Suspended Between a Man and a Woman and Reality and Fantasy

The well spring of my sexual response flows both from the depths of my aroused mind, from deep in my anal canal and under the base of my cock inside my groin; the desire that inspires those responses is a result of real time visions, recalled images, personal intimate memories and imagined fantasies. My desire and response are fickle. Orgasm may choose many different paths as it exerts its power over my body. The mental images may be a memory of a friends erect penis in my mouth or J’s sodden – hot vagina sheathing my own cock and sucking it lasciviously or it may be of my cockhead rubbing against a cockhead, oozing my precum on him as I straddle him and hump him to ejaculation. In the peak of MMO it is often the image of me frotting a guys cock until we both ejaculate on each other that inflames my MMOs to incendiary levels. All of these images will indeed cloak my mind in eros, stiffen my cock and make my anus twitch hungrily.

In the tempest of MMO I often fantasize about the extreme possibilities such as being vulgarly penetrated by a long hard cock; as orgasmic rapture clouds my mind I imagine I am being fucked by a handsome younger man. My mind is often filled with all kinds of lascivious thoughts as my prostate pulses and my anus flexes in anguished euphoria. The paths my sexual ecstasy chooses to expresses itself inside me is one of the wonders of my sexuality. Each sexual journey is a mysterious event that leaves me wondering when I will settle down and be “normal”.

ED “Cure” With Peridise?

I have "suffered" with ED for a while now, since my college days. I found that I just could not "hold" an erection for very long. It became very embarrassing. When I had a "hot" date, following a nice dinner, for example, when the opportunity presented itself, and I found myself in an intimate situation with the girl, I just couldn't get hard enough to satisfy her. I couldn't even get hard enough for a handjob! That usually was the end of the date and I resigned to the fact that my body was "different" than other males who could get it up and keep it up until the point of ejaculation. I was not so fortunate.

I had tried Viagra once but found that it was not working well for me. It also had some side effects that I would rather not endure again.

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I was intrigued by an ad I saw in a local newspaper advertising a "new" treatment and possible "cure" for ED! I copied down the phone number and the following day, decided to give them a call.

The person who answered the phone was very nice and asked me a few "personal" questions about my ED and my sexual habits and told me that, yes, it sounded like I would be a good "candidate" for this "new" treatment option which involved no drugs. I was intrigued and very encouraged.

I Love My Helix!

Even though it was only one day since my ride on Pro Jr and Peridise (Small), I just felt "ready" for another ride. I selected the Helix since I have had some great rides with it.

I got myself ready, lubed-up and was ready to ride.

I am writing this not in real time but the following morning, so some of the details may be a bit "sketchy". I'll try my best to remember. This ride had several "firsts" as I will explain……

First off, I decided to "time" my contractions by my breathing. As I took a deep breath, I wanted to feel it in my abdomen as well. When I did this, I increased the contraction ever so slightly. Upon releasing the breath, I released the contraction as well.

All was going fine and this continued for, I believe, 20 minutes or so. I felt very relaxed.

However, this relaxed state was punctuated at times by a sharp abdominal spasm which "jolted" me and the helix. At the same time, my breath became more of an exclamation point and was anything but regular! Wow! I did not expect this so early in the ride.

I tried to resume my "normal" breathing technique. What happened next? I felt the helix literally go into "auto-fuck" mode. My breathing became anything but regular. I felt more extreme P-waves which continued to build. I recognized the feeling and I know I was building to a dry orgasm.

Peridise Torture Chamber

This was one hell of a SCARY ride! If you don't want the details, I suggest not reading any further. But if you do, here goes….I hope I can get through this…..

I found myself in a prison. I don't know what I did to deserve this but I was taken into a "cell" which was soundproofed. There was an ordinary-looking table in the middle of the room. There was no "window" on the door.

I was led into the room and stripped of all my clothes. I was put up on the table, face down. My hands were tied in front of my body and my feet were tied. I was blindfolded. I believe there was a small pillow for my head but nothing else.

Since I was face-down and could not see, I did not know who or what was coming next. I heard some talking but I didn't understand the language. I then felt a strange sensation from my anus and it almost felt like I was "receiving" a large suppository. I didn't know what it was. Could it be a poisonous enema? Or a poisonous suppository? How long would I survive this? I started to shiver at the prospects of what was to come……

I heard those in the room leave and they closed the door with a SLAM! I was all alone on the table in the room.

Oh My! What A “Do-Nothing” Ride!

Oh My! Where to start? I found myself alone in the house for at least two hours so I "planned ahead" for an uninterrupted "ride" on Progasm Jr. I had not really used it much to-date since I usually felt that it "filled me up" a little too much. Tonight was different.

I decided in advance that I would make this session a "do-nothing" session and I just planned to relax with Progasm Jr. nicely snuggled in my you-know-what. I lubed up nicely and took my time with insertion. It is a little more difficult than the helix or eupho. Once in, I just turned over on my stomach and relaxed for about 15 to 20 minutes.

Very relaxing so far…..and I got an almost immediate erection with precum. Not a bad feeling!

But then, something happened to disturb this peaceful ride…..

I began to auto-contract ever so slightly. I could feel the Pro Jr. very slightly "tickling" my prostate with P-waves and I could even feel it with every pulse.

Every now and then, also, I began to experience a powerful abdominal spasm. Oh yeah, the moaning, THE MOANING seemed to be non-stop during this ride. Since I was alone in the house (except for the dogs) I didn't have to muffle my moans and I didn't. The moans became so loud at times that I believe that they actually helped increase the auto-contractions.

A Hot Peridise Fantasy

I'm a newlywed and have only been married for four months. I had my first overnight business trip and really didn't want to be away from my sweetheart. I know I will be missing her in a lonely hotel bed. I want so much to be close to her body tonight, feel her silky smooth skin next to mine, feel myself hardening up for her…..

I had a good flight and began unpacking at the hotel. I was getting my clothes out to hang up when I found something surprising in my suitcase which my wife had packed. It appeared to be an Aneros "Peridise" and a tube of lubricant gel. Attached was this note:

"Hello dear, I thought you might try this out tonight and think about me waiting for you tomorrow night, luv u."

After my meetings during the day, I returned to my hotel, and after dinner, took a nice hot shower, and very relaxed, got undressed and hopped into bed. I got ready for this Peridise "adventure" and, since I had not experienced it before, I was eagerly anticipating the pleasure I could receive from it.

I took off my clothes and neatly folded them. I took out the Peridise, opened up the lube gel and with my finger, put a generous amount of lube in my anus and on the Peridise. I turned off the lights in the room, climbed into bed, got on my side and slowly inserted it. Ohhh! It just slid in and felt so good…..

Some basic info and some sexy thoughts

I’ve thought about starting a blog so many times. This incredible family of devices has taken up so much of my thought and effort in the past four years. There is so much to say.

First, some basic info about me and my style of play.

Late 30s. Northeast USA. Happily married. Heteroamorous but newly cock curious (you can read my forum posts to find out more about that).

Routine =

Coconut oil.

Nest. Must create a restful, comfortable environment. Mostly clear mattress. Lots of pillow props and – this is really useful – a heating pad!

Position. Lie on back. Legs out a bit, sometimes splayed. Like to put either left or right leg up on a pillow.

Prelube (coconut oil) and insertion. The smaller models are best for me. I own all, but mgx and ProJr have the best effects.

Do nothing technique. Complete and utter relaxation is necessary. Any hint of contraction kills all sensation. It has to build naturally.

Wait and Enjoy. Then just wait patiently for forty-five minutes and let the sensations build. The best part is that I let my mind go and I hallucinate the craziest things. Sometimes its images and sometimes even sensations or memories or smells.

When it’s happening it’s like I fall into a realm of pure sex. Every fantasy I ever had or could have comes to life. Sometimes I experience it first hand and sometimes I can almost see myself in the midst of the action.

“A Wild Eupho Ride”

I thought I would try Progasm Jr for this ride. I lubed-up and inserted it very slowly. However, It became clear that I could not "retain" it (probably due to a "full" upper rectum). So, since I was already nicely "lubed", I went for the Eupho. Here is the ride……..

The Eupho went in very easily (I had extra lube in me from Progasm Jr) and I began to immediately feel very light "tickling" P-waves and something stronger right away. I had some light moaning as well. I continued with the light contractions for perhaps 45 minutes when I felt an orgasm beginning to build (probably just a Dry-O I thought). This seemed too easy with the Eupho and only light contractions. Much to my surprise, it was a Super-O that lasted, I believe, a full 20 MINUTES!

This Super-O began like a recent one, with some involuntary whole-body "shakes" which seemed to come over me "sequentially". These were followed and "intertwined" with whole-body convulsions, also sequential to start. Once I began these, there was no letup FOR A FULL 20 MINUTES! I literally was shaking, twisting and moaning all at the same time. The anal contractions, I believe, became automatic and they went on with the shaking and twisting for the duration of this orgasm. Several times during this orgasm, I distinctly felt my penis erecting hard.

IT WOULD NOT END, AND I DIDN'T KNOW HOW LONG IT WOULD LAST……

An Extended Super-O Session

I'll start this "ride" at the END…….and make my way back to the BEGINNING…….

I was awakened about three hours "later" with a severely "buzzing" prostate, a rock-hard erection (and balls too) and was moaning already. I had just experienced a most-powerful prostate spasm resulting in some precum and some whole-body involvement. I felt the scrotum and it was VERY sensitive already!

I'm sitting here and prostate is again severely "buzzing" (I seem to be doing "automatic" anal contractions) and the prostate is again going into spasm. The prostate is still "pumping". I'm going to "jump ahead" to the BEGINNING now………

I selected the Helix for this ride because I have had the most direct stimulation of the prostate with it. This time was no different.

Let me explain………

I knew this "ride" would be great because almost immediately upon insertion of the helix, it "greeted" me with an immediate rock-hard erection (balls included) and I began MOANING right away! (Moaning in these sessions had been generally rare for me until the most recent sessions).

Upon very light contractions at first, I began to quickly progress to P-waves, then an occasional Dry-O. I was MOANING throughout and this time, my moans were getting so severe that I had to physically "muffle" them in my pillow. I considered SCREAMING (the pleasure was that severe) but obviously would wake up the household in the middle of the night.

A Peridise Fantasy

I found myself in need of some money, so I checked out a local sperm bank to see what I could do to quickly pick up a few bucks. The receptionist was very nice and took some information from me, including my age, my weight and my approximate frequency of ejaculations (I thought this was a bit strange) and then looked over my "application" and said that I am "qualified" to donate today. She game me a large clear plastic "tube" with a cover and told me to go to one of the "numbered" rooms nearby (I believe it was #3) and lock the door. Inside, it was very comfortable with a "table" covered in a nice white material and a fluffy pillow, almost like a "bed". The lighting was very low and relaxing.

I thought that I would be able to masturbate quickly, collecting my semen in the "tube", get my money and be on my way. However, that was not the way things worked in this particular sperm bank.

The "aid" who came to visit me said that they have found that by additional sexual "stimulation" of the anal canal, they can obtain a much "better" sample of semen for the bank. Thus, they will use this technique out on me today. She asked me if I was okay with this and I said sure, why not (I needed the money). She asked me to take off my pants and my underwear, and my shirt and climb-up on the "table" and lay on my left side.