovering anal pleasures, I had experienced lastly before beginning my Aneros journey two years ago. And I’m admittedly still struck by the fantastically rewired sensations. In details (last chance to skip NSFW reading matter.):
I’ve chosen a setup in the showers where I attached the realistic black dildo’s suction cup to the wall opposite of another wall I would be able to lean against. Only slipping on the condom and applying the lube to that member dangling from the wall felt like handling a real c*ck. Oh, f*ck, while remembering the initiation my gland just took over, tears in my right eye, strongest thrustings in my abdomen and an inner erection and a buzzing of enormous power. And a little ache from my penetrated h*le too. Back to typing my report, ignoring the ongoing involuntaries thrusting forward my pelvis while typing this. (“F*ck! That’s gonna be a tough challenge!)
After having lubed the dildo thoroughly, I applied some lube to my anus and inserted one finger to massage the opening. Then I already was so eager to get the dildo in me, that I made a first attempt. Oh no, I’ve become really tight again. Too long time since getting laid. Remembering my own advices giving lately to another guy here, I began to press as with a boulder movement, and got the glans a bit further into the entrance. No, some more lube has been necessary and I had to massage my sphincter a bit too. All the time I’ve been fully erect and my member was pulsating in lust, while thick drops of precum were oozing out and abseiling to the shower base. Slowly my sphincter managed to let my new black friend in and finally I forced it through the first sphincter. I stopped and accomodated with the size. What a difference to the Aneros tools. This typing of my report makes me horny beyond belief, especially when bringing all the lustful scenes back to my mind. I’ve always been a fan of teasing my sphincter muscle. That’s the spot where I feel the ultimate itch. Some dry orgasms shaking my body just proved my words. After a while I tried the inner sphincter which was not as easy to overcome as the outer one. So I slipped off the member and applied more lube on it and to my h*le. Rotating my *ss I went for the next try. Yeah, now I made it and could slowly take the whole length of that black friend in me. What a pleasure, what a filling feeling. Of course all my experiences with the real ones came in to my mind and I had to admit how I’ve missed it, how anal retentive I in fact am. I had to withstand the urge to go wild and soothed myself to take it slowly. Although my h*le just feeds back, that I may have overdone a bit, I had indeed taken my time and begun with slow motions pounding against the shower wall until I finally could feel the balls. Every now and then I slipped off the dildo only to savour the massage of my outer spincter by the pronounced glans of that dildo again.
I took great pleasure in my absolute control what this member did to my anus. With a real man behind it, there is an alien will that might not be one with yours. But I indeed could absolutely determine and reliably get what I wanted from this dildo. It just made me understand why women love those toys so well. They are not in a hurry to shoot their load. Their stamina is endless and when warmed up by my anus it even more and more felt like a real c*ck. And I took it that way. It became really an awesome f*cking, what was going on in my shower cabin. My ass cheeks were wet from sweat and slapping against the shower wall, I was moaning and squeaking with lust, and several dry orgasms shook my whole body. Not only a few times I was so overwhelmed by the pleasure in my anal canal that it forced me off the dildo, everytime thinking I would otherwise just have ejaculated handsfree. My member was pumping and pumping and oozing precum on and on. Now I began to vary my motions, taking turns at going over the whole length of insertion, teasing my sphincter, dragging out and plugging in, shoving it in as deep as possible. Every now and then I thought, hey, that’s enough for the beginning, but then again I couldn’t stop. All together it might have been a 45 minute session or better standing ovation, 😉
Arguing I could have a second session later, I finally could persuade myself to call it a f*ck. After cleaning up, only seeing that dangling member on the sink let increase my urge a lot to get laid again as soon as possible. My consciousness just wants to throw in, but your h*le is still aching, but my horny gland keeps telling me this little sacrifice is to be made. Gladly everyday life keeps me off from another session for a while, so my h*le gets sufficient time for its recovery.

Made some real progress, but unsure if it’s the right kind?

So I got my helix syn a few months ago and while my first session was a decent success, my subsequent sessions were kind of dull. I didn’t feel my prostate at all, despite leaking precum and what not.

Until yesterday, when I followed this guide’s advice: https://www.extremerestraints.com/article/aneros-detailed-instruction to hold my sphincter’s contraction at half strength and to start playing with my body wherever I’m sensitive. This lead me to play with my nipples a bit while keeping my sphincter at half strength, at which point my prostate finally “activated”. I began to finally feel some tingling in my prostate and I started to actually feel my toy roll over my prostate during contraction.

Now the problem is that I only feel my prostate being stimulated as long as I’m rubbing my nipples. When I stop rubbing my nipples, I stop feeling anything in my prostate despite doing the exact same movements with my muscles as before.

I read on the official forums that it’s relatively common to get extra pleasure from your prostate when playing with your nipples (or any other sensitive area, except your penis), and I’ve also read of people rewiring their nipples to feel pleasure from the prostate without having any toy inside you.

My Sexual Trinity

There are so many aspects to rewiring I don’t know if I can cover them all or provide adequate description of them all. It would be like trying to describe life itself or the meaning of sex. But at three years into this journey, aside from the mental changes and the changes in my sexual outlook, the most significant impact of rewiring on me was my experience of the sensation of sexual pleasure.

By the time I hit my third year of Aneros practice I had been experiencing orgasm and serious sexual pleasure for 30+ years. For me the focus of that pleasure was my cockhead and the first 3 inches of my cock behind my cockhead. Masturbation was a race to the ejaculatory “finish line” and the ceremonious spewing of a rope of semen.

As I described in the previous entry, the rewired me experienced sex in an entirely new way. The two most significant changes in my experience of sexual pleasure were: (1) the slowing down of my sensory systems and the shift in my perception of those sensory systems. The outside world gets shut out; all I can feel or sense is the pleasure inside my body. Everything outside my body ceases to exist, I feel totally isolated and contained inside my skin. As reality fades from my awareness I am transported inside my mind to a state of perfect happiness in a hazy soft idyllic place and (2) my physical experience of sexual sensation expands. No longer is my penis the nexus of my sensations, they are felt across the landscape of my body with particular expression in my cock root and cock slit, my nipples and my anal canal.

The Road to Rewiring

When I look back at the milestone of my rewiring 11 years ago I now realize that it was a bringing together of the jig saw puzzle of events and experiences from the start of my sexual journey of discovery that began in earnest in my early 30’s with the experiences of the first two years of my Aneros practice. Looking back on it the potential was always there and the adoption of Aneros practice was the key that opened the door. In effect I believe that rewiring brought together the male and female sides of my sexual psyche and forged them into bisexuality.

The first step in this evolutionary forging of my sexuality that rewired me was my participation in a workshop on female sexuality and female sexual response when I was in my early 30’s. My eyes were opened to the deeper more visceral experience of orgasmic pleasure that women have as opposed to men. I learned the inextricable link between a woman’ s mind, her vagina, the visceral sensory presence of her lover (his scent, looks, feel etc), her whole body experience of pleasure, the strategic ingredient of how she feels psychologically at that moment and her orgasm.