In February 2017 I will be seeking for Something for 5 years, beginning in 2012. I still didn’t achieve meaningful satisfaction from Aneros, but first let’s explain my journey and after all I need to introduce myself.
I’m currently 29 years old. In some ways I think I’m special – for good and unfortunately for bad the most.
Unlike the vast majority of men I never felt any sexual or emotional attraction to anyone, male or female. In a very small amount I feel some men porn and/or fantasies as exciting. I say a very small amount because in no way I experience any meaningful sexual attraction.
I am sexually insecure. I never got an erection for being excited. My erections don’t last long without stimulation. I have premature ejaculation as with stimulation it only takes seconds to reach the orgasm.
With all this I feel inferior, I feel I am not who I’m supposed to be. I feel I’m not a “man”. This pains be deeply and is a profound pain that I have that goes on and I don’t see its end.
Despite my sexual unperformance, I felt like trying and having sex with men, to see what could come from that.
The answer was the same emotionless sexual response I have. I’ve been with some men (you can say like 10 times in 10 years, so see how rare that is), not many, and I’ve been confortable with most of them. In all cases I felt no attraction whatsoever for the other man, sexuallly or emotionally. It’s very frustrating when you’re trying something and you get nothing in return.