Tag: Relaxation

4th session

I decided to try and focus on not touching my penis with the Aneros inserted. I relaxed and tried to concentrate on my breathing and feelings I was having. I got a couple of slight waves and my sphincter started twitching a bit, but eventually I fell asleep for around 40 minutes. After I woke up I started getting slight involuntary contractions, and I couldn't hold off any longer and began squeezing my penis rhythmically, which in turn caused my anus and prostate to flex and throb each time I squeezed it. I then tried relaxing some more, and found that when I was sexually excited that the Aneros did a better job of stimulating me. Eventually I ejaculated by masturbating more and just lay there for awhile more trying to concentrate on feelings I was having, and got a few more slight waves and contractions. I needed to get some more sleep, so I removed the device.

Overall I think it was a good session, and that I am getting closer to where I want to be with each session.

3rd Session

I woke up at 4 in the morning with a great urge to use the Aneros, so I inserted some lube and the Helix, and lay down on the couch. The couch gave me a better opportunity for propping my legs up when laying on either side, and I tried a number of positions. I concentrated on my deep breathing and not contracting or touching my penis during the session. It felt really good, but not enough to keep me awake, so I fell asleep. I woke up a couple of hours later and shifted positions, and started to feel as if a much needed itch was being scratched inside of me. I tried doing the deep breathing exercises again, and I had the great urge to squeeze my penis, as mentioned in my first blog post. I started doing that and my Aneros started massaging me with each squeeze. I did that for awhile and then lay there trying to relax, but my body had other ideas in mind. I found myself involuntarily doing a humping action (I was laying on my back) and it started feeling extra good, and I couldn't resist starting to jerk off a bit. It felt really good, but the pleasure was not centered in my penis, but was instead centered on the area where the Aneros was rubbing. I got rock hard as I jerked off, but the pleasure stayed in the prostate/anus area, which is something I have never felt before when masturbating. I started bucking my hips as I continued to jerk, and the pleasure in my sphincter was increasing – again like someone was gently licking me there. As I was bucking I started feeling my legs and ass twitching out of control and then I felt the urge to cum, so I bucked even harder and when I shot my load the Aneros once again danced around a bit inside of me. Read more »

Aneros arrived! 1st session

I received my Aneros today, and when I opened the package I was immediately impressed with the product – it seems very sturdy and well-made. The instructions that were included seemed to be fairly skimpy, and am glad that I was able to get more info off of the Aneros site.

After reading many posts on the Aneros forum regarding the tail modification, I decide to remove the tail (which was harder to do than I thought it would be – the plastic is very sturdy) and then filed the area I cut with a very fine file, until it seemed smooth like the rest of the Helix.

I was anxious to try out the Aneros right then and there, but decided to wait until I had some uninterrupted time to myself. I took a shower, applied baby powder to my perineum and lubed my ass and the aneros with the only lube I had handy (astroglide), and inserted the Helix. It went in a lot easier than I thought it would, and the p-tab seemed to hit just the right spot. Read more »

ed's journey

well, this session was good–there was no dead time with no feelings–i prelubed with jelly and lubed the mgx with albolene–the tab had the 1/4 in hot glue and it was inside a ping pong ball–the feelings started almost immediately while i was on my back to relax–i think i have some good techniques now, that seem to be working–i found out today that when i fully relax and my legs start to tighten up or i have twitches shooting off all over them so i can't relax fully, i can slap or pat them on the upper part and the feelings will continue–the jiggling or slapping doesn't disturb the continuation of the buzzing or pulsating or whatever i'm experiencing– i used to wiggle my legs but the patting or slapping is better as it not only relieves the tension but also promotes the feelings–i can also lightly tickle my lower abdomen now to promote the feelings when i'm fully involved–the feelings are not self propelling yet but at least when they appear they do not go away because of what i do to relax further–for me, complete relaxation of the ass and legs is the key to starting and promoting any feelings in the prostate and balls, etc–

ed's journey

this session was informed by advice from tiphereth to my thread on lack of aneros movement–he said, and i believe, that the ass has to be completely relaxed for the involuntary movement to start, then when it does it should be answered with only the slightest contraction i am capable of–if too much contraction, then it stops–my problem is that when the aneros darts up my ass i can't respond moderately–my response contraction has always been violent–if i can tame down this response then i think i may keep the movement going–anyway it's good to know that what i suspected is true, namely, that the movement occurs without contraction and that it continues with a slight response contraction until it is self generating–so i practiced lying as relaxed as i could and replying as minimally with contractions after the involuntary movement, never stronger and never trying to lead them–i think this will pay off for me

ed's journey

added a little hot glue to the tab of my mgx, about 1/8 in, and put it inside a ping pong ball–got better response than without the glue but still seem to be stuck at the same place, namely when the feelings come i can't seem to relax any more to keep them going–it is very tantalizing when this occurs as it seems as though i could keep them going and get over the hump if i could stop tensing up a little with my legs–added another 1/8 inch of glue, i now have 1/4 inch on the tab–i wish i knew exactly where on the curved tab i should add it but i don't know what part of the tab contacts my body–is it simply the part of the tab opposite the stem or is it up the curve more because of the anatomy of the body there or the geometry of the tab pivoting in the rectum, thus contacting higher up the curve?–wish i knew

yesterday, 2 hrs after my session, i sat down to watch some tv and i got really pleasant echos from my workout–they were enjoyable and i was able to keep them going for about a minute or so–it felt like my prostate was engorging and pulsating Read more »

ed's journey

lubed up the mgx with k-y again and had another session–still progressing, but only slowly–had the pulses in my ass and some other feelings in lower abdomen–like the abdominal quaking cause i believe it signifies that some rewiring is taking place and will bear fruit in the future–maybe i'm still too directional and goal oriented and not laid back, even though i relax as much as i can–one thing different was that i took some contractions very hard and held them as long as i could instead of holding only very slight contractions–i held the contraction that buried the mgx up to the hilt and gave good contact on the p-tab

ed's journey

well, made the tab shorter and lower but it didn't change the results much–still only minimal feelings generated which don't lead anywhere-tried complete relaxation, holding slight and heavy contractions, breathing, different positions and other stuff–not advancing so far–will try to lay off tomorrow and start again the day after

ed's journey

tried my modified mgx again today and it still gets the heart rate and buzz going right away–haven't been able to keep the good feelings generated long enough to string anything out, no matter how much i try to relax–but i have noticed that whenever anything happens it always gets better or remains longer if i can relax my legs more than when it starts–i guess that i should start out with the contraction a bit higher so i will have some room to come down in intensity before i run out of room and hit the completely relaxed bottom, but it seems that i have to be totally relaxed for it even to begin–it seems too that my good feelings don't start out with those shaking involuntaries that i have read about, but are rather very slight, almost unnoticeable quivers, which i guess are involuntary–i still think i should play with my sweet spot location–wish i could find my hot glue gun so i wouldn't have to use the candle, whose soot makes everything black and i suspect, of less structural integrity

ed's journey

WOW!!–getting there finally!–started off session on my back with a small wadded towel under my belt line, albolene and swiss navy silicone on my mgx–no arousal–this time i pulled the p-tab up away from my ass to get it as high as i could, stuffed as much of my scrotum as i could under the tab and also buried it deep into my sweet spot–i did the rocking like going upstairs and then put my legs down on the bed, relaxed them as much as i could and held a very slight contraction–after relaxing and breathing very deeply way down in my abdomen, i started to feel twitches in my legs and a buzzing in my ass–this was finally it!–was able to keep it going long enough to get a different feeling around my ass and into my balls–very pleasant–kept it going for a few cycles–was mainly in my ass and balls, but every once in a while it sort of bounced up into my cock–it felt like my cock was filling and perking up, although i think it didn't really change much, it just felt like that a lot–lots of precum too–my ass would buzz and my balls would feel full, with a stroking feeling on my prostate, and then, bam, every once in a while the grip on the mgx would let go and it would bury itself deeply into my ass, but not continue stroking, just the repeat of the buzzing and stroking–now i know that the stroking is controlled by the contractions, but the contractions are controlled by the abdominal breathing, not by the muscles, as they are too gross a control, while the breathing is very fine–feel very confident now that i can continue progressing–finally stopped as i had to piss so bad, even though i had before i started this session Read more »