Author: gnawdol
Cock Head Massage
Esteemed old friend Turnrow and another fellow forum member have both asked me to talk about sulcus (cock head cleft) massage as a Super O enhancement and facilitator” as well as the practices I apply in stimulating my sulcus during a session. Specifically Turnrow asked me to respond to his request and elaborate in a blog entry. I have known Turnrow for many years as a reader on my WordPress blog and as an esteemed member of the “brotherhood of the prostate” here. So here you go Turnrow.
If I delve into my sexual practices immediately and provide background later, I am sure you will be afflicted with a certain stiffness that will hinder your ability to read serious content and understand my thought process (LOL). So ……… I will discuss the thinking stuff first. Then once you have background, I will get into the cock hardening stuff.
When I joined the forums many years ago and started on my path to achieve the holy grail of Super O, I followed the sage advice of respected elders of this community. These respected elders were hitting them out of the ball park so speak, so I dutifully did everything they suggested. Tantamount in their advice was the rule that prostate orgasm needed to be separated from penis oriented orgasm. The basis of the advice was that if one focuses on ones stimulated cock, it would be a distraction from sensation in the prostate and anal canal. In addition the advice also was rooted in the potential danger that stimulation of one’s cock would trigger ejaculation and “let the air out of the balloon” of your Super O.
My Second Tryst Part 4
My anal orgasms were fluttering and melting away in pleasant gentle pulsing spasms as I trembled in quiet arousal. As they faded, I remained on my back on the rumpled bed savoring the sweet anguish of orgasmic after glow. The Tempo was still inside me pressing gently on my prostate; it was passively provoking my prostate sending lingering sexy chills up my spine. He had lain down next to me, his skin was warm on mine. I put my arm around him and drew him to me; as I did I looked down at his penis which was fully erect.
Mine was laying on my belly semi erect pointing due north as was his. The experience of looking at two erect cocks laying side by side was unusual for me to say the least. He had one of the most beautiful cocks I had ever been given the chance to gaze at; it was mesmerizing. I love cocks. I love cock heads, I love how an erect penis looks and feels and I love to watch them ejaculate. Most of all though I love to suck and taunt cock heads with my tongue as the tip of my tongue parts the delicate slit at the tip, toying with it. I love to trace the rigid crown that defines a well sculpted corona with my tongue until it swells and erupts his ejaculate.
My Second Tryst Part 3
Part 3
In my first hookup with a man two years earlier we were both nervous. At that time I was not really at ease with my morphing sexuality. However, two years had passed between my first tryst and this one. During that time, I grew to be more comfortable with who I was becoming sexually. I was getting more at ease with my changing desires and my anal orgasmic response; as I relaxed into my rewired “new sexuality”, a desire for male intimacy infiltrated my psyche. The desire to kiss a male sex partner became an expression of my libido and a must do in my menu of sex acts with any man and this one that evening in particular. Kissing had always been a cornerstone in my foreplay with women and that night it would be no different.
The key that opened the door to this new world that night was that I had cast aside my shame, and given into my limbic desire. My own admission to myself was feeding my libido. Revealing it openly and unabashedly to an attractive and very desirable male sex partner was feeding his libido in equal measure; his cock was stone hard. It was profoundly arousing. The excitement and lack of shame I felt kissing a hot naked man in foreplay was flying in the face of the social taboo that had governed me in my past; that excitement was forging my cock to iron. Kissing him on the lips was a big deal; however kissing him in bed in foreplay was beyond a big deal. All of this was having a profound impact on me.
My Second Tryst
Part 2
With my eyes closed I grasped the head of my erect cock; it felt hot and smooth in my hand. Anticipation of sucking his penis had forged mine to iron hardness. I love sucking cocks and swallowing rich creamy semen. Placing my middle finger in the sulcus underneath my cock head I began to gently massage it. I did not rub hard enough to encourage ejaculation but rather just firm enough to edge myself and keep it rigid. The deep cleft that sculpts my crown was slippery from my profuse precum. Aneros practice has increased my precum flow manifold. I was pleased I was already hard for him, I wanted it to be erect, or at least firm when he saw it in person the first time. I am relatively large erect. I like showing my size to male and female partners when I am aroused; I like to flaunt my sexuality as I am an exhibitionist at heart. My fingertip began to make little circles in my cleft as I slowly swung my pelvis back and forth. I imagined I was dancing in an erotic performance for spectators; as I saidf I am a closeted exhibitionist. Looking in the mirror over the desk I opened my eyes to admire the lewd dance I was doing and the sexy image I made. I imagined that he was watching the lewd show of my sexuality. The thought of him in particular watching me made my cock ache with need. Ever since rewiring, mental imagery has played a huge role in my prostate orgasm sessions and my arousal.
My Second Tryst
Part1
I obtained my Tempo by winning it here on the Forum. HIH was holding a contest some ten or twelve years ago. The challenge was to write what Aneros meant to you and how it changed you; the prize was a new Aneros Syn, which had just been introduced. I was urged by several guys in the Forum that read my blog to submit my personal story. I wrote my story and submitted it. To my surprise I won. When I was notified, I asked the company if I might get a Tempo instead of the Syn. Tempo had been out for a while and I wanted one; I had not gotten around to buying one yet. They agreed.
A few weeks later my Tempo arrived in the mail. Later that week I tried it. It was an instant success. It was vastly more effective and responsive than my Eupho which was my favorite Aneros device until then. From that first insertion my Tempo was my go to Aneros; now it’s all I use.
At that same time I did the contest I was communicating with a fellow Aneros user about meeting for a shared session and more. He was my second hook up with a bicurious married guy for sex. My first foray into M-M sex was quick and unceremonious. We were both too nervous to really explore the mental and full physical dimensions of our desires. this time it would be different. Also this time we would use Aneros together.
Back In The Saddle
So gentlemen and a few ladies, tomorrow I return with my blog. I have not really done an entry for years, but this is where I began blogging before I got into WordPress. I am going to stay here with this new version. The first entry tomorrow will be about my second tryst with a man several years into my Aneros journey. I will be admitting some things in it that I have never revealed before. Stay tuned.
Riding the Rail
I have had a blog on and off for 14 years. My blogs have been both here and in other forums and on Word Press. Between all 4 blogs I had 10,000 subscribers and 800 pages (single space) of 600 + entries. That 14 year written log was a weekly diary of my sex life, what I was thinking, doing and feeling during that entire time. It also inspired a complete erotic novel and 2 others that are in the works.
That written record has been incredibly useful to me now as a tool to read and reflect on where I have been, what experiences I had and what I learned. All of the times, dates and details I have written here in this latest blog came from that written record. The timeline nature of this blog and the perspective that I am offering in these entries is a summary of lessons learned. In the context of all the entries I came to realization that my 9th year was a turning point in my journey.
Mentorship
In 2013 I was extremely active on line, perhaps too active. Work was really stressful and I used this forum and two others as a means to let off steam with sexual chat and sharing information and experiences with like minded people of both sexes. I also mentored some men just starting with aneros. Here in the Aneros Forum many of the chats I was having in PM were with guys who were just getting on board and were looking for coaching and personal help. That’s how I met my number 2. He was a 29 year old post army college student in his senior year at Bowling Green University. He was single and heterosexual, but had a very open attitude towards sexual relations. Looking back on it after having spent time with him I would say now that he was bicurious.
He introduced himself to me in the chat room in a PM. There was something about him that came through even in instant messages. He was a really nice guy. He had just started Aneros a year earlier and was making outstanding progress; he was having super o’s, but was having trouble with focus. His mind kept drifting off in the throes of ecstatic orgasms. As his thoughts drifted his O’s withered. We chatted about that problem ending in our first chat with me offering a variety of ideas how to manage it. That first chat was followed by many others. Over the course of the six months that followed we began to interact in another IM tool out of the forums here.
Rewiring and Awakening
We all talk of rewiring as a milestone, and it is but there is more than rewiring in this journey I am on. I believe that there is another milestone that follows rewiring, that milestone I call sexual awakening. Following awakening there is an ongoing process of discovery and evolution in which the true nature of my sexuality and sexual response is revealed to me. Being a research kind of guy, I have spent the last ten years reading the forums and blogs with my perception in mind and I believe I am just recognizing a process we all are experiencing. Our posts reinforce my thought.
Rewiring for me (one year into Aneros) sensitized my brain to sexual pleasure, connected my brain to my sexual pleasure organs, it introduced me to sexual pleasure organs I didn’t know I had and it altered my sensory and perceptive ability. With that under my belt the next 7 years were spent in a learning process; reading, experimenting, testing myself, writing and talking with peers. That 7 year time span was an evolutionary process that culminated in year nine with my awakening.
Awakening for me was acknowledgement of my sexuality in all its dimensions. Awakening gave me the courage to exercise my sexual proclivities that I uncovered in the seven years prior. Beyond the discovery of new and unexpected dimensions to my sexuality, awakening removed the subconscious stigma I had imposed on myself for aspects of my sexuality I was either ashamed of or afraid to admit or acknowledge. I know now that I feared the ramifications of admitting them to myself. My attraction to cocks and sex with men is one of these proclivities and my exhibitionist tendencies is another.