The Search for Something Meaningful

In February 2017 I will be seeking for Something for 5 years, beginning in 2012. I still didn’t achieve meaningful satisfaction from Aneros, but first let’s explain my journey and after all I need to introduce myself.

I’m currently 29 years old. In some ways I think I’m special – for good and unfortunately for bad the most.

Unlike the vast majority of men I never felt any sexual or emotional attraction to anyone, male or female. In a very small amount I feel some men porn and/or fantasies as exciting. I say a very small amount because in no way I experience any meaningful sexual attraction.
I am sexually insecure. I never got an erection for being excited. My erections don’t last long without stimulation. I have premature ejaculation as with stimulation it only takes seconds to reach the orgasm.
With all this I feel inferior, I feel I am not who I’m supposed to be. I feel I’m not a “man”. This pains be deeply and is a profound pain that I have that goes on and I don’t see its end.

Despite my sexual unperformance, I felt like trying and having sex with men, to see what could come from that.
The answer was the same emotionless sexual response I have. I’ve been with some men (you can say like 10 times in 10 years, so see how rare that is), not many, and I’ve been confortable with most of them. In all cases I felt no attraction whatsoever for the other man, sexuallly or emotionally. It’s very frustrating when you’re trying something and you get nothing in return.

Friday & Saturday morning sessions, “Average?” : But wow! What Aless!

Hi guys,

I hungered for an Aneros session early this morningand so did my body. Once again I slept just a few hours last night, coming fully awake at 1 a.m. this morning. Once again I let the hours pass by by listening to programs on my small walk man radio, news programs from the BBC and religious programs of an Evangelical nature from WAVA just outside DC in Arlington VA. Sometimes I have to shut the cacophony of bad news and the earnest jangle of preachers out my mind! No so this morning.

So finally just after 5:30 a.m., I had an hour’s session with MGX and Progasm Classic. Both Aneros tools were not the Energizer Bunnies this morning as they were previous sessions in the breakthrough week. But they rode me well and I rode them well too. How? Through calm rhythmic breathing, focusing on their slow “f**k” motion within me with a periodic gentle Kegel thrown in. The “do-nothing” approach is focus and attention upon how they do me and in “communion” I have with the Aneros tools used.

I still prefer using a smaller Aneros tool such as Eupho Classic, MGX, Helix Classic, or Maximus to begin a session to prep my bunghole for the big bruiser Progasm. I think it is still better that way.

Best brand for public use?

So my (f)iance and I (m) are looking for toys to wear and use on each other. We really want ones that have either remotes or controlled by our phones so we can have control over each other when we go out to the bar with friends or on a date. We decided to get her the wevibe 4+ since it can also be used together in bed. As for the prostate massager we don’t know what to get. It’s between the nexus revo stealth, the lelos Hugo, or an aneros without a remote control. Which would be more comfortable to wear for a couple of hours while sitting down eating dinner or at the bar with friends and which one has the best battery life?

To do or not to do, that is the question.

So, what should I do? Should I contract and relax the muscles? Should I mantain certain degree of contraction? Should I do nothing and wait?
So far, I’ve tried the contract-relax and the mantain-contract (I have to say that maybe I’m not “doing nothing” enough time, which might be the problem). It feels good, but no great pleasure so far.
Also, I would like you to tell me what are these: when I hold the contraction at a certain level, my sphincter (I think) like has involuntaries? I don’t know, it’s like the aneros is trembling into my ass. It’s pleasurable, but I find it hard to find the level of contraction and to mantain it. So, what are those and what do they lead to?
Thanks in advance 😀

Started with Vice, which model to get now?

I got the Aneros vice cause I wanted the vibration, it feels great but since I am a beginner to Aneros (not anal play I have experience with the nJoy pure wand, etc) I feel like I should have started with a beginner model because the Aneros devices require more learning than any other prostate device.

So I basically want to know which model I should downgrade too in order to learn the necessary contractions that I can’t do with the Vice due to its size there is barely any movement when contracting. Also, the Vice is meant for pros and when it comes to Aneros I am not a pro because the Vice is the only one I’ve used.

Which model is best for direct prostate contact and an inevitable rocking motion from the contractions?

TL;DR-(The rocking motion caused by contraction is what Aneros designed their devices to do and I’m not getting enough of it from the Vice due to its size and it being my only Aneros device).

Wednesday morning session,

Hi guys,

I get horny now as I think of my sessions these days, such as the one I had just before sunrise this morning. With the fall equinox arriving in a couple days, the sun rises these days around 7 a.m.

The session lasted about an hour which concluded about 6:30 a.m. I listened to NPR Morning Edition for about 20 minutes, but got depressed at the news. So I proceeded at once to my session in order with Maximus, MGX, and Progasm Classic which began near 5:30 a.m.

I began with Maximus, and wow, what pulsating pleasure with him! Maximus went to town with me in his more discrete, yet manly way. I let him massage my anal tract/musculature and prostate in his own way, and wow, what surging pleasure! This went on for a good twenty minutes. I followed up with MGX which was more subdued this time and not like the wild action I had with this model early last Saturday afternoon, but still very solid and good.

Likewise, I ended the session with Progasm Classic which was more subdued than that breakthrough, stellar performance he delivered very early Friday morning! I can work with these three models using the do-nothing technique, and just let them be the Energizer Bunnies they are meant to be. Just “communing” with my Aneros tools and focusing in their subtle action actually produces intense pleasure that is absolutely heavenly!

Holy shit. Holy. Shit.

Ok, so I’ve been trying to use my Aneros more lately. It’s tricky, being married with two kids, to find time to set aside an hour or so to just lay down, relax, and enjoy myself. I’m also trying to balance hobbies and such, and some evenings I quite simply have to choose between hobbies and aneros time. And I value my hobbies, so the Aneros is only getting love once a week, at most.

However, last night I decided to indulge. Kids went to bed, the wife was watching her dumb shows, and I went to lay down. And it was the best session I had experienced. I’m still getting mostly just P-waves, but it’s amazing how sticking with it has you make some progress, little by little. And I was laying down for about 2 hours, and finally I had to get up. Whew. It was amazing.

Until today.

You see, at work I got a little frisky thinking of my progasm. So I made some flimsy excuse about going home for lunch for errands, and I drove home for lunch (10 minute commute FTW). I got home and it was quiet. I laid down, carefully slipped it in, and put on my headphones with a binaural beat youtube video “designed” for prostate stimulation.

Yes, I realize that binaural beats are, basically, total bullshit, but the noise DOES help me block out outside noises and concentrate on the fun. So they might not sync up my tantric energy, or something else about universe energy, but they help in some way.

Monday morning session: “Really into you!” : September 19

Washington DC weather is one of extremes. We have had several months of relentless heatwaves, but hardly any rain. Recent weeks we have had drought conditions. So today we are having a rainy day for a change with very high humidity. Even the keys of my PC keyboard are laden with yucky moisture!

Also I had mostly a sleepless Saturday night/Sunday morning, so church was a huge drag. I finally arrived home at 3:30 p.m. exhausted, but managed to hang on until I went to bed just after 10 p.m., my usual time. I craved rest and slept like a log until just after 7 this morning, very unusual. I rise usually between 5:30 and 6:30 a.m. I laid in bed this morning and listened to the radio until just after 7:30 a.m. I had serious Aless and really wanted a session.

The session lasted about 1.5 hours with the following models: Progasm Ivory, MGX, Maximus, Progasm ICE.

Since my breakthrough last Friday morning with Super-O’s and MMO’s, I am “really into” my Aneros tools. “Really into someone” is an expression of developing intimacy in a couple that leads to sex usually, but most so intimacy that leads to communion of souls. It seems that I am really getting to know my Aneros tools and they are getting to know me. Such knowledge leads to intense, sweet pleasure which leads ultimately to Super-O’s, MMO’s, and even beyond!

Edging-less Progress

It’s been almost two weeks since I completely stopped my edging and masturbating sessions in favor of concentrating on rewiring and prostate awakening.  Since then, I have had 3 Aneros sessions and daily Aless sessions, to the point of being constant.

I must say that my sessions and Aless have all been far superior to what I was experiencing before.  My brain is now focussing on my prostate and not on my genitals.  I can maneuver my massager (H-Syn and P-Ice) far better.

I’ve not given up on bate/edging altogether but for now, I’m appreciating my progress. I must admit, I’m horny as heck but I will try to continue on my path.

It’s amazing how each one of us is different in every aspect except one; we enjoy what our journey is giving us no matter at what level we are.

First SuperO – They do exist’!

Last night I went to bed with my Progasm inserted (as usual), I did my exercises and pulled the device into me and relaxed. I had some wonderful mini O’s and I rolled over to my left side and lightly dosed off. I woke up with the Progasm tightening inside me and an aren’t penis. This has happened before so I was not surprised, but then this wave, bigger than ever before came up from my feet, moving rapidly up my legs towards my backside, It was a huge wave, like nothing before, then I felt this massive pleasure building in my groin and the pleasure past all through my body. It was absolutely orgasmic, like I was cuming and cuming – it went on for probably 10 minutes. The intense feeling just before you cum, went on and on and on. The glans on the tip of my penis were huge, they swelled up.

Whilst I was in it and enjoying it, it was like I was in some mystical plane with warm lights everywhere. I know it sounds strange but while I was experience this pleasure, my mind was also experiencing a higher plane on consciousness that was very relaxing.

When I first started to experience progress with my Aneros, (only three weeks ago), I wondered if the little Mini O experiences were the best it was going to get. I thought perhaps people are exaggerating about the SuperO, maybe I had already had them. But NO, there is so much more – What I experienced last night was absolutely worth the hard work so far. You know you have had a SuperO