Author: gnawdol

On Getting My Man Pussy

This nine year watershed was very significant for me in this journey for many – many reasons. That is why it is getting this recognition in the narrative. Nine years was a defining period in the trajectory of my sexuality. Aneros and MMO bent the arc of my sexuality in a manner that made it almost unrecognizable from what it once was. Sexuality and male sexual response is a complex part of my humanity; it is biophysical and it is psychological. The two are inextricably interwoven. In plain terms that means that my sexuality is a dance of my mind and my body, carefully choreographed by external factors. Aneros has been a huge external factor for me.

I am a man, obviously I have a penis. In sexual activity my penis gets erect so it can be proactive and thrust in fucking. In sexual practice for me over the 40 years of my active sex life that translates to me being the active agent. I drove the love making. In plain terms, my cock is designed to harden so it can penetrate her vagina and with thrusting create sensations that triggers my body to pump semen into her vagina. We did that hundreds and hundreds of times. That biological urgency creates in my mind a psychological dimension to match the biological function. I have to be proactive and cause pleasure by my conscious actions. I thrust my pelvis penetrating her vagina; it felt good. Fucking her turned me on and made me ejaculate; me thrusting and fucking her gave her pleasure in the process. My conscious actions and the pleasure I cause results in ejaculation and her orgasm. Read more »

I Get Help With a Personal Problem

One of the benefits of spending so much time on the road for work was that it required between 8-10 room nights in hotels every month, this allowed me to have frequent sessions in private. As a result in 2013, in a given week on the road I would do at least two Aneros sessions, a fair amount of sexting and some camming. To say my libido was on overdrive at the end of a week like that was an understatement. As you all know, an Aneros session leaves you hornier than a he goat.

It was in May of 2013 that I was in Washington DC for a week. Needless to say the warm weather, girl watching on the hill and a night at a gentlemen’s club as well as my normal activities on the road mentioned above left me with an erection on friday that was really hard to subdue. One of the challenges of my expanded libido at the 9 year mark was the reality that I found self masturbation to be minimally pleasurable and very unsatisfying; so although I had a wooden erection that friday morning I woke I didn’t even bother to tug one off.

Setting out on the road north, I saw a number of massage parlor billboards along the road. The first one I saw piqued my interest and got me to thinking. By the time lunch time hit I was near one of the establishments advertised. Exiting the highway I figured I would grab lunch and cruise by the place to scope it out. I grabbed some fast food and followed the directions the billboard gave me. Read more »

Year Nine Milestones, Plateaus and Pinacles

The MMO journey I have been on started in 2005. Along the way there have been so many milestones and experiences, they would be impossible to remember if it were not for the fact that I recorded them in an on line journal I began in 2011. Each milestone or event has been a building block that created a foundation for the sexual rapture I routinely experience now. The building and learning process was precipitous those first few years. Because I was learning and experiencing so much there were literally hundreds of sensations, techniques and changes in my sexual response in the first 9 years. Some of these I have shared here in this forum, but I am sure that if I were to try to relate them all it would be impossible.

However, year nine was special. I reached a plateau or a pinnacle in my 9th year in 2013. It was a watershed year that solidified MMO and anal pleasure in my sex life. There were several skills – achievements that I will relate here in this entry; there were also some major event – milestones that deserve detailed descriptions. I will focus this entry on the skills and achievements and the next several entries on the numerous remarkable sexual events of 2013. Read more »

The Menagerie Grows and Declines as I Discover Who My Best Friends Are

I was doing a lot of work in New York City in my 8th year. The City offered a variety of stores to purchase sex toys in. The variety of implements I saw in various shops extended from politically acceptable marital aids to somewhat shockingly kinky devices to execute acts that both shocked me yet still caused me to get an erection.

A favorite store I frequented was “The Pleasure Chest”. It became a favorite for a multitude of reasons but the two most significant were they had a large variety of quality products, and minimal cheap breakable imports. The other was the sales people. They were edgy young women who were extremely comfortable talking about the products, and they were equally comfortable talking about my penis and anus and the the nature and charaxcter of the way they might respond to the devices. They also seemed to have used them enough or witness their use enough to describe to me how to use them; this included shaping their fingers of one hand in a circle and then using a finger of another hand to represent a toy or a finger being inserted into the digital representation of my anus. I always walked out of that store with an erection and wet underpants.

Over the course of my 8th and 9th year of Anerosing my toolkit grew to 16 devices. They filled a backpack that I took with me when I traveled. In the mix was six Aneros, five N Joys, two Lelos, a stainless steel Chinese stimulator the size of a pencil with a “marble ” sized head and two dildoes (one glass and another hardened latex). Read more »

My Eighth Year and the Trinity

Once I crossed the “sexual line” with a guy midyear in year seven, the rest of that year just disappeared into the abyss of forgotten events and experiences. That event overshadowed everything else that might have happened. I can’t recall much. I know I did sessions every time I traveled, which was two times per month. I was gone three – four days for each trip. That translates to somewhere between 40 – 60 sessions per year but honestly I don’t remember any of them. By that time Aneros orgasms were a sweet and savored part of my life, but they had become as routine as sex. Some were great I am sure and some probably weren’t . None the less I continued to learn and savor the euphoric rewards my body was giving me.

In January, the start of my eighth year I reached a significant milestone, that was launching my A Less sessions in my wife’s derriere; this is something that I still do to this day. It happened one night when she was wearing a tee shirt and no panties to bed leaving her bare rear exposed. We happened to be spooning at 4 AM, my “witching hour” for MMO. My morning erection happened to slip into the warm caress of her bottom. Spontaneously unbidden the MMO just started. She was sleeping and I was lodged in her crack as tortuous pleasure made my cock root pulse and impaled my anus. These A Less sensations were subtle but strong, stronger than any other A Less orgasms I had had at that point. Key was laying still and not jumping around or twitching and waking her. Read more »

It’s Complicated

My first Aneros arrived fourteen years ago this week. I remember it well. I was like a kid on Christmas Eve, waiting anxiously. I had been lurking in the forums (which was all we had here at the time, there was no chat yet). I asked questions occasionally but mainly I read in wonderment until I got brave enough to mail for my MGX.

The seven year mark was a very easy milestone to remember as well as it was the year that I exercised my post rewiring curiosity about M- M sex. As this post says , it was complicated. I have posted this narrative once before on my last blog and I was not sure if I was going to post it again, but it was such a milestone in my Aneros Journey, the story is incomplete without including it. I post it also for all the “curious” guys in the forum who wonder themselves.

In my post rewiring world the sexual man that I was was bent in an arc that surprised me beyond my wildest dreams. In my adolescence I would purchase nudist magazines in Times Square in the “dirty magazine” shops to see both men and women nude. I always had a fascination with nudity of both sexes. Post rewiring this inclination amplified tenfold. Beyond my voyeuristic tendencies rewiring expanded my own exhibitionistic tendencies. My sexual bravado had evolved exponentially. When I joined here that January, Artform told me about Dicknet; he was a member. Dicknet was a forum for guys to share intimate pictures and chat about their sexual proclivities in a chat room and in personal messages. Art and I spent many hours chatting there about many personal things beyond our cocks and sex. Read more »

The Beat Goes On

So looking back to my 7th year of Aneros practice, I can say Aneros made me into a new man. In January 2012, I was 59 years old with the sex drive I had at 30, but I was wiser, more self aware and more patient. When I say I was a new man, my outlook on sex and sexual pleasure had become very open and enlightened. I can objectively say I was made to be a more sensual man. My outlook on life and sexual pleasure became more Zen like. Although my home life was very conventional my career was always just a little outside the box; Aneros made my sex life a little outside the box just as my career was. I really had a more laid back attitude towards success and traditional achievement than my peers and I had a deeper more convoluted attitude towards sex than my friends and acquaintances. I came to enjoy life and my sex life as a result of my shifted mental state.

As for sex, in my seventh year I took the leap to explore male – male sexual exploration with a very safe guy I met on line in a very safe forum. We met once. Like me he was a married – curious guy, but he was 20 years younger than I. It was both our first times. We spent a weekend together in a hotel. That will be another entry. Read more »

Sixth Year Milestone

In the summer of my sixth year, mid way to my seventh year of Aneros the nature of my need for sexual pleasure and my response to arousal had shifted totally as a result of rewiring. Arousing images and fantasies still coaxed my penis to erection but at the same time a sexy woman or male penis porn or an erotic dream or writing my erotica would make my anus tingle and twinge and make my nipples erect.

However as much as rewiring bent my sexuality in an arc that I never would have predicted it also enhanced my sex practices and expanded my existing desires and proclivities.

My sex life began in reality when I was 19; from that date on it was focused solely on penis in vagina sex and masturbation. When I met my wife and we became intimate my prurient focus added oral sex on her. For both of us the most intense and pleasurable orgasms we both have occur during oral sex, whether it is me on her or her on me or in 69. Aside from rewiring and my orgasms I absolutely love my wife’s pussy. Licking her slot, suckling her clit or massaging her G spot with a finger it’s all good for me. Likewise I love to be sucked; the visual turn on is a huge influence on my orgasm and ejaculation. Fucking has been and still is a way for me to feel close to my wife. Like many women she loves it because she loves the fullness that penetration with my large penis provides. She loves the lurching tug of my shaft inside her and the swelling contracting action of my cock head that accompanies pumping of my ejaculate inside her. Having her juice my penis as I embrace her provides a visceral bond that is not available through any other means. Read more »

Rewiring A New Mindset and a Great Sex Position

I mentioned in an earlier post that the impact of rewiring on me has been too much to contain in one post. So I will insert posts every now and then that illuminate the magic that has occurred in my mind and body that is rewiring. Here is one of those posts.

As I mentioned in an earlier post sex for me was a penis focused activity until Aneros. With this penis focused orientation comes the physical – gender based imperative to be proactive when I fucked. It goes to reason that men have cocks, an organ designed to penetrate and women have cunts an organ designed to receive a cock. That imperative calls on a man to be the assertive protagonist in sex; women get fucked, men do the fucking. It is thrusting and probing and grinding and digital massage of clits and a lot more.

As a man I was programmed by this imperative to penetrate my wife with my cock and thrust in her cunt creating pleasurable feelings in my cock until those feelings reached a crescendo that caused me to ejaculate. That was sex for me. For her it involved a lot of oral enhancement to her clit before penetration to warm her up for orgasm. Like many women she has a longer fuse than I do. Read more »

5 Years In

As I entered my fifth year of Aneros use, I was a totally rewired man. My cock focused sexuality was now whole body focused. Anal – non ejaculatory orgasms became my primary source of sexual pleasure. Given a choice I preferred anal induced MMO to ejaculation. I have always loved cunnilingus, but now making oral love to my wife became a fixation. I was addicted to pleasuring her with my mouth. I developed a craving for the taste of her grool. A prolonged session of foreplay and having her participate in my Aneros insertion juiced her vagina and made the sap of her passion run from her pussy mouth.

Rewiring also amplified my exhibitionistic tendencies and my sense of sexual adventure. In daily life I loved showing my package off; wearing clingy pants and a “banana hammock” displayed the bulge in my pants unashamedly. I loved seeing girls looking at it. It needs to be noted that I am a hard person not to notice. I am 6 foot 6 inches tall and a lean muscular 220 lbs. I have a shaved head and a thick mustache. My 8.5 inch penis in a pouch that thrusts it out is hard to miss on me. Read more »